i wasn't put on this earth to be a mathematician.

half of my life in the customer service line.

2014-03-27T01:04:31Z

Hockey RBB post the second: Sidney Crosby mix edition. "Your Robot Heart is Bleeding" was written for it by taliahale (AO3 link). Again, only a zip for the whole mix, no individual track links. Posted to Tumblr as well and I'll add a proper link later (I'm thecointossed, in any case).

sensible person (hot to the touch, cold on the inside)
(click for mediafire download)

&&

01. "Winning" - Emily Haines & the Soft Skeleton

some part of you too small to lose
all of us, all of you
counting to the last breath we take
what we make doesn't make sense
what's a wolf without a pack?

open your chest and take the heart from it
when you talk, can i tape you?
how'd you get what we don't know?
we don't know how to help, only know how to hound
nose to the grindstone: grindstone to the ground

02. "Remains" - Maurissa Tancharoen & Jed Whedon

burn down my home
my memories hardened and are bright as chrome
good times escape
while every mistake seems to be caught on tape

i will go rolling fast, arms out in the rain
feel momentum building 'til
i lift off ground like an airplane
love ties you down to the pain
a billion eyes are watching, fossilized
they see what remains

03. "Helplessness Blues" - Fleet Foxes

i was raised up believing i was somehow unique
like a snowflake distinct among snowflakes, unique in each way you can see
and now after some thinking, i'd say i'd rather be
a functioning cog in some great machinery serving something beyond me

but i don't, i don't know what that will be
i'll get back to you someday soon you will see

05. "Dying" - The Whigs

it used to be right in front of you but now it's gone
it used to be right in front of you but now it's gone
somebody better come speed up your heart 'cause it's dying
somebody better come speed up your heart 'cause it's dying

04. "Stars With Them, Ends With Us" - Dan Mangan

don't speak until you've caught your breath
don't sleep unless you're safe in bed
just pray in the night they take someone instead
the hills are alive with the sounds in your head

please dear, be sure of us and ours
don't fear the worst in case it comes

06. "The Deep End" - Hannah Georgas

no one needs to know, no one needs to know right now
take a deep breath and don't let 'em break you down

who has the say on how the way things should be?
who will take you home when the lights go on and your glass is empty?
who will hold your breath when you're diving off the deep end?

07. "Your Game" - Tegan & Sara (live)

she says you've got to buy the right clothes
and you've got to shop at the right stores
and the singer takes a walk on the front porch
broken hands, no words, it could have been worse
takes her place at the back of the line
says, "baby, you're much better than fine"

you go and i will stay
and if you love him, i will hate him
and everything about this game--
nothing is gonna keep me away

08. "Radioactive In The Dark" - Fall Out Boy & Imagine Dragons (mash-up)

writers keep writing what they write
somewhere another pretty vein just dies
i've got the scars from tomorrow and i wish you could see
that you're the antidote to everything except for me

a constellation of tears on your lashes
burn everything you love, then burn the ashes
in the end everything collides--my childhood
spat back out the monster that you see

09. "Mr. Hurricane" - Beast

out of the harness
stumble in the darkness
head into the madness
trying to be righteous

i stopped being the victim
but you weren't there to see
i never felt bitter
until you prayed for me

10. "Sixties Remake" - Tokyo Police Club

classics in the modern age: sixties remake
everything you've got in spades
your collarbone, shoulder blades

bat your lips, shut your eyes
swing those chains and start a fight
'cause you've got nerve but we've got tact
going back to the city hearts

11. "Hot To the Touch, Cold On the Inside" - Fall Out Boy

if it's never been broken, can't believe in it
love is just a problem for someone else to fix
fuck your stubborn mouth, fuck your throat
i am your sacred cow, i am your secret too

they've got us surrounded, we're in their sights
but they're not taking us alive
hot to the touch, cold on the inside
but they're not taking us alive

BONUS: "Robots" - Dan Mangan

and i spent half of my life in the customer service line
flaws in the design: a sign of the times
and that little voice in the back of your mind
just wants you to know, just hopes that you know

robots need love too

&&

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it's the thrill of the fight.

2014-03-23T06:45:21Z

Hockey Reverse Big Bang art post the first. This is my "women who play hockey" mix, and it goes with speakingwosound's fic "It Takes Blood and Guts" (link to AO3). I have limited internets, so there's just a zip for the whole mix, no individual track links. Covers, listing, and ~lyric snippets under the cut. Also posted on the tumbler here.

it takes blood & guts to be this cool
(click to dl from mediafire)

&&

01. "Eye of the Tiger" - Jenn Grant (Survivor cover)

so many times, it happens too fast
you trade your passion for glory
don't lose your grip on the dreams of the past
you must fight just to keep them alive

02. "River" - Joni Mitchell

oh i wish i had a river i could skate away on
but it don't snow here; it stays pretty green
i'm gonna make a lot of money
then i'm gonna quit this crazy scene

03. "When the City Lights Dim" - Cold Specks

i will teach these lungs to yearn
fill this hungry heart with things to burn
the cn tower will glow into me
guide my blood home
and i was as calm as a child

take it to the river, take it down slow
my oh my don't you know my will is good?
in the cold morning i heard them breathe
said, my oh my don't know my will is good?

04. "Help I'm Alive" - Metric

i tremble--they're gonna eat me alive
if i stumble they're gonna eat me alive

can you hear my heart
beating like a hammer
beating like a hammer
help i'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer
hard to be soft, tough to be tender

05. "It takes blood and guts to be this cool but I'm still just a cliche." - Skunk Anansie

wash me oh so painfully clean
dissect my words with a fist full of your dreams
build me up and strike me down please
sign my name, sign my name

06. "Get Lucky" - Halestorm (Daft Punk cover)

we've come too far to give up who we are
so let's raise the bar and our cups to the stars

she's up all night 'til the sun
i'm up all night to get some
she's up all night for good fun
i'm up all night to get lucky

07. "Team" - Lorde

so all the cups got broke
shards beneath our feet
but it wasn't my fault
and everyone's competing for a love they won't receive
'cause what this palace wants is release

we live in cities you'll never see onscreen
not very pretty, but we sure know how to run things
livin' in ruins of a palace within my dreams
and you know we're on each other's team

08. "Infamous" - Tegan & Sara (live)

west coast has got me screaming
they've got me by the collar
if you want it, you come get it
you tell the east coast not to bother
if you need me
well baby, come and see me

09. "Grown Woman" - Beyoncé

they love the way i walk
'cause i walk with a vengeance
and they listen to me when i talk
'cause i ain't pretending
it took a while, now i understand
just where i'm going
know what i want and i know who i am
it's 'bout time i show it

10. "Local Rebel/'Anarchy in the UK'" - Emily Haines (live w. Tall Firs)

when i was 17 i thought i had a cause to champion
i was hopeful and naive, it was easy to believe in
i thought how hard can it be?
i'm not afraid of giving everything
everything
for passion

BONUS: "I Make the Dough, You Get the Glory" - Kathleen Edwards

i'm sure it's been said in the finer print:
you make me look legitimate
heavy rotation on the CBC, whatever in hell that really means
you're cool and cred like fogerty, i'm elvis presley in the seventies
you're the concord, i'm economy:
i make the dough, but you get the glory

&&

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a great big beautiful heaven shining over me.

