Girls In The Men's Room

axeslade — Sun, 14 Nov 2010 20:40:03 GMT

Things I wish I knew how to talk about in any coherant fashion, but can't:
-How whenever I hit these lows, my writing is affected--but mostly my fannish writing.
-The fact I'm *mumblemumble* months late on two auction fics because of the fact I just can't think about fandom.
-That, in most moments anymore, I don't give a damn about these other two things. But then I do for an hour or two and freak out...then go numb again.

Bugger all.

(posted here for relevancy)

FYI: Want off LJ?

axeslade — Thu, 02 Sep 2010 17:44:12 GMT

Given there's more fuckery going on with LJ, I am putting up here that between my fanfic and personal accounts, I have 31 Dreamwidth invite codes up for grabs. Just comment if you want one so I can keep track of them.

Possible fannish auction blather

axeslade — Sat, 29 May 2010 10:36:19 GMT

Yeah, I'm posting on LJ again. But until more of you move over to DW *dangles invite codes inticingly*, I have to if I want to reach anyone.

So, I've been hemming and hawing for awhile, on twitter, over the idea of running a fannish charity auction for The Jim Collins Foundation:

The mission of the Jim Collins Foundation is to provide financial assistance to transgender people for gender-confirming surgeries. The Jim Collins Foundation recognizes that not every transgender person needs or wants surgery to achieve a healthy transition. But for those who do, gender-confirming surgeries are an important step in their transition to being their true selves. However, access to gender-confirming surgery is impossible for most. Discrimination against transgender people is so prevalent that many transgender people struggle to survive, never mind save for surgery costs. Even for those who have health insurance, coverage is systematically denied. Many insurance policies contain a “Transsexual Exclusion Clause” which excludes all medical procedures related to a person’s transgender status. For many transgender people, access to surgery is out of reach.

The Jim Collins Foundation raises money to fund gender-confirming surgeries for those transgender people who need surgery to live a healthy life, but have no ability to pay for it themselves. We recognize that for those people who require surgery for a healthy gender transition, lack of access to surgery may result in hopelessness, depression, and sometimes, suicide. The Jim Collins Foundation is a community-based initiative promoting the self-determination and empowerment of all transgender people.

Yeah, awesome. What I want to know from my wee f-list is:

Would anyone be interested in helping me set it up/run it?

Would you be interested in offering fanfic/art, food, or anything else for auction?

When should I run it? ~~(I was thinking in November, to coincide with TDOR, but obviously I'd like to know what would work best for offerors)~~. rm just reminded me about NaNoWriMo, and since many fannish people do that, that's not a good time. So, how's October (National Coming Out Day is the 11th of that month) work for everyone? Still gives plenty of time to plan what you'd like to offer (and for me to figure how to run all this)

NOTE: I cannot possibly run it before September, because from June 16-July 7 I will be visting Girl and thus mostly offline, and after I get back I begin the maddening work of tracking down an apartment and possibly another job. I am just trying to get planning done *now* while my head is still mostly clear and I'm not fatigued from all that.

Would you, at the very least, help promote it?

Thanks all.

The Fictional Love Meme

axeslade — Thu, 20 May 2010 02:06:03 GMT

MY THREAD HERE

(used the s/n I've been using for my latest fannish creations)

Across the sky, around the world

axeslade — Tue, 04 May 2010 21:46:53 GMT

Comment and I'll give you a color. You post 10 things that remind you of that color

splix gave me blue forever ago.

1. My girlfriend's eyes.

I do not have a hi-res picture of said eyes, so this is someone else's and thus not quite right but close enough. Um. Yeah. I won't spout any of the dozen Petrachan cliches about blue eyes. Just the fact that I remember telling her very soon after we met (hell, may have been the first day, I was fourteen and awkward and oh so lonely), that she had gorgeous eyes. This opinion hasn't changed one bit in the last five-ish years.

2. The TARDIS

...look, my girlfriend came first, that has to knock off a few dork points.

3. Dory!

Yeah, she's my Firefox persona right now.

4. The carpet of the room I had when I was little.

Again, not the actual carpet/room, still not the right shade.

5. Twinnings' Lady Grey Tea box.

OM NOM NOM. Also, I just finished off my box :(

6. Little Fuzzy

The Fuzzies themeselves are not blue, but this edition (the one my father owns, and thus the one I read) is. Such an underrated book.

7. Brian Slade's hair.

This one was just inevitable.

8. Blue roses

Specifically in the context of The Glass Menagerie. I love that play so hard, and the use of the roses as a symbol is lovely.

9. Girl's blue sweater.

That is not her or her sweater. ...Look, I'm running out of things.

