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Autistic Elder on this Moment…? “Slouching toward Montauk”
My grandfather was a… complex man. He slept beside an orderly nightstand. Tucking Mein Kampf tight In its tidy drawer every night.
And…
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7 Autistic Decades. I’m Still Driven. What If I NEVER Get “There…”?
Still driven to matter. Desperately. Almost 73. And I can’t unwind… busted springs, broken dancer in a jewel box. This piece isn’t an answer. It’s an accusation. And underneath? A terrified question I can’t stop asking.
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Autistic in a Sea of Faceless Ghosts… I Still Want to Remember You
I can’t see faces. Not even my wife’s. But it means something to me to remember your name. This piece,” “A Swirl of Flesh-Colored Fog,” is about wanting to be friends. Struggling with that simple human desire… when your brain doesn’t work the way the world expects. No clinical terms. No inspiration porn. What it’s…
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This Autistic Elder Looks Back… without Shame
If you’re drawn to the raw experience born of neurodivergence, disability, trauma… or just honest storytelling that doesn’t sanitize the hard parts… Maybe this one’s for you. With full transcript, video, original artwork.
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Spoken Word on Autistic Burnout: “Believe I’ll Ch-Ch-Change… My Shirt”
A raw spoken word performance confronting autistic burnout, meltdowns, and the impossible demand to ‘just change.’ With full transcript, original artwork. Full Text Transcript Someone said an average writer “borrows.” The other kinds, both kinds… steal out right. Bowie, Robert Johnson, Marvin Gaye. I owe you guys one for this. Watch the 3+ minute performance…
Keep readingLive Autistic Truth: “every clock is a handgun pointed at my head”
Full Spoken Word Transcript My time, it can’t be measured. Not a diension. It’s a force. A violent force. every clock is a handgun pointed at my head III Every clock is a handgun pointed at my headEvery tick, tick… fucking tickTolling Fear, Doom… dreadClick. Slide. Cock… click. Every night a mantra echoes through my…
Keep readingExciting Changes Coming to AutisticAF Out Loud!
Welcome new subscribers! Exciting news for all! Friend, Over the next month, I will be migrating AutisticAF.me to its new home on subStack. You have been following us for some time. So it’s important to me that you continue receiving all our free autistic & neurodivergent information. So I am setting you up with a…
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Pathological Demand Avoidance (PDA) Is a Junk Diagnosis
Is Pathological Demand Avoidance (PDA) a ‘junk’ diagnosis? Explore the controversy. Why do leading manuals dismiss PDA? Understand the real impact on autistic children’s natural behaviors. Dive into the discussion! Because every child deserves to be understood, not labeled. #Neurodiversity #PDA #AutismAwareness [Read More]
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Autistic Art: What’s It Mean to THIS Neurodivergent?
What does Neurodivergent Culture mean to this autistic? “Being seen, heard, felt. As I am, without masks.” Explore raw, unfiltered neurodivergent art challenging narratives. Discover “Cyber-Dada,” blending Dadaism & 21st-century tools. Learn how engaging with authentic voices enriches understanding. #AutisticArtistry #Autism #ADHD #NeurodiverseCreativity [Read More]
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Top 7 Reasons Numbered Lists Absolutely Do NOT Help This Actually Autistic
Neurodivergent people possess unique strengths. Sometimes overshadowed by what others may see as challenges. This personal narrative demonstrates how embracing diversity can unlock neurodivergent potential at home, in schools, at work. Learn from an autistic individual’s perspective on turning challenges into strengths. #InclusionInAction [Read More].
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I’m Autistic… Absolutely Drowning in AI? You Can Help Find a Life Raft
Damn. Aren’t YOU fed up with AI & junk info? I have an idea… maybe. How to teach AI to VALUE human expertise… Together… Imagine there’s no domination, no need for competition.
It’s easy if you try.
And if, perhaps? You’re Neurodivergent.
Keep readingREAD: The Autistic Joy of a Sensory Friendly Home
I had a small part in a cool project. Thought I’d share with folks I know would be interested in how to create a sensory-friendly home for neurodivergent folks. I did color commentary. Shannon Des Roches Rosa of Thinking Person’s Guide to Autism did all the heavy lifting. What a mind. If non-autistic people start to…
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Podcast: Actually Autistic? Whatever Doesn’t Kill Your Unique Neurodivergent Ass…, s4e3
Neurodivergent? Let’s challenge societal myths of poverty, trauma, disability. Maybe explore the difference between strength & misery. And why “Toxic Positivity” just doesn’t help. BUT, embracing *real* autistic experience… just might.
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Autism? It’s a State of Being. NOT an Identity Group
Neurodiversity Unveiled. It’s a state of being. This episode cracks open the truth. We dive deep… beyond labels. Into the heart of authenticity. Your journey. Your truth. Let’s explore them together…
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Autistic, in my 70s. I used to DREAD April Autism “Awareness” Month…
Awareness leads to Acceptance leads to Appreciation. Let’s take a look at April Autism Awareness Month…
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8j4jHPrOO3w World Autism Awareness Day — Save the Date, Celebrate Neurodivergents!
I gotta thank the UN for their lead role in changing how we look at autistic people. Here’s why…
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Slouching Toward Joy: My Best 6 Phases To An Actually Autistic Relief
In my 70s, I face the reality of my autism. It’s a raw journey. No miracles. No hacks. But daily, gritty acceptance. And moments of radiant joy in the authentic self.
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Recent Artwork, Fall 2023, Pt 1
An update on my artistic portfolio, focusing on raw, unfiltered #ActuallyAutistic experiences with brand new illustrations.
“In the Back Row”, “In My Own Time”, “Banging Heads”, “Einstein: Autistic Prophet of Dark Time”, and “Autistic Leopard Enters the Secret Club” use visual metaphors to represent the autistic experience, cognition & individual identity.
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Johnny Recommends…
I’ve written a ton of articles on #Medium in the last 4 years. So lotta folks don’t know WHERE to begin. Here are a few hints… Stories Everybody’s Reading, My Personal Faves, Art, Poetry, about me… more.….
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Autism: ChatGPT & Me Talk a New, Powerful Alien Perspective
Dear ChatGPT: Imagine you’re an Alien scientist. Visiting from another planet to study human autism. You see a startling pattern. Human medicine, education, politics… ALL make ONE fatal flaw…
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A Holiday Request… and some LONG Overdue Shoutouts
I provide all my autism info for free. But I depend on the generosity of folks like you to make it happen.
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