2013-08-15T14:18:50Z

I know it's been approximately seven forevers, but a thing happened and I feel too selfish posting about it on Facebook and Tumblr feels too impersonal (I haven't known most of my followers for very long and I don't post personal stuff there basically ever, so). ANYway.

A persistent person in my life, a friend, someone I have known as long as I've known Estrellada (who is chosen family with this person), died suddenly yesterday afternoon. He had a partner and was co-parenting two teenagers with different parent groups. He was a good person who was trying to be better. He loved terrible jokes and as many puns as could be fit into a sentence and bodily functions and Cthulhu and table top RPGs and fairies and glitter and science.

I always feel alone when things like this happen. I'm on my desktop right now, with my phone (ringer on, for once) in my pocket and my netbook on the bed behind me; I keep hitting the touchpad, like there's a communication mode available through it that's not on one of the other two things. I've already called in to work for today--It Might Be A Bad Idea to drive a bus if you find yourself sobbing on the kitchen floor at 5:00AM. I'm going to talk to my supervisor when he gets in later about taking tomorrow too; I'm on holidays for two weeks after that. Technically this isn't covered by legal bereavement leave, but fuck. I can't drive like this and I need to be available for Other People.

Ugh. Fuck entropy.

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burn everything you love then burn the ashes.

2013-03-17T02:30:43Z

1. It's occurred to me that people could also frond me on Facebook. I'm on there a lot a lot and have huge enormous human-eating boundaries around privacy and my family/work/etc. Uh. Yeah. stop.killer.acronyms at the Gmail.

2. I listened to "Etc. (Light Em Up)" when it was first released, and felt a bit eh about it (it's no "'From Now On We Are Enemies'" is all I'm saying, and that was the last thing they put out and there's a natural comparison), but then I listened to it again the other day and then listened to it about seven times in a row. DAMN YOU WENTZ ET AL.

3. I'm having souvlaki for dinner and I'm happy about that. If only it would get here.

THE END!

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so let me see your moves let me see your moves.

2013-03-13T21:06:16Z

1. Hockey RPF keeps being exactly what I want in a fandom right now. It's got an adequate flow of quality fic in the ships I want to read, and it's also incredibly low-maintenance. Thanks, hockey RPF.

2. My tumblercation led to a sad lapse in skills, and I've now lost to the ether a gifset of Patrick Stewart and Ian McKellen calling each other "Sir Patrick" and "Sir Ian" AND one of Jared Padalecki making fun of Jensen Ackles for being an old. WHY DID I FORGET ABOUT BOTH THE QUEUE AND HEARTING THINGS. WHY.

3. Fall Out Boy. That is all.

4. My life is a bit o__o right now, with the moving and the still moving and the still moving and the adjusting to another person being around in my house and the everything hurts all the time. So. Fandom! Input with no output, on tap! It's pretty great.

5. And I miss Hilary a lot. When I'm done moving (project completion: Spring 2024! Your tax dollars at work!), I'm going to do a memorial Sports Night re-watch. I feel she would appreciate the thought and also the lolariousness.

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someone's bound to get burned.

2013-03-07T20:24:47Z

1. Uh. Still not dead!

2. I have a new Tumbler, because I got involved with Teen Wolf crap and then couldn't post to my old one because of reasons. It's sufficiently-accurate. It's a Charles Babbage quote. Whatever. In conclusion: you should follow me on there if you want to. Basically it's a lot of me coming up with adorable tags and ~~sometimes~~ complaining about things.

3. So I moved last week and the new house is quite great. I managed to get totally burned out on human contact during the move and had to spend two days under a blanket reading fic and not really eating. It was so awesome let's never do it again. My roommate is incredibly patient and nice, though. Hopefully I can unpack more than a bowl and a spoon this weekend.

4. Oh! I'm going to NOLOSE this summer, probably. It's a conference for fatties by fatties and it's in Portland so it will only cost me $30 to get there and back. YOU SHOULD COME if you can. PORTLAND IS AMAZING. FAT PEOPLE BEING AWESOME ARE ALSO AMAZING.

5. I didn't get tickets to see FOB at the Commodore (sold out in an hour while I was in a goddamn union meeting being a responsible adult in solidarity with my fellow fucking workers, DAMMIT) and I'm kind of pissed about it. When I'm not in the ~process of moving, I'm going to obsessively check Craigslist, but ugh. Pissed.

(WHO GOT MY TICKETS. I BET IT WAS THAT DOUCHEBRO WHO WAS GETTING FIFTEEN-YEAR-OLD GIRLS DRUNK AT THE LAST SHOW. FUCKER.)

6. I have a beard. It's ridiculous.

The end!

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spent most of last night dragging this lake.

2013-02-05T22:47:46Z

Hi! I'm here. New FOB! Show here at my favourite venue in June! I'm moving next month. Arrow keeps filming at the end of my street and it's freaking me out (that's not why I'm moving, um).

I got the first half of my name tattoo in December and I will probably post a picture of it soon. It won't be finished until the summer, because the artist just left for a semester in Europe (she's always gadding about, lol).

So, yeah, Hilary (aka phoebesmum and AS Lawrence) passed away at the beginning of January. I first met her about ten years ago, in Sports Night fandom. I miss her quite a bit, but. You know. These things happen. Bah.

I hope you're all keeping as well as possible. ♥

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come on by my house and unleash me your monsters.