10. The heart necklace I got when in NY two years ago

That is not it. I'd have a picture of the real thing if, um, I could find it. It is very much not where it's
supposed to be. Um, yeah. Good thing we have to clean the room

axeslade — Sun, 02 May 2010 18:39:20 GMT

So, I don't directly post here often because LJ is evil.

But this is important.

The oil spill? Yeah, bad. There's no way to tell just how bad it will get before it gets better, which could take a very, very long time.

Here's a list of ways you can help

axeslade — Sat, 24 Apr 2010 01:33:13 GMT

Hey, can anyone point me towards just one place that has discussed the fact that the main relationship in Brokeback Mountain starts with what is, at best, dubcon and is, at worst, rape?

Kthxbai.

Why can't we give love....

axeslade — Mon, 05 Apr 2010 04:38:04 GMT

Woman Murdered For Being A Woman

Misreporting by the police and the media contributes to the erasure of the murder rates of trans women, yet each and every murder is one more manifestation of the international undeclared war that is being waged against us – and this is never mentioned.

Last year’s stats average out to a murder rate of one trans woman every 52.5 hours – over three a week – and this is on the basis of known, recorded murders; it’s a reasonable assumption that the actual figure is much higher. But even working from the known figures, a quick ‘back of an envelope’ calculation suggests that, if this murder rate was applied to cis women, then at least 1,332,000 cis women globally would have been murdered in the past two years, for nothing more or less than being cis women.

I know, statistically speaking, that the murder of trans women/trans feminine individuals is far higher than that of trans men/trans masculine ones (and that alone says some really horrible things about society as a whole that hurt to think about), but that doesn't change the fact that these things break my heart. No one should die just because they are who they are, goddammit. We should be able to feel safe to disclose our surgical/hormonal/genetic past to potential sexual partners without fearing for our lives.

And when we are killed, the truth should be told. In these circumstances, although I am all about being truthful that some women weren't 'born women' (I think that phrase is bullshit, but that's another rant), when we are killed, the truth is that we were killed not for being trans women and men, but for being women and men when society thinks we shouldn't be. Thus, we should be listed as women and men so the truth will be told. We weren't killed because someone found out we were lying about our sex (that defense, also bullshit), but because we were ourselves and the fact that they were attracted to someone who didn't fit into a teeny tiny box terrified them.

Sigh.

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Bolding meme

axeslade — Sun, 04 Apr 2010 17:19:19 GMT

Swiped from ambermine

Graduated High School.

Kissed someone.

Smoked cigarettes.

Got so drunk you passed out.

Rode every ride at an amusement park.

Collected something really stupid.

Gone to a rock concert.

Helped someone.

Gone fishing.

Watched four movies in one night.

Gone long periods of time with out sleep.

Lied to someone.

Been dumped.

Snorted cocaine.

Failed a class.

Smoked weed.

Dealt drugs.

Taken a college level course.

Been in a car accident.

Been in a tornado.

Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).

Watched someone die.

Been to a funeral.

Burned yourself.

Ran a marathon.

Your parents got divorced.

Cried yourself to sleep.

Spent over $200 in one day.

Flown on a plane.

Cheated on someone.

Been cheated on.

Written a 10 page letter.

Gone skiing.

Been sailing.

Cut yourself.

Had a best friend.

Lost someone you loved.

Shoplifted something.

Had detention.

Skipped school.

Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.

Stolen books from the library.

Gone to a different country.

Dropped out of school.

Been in a mental hospital.

Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.

Had an online diary.

Fired a gun.

Gambled in a casino.

Had a yard sale.

And a lemonade stand.

been in a school play.

Been fired from a job.

Taken a lie detector test.

Swam with dolphins.

Gone to Sea World or similar.

Attempted suicide.

Voted for TV Idol.

Written poetry.

Read more than 20 books a year.

Gone to Europe; America; Asia; Australia.

Loved someone you couldn’t have.

Wondered about your sexuality.

Used a coloring book over age 12.

Had surgery.

Had stitches.

Taken a taxi.

Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.

Had a drug or alcohol problem.

Been in a fist fight.

Had a hamster.

Petted a wild animal.

Used a credit card.

Gone surfing.

Did “spirit day” at school.

Dyed your hair.

Got a tattoo.

Had something pierced.

Got straight A’s.

Known someone with HIV or AIDS.

Taken pictures with a webcam.

Started a fire.

Had a party while your parents weren’t home.

Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

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Music meme

axeslade — Sat, 27 Mar 2010 21:18:59 GMT

Swiped from ambermine

You can learn a lot about someone from the music they listen to. Here's the game: hit shuffle on your music player, and write down the first 25 songs that come up. No cheating or skipping songs.

