a living dance upon dead minds.

babedude @ 2004-08-04T21:22:00

2004-08-04T21:24:23Z

if you happen to see a new screen name on your "Friends of" list, that's probably me. if i haven't added you it's probably because i'm lazy. bye.

URGENTURGENTURGENT

2004-08-04T12:05:11Z

hey kids. i'm deleting this journal in a couple of days because i need a fresh new start. i've had this journal forever and it's time for me to move on and change my habits. if you want the new username, just let me know. i'll be adding some of you by default that i haven't talked to in awhile. also, if your name is molly and you're from texas, please text me at flomo@vtext.com from your email. thanks. bye.

TEXT ME FROM YOUR EMAIL AT FLOMO@VTEXT.COM!!!1! YAYY

2004-08-03T23:33:17Z

today i bought kerosene and i blew myself up. text me from your email to make me feel better.

babedude @ 2004-08-03T01:22:00

2004-08-03T01:27:08Z

I realize that following this week, as I finish up playing The Suffering, I will remain unsatisfied. Do you know why? Because everybody else will be playing Doom 3. Yes. I went to Dave's tonight and watched him bask in it's over-clocking, graphically overloading glory. Not to mention the monsters are freakin' awesome. Who else would have thought to put upside down skeleton heads on spiders? Alas, I do not own an Xbox or an actual desktop PC that could handle such marvel. Anyone out there want to let me borrow either gaming machine? I'll contribute a copy of Doom 3, yours to keep as soon as I'm finished.

Could you tell I just watched a Doom series documentary on Tech Tv?

babedude @ 2004-08-02T18:25:00

2004-08-02T18:26:41Z

They say you never forget your first love(s).
I still listen to NSYNC.

babedude @ 2004-08-01T23:12:00

2004-08-01T23:17:23Z

"...If anyone thinks that Christians regard unchastity as the supreme vice, he is quite wrong. The sins of the flesh are bad, but they are the least bad of all sins. All the worst pleasures are purely spiritual: the pleasure of putting other people in the wrong, of bossing and patronising and spoiling sport, and back-biting, the pleasures of power, of hatred...the Diabolical self is the worse...That is why a cold, self-righteous prig who goes regularly to church may be far nearer to hell than a prostitute..." - C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity, 103

I'm going to start going to church again & reading my bible. Haven't done it in awhile.

as reality sets in....cancun.

2004-08-01T21:51:25Z

I'm back & I've got hella pictures !! -- CLICK HERE FOR HOT PR0N -- !! (they're at geocities because Allie's FTP is sucking ass right now). Cancun was better the second time around, except I was a little perturbed that there wasn't room service like at the Sun Palace. Yes, I did drink alcohol. No, I did not get drunk. Yes, I smoked Cuban cigars. Yes, I enjoyed them. I am also a shade or two darker and I went swimming with the dolphins (again.) I also went "bar hopping" (I went on a tour of the most popular clubs downtown), which I will get into if you ask me because otherwise I don't feel like story telling. Basically, Dave & I left early because a) some drunk dipwad burned my arm with his cigarette, then wouldn't stop apologizing and rooting for the Dallas Cowboys (not that I have anything against them, it's just very annoying the 20th time around...) and b) well...I don't think I'm quite ready for the "night life" as you all like to call it, especially because Dave & I were sore from Waverunning (Jet Skiing, whatever) and horribly sun-burned. In conclusion, I wish I could've stayed a little longer, but alas, back to reality. Stupid, stupid, reality.

babedude @ 2004-07-26T21:21:00

2004-07-26T21:22:10Z

i'm going to cancun. bye.

babedude @ 2004-07-26T17:54:00

2004-07-26T17:55:36Z

You are an SEDL--Sober Emotional Destructive Leader. This makes you a dictator. You prefer to control situations, and lack of control makes you physically sick. You feel have responsibility for everyone's welfare, and that you will be blamed when things go wrong. Things do go wrong, and you take it harder than you should.

You rely on the validation and support of others, but you have a secret distrust for people and distaste for their habits and weaknesses that make you keep your distance from them. This makes you very difficult to be with romantically. Still, a level-headed peacemaker can keep you balanced.

Despite your fierce temper and general hot-bloodedness, you have a soft spot for animals and a surprising passion for the arts. Sometimes you would almost rather live by your wits in the wilderness somewhere, if you could bring your books and your sketchbook.