2012-11-03T07:10:49Z

1. Things went okay with my grandparents. My grandma likes my name, so that's nice.

2. I'm having truly epic and completely ridiculous amounts of angst about this stupid Teen Wolf kink AU I'm writing. Partially it's because of my own shit (hahahaha abusive ex-dominants yay), and partially it's because of fandom shit (is it okay that Scott and Allison are furries? I just. They're so cute, but I don't want to get something racist stuck in my teeth, you know?), so. Fortunately I'm too excited to read about kinky wolf-ish sex that isn't Derek/Stiles (...except when it is; what! I write the poly stories! It's an established fact!) to let the angst stop me. Mostly.

My usual sounding board for these ~issues is only halfway through the first season, so I can't rant at her (the new characters in s2 feature prominently). It's super fucking frustrating, as you can see.

3. I got my ears pierced (4g! I think they'll actually heal this time!). I have a massage appointment next week, and a tattoo consult the week after that. I've taken my meds two days in a row--fingers crossed for three tomorrow! It seems to be helping with the complete inability to do anything ever.

4. That's about it! Good night!

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come over here and wrap them around me.

2012-10-23T21:29:20Z

The other other thing I was going to say is that I've been reading an amount of hockey RPF recently, specifically Toews/Kane (because I have types, what can I say), and it's awkward because my aunt's dog is named Kaner. After Patrick Kane. That's basically my deepest feeling about this new trend in my reading: awkward because my mom's family is super into hockey. Awesome.

The dog is a Pomeranian. Fyi.

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you and me babe: how 'bout it.

2012-10-23T16:03:29Z

1. Getting more ~~radical by the day. Awesome. Last night I almost got into a fight with a fellow driver who requested the transit cops come on his bus to do a fare check (which resulted in three people being pulled off the bus and ticketed/who knows what-all). I just. Is that really why he became a bus driver? To assist cops in the harassment of people who can't/don't pay to ride the fucking bus? To be a snitch?

2. So I found out that Teen Wolf fandom kind of sucks. I'm sad and annoyed about this, for many reasons. Mostly because it always saddens and annoys me when I discover people being racist assholes. I sort of assumed that there were people out there being just as enthusiastic about Scott and ships involving Scott (and, to a lesser extent since he is a secondary character, Danny) as I was over here being enthusiastic about...other things. But no. Not really. Just a lot of people being egregiously racist in the service of Derek/Stiles and acting like giant dickbags when they get called on it. Fantastic, fandom. Well done.

Trying to find other folks to get fan things from, but Tumblr is hard (my kingdom for a mechanism enabling friending memes, jfc) and the people who are doing the calling out are problematic in other ways (kink/sex negativity and "there IS SO a wrong way to be an abuse survivor!!!" ways, generally). And so young, gawd. I think even if I wasn't born forty, I'd feel that way. It's hard to believe I was seventeen in fandom once. Long, long ago. When all 'round here was green fields.

3. I think I had another thing to say, but--oh right! I'm having lunch with my mom and her parents next week so I can come out to them (my grandparents). Apparently my aunt is also coming, as my mom's back-up, because my mom already told her. I know my mom has a tricky and difficult relationship with her parents. I know she's worried that they're going to be judgey assholes at her and nice to me. I know these things. I'm still pissed she outed me to my aunt without my consent, and that she's making my transition about her (even if it's in self-defense). MY MOTHER. MY FUCKING MOTHER. Gah.

4. And after that I'm getting my ears pierced with a friend at a new, awesome shop next to my doctor's office. Hopefully I'll be able to talk to the tattoo artist I want to do my next tattoo at the same time.

5. And then it's Halloween!!!!!!!!!! I don't have a costume yet. Ruh-roh.

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a holy life still waits for me.

2012-10-22T02:54:15Z

I felt bad about doing a short mix for Sam and not Dean, and I had a bunch of songs left over from the last Dean mix I did, so wah-la! Another Dean mix. He's so spoiled, seriously.

MIX SUMMARY: Life, death, Heaven, Hell, salvation, damnation; resurrection, Purgatory. I have this feeling like Dean just doesn't get to die for real.

(...This might have Dean/Castiel overtones at points? Maybe. I think I'm choosing to interpret the angel references as having more to do with Dean's faith/lack thereof/supremely fucked up relationship with the celestial. Or something. I don't wanna do a D/C mix! I don't wanna!)

Always Here

01. "The Once and Future Carpenter" - The Avett Brothers

and my life is but a coin, pulled from an empty pocket
dropped into a slot with dreams of sevens close behind
and hope and fear go with it, and moon and the sun go spinning
like the numbers and fruits before my eyes
sometimes i hit, sometimes it robs me blind
sometimes i hit, sometimes it robs me blind

forever i will move like the world that turns beneath me
and when i lose my direction i'll look up to the sky
and when the black cloak drags upon the ground
i'll be ready to surrender, and remember
well we're all in this together
if i live the life i'm given, i won't be scared to die

02. "The Funeral" - Band of Horses

i'm coming up only to hold you under
i'm coming up only to show you wrong
and to know you is hard we wonder
to know you all wrong we were

really too late to call
so we wait for morning to wake you
that's all we got
to know me as hardly golden
is to know me all wrong, they were

at every occasion i'll be ready for the funeral
every occasion, once more, it's called the funeral
every occasion, know i'm ready for the funeral
at every occasion, oh, one billion day funeral

03. "Wretched Man" - Marcus Mumford

the things i don't want to do, i just keep doing
the things i want to do, i can't do
what a wretched man i am becoming
what a wretched man i have become

who will save me?
from this body of death that is looming
from this funeral harlor i keep on seeing
in the corner of my eye while pointing my gun
in the corner of my mind while ignoring the sun
it's coming for me, it's coming for me

what you asked just cannot be done
this mindless heart is what i've become
this weight on my back is just too heavy
the holy life just wasn't for me

04. "Old Number 7" - The Devil Makes Three

i guess i grew up on an old dirt road
pedal to the metal always did what i was told
'til i found out that my brand new clothes
came second hand from the rich kids next door
when i grew up fast i guess i grew up mean
there's a thousand things inside my head i wish i ain't seen
and now i just wandered through a real bad dream
feelin' like i'm coming apart at the seems

thank you jack daniels old number seven
tennessee whiskey got me drinking in heaven
angels start to look good to me
they're gonna have to deport me to the fiery deep