1. Ace Of Base-The Sign
2. Tracy Chapman-If These Are The Things
3. The Mamas & The Papas-Yesterday
4. David Bowie-Thursday's Child
5. David Bowie-Diamond Dogs
6. Tori Amos-Glory of the 80s
7. Garbage-Breaking Up The Girl
8. Alice Cooper-Nurse Rozetta
9. The Mamas & The Papas-To Claudia on Thursday
10. REO Speedwagon-Tough Guys
11. Tori Amos-Code Red
12. Tori Amos-Almost Rosey
13. Billy Joel-It's Still Rock & Roll to Me
14. Jonny Lang-Give Me Up Again
15. Goldfrapp-Oooh La La
16. Lou Reed-Satellite Of Love
17. John Mellencamp-Small Town
18. Madonna-Like A Virgin
19. Hedwig and the Angry Inch-Exquisite Corpse
20. Butterfly Boucher-I Can't Make Me
21. The Mamas & The Papas-Dancing in the Street
22. Blues Traveler-Price To Pay
23. k.d. lang-Curiosity
24. Kate Bush-Sat In Your Lap
25. Sugarland-Want To

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axeslade — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 05:15:43 GMT

my lj is over 75% fangirling: the friending meme

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axeslade — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 16:56:05 GMT

Swiped from splix

Leave me a comment and I will:

1 - Tell you why I friended you. (If I have you friended.)
2 - Associate you with something. A fandom, a song, a color, a piece of fruit. SOMETHING.
3 - Tell you something I like about you.
4 - Tell you a memory I have of you. (If I have one, don't you know.)
5 - Associate you with a character/pairing.
6 - Ask something I've always wanted to know about you. (Or else I'll just ask a random question. I reserve that right.)
7 - Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.

(Memes and the like will be cross posted to lj as more people use that. Everything else will be on DW alone)

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Since I'm really sick of LJ's crap...

axeslade — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 03:01:52 GMT

And DW made doing so easy, all my past post, comments, etc are now on DW. I'll be posting over there from now on. Same s/n. I'll still watch people's journals if you're only here, etc.

*waves*

We don't have to play by their rules

axeslade — Sun, 31 Jan 2010 20:06:41 GMT

LJ's fucking with genderqueer/free people again. And not in the fun way

Quoth someone in comments: In what world is "it's personal" less offensive than "unspecified"? Unspecified implies no motive, whereas it's personal? Makes it seem like I'm trying to hide or be coy about my gender.

I'm sure for some people 'it's personal' is a fine option. And really? Yes, my gender is personal, I think it's only really important to me and Bitch. But to the world? Unspecified/other (which are usually the best options I get) let it be known that I'd rather you not code me by what my bits are.

Fuck this shit. I really need to get around to making a personal account on Dreamwidth.

On the plus side, this angry seems to have chased off the headache I've been dealing with since last night.

"Only science can save her vagina"

axeslade — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 23:15:07 GMT

This entire post is very much NSFW (although there are no pictures)

The 6 Weirdest Things Women Do To Their Vaginas

Not included on this list: Vajazzling

Dudes. I don't even...I find just about everything sexy in someway, but almost everything in this article? Yeah, no. I may be in to making up one's face and dying one's (head) hair, but past that? Nature knew best.

Here, have some humour.

DAR On Lady-bit Alteration

I wanna shoot the whole day down

axeslade — Fri, 29 Jan 2010 20:19:35 GMT

While today has, so far, been a fab day....

On January 29, 1979, [Brenda] Spencer posted herself in a window in her home, and started shooting randomly at the Cleveland Elementary School, which stood just opposite. The shooting began as children were waiting outside for principal Burton Wragg to open the gate.
....
When asked why she went on her rampage, she replied, "I just did it for the fun of it. I don't like Mondays. This livens up the day.

...yeah. That is one factoid about my birthday I always remember. Oh. That, and The Raven was apparently first printed on this day, Romeo and Juliet was first performed and Disney's Sleeping Beauty was released. But those are all so cheery compared to that

But the song based on it fucking rocks. So there's that.

And, oddly enough, I was born on a Monday.

...yeah.

axeslade — Fri, 29 Jan 2010 17:30:12 GMT

So...I'm 20.

Today has definitely been better than yesterday, at any rate. Got my bank stuff mostly sorted (they seem to have the wrong phone # on file for me, as I need the last four digits to verify my payment to skype and I've put in both possibilities and they don't work). I ordered my birthday gifts to myself, and thanks to Barnes and Noble being awesome got free expedited shipping. Got a free coffee since my card was full, so breakfast was a mocha and a chocolate chip scone, om nom. Got to sleep in since my math class was canceled.

So, yeah. Pretty good start to 20, even if I don't feel it at all.

axeslade — Fri, 29 Jan 2010 03:59:44 GMT

Fuck you Black Hills Federal Credit Union. If you had just done what you'd said you would, I wouldn't be trying to find a way to get access to my money right now.