You also have a strange, undeniable sexiness to you. You may go insane.

every word in that sentance is 100% true. everything. wait, make that 90%, because I can't validate that last sentance, nor do i really enjoy sketchbooking.

babedude @ 2004-07-25T21:23:00

2004-07-25T23:47:13Z

tiring day at work.
talked to the manager at gamestop.
insert big smile

babedude @ 2004-07-25T12:43:00

2004-07-25T12:43:31Z

*The \\*
Last Cigarette:	last night
Last Alcoholic Drink:	never
Last Car Ride:	5 minutes ago
Last Kiss:	5 minutes ago
Last Good Cry:	a week ago
Last Library Book:	ibsen's "a doll's house"
Last book bought:	'till we have faces by c.s. lewis
Last Book Read:	see above.
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:	spiderman 2
Last Movie Rented:	cowboy bebop
Last Cuss Word Uttered:	damn
Last Beverage Drank:	chocolate milk
Last Food Consumed:	maple nut scone
Last Crush:	you
Last Phone Call:	dave
Last TV Show Watched:	nypd animal squad
Last Time Showered:	yesterday
Last Shoes Worn:	....april.
Last CD Played:	underoath
Last Item Bought:	shampoo
Last Download:	underoath
Last Annoyance:	little kids in sunday school, haha
Last Disappointment:	thunderstorms in cancun
Last Soda Drank:	yesterday
Last Thing Written:	yesterday
Last Key Used:	y
Last Words Spoken:	"i have to go to work in an hour"
Last Sleep:	last night
Last Ice Cream Eaten:	yesterday
Last Chair Sat In:	the one i'm in now
Last Webpage Visited:	livejournal.com
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babedude @ 2004-07-25T12:30:00

2004-07-25T12:33:20Z

where i'm staying.

i have one day left & i leave for cancun.
i hear it will be thunderstorming while we are there.
so i'm a little pissed and i wonder if that will ruin our fun.
i probably won't get a tan, either. :/
please pray for an enjoyable time.

going to church is really helping,
i didn't think it would, but it does.
ps - i don't hate dave's church anymore. :)
pss - but that doesn't mean I'm changing denominations just yet,
I've still got a lot to learn about the church I grew up in,
before i decide to switch.

i'm going to work now. ugh.

YOU AND I ARE ARE MORTAL, BUT ROCK & ROLL WILL NEVER DIE.

2004-07-23T10:44:59Z

Last night was one of the best concerts I have ever been to. Granted, Reel Big Fish's antics were similar to that of the DVD, but alas, I was enamoured. Beautiful, Beautiful!

Well, let me start by saying that being the only female in the group, I was perhaps the most practical in suggesting we leave at 4:30. Oh, but no. My darling David decided working on his chain mail for an extra 15 minutes would be more productive. And then we went to pick up Tyler, we made a stop at Longs Drugs, another one at McDonalds, and then we picked up Chris, and hit the rush hour traffic. We arrived an hour after the concert started and then spent an extra 15 minutes finding parking. Because of our ridiculous rendevous, we ended up missing Suburban Legends (who, thankfully, played for Jenoah) and part of Lucky Boys Confusion.

At least LBC played the songs I wanted. I heard "Sunday Morning" and "Hey Driver"...but they disappointed me by having their lead singer be the only participant in the accapela portion of the song. Afterwards we met up with Ryan & Kevin, and Catch 22 played. They have great charisma (& they ended up playing 9mm & a three piece suit), & then came RxBandits, who by the way were so stoned I wasn't surprised that they didn't do much crowd talking. After their set, a pick randomly flew at Dave's chest and I ended up keeping it. So, anyone want an RxBandits pick? ;)

And, well, there's no point in saying anything about Reel Big Fish, because you all know how freakin' awesome they are. I used the quality digital camera last night so enjoy -

me in Dave's car, tyler in the background.

dave proving what a cam whore i am. COOL.

my new necklace i made yesterday.

if you knew tyler, you'd know "horn dog" stands for the fact that he plays trombone in aught 7, and that is his screen name. he's really not a pervert, i promise.

IT'S THE COLONEL! from Kfc! He's hiding in San Francisco! his front side would have proven so, but I couldn't have captured him any sooner.