05. "In The Branches" - The Builders and the Butchers

they left the angels singing
in the branches of a burning tree
said it was all a game
and your daddy got bent and twisted
in the bed that he made
you'll end up the same

you went down, down, down
you went down, down, down in the sugar and the corn
you're goin' down, down, down
you're goin' down, down, down where the fire is born

06. "New Cannonball Blues" - TV on the Radio

hey girls, hey boys, no don't mind the noise
it's just the sound of being dragged to hell
it's just a pornographic adulationship
as we watch the spider's web eat itself

all this death and birth extinguishing
all that you've ever known
turn your touchscreen off and start harvesting
the seeds that your parents sowed

it's got me singin' blues that hit you
like a cannonball loud enough to break your bones
but it was written in blood before they wrote it in stone
so sing it with me like it's your own

07. "Failing the Rorschach Test" - Matthew Good Band

mother told me to be something
so i'm afraid enough to stay wide awake
so wide awake, wide awake

this ain't real baby
this ain't real baby
i've got a better excuse for myself

i'm always here
i'm always here
i'm always here

*

Cover based on a cap from sprntrl.

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i will pilfer my family a bulletproof love.

2012-09-09T04:33:02Z

1. I'm not really feeling like I need a Teen Wolf icon, because I have this furry!Pete one. I think it's okay to be satisfied with Pete's foxy fox tail on stage.

2. PIZZA IS THE BEST THING EVER.

3. A third thing, so that this entry isn't actually obviously just about Teen Wolf and Pete being a furry (hello, 2008). The end!

eta:

4. OH HEY ALSO I read on Wikipedia that Jeremy Carver (who is now in charge of SPN, can I just have a second to restrain my despairing sobs, okay cool) is plotting ALL THE PLOTS into a tenth season.

A TENTH SEASON. What, how. Why.

wcynic was totally right. It will never end.

Maybe we'll get to watch Dean's 40th birthday downward spiral. That's gonna be hella entertaining. I don't even know whether or not I'm joking. Despairing sobs and delighted giggles, etc. etc. this fucking show ugh.

5. TW RPF is adorable and MUCH BETTER BETA-READ/WRITTEN than TW FPF, btwfyijsyk. In case you might be into that sort of thing. Lord knows I'm not.

/eta

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it's too late in the day to take you on all the rides (i was afraid to tell you that).

2012-09-08T06:53:18Z

I know there was a general consensus that soulless!Sam in s6 was stupid and awful, but (and this might just be because I didn't watch s6 until a few months ago) I'm actually totally into it. I thought it was a really interesting development/change for the character, and an interesting dynamic/challenge for everyone around him, and I feel like it kind of highlighted how much of a dick Sam really is, soul or not. And he was kind of hot. Leave me alone.

In honour of my appreciation, [andchimeras] Productions presents a brief (only 7 tracks!) mix:

Nothing There:
an ode to soulless!Sam

01. "Haven't Slept In Years" - Matthew Good Band

make me your animal
make me your freak
and i will pack them in
it's understandable
after all you're only human

all this time it's been killing me
all this time it's been caving in my head
killing me
alive, alive, alive
you're dead

i haven't slept in years
i haven't talked to anybody else

02. "Temptation" - The Tea Party

we exist in a world
where the fear of illusion is real
and we cling to the past
to deny and confuse the ideal
once inside we conceive and
believe in a god we can't feel
i can't feel it, i can't feel it
i can't feel

destined by a fate so cruel
and drugged to delight
laughing as these lies unfold
i've lost all control

03. "Warning Signs" - Eilen Jewell

we wove a sticky web, a dirty little game
and i was hypnotized--all your bad juju
and all your weird voodoo made me go blind
there was nothing--the shell of the girl
you left behind

but i wasn't seeing, i just wasn't seeing
somehow i missed the warning signs

they were warning signs, warning signs, warning signs
they told me you were evil but i want you for mine

04. "Sold" - Dan Mangan

i thought the suits had come for me
found alternatives to honesty
body and soul were bought and sold
patented and out of reach

so i reach but it hurts, it kills, it screams,
and it fills my heart with chills
and i take my pills
but i'm still tired of sleeping with the light on

05. "Robotic" - Hannah Georgas (live version)

someone fill me in on what i missed
come on give me hope tell me anything
'cause i've been on another side
on another trip

i don't need no heart
i don't need much these days
i can call back another time
i can call back any day
'cause i've been in another world
and i'm trying to escape it

i wanna be reprogrammed
i wanna be robotic
no more blood in these veins
i wanna press reset

06. "Clone" - Metric

call me out: my regret
only makes me stronger yet

it's too late in the day
too late in the day
to turn it around and change my mind

it's too late in the day
to take you on all the rides

it's too late in the day
to tell me i'm off the path
we're already in the aftermath

07. "Madness" - Muse

i can't get these memories out of my mind
some kind of madness has started to move on

i tried to so hard to let you go
but some kind madness is swallowing me whole

i have finally seen the light
i have finally realized what you mean

*

Plus, like, who knew that Muse+dubstep(ish)=sex? Seriously. Gah.

PS: Did you think I was kidding about the "nothing but making mixes and reading fic" thing? 'Cause I totally wasn't. *self high fives*

PPS: 3/7 are female artists, 5/7 are Canadian artists. I feel pretty good about this. The TW mix I posted the other day has an even better female artist ratio. Awesome.

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we can steal this car if your folks don't mind.

2012-09-05T23:45:01Z

1. I am doing nothing but: watching Teen Wolf; reading TW, SPN, and CW RPF fic (oh god TW fandom is so young and doesn't know how beta reading works and yet I just--I can't stop; it's also really interesting to see a fandom developing based almost entirely on the tumbler and AO3); and making mixes these days. And writing CW RPF kink porn with the numbers filed off (ie, names changed) because I am a lot of things, but I am not a person who wants to be personally responsible for making Jensen Ackles cry. Also, the porn is pretty good and I think I might want to try publishing it ferreals, so.

2. I've done two shots of testosterone. I think it is affecting my body hair already/despite the low dose, which is completely unsurprising. *is super sensitive to testosterone and has a high baseline of hairiness*

3. Had a wonnnnnnnderful birthday last week/end. Good dinner with my parents on the actual day, whereat we discussed lots of trans-related things and I was strong in the face of their internalized fatphobia. Good dinner and ice cream with friends/family the next night, and friendy-datey-type person from Seattle came up again for the weekend. We camped out on estrellada's living room floor and the three of us ate so much delicious food and painted our nails a bunch and discovered a new park.