Fuck you roommate. Not everyone sees the world the way you do. Not everyone who has to bring their children to the campus daycare 'made bad choices' in the past. Some heavy-duty snogging at the airport when you're parting from your partner for the next year is not on par with having sex in the hallway. Tweeting during a (albeit grandscale) event is not OMGWTFBBQ rude. Tacky, maybe. Really, you of all people should be finding bigger things to be bitchy about.

Fuck you theatre teacher who knows absolutely nothing about theatre.

Fuck you dumbass math program.

I was in such a good mood this last weekend. And now...just fuck it.

Writer's Block: Unfriended, Unspecified!

axeslade — Thu, 28 Jan 2010 05:24:30 GMT

I've deleted a few people from lj without saying why. Usually, they had friended me and out of courtesy I friended back, then realized e had little in common. I don't f-lock much though, so they're really not missing out.

On facebook/myspace, some people from school who I vaguely knew friended me, and I just friended them because I didn't see the harm. Most of these people deleted me first.

The best example of my unfriending an not saying anything is NE. I actually removed them from livejouranl the first time things fell apart, which they noticed (they may have noticed my 'it's falling apart' post first) and there was the slew of apologies. A year goes by, I've friended them on social networks, things fall apart again, I delete them. They come on Facebook, send me a message going 'hey! I thought I'd friended you on here before!' and I go 'um, heh, I was doing a list purge and I guess I accidentally deleted you'.

This last time, they deleted me. And that was more liberating than I can say.

axeslade — Tue, 26 Jan 2010 14:20:34 GMT

Carla Tate: I can't, Mother! I can't paint! I can't ride a horse and I can't dance! But I can love! And I love Daniel.

All things considered, I'm not sure what it says that I relate to Carla a lot. If you slot my grandmother into the role of her mother...hrr, yeah.

Also, considering a chick flick fest of the few I really love over spring break. This will definitely be in there.

This early morning nonsense brought to you by lack of caffeine.

axeslade — Mon, 25 Jan 2010 02:00:32 GMT

Hey guys, if you've ever wanted to ask me something anonymously, you can do it here

axeslade — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 19:58:53 GMT

Apparent hatecrime leaves Buffalo woman blind in one eye

I...

The fact that this is so close to my future home (just as many anti-GLBT hate crimes have been close to my present home) is what made me click.

The fact that someone is already saying, in the comments, something along the lines of 'well, that dyke deserved it'?

This is what's wrong with the world. I don't know what really happened yet. Harmon may have been the one to instigate the fight. If so, she still didn't deserve to lose an eye. (No one does. At heart I am a hippy-dippy peacenik and wish humans had never invented weapons of any kind) But if she did nothing, if she was just being herself around a homophobe?

Yeah, I don't have to go any further, do I?

axeslade — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 01:46:30 GMT

So, there's been some serious ponderings going on thanks to Secretary.

But I also went to town today, and got:

Amy Tan-The Joy Luck Club (have seen the film twice in school, looking forward to this)
A winter hat (any of you who know how giant my head is know what a hard time I have finding hats)
Some tea that is supposed to soothe PMS crazies (it smells good at any rate)
A pair of new-used jeans
A new-used black/silver pinstripe shirt
Lavender oil (for headaches)

axeslade — Sat, 23 Jan 2010 17:58:49 GMT

I watched Secretary last night. Outside of a few little nitpicks, I think it was one of the best 'alternative lifestyle' films I've seen, and definitely the best het romance.

There is some more blather about how the S/M dynamic therein affected me personally, but for various reasons that's over at my transition journal (if you still want the link, PM me or some such). I'm thinking I'll need a few posts over there to talk about it accurately, which is part of the reason it's over there--might bore some of you after a point.

Random yakkity

axeslade — Fri, 22 Jan 2010 21:12:05 GMT

Just got back from the gym. According to the exercise bike, I biked three miles. Also did some weight lifting. And weighed myself. Depending on which reading you take, I am either the same weight I've been forever (which is at the very high end of healthy for my height) or I've lost 1-3 pounds. Considering that I've been living on school/junk food lately, that's very O_o.

Plan for tomorrow (if the weather is nice, which it probably won't be) is to walk to a used clothes store to get some pants, go to Global Market for sundries, Common Grounds for some of those delicious chocolate covered espresso beans (and maybe a 'lunch' of tea and whatever dessert thing they have that calls my name) and drop off some stuff at the library. This can all get pushed to next weekend if need be, but I'd like to do it this weekend because...

Roommate will be gone this weekend, yay!

The coffee shop is calling me. Hrrrr.