Reel Big Fish. You could see in the former that Aaron Barret has a mohawk, and if you look closely in this particular snapshot, they're playing "drunk again". this picture was taken after dave and i bought merchandise.

Tyler reading & i caught Chris at a bad time, but I felt I should have put this up here. for the sake of humiliation.

me and dave and his cool new lbc beanie.

Ah, yes. I also have a video :X of Aaron Barret's awesome solo during "Rock & Roll is Bitchin'". So, if you're interested, go ahead and click here to see it, or right click on the link and "Save As...". (It's a rather large file so I suggest saving it to your hard drive). You'll need Apple Quicktime to view the file.

edit - the godforsaken file won't upload completely to the directory, so if you're that desperate just IM me, i'll direct connect it to ya!

babedude @ 2004-07-23T02:24:00

2004-07-23T02:26:16Z

- the boys and i are talking about some boys wearing tight pants -
me: yeah when I went to see motion city soundtrack, i saw a lot of scene guys does hand motion we do when we say the word scene with tight pants and i'm just wondering...how do they survive?
chris: what do you mean?
me: well isn't it discomforting to have your penis all shrugged up like that?
ryan: wait, are you talking about emo boys? in this case, don't you mean vaginas.

so i paraphrased, but it was freakin' hilarious.

if you missed reel big fish tonight, you are going to kick yourself in the ass because it was such an amazing concert! i have pictures and video i'll put up tomorrow. :)

babedude @ 2004-07-22T13:54:00

2004-07-22T14:09:12Z

1. Your name spelled backwards. olf

2. Where were your parents born? Romania

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? taking back sunday

4. What's your favorite restaurant? california pizza kitchen -- haven't eaten there but I always buy their 12$ frozen pizzas. also -- i love, love, LOVE...i don't know really. i like texas roadhouse and tony romas. and chili's. those crappy chain restaurants, duh.

5. Last time you swam in a pool? graduation.

6. Have you ever been in a school play? no.

7. How many kids do you want? two.

8. Type of music you dislike most? country.

9. Are you registered to vote? yes, no, maybe so. :P

10. Do you have a car? yes. it's ...well, beaten up. I'M NOT A BAD DRIVER.

11. Have you ever ridden on a moped? no.

12. Ever prank call anybody? hahaha. i used to prank call 411 :X

13. Ever get a parking ticket? Not yet...

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? YES YES YES!

15. Furthest places you ever traveled? Romania.

16. Do you have a garden? erm...if you've been to my house you know that my backyard is like a dirt feild or something.

17. What's the size of your bed? Double.

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? sometimes.

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night? both.

20. Best movie you've seen in the past 4 months? The Boondock Saints.

21. What's the next movie you want to see? some more anime, now that blockbuster has an anime section. whoooooo.

22. Chips or popcorn? chips, unless it's KETTLE KORN...erm, Corn. :D

23. Have you ever broken any hearts? maybe i have, but i'm sure he's realized that it was never worth it.

24. Premarital sex? no, no, no.

25. Are you a good cook? when chris ma helps me...;)

26. Orange or Apple juice? apple juice!

27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine? dave, and it was texas roadhouse.

28. Favorite type of drink? VANILLA COKE.

29. Best thing in the world? feeling content.

30. Have you ever broken a bone? i fractured my toe and i had to wear a big cast for a week.

31. Have you ever won a trophy? in 4th grade, i won the "WOW" award.

32. What is your favorite board game? Guess Who? :P because that's the only one I know how to play. I was never taught Monopoly. I really like Uno, though, if that counts.

33. What is your dream car? i think if I dreamed beyond what i have now i'd be dubbed a spoiled brat...my dream car has fair gas mileage and a dvd player, how about that?

34. Ever order an article from an infomercial? not yet.

35. Coke or Pepsi? COKE, BITCHES. PEPSI SHALL BURN IN HELL!!!!

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? no, but i've had to wear one to SCHOOL.

37. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy? my pharmacy is Longs Drugs, and it was Acne Medication.

38. Who are you going to marry? some guy. i hope we get along.

39. Who would you like to meet? my friends on the east coast. like sara, tracey...oh you both live in new jersey...how convenient :)

40. Do you believe in love at first sight? nope.

41. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite same sex? stuff.

42. Where would you go for a romantic evening? the airport, and we'd watch airplanes fly overhead

43. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 2, not counting thong sandals (excuse me...FLIP FLOPS...)