4. "Kind of dating" is the most beautiful phrase in the world to me right now. Damn.

5. Things are pretty good, basically. Epic happyfaces.

6. I need a new IRL tag, 'cause my name isn't BJ anymore. Think think think!

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it's not that you haven't said nothing good could from this.

2012-09-05T23:32:14Z

Teen Wolf mix. Alllll the ships. Hopefully the title (from this Texts From Last Full Moon post) indicates how much less than seriously I take this show (and yet I take it very seriously? Idk. It's kind of like my current relationship with SPN, except with worse acting and writing and yet waaaaaaaaay less racism and homophobia. It's hard out here for a fan of supernatural drama, y'all).

"wolf pack" tattooed on my knuckles</a>

01. "Nothing Is Good Enough" - Aimee Mann
(Everyone is terrible at communicating. Adults suck. Authority figures suck.)

once upon a time is how it always goes
but i'll make it brief
what was started out with such excitement
now i'd gladly end with relief
in what now has become a familiar motif:

that nothing is good enough
for people like you
who have to have someone take the fall
and something to sabotage--
determined to lose it all

02. "Romeo and Juliet" - The Killers (Dire Straits cover)
(EVERY HET RELATIONSHIP OMG.)

a lovestruck romeo sings the streets a serenade
laying everybody low with a love song that he made
finds a streetlight steps out of the shade
says something like you and me babe how about it?

juliet says hey it's romeo you nearly gave me a heart attack
he's underneath the window she's singing hey la my boyfriend's back
you shoudn't come around here singing up at people like that
anyway what you gonna do about it?

juliet the dice were loaded from the start
and i bet and you exploded in my heart
and i forget i forget the movie song
when you gonna realize it was just that the time was wrong juliet?

03. "Mint" - Kathleen Edwards
(This is my Derek/Stiles song, even though it is sort of--Idk. Not what everybody on the tumbler says a Derek/Stiles song sounds like. WHATEVER, TUMBLR. I've been having ship songs since before there was a Web 2.0 for you to exist on! Anyway. Of course Derek/Stiles is my OTP for this show; have you met me?)

yeah, the taste of mint
under a midnight flint
and while i couldn't just go
and try to sleep on it
god knows i want to
god knows i need to
god doesn't know you like i do

04. "Summertime" - My Chemical Romance
(I also ship Scott/Allison, because he's so fucking stupid and she's so fucking smart and kickass [in s1, anyway].)

when the lights go out, will you take me with you
and carry all this broken bone
through six years down in crowded rooms

and highways i called home
something i can't know 'til now
'til you pick me off the ground
with brick in hand, your lip gloss smile
your scraped up knees

and if you stay i would lead away your mind
or until your heart explodes out
until we find our way in the dark and out of bounds
you can run away with me any time you want

05. "Howl" - Florence + the Machine
(DAMN YOU PETER HALE. Also: an ode to all the "zomg marking/mating/heat!!!" fic. ♥)

if you could only see the beast you've made of me
i held it in but now it seems you've set it running free
screaming in the dark, i howl when we're apart
drag my teeth across your chest to taste your beating heart

my fingers claw your skin, try to tear my way in
you are the moon that breaks the night for which i have to howl
my fingers claw your skin, try to tear my way in
you are the moon that breaks the night for which i have to

06. "Monster Hospital" - Metric
(Teenage monsters and monster allies vs. grown-ups. It's scary shit.)

monster movie: daddy warbucks
up against bobby fuller
and he beat him hands down
lead in the head
put a little lead in his head

i fought the war but the war won't
stop for the love of god
i fought the war but the war won

07. "Teeth" - Lady GaGa
(It's not how big, it's how mean. Dear Jeff Davis: thanks for reminding me I have a bit of a werewolf thing. Asshole.)

tell me something that'll save me
i need a man who makes me all right
tell me something that'll change me
i'm gonna love you with my hands tied

show me your teeth
just tell me when
show me your teeth
open your mouth boy

08. "Do You Sleep?" - Lisa Loeb & Nine Stories
(ALL THE PAIRINGS IN S2 ZOMG.)

i saw you as you walked across my room
you looked out the window, you looked at the moon
and you sat on the corner of my bed
and you smoked with the ghost in the back of my head

and i don't know, and i don't care
if i ever will see you again
i don't know, and i don't care
if i ever will be there

do you eat, sleep, do you breathe me anymore?
do you sleep, do you keep me anymore?
you kick my foot under the table,
i kick you back; i can't say i'm able to
stand for you or fall for you ever again

09. "Cold Desert" - Kings of Leon
(Derek/is pretty creepy/pack, Idk.)

i'm on the corner, waiting for a light to come on
that's when i know that you're alone
it's cold in the desert, water never sees the ground
special unspoken without sound

you told me you loved me, that i'd never die alone
hand over your heart, let's go home
everyone noticed, everyone has seen the signs
i've always been known to cross lines

10. "Long Time Running" - The Tragically Hip
(Family sucks.)

well, well it's all the same mistake
dead to rights and wide awake
i'll drop a caribou, i'll tell on you
i'll tell on you, i'll tell on you

you've got a boat-load of nerve
but i would say you've been told
you work me against my friends
and you'll get left out in the cold
it's the same mistake

11. "Some Place To Come Home To" - Dan Mangan
(THEME SONG. THEME SONG.)

we were new in town--we had matching eyes
there were days when you gave yours for mine

yeah you might wait a lifetime
yeah you might wait forever
just to hit me when i'm ready
kiss me when i'm clever

you were so happy i could not help but cry
and you asked me for a reason found a reason why

i am howling i am howling at the moon
i am waiting i am waiting i swear

*

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get your gun and meet me by the door.

2012-08-19T20:09:21Z

A DEAN WINCHESTER MIX. What is my life. The subtitle is a joke between me and estrellada: whenever she gives me particularly Dean-ish advise (which is often), we call it "life lessons with Dean Winchester" time. Also, I find that actual!character!Dean occasionally gives really good advise. Last week, while he was getting ready for the apocalypse in s5, he also helped me clean my house. Trufax. This is sort of why I watch this show despite all the fucking awful terribleness (plus: to laugh when Jared Padalecki tries to look menacing with a gun; it's good times).

Big Monster Lover
(or, Life Lessons With Dean Winchester)

01. "Hang 'Em High" - My Chemical Romance
(Um, I'm afraid opening with Three Cheers-era MCR sets up unreasonable expectations for this mix; mostly it's acoustic guitars and songs about drinking/being alone/being a bit creepy about your brother; sorry.)

wait until it fades to black
ride into the sunset--would i lie to you?
well, i've got something to say

grab your six gun from your back
throttle the ignition--would i die for you?
well, here's your answer in spades

02. "If I Wanted Someone" - Dawes
(Also, songs about being emotionally unavailable/kind of a dick.)

like the memory from your mother's house from before you got too old
like the feeling from a photograph before its meanings all got told
the words i say can be silver, but what's left unsaid can be gold
so get to know me once i go away

03. "A Kiss Before I Go" - Ryan Adams
(And yet incredibly needy. See above re: drinking. Requisite Dean/Lisa song #1.)

the engine turns on a dime
but i ain't goin' nowhere tonight
i ain't been goin' nowhere for quite awhile
can't tell the truth in a house of lies
can't explain what i don't know
one shot, one beer, and a kiss before i go

04. "I Remember You" - Eilen Jewell
(Requisite Sam/Dean song #1. See above re: creepy about your brother.)

i remember you
we were bonnie and clyde
we thought we'd go down in history
i guess we changed our minds

you're a hundred worlds away now
i'm sure it's for the best
you're practically a stranger now
but you stand out from the rest
'cause i remember you
i remember you

05. "Back Of Your Head" - Cat Power
(See above re: everything.)

couldn't park that fucking car
couldn't part from you
saw the back of your sweet mother's head
now i know that she thinks i am dead

burnt flavour
you hold the big picture so well
can't you see that we're going to hell

06. "One Way" - Rose Cousins
(Requisite Sam/Dean song #2. Potentially gen! And yet slightly more creepy than the other one. Funny how that works.)

i break where you bend
i take what you send
and we both pretend
but i start where you end

i say, "you know
when i fall, you go,"
and i rowed this boat
too fast or too slow

07. "Nancy From Now On" - Father John Misty
(See above re: drinking/being alone.)

oh pour me another drink and punch me in the face
you can call me nancy

every man wears a symbol and i know i have mine
i've got my right hand stamped in the concentration camp
where my organs scream "slow down, man!"

08. "The Road" - The Matinée
(VAGABOND. KIND OF A DICK.)

you say you need me
where are my own things
i'm going all the way
don't you believe me
if i look back i can't be around

this old road, this dirty road
it's all i know
i keep going anyway
ain't nothing wrong with a little fun
it might take long
i keep going anyway

all night, all night road

09. "Ho Hey" - The Lumineers (live acoustic version)
(Requisite Dean/Lisa song #2, because I really do kind of ship them. See above re: acoustic guitars.)

so show me family
all the blood that i will bleed
i don't know where i belong
i don't know where i went wrong
but i can write a song

i belong with you, you belong with me
you're my sweetheart
i belong with you, you belong with me
you're my sweet

10. "The Chain" - Fleetwood Mac
(TEH FAMILY CURSE ZOMG; it's pretty tragic. Requisite Actually Classic Rock song. Haha.)

listen to the wind blow
watch the sun rise
run in the shadows
damn your love
damn your lies

and if you don't love me now
you will never love me again
i can still hear you saying
you would never break the chain

BONUF:
"A Mirror Without" - Royal Wood

i wish that i could build a time machine
a time machine and save all this trouble
for my present self--my present self and save

what good's a mirror without a face
without a face
when there are spirits to take our place
they'll take our place

*

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forest fires underneath your bed.

2012-08-15T17:45:40Z

1. It went really, really well with my parents (PHEW. I AM SO LUCKY). My mom is worried about her family, but my dad and I are pretty much just like, "Fuck 'em," so. estrellada was awesome, of course.

2. My bag got stolen at work last week, with my phone, iPod, car/union office/house keys, chequebook, and meds in it. SO AWESOME. I have had basically no internet for a week. I got refills on my meds on Friday, last night I picked up a friend's old, broken iPhone to use as an iPod, and my replacement phone (thank goodness for insurance) should be arriving today (1-2 business days from last Wednesday, by some arcane mathematics). IT'S BEEN A GREAT, STRESS-FREE WEEK, Y'ALL.

3. A friendy-datey-type person came up last Sunday, and we had a wonderful, low-key day. Breakfast, afternoon in a park, sushi for dinner, and then facepalming at Jensen Ackles(: A Director's Journey, seriously wtf you ridiculous, awkward dork ♥) and watching some SPN s7 in the evening. ~~ROMANCE.

4. I got my testosterone prescription on Sunday, too, but I think the doctor gave me the wrong size of syringes (I'm starting at half the usual starting dose because I'm concerned about my voice, etc., and it looks like the syringes don't have small enough measurements), so I gotta figure that out before I get someone to show me how to do the shot (research for fic five years ago is not sufficient!), blah blah blah impatience.

5. That is all!!!

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phonetically schooled.

2012-08-06T01:12:26Z

1. I got a few episodes of Teen Wolf and I'm enjoying it a lot! It's so cute and gay and creepy! And an interesting counterpoint to SPN, in many ways. (The soundtrack is often more than slightly annoying. Though I do approve of the abundance of MCR.)

2. It's really upsetting for me, but--after, like, seven years of being sorta into it--I'm kind of getting really into CW RPF? Like, I'm at the point where I wish most of the canon (and most of the fandom...) didn't hit my embarrassment squick like a train, because I would like to be consuming more canon than the extras on my SPN DVDs. I. DON'T. KNOW.

3. Next weekend, I'm going to Nanaimo with estrellada to come out to my parents as trans and tell them I'm legally transitioning. I'M A BIT ANXIOUS and it's keeping me from being able to do a lot of stuff online and irl. I'm sorry if I'm not around/commenting as much as I have been.

4. Anyway, it's Pride weekend here and I got to dress up fancy for a little get-together at a friend's last night, skipped the parade this morning, and am taking it easy tonight too. See above, lol.

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but we still had the radio.

2012-07-07T02:24:37Z

1. Oh fuck you, s3. "A Very Supernatural Christmas," "Dream A Little Dream, Etc." (a quote from me: "oh right! This is the one with evilhotmean!Dean-inna-dream! Yay! *delighted claps of whumpage*"), and then "Mystery Spot." My goddamn heart, seriously. Gah.