44. Last song stuck in your head? damn you ashlee simpson. damn you and your stupid show!

45. Any pets? my cool dog that could bite your arm off :)

46. What's your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character? I don't know, I was never a huge SNL fan, I only watch it once in awhile, but I usually enjoyed the older episode with actors like Steve Martin, Mike Meyers, Dana Carvey, etc.

FOR THE RECORD I DON'T THINK ADAM SANDLER IS FUNNY

47. What is one thing you would like to learn to do? love everyone for their imperfections.

48. What do you do when you are bored? scrapbook, play video games, read books, and then eventually fall asleep.

49. What is one thing would you want someone to appreciate about you? i couldn't say there was anything worth appreciating.

50. What are three things you are grateful for today? Jesus Christ, His grace, & deoderant.

babedude @ 2004-07-22T12:44:00

2004-07-22T12:44:18Z

i'm boring & lifeless. i'm sorry.

babedude @ 2004-07-22T11:14:00

2004-07-22T11:14:50Z

i slept incorrectly last night and now I have a neck migraine.

babedude @ 2004-07-19T22:08:00

2004-07-19T22:09:38Z

so, shane. where's my 20$? :)

babedude @ 2004-07-19T20:12:00

2004-07-19T20:27:52Z

I worked out this morning, without any nutrition, and almost blacked out. I didn't do much except go on the bike for awhile and walk a little. It was because of the almost-blacking-out dilemma.

After working out at Jenny's, I ate lunch at Dave's, and then I picked up Jenny and we went to the mall.

I bought a Hello Kitty shirt on clearance from Pac Sun, some 99cent lip gloss, glitter glue, & this ugly t shirt from Old Navy I shouldn't have bought. I'm dissappointed in myself for spending money in the first place. I went to GameStop and bought my brother Driv3r (driver 3, whatever). He payed me back, I was about to buy him Grand Theft Auto III (used) for 8 bucks, but he decided he wanted me to buy him a game he really wanted, he would just have to pay me back...because I don't have 45$ to spare at the moment for anything. I tried bargain shopping today, but whatever, I don't even look good in anything. I don't know why I try to make myself feel better by buying nice clothes. I wish I was beautiful, and fit, and tan like other white girls. I will definately never be happy with my body at this rate. Sometimes I wonder why God couldn't give me a stickly body like those cute scene girls.

So, enough of my bitching about how I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror -- I'm contemplating buying this dress thing at The Gap. The one I tried on was a 4, and fit me well below the bust, but unfortunately, the zipper didn't close when I got up to the chest area.
turn your head sideways, sorry :X

They didn't have a 6, so I decided that I would buy the black one when I go to pick up my pay check on Friday. Yes, yes. It's on sale for 20$. I felt bad not being able to wear anything more dressy last night for The Producers, and that's when I realized it was time to switch my style to someone a bit more classy, besides wearing tshirts and jeans in my off times.

Tomorrow I don't want anyone to bother me. I need time at home. I will probably only go work out with Jen for an hour, and then I'm coming home, playing video games, reading, & scrapbooking.

a little reflecting

2004-07-19T00:27:03Z

Saturday was extremely uneventful. I moped around the house and went to work at 5, and I didn't get off until midnight because on Saturday nights everyone likes to go shopping and rummage through clothing. One woman tried on every single one of the Perfect Shirts that we had up on display and didn't buy a single one, & she had the audacity to leave them in the fitting room. The rack outside of the fitting rooms has a distinct purpose -- it's to make my job easier. But, alas, it's okay because I worked quite awhile last night which makes up for the fact that I'm not scheduled until I get back from Cancun. I'm praying that someone will want to give me their shift so I can take over.

Today was enjoyable. I woke up at the ungodly hour of 8:30 am and left with Dave's mom for church. I'm becoming more and more comfortable there, and my intense dislike of it is slowly deteriorating. However, i still cannot stand the worship music. It's so cheesy. Any church who uses electric drums should be cited.

The Sunday School kids were wild today, we didn't finish our entire lesson because today was some kind of special service. We started off with a Cheetos gig. The children were to put a shower cap on their head and have it wrapped in duct tape, and then when I said, Go, they were to put the cheetos on the kid with the duct tape head and make a head of cheetos. The lesson today was about temptation, and the kids were instructed not to eat the cheetos.