2. I miss Special Agent Sassy Henrickson. I really, really do. ("Jus In Bello" is so fucked up, ugh. ONLY WHORES AND BLACK MEN CAN BE SACRIFICED. SAVE THE VIRGINS FOR DEAN'S MAGIC GUN. Etc.) (And no, Ruby, Winchesters don't know how to win teh battlz. Winchesters only know how to lose everything waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh feelings.)

3. Coming Out Day went fine! Now writing an e-mail to the reps at my depot I never see. Bahhhhh, this is so annoying.

4. GHOST! FACERS!

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'cause i'm still amazed you made it out alive.

2012-07-06T04:38:50Z

1. I'm reading so much SPN/CW rpf fic I don't have time to read my rcircle or flist or the tumbler. WHAT IS THIS, 2006?

(Alternatively: 2006 CALLED. THEY WANT THEIR FUCKING LIFE BACK, KRIPKE.)

2. Tomorrow is Coming Out Day at the union hall (for me, anyway). I've written a little speech in my head, and I'm bringing all the copies of our "how to be an ~~~ally to LGBTIQ people!!!!" booklet I've got (used to be a representative on our Pride committee, so I have about five million). THIS IS GOING TO BE SO AWESOME, and by awesome I mean awkward.

3. Watching "Bad Day at Black Rock," which I forgot that I liked because everybody uses their shouty voices a lot. I do adore the shouty voices (and Bela. And original recipe!Ruby. And Jared falling over is never unamusing). AND DEAN IS BATMAN.

4. I had an excellent weekend in Seattle. Really, really excellent. Super fun and super hot. That is all!

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don't come around tonight.

2012-06-30T05:44:46Z

Watching "Devil's Trap." On the one hand, during the climax, I'm like, "OH MY GOD WINCHESTERS. ALL THE FEELS." And on the other, I'm like, "FUCKING HELL DEAN AND THEN SAM. SHOOT HIM IN THE HEAD. STOP TALKING. SHOOT HIM IN THE HEEEEEAAAAAAAAAD." I'm a bit biased, though, what with the John hate and the hindsight.

(There's also a not insubstantial amount of "and tptb wonder why all the incest fic, seriously." Sometimes, I honestly feel like they started it.)

Hi! We haven't changed the channel here at Tiny House as of yet. I'm going away this weekend, though, so probably I won't be updating with this completely irrelevant and unnecessary nonsense. Though at least one of the people I'm visiting is also an SPN fan, soooooo. Who knows! *waves!*

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cut it out and re-start.

2012-06-27T03:17:59Z

I pulled all of my SPN DVDs down to watch the gag reels (I forgot about the internet? Idk) and started watching from the pilot, because I have very little self-control when/where Winchesters are involved. Basically, this is my brain right now:

SUPERNATURAL.

JENSEN ACKLES'S FACE.

THE OTHER ONE IS VERY TALL, yay!

SUPERNATURAL. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU DID THAT. UGH. RAPE CULTURE EXISTS, YOU KNOW.

HA! I KNOW WHERE THAT WAS FILMED.

Oh shit that was filmed right by my house like literally at the end of the block oh shit. *scared bunny face*

Dean lost all his jewellery! That gives me so many thoughts! Waaaaaaah thoughts!

JENSEN ACKLES. FRECKLES. HANDS. FACE. They are both quite tall om nom nom I forgot that that's a nice thing for people to be.

Shut up, John!

And a lot of semi-writing and brain-reel porn and lots of reading things from forever and a fuck ago. I really don't know how this happened, but it makes me happy, so fuck it.

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i know it's not mine.

2012-06-23T21:19:36Z

Three episodes from the end of SPN s7. I'm going to re-watch s6 and s7 and do episode reactions before I take the s6 DVDs back (because I have thinks and feels and things to yell angrily about, so. Hi, in the likely case you didn't know me when I was in SPN fandom previously). In advance of that, a few thoughts:

-I love Jim Beaver. Did you know he's also a Hollywood historian? He's friggin adorable.

-TPTB, thank you for just allowing that there's a lot of emotional/psychological weirdery in this universe and quitting trying to counteract it or make fun of it. I suppose that's one thing we can thank Gamble for.

-I liked Lisa. I'm glad they didn't exactly kill her off.

-S6 totally turned me into a Dean/Castiel shipper. I DON'T KNOW. Sam/Dean is still the OTP, but shit. What was I supposed to do? Misha Collins's fucking face, peeps.

-I missed this show, ugh. It makes me so angry, but! Winchesters. GAH.

-I've come to the conclusion that SPN is the only show that's constitutionally incapable of jumping the shark.

-Also: "The French Mistake" is their best meta episode ever. Ever ever. It's like the Inception of meta episodes. Actors playing characters playing actors playing characters!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(You are waiting for an Impala.)

That is all! Now I am going to get a haircut! Haircut haircut!

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another paper saint has put us all in danger.

2012-06-20T05:13:40Z

If I Made Vids (Lol, No) Dept. - The Mixtape. Or something.

Lots of SPN and Sherlock in this one. Probably because Serge Ladouceur and Paul McGuigan are goddamn geniuses. Anyway. This is probably only of any interest at all to me, but it's a collection of good songs that I really like, so. Shrug!

Buffyverse - "Ice" - Sarah McLachlan

i think you worried for me then
the subtle ways that i'd give in
but i know you liked the show
tied down to this bed of shame
you tried to move around the pain
but oh, your soul is anchored

the only comfort is the moving of the river
you enter into me, a lie upon your lips

This is the original If I Made Vids (Lol, No) Dept. song, circa 2002ish (around when I realized that vids are actually a thing). Buffy/Angel angstmuffinmix.

Supernatural - "Invisible Ink" - Aimee Mann

what some take for magic at first glance
is just sleight of hand depending on what you believe
something gets lost when you translate
it's hard to keep straight--perspective is everything

and i know now which is which and what angle i oughta look at it from
i suppose i should be happy to be misread--
better be that than some of the other things i have become

Sam/Dean, Sam POV, mostly because of the line about ouija boards.

Firefly - "Little Terror" - Matthew Good

little terror, pack your stars
here's a big wind for your sails
from the motherland

little terror sings the company song
here's a big hand to move you along
from the motherland

River River River River Tam.

Multifandom - "Losing California" - Sloan

you hit rock bottom and everybody knows it
but does anybody care how you got there?
admit to yourself that everything's a problem
but when it comes down what do you care

they're losing california
inch by inch, sit back and watch it go
coming in clearly
dance dance dance to the radio

and everybody loves it but
nobody knows what it stands for
get into yourself in dark sunglasses
and elevate it all 'til it means more

Things set in California. I'M A GENIUS.

Multifandom - "Man on Fire" - Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros

i'm a man on fire walking through your street
with one guitar and two dancing feet
only one desire that's left in me
i want the whole damn world
to come dance with me

i'm a hunter at bay come set you free
over heartache and shame

i wanna see our bodies burning like the old big sun
i wanna know what we've been learning and learning from

everybody want safety (safety love)
everybody want comfort (comfort love)
everybody want certain (certain love)
everybody but me

Some men just want to watch the world burn.

Idk, I find the band and their schtick sort of creepy? And Alexander Ebert is kinda creepy in and of himself. And this song, even without that ~tainting my interpretation, is a little bit creepy. So, you know, a vid of The Dark Knight!Joker, Tyler Durden, Loki, etc. etc. etc.

Sports Night - "Near Fantastica" - Matthew Good

the pink pills are for your sanity
we are buried in the earth because we can't beat gravity
you are still here and so made to figure
you are an important part of the computer

born of the sea, blink, the sea is dead
it falls out of me, these sockets in my head
everyone's a captain, baby, ship of fools
drowning while they're telling you
it's been all right, it's been all right

Dan-centric vid about being fucked up and broken. I actually have a shot list for this one, and have done for about six years. Thumbs up, motivation!

Supernatural - "The Northern" - Alexisonfire

here he comes here he comes
judge so severe--seven trumpets speak
oh they speak him near
hallelujah, we'll praise the lord

Castiel-centric angels vid. ANGELS ARE SCARY MOFOS, Y'ALL.

Sherlock - "Partita for Violin Solo No.1 in B Minor, BWV 1002: I. Allemanda" - JS Bach (performed by Arthur Grumiaux)

instrumental

Sherlock vs. Moriarty. There aren't enough instrumental vids in the world. So says I.

Iron Man - "Pressure Suit" - Aqualung

violently clear the upper atmosphere
raging out your heart
somewhere far beneath your pointed tongue and teeth
is where you really are

don't want to be forgiven
or drag you down from heaven

drift out into the darkness, lost out on the horizon
it's all right, it's all right
i'll be your respirator, i'll be your parachute
it's all right, it's all right
i'll be your respirator, i'll be your pressure suit
i will not let you go

TONY AND THE SUIT ARE ONE. Suit POV.

WHAT WHAT I DO WHAT I WANT.

Multifandom - "Remain Nameless" - Florence + the Machine

i know everybody lets you down
i'll do the same
but know i'll always be around
this can remain the same

call me when you need me
call me anything you want
darling, believe me
nothing i haven't done before

HEROES. Not the TV show. Firefly, maybe some Stargates, various superheroes (THE AVENGERS WHAT), Buffy, hopefully some other folks without powers, haha. Probably would require a bit of surgery on the track around the bridge, but I am friends with Audacity, so that's fine. Except that I don't make vids.

Sherlock - "The Scientist" - Aimee Mann (live Coldplay cover)

tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
oh let's go back to the start
running in circles, counting our tales
heads are a silence apart

nobody said it was easy
oh it's such a shame for us to part
nobody said it was easy
no one ever said it would be so hard
i'm going back to the start

You know, it's cliched and I don't even fucking care. If I made vids, and if I knew how to make footage go backwards, I would make the shit out of a John/Sherlock vid emulating the original Coldplay video.

Sherlock - "The Shell" - Rose Cousins

you stand by a castle moat
reading everything i wrote
looking for the sharks to pull you in
i sit on the banks and call
reading how to kill them all
looking for the way to talk you down

Sad sad sadfaced John/Sherlock vid about how John is a saint (but not really).

Multifandom - "The Simplest Thing" - Hey Rosetta(!)

you say, "it's not my fault that i get so low
there's a weight on my soul that just keeps pulling me down,
it's pulling me down, i swear it"

so come on by my house and unleash me your monsters
with you at the helm we'll go crashing around together
don't mistake some initial hate for something more that cautionary
'cause baby this is love, i'll come down to hell to keep you company

of all the days we've got we should be screaming out
of all the days we've got we should be singing

Chosen families going through shit together. All of the Whedon, obvsly. Probably Sports Night, Fringe, White Collar, Veronica Mars, How I Met Your Mother, Dawson's Creek, Supernatural, Sherlock, etc. as well. (Now I can't stop thinking of sources with chosen families. Ugh. Shut up, brain!)

Sports Night - "Time" - Tom Waits

well the smart money's on harlow and the moon is in the street
and the shadow boys are breaking all the laws
and you're east of east saint louis and the wind is making speeches
and the rain sounds like a round of applause
and napoleon is weeping in a carnival saloon
his invisible fiancee's in the mirror
and the band is going home, it's raining hammers, it's raining nails
and it's true there's nothing left for him down there

Gen all-cast video of love and delight and amazeballs. Have a shot list for this too. Fantastic.

Multifandom - "We Are Young (ft. Janelle Monae)" - fun.

now i know that i'm not all that you got
i guess that i just thought
maybe we could find new ways to fall apart
but our friends are back, so let's raise a cup
'cause i found someone to carry me home

ALL ABOUT THE TEEN DRAMAS (the ones I actually like) OH YES. Everwood, Dawson's Creek, The OC, Veronica Mars, etc. etc.

*

Zip, including cover.

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it's only my half-moon alone heart on the water.

2012-06-18T20:12:54Z

1. My favourite part of working on a mix might be the first time I get it up on my ipod and I haven't quite memorized what all the songs are or the current order and it's a delightful surprise every few minutes. Especially when the mix doesn't as-yet have a theme or alllllll the songs or a title. Yum.

I also quite enjoy the bit when I play the last and first bits of each track over and over to make sure I like the transitions.

2. Anyway. Hello! I started taking anti-depressants last week (it's been eight years since I was on them after college). I feel pretty good! Huzzah!

3. I also got Supernatural s6 from the library and watched that over the weekend, and then the first four of s7. Dammit, show. So awesome, and then so terrible, and then RIGHT IN THE FEELS. WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME. *despair*

4. Otoh, HBO is doing six seasons of American Gods, so I'll be able to do all the meta comparing it to SPN and Buffy. \o?

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