Unfortunately, we had all of the kids, which were like 30 of them, and they were wild. The group Dave's mom and I are teaching consists of ten K-2nd graders, but we had all the older kids. They were the noisy ones. Anyway, I was told next week will be easier because we'll have our actual age group. What was not easy was having Ryan walk in today to help and then proceed to WRAP ME UP IN DUCT TAPE. All the children laughed at me, and then two little boys emulated Ryan's scheme.

After church, I went to Dave's house, took a nap, came home, showered, and went with Dave's mom, her fiance, and Darren to see The Producers. Best musical I've ever seen, I don't know if I should cross the line and say it was better than The Lion King, but probably not. Okay, it was the 2nd best musical I've ever seen. Mel Brooks is a genius, and I love the satire. It's springtime for Hitler...

Ah. I deleted a lot of what I was going to say. I'll save it for the paper journal.

babedude @ 2004-07-17T14:24:00

2004-07-17T14:25:55Z

flo is love.

i saw it some guys journal and i just had to make my own. :x

babedude @ 2004-07-17T13:05:00

2004-07-17T13:16:30Z

Yesterday I watched Spiderman 2 with Jenny and my brother. I actually enjoyed all 127 minutes. I suppose that has to partially do with the fact I'm a girl and I enjoyed the actual plot line of what is supposed to be an action packed Marvel epic.

After the movie, I went and did more mindless, boring things with my friends that everyone writes about in their livejournals, because really, we're all a spawn of the same machine.

I cut my own hair, I made some bangs. I look like a scene boy when I tie my hair back and let the bangs hang out. This was my signature look back when senior year started, so I think I'll stick with the haircut for awhile. However, I think I should probably cut my hair a bit shorter because it's growing ridiculously long. I have to actually brush my hair out, oh the horror of tangles. I think I'll get a cheap hair cut before Cancun. I'll surprise everyone, not let my parents or anyone know. I just have to make sure the person cutting my hair is fluent in english.

babedude @ 2004-07-16T02:05:00

2004-07-16T02:06:43Z

i just had an epiphany. i'm a nerd. a real nerd.
like. a geek. people laugh at me because of my hobbies.
well, i guess it's not different from the rest of my life.
where people laughed at me...all the time.
sigh. oh well.

to do list -
/ . get a life

meet our martians

2004-07-16T01:00:28Z

Dave & I ran into a few martians today during our weekly trip to Taco Bell. Then again, what else do you expect to find at Taco Bell besides ...well, aliens? (oh man, I really hope you got that joke...)

Meet our martians

Meet Martian offspring number 1.
Job: cook
Specialty: human intestines with a hint of chianti
Hobbies: abducting people, experimenting new dishes with the human endocrine system

Next we have Martian Offspring number 2. (green one)
Job: reseacher
Specialty: creating new philosophies concerning the human mind
Hobbies: studying humans

and last, but not least, Ted.
Job: human physcologist
Specialty: his one antenna enables him to connect with humans
Hobbies: long walks on the beach, reading literature on great american presidents

our heroes...

For the record, Dave and I are really sick of our weekly trips to Taco Bell. In fact, tonight I think his stomach talked to me a little bit more than usual. If you want to hear us naming the martians, click here (or right click on your mouse button and select "save as..."). Does my voice really sound like that? Hrm.

I'M VERY EXCITED. I'M SEEING REEL BIG FISH/CATCH 22/LUCKY BOYS CONFUSION/RX BANDITS NEXT THURSDAY. & I believe this Sunday, if work permits, I'll be seeing the Mel Brooks production of The Producers with Darren & Dave. I've been wanting to see that one for quite awhile!

I just realized my parents have no idea I'm going to be doing all of this. Perhaps I should inform them. Tomorrow I've got errands to run. I've been driving without proper registration for a few weeks. Seems my car is due for a smog check. I'll have to take care of that tomorrow, as well as yelling at those cute kids at Verizon at the Fremont Hub. Yep.

babedude @ 2004-07-15T02:24:00

2004-07-15T02:24:46Z

come & dance with me

which of your LJ friends would come to see you perform at a strip club?
LJ Username
slips you a 20	the_beatenpath
receives a lapdance from you	__jinna
gets extra favors after the show	haz1on
buys you a drink	crankle
gets kicked out by the bouncer for licking the pole	noty0urstar
doesn't tip you at all	x0x0misskiss0x0

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