☆and all she found was trouble in my eyes;

atoli @ 2013-12-05T12:54:00

2013-12-05T18:54:57Z

Every so often I still peek in here, although my flist is pretty dead, save for a few people. But I really miss LJ; DW is pretty good site-wise but nobody ever uses it for actual journaling anymore, just rping, and there's no huge fandom communities or anything there. It kind of sucks. Plurk is way too exhausting and I find myself not wanting to keep up with it anymore.

Blegh.

atoli @ 2011-12-22T07:54:00

2011-12-22T13:55:11Z

I know I pretty much never use this journal anymore, but I did try to keep up with my flist regardless. So in light of LJ's recent fuckery, a bunch of people have been migrating over to DW, so I thought I'd mention if anyone wants to friend me over there, go ahead: atoli I do want to keep up with people still! Even if we barely talked, feel free to friend me regardless. I'll try to talk more.

I've been trying not to cause a stink about this whole change, but the new comment page functions are causing a real damper on how I utilize this site anymore-- which is RPing, basically. :| I'm glad I only have one account I use anymore.

If you're not moving I'll probably still roll around in here from time to time. Haven't paid for this journal in years anyway (thankfully).

atoli @ 2011-01-10T04:32:00

2011-01-10T10:33:01Z

Holy hell, have I really not posted a thing in here since September? I think that's a new record of inactivity or something; I'd blame Plurk, but I'm not even sure if I still would have had anything worth mentioning.

At any rate, I guess I should resolve to use this thing more... Let's see how long that lasts, I guess. I have this mindset that I should only post when I have a substantial amount of whatever going on my life that warrants a lengthy post, but frankly I never have a lot of that going on (nothing new, really). Still, my mind usually goes a million miles a minute, but organizing your thoughts... It's kind of silly to say, but putting them in an understandable way is harder than it sounds. I think that's why I've sort of fallen into silence when it comes to this LJ; I used to be able to wordvomit anything at the drop of a hat, and steadily over the years it became more difficult to do that.

But I digress.

It's 4am and I should be cleaning the last bits of the upstairs for more family coming over tomorrow. I severely doubt this will happen, but I'm hoping it won't be nearly as suffocating as when my other aunt was here a few months prior; it's really, really annoying when you get griped at about things that are normal in our home. Again, digressing; my other aunt is considerably more chill. That aside, the house is in constant disarray, and has been for a while now because mom still can't do anything.

I'll leave it at that, though, since I don't want to dwell on it too much right now. It's depressing to think about it, and this late into the morning I'm more prone to falling into negative thoughts. ... It being this late also means I don't want to clean anymore, but if I don't chances are dad will get even more annoyed later. Uhg.

Well this post turned into a whole lot of whatever who cares babble, soooo I should probably go back to doing what I should. Not dead yet though, promise, and I'll try to think of... something to post about in the future.

Peace out.

atoli @ 2010-09-03T01:18:00

2010-09-03T06:18:50Z

Mom's doing better now. She finally came home yesterday and seems to be doing okay. Although there's more treatments to follow, so it isn't the end of the road yet...

Ahhhh I'm just glad it's looking up, at least by a little. And thanks to everyone who responded to my last post; I don't know what to say individually to everyone but the thoughts and kind words were very appreciated, especially after freaking out over the whole ordeal. It hasn't been a very fun situation.

Mm. I guess that's all I have to say about it for now. I've been dwelling on it far too much.

In happier news, I shall be trekking out to A-Fest with Jamie, Robert, and Melly in some hours (ha ha me sleeping before a con) for the weekend. I'm looking forward to it! It's definitely one of my favorite cons so hopefully this year will be just as much of a blast, since every one before it has been. If anyone's going (should they see this before heading there), come track me down or something! I'm sure I'll be easy to spot by those who know me, haha.

That's about it, I think! I'm just gonna laze around and play Umineko until I have to leave.

the details!

2010-06-09T05:23:49Z

ok A-kon stuff, may as well get this done! And then I'll stop talking about it.

So I decided to drive off to Dallas at 3 in the morning because I couldn't fall asleep, and going on a three hour drive on zero sleep probably wasn't one of my brightest ideas but hey, I did it! Am I a certified driving badass yet? Anyway, got there at six, and maybe it was a good thing I got there so early because parking was already impossible to find. Jesus. Getting there early also meant I didn't have to wait very long in line for my badge, yaaaay.

After that I met up with some friends (one who I work with, the other I've known for ages) and we did a whole lot of nothing until the dealer's room opened up, where we went on a VERY IMPORTANT MISSION to find Touhou figures (it is awesome having a coworker who likes Touhou guys). Eventually our search came up successful and I bought a Remilia figure kyaa kyaa I love everything. And then um... I don't remember what I did after that, Friday was kind of a blur until evening time! I hopped into my Shino costume which I only brought because the Haseo from last AFest was going to be there, and soon enough we met up and wandered around for a while. Well, less wandered and more "got stopped every other step because people wanted photos of us", but you know what I mean. Some hours later we got tired and decided to change out, and I hunt out in their room for a while in nice comfy pajamas. Oh, and uptaunt was with me too! So we both lazied around in there. Or rather, Foxx played Pokémon with one of the other guys and I fell asleep on their bed. Ahaha... ha. Though when I went into my proper bed that night, I was out within seconds. Best sleep of my life, man.

Saturday came, changed into Maka (I did her Spartoi uniform this time), and did a whole lot more wandering. And, well, that day I learned that apparently only like, three other people in the world read the Soul Eater manga :( I had gotten a bunch of comments like "why are you wearing all white?" and "that's an unusual variation" and I was just like scream come on... guys....... :'(

BUT I STILL FELT LIKE A SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE 'CUZ I WAS THE ONLY SPARTOIMAKA THERE. YEAH!!!!!!

That aside, I did get a lot of compliments on my scythe! Which made me happy, because although I didn't get to do all the finishing last touches I wanted on it ~~lol procrastination~~, I still think it came out pretty good. One guy even said it was the coolest looking weapon prop he'd seen throughout the entire con. Yeeeeah ego strokin'. ¦D

Sunday I put it on again, since there was supposed to be an SE shoot, buuuut... no one showed up so that didn't happen, lol. Although the Haseo who also cosplays Crona who was actually at Matsuri and I never mentioned that was changed into Crona on Sunday, along with the Stein again, and we briefly had a Tsubaki and Blair, and oh my god run on sentences ANYWAY WE ALL KINDA CHILLED FOR A WHILE. Though mostly, I hung out with jigglygrlcarrie too, who is an amazing sweetheart by the way u____u She bought me food when my credit card was being a dumbass due to stupid reasons, and also got me a Soul & Maka figure thing WHEN I TOLD HER NOT TO, that whore, but she sneakily ninja'd off and did it anyway. >:c

After that I drove home, whoooo. Okay this is like the ABRIGED A-KON REPORT because I seriously cannot remember every detail and these things are boring to write out anyway.

So let's get to the marginally more exciting part-- PICTURES YEAH!!1

Part of these I jacked from Robin again, and the other portion are mine.

Meeee. I actually wore this for about an hour or two on Friday 'cause I was eager to try it out, haha.

I'M LOOKING PARTICULARLY DERP HERE. But... yep. That's us.

We found a Tri-Edge! I think this picture is pretty sweet.

I don't even know man.

Yeah, we're... pretty tardtastic.

Combing out her wig, since the hat messed it up pretty good. XD

Can't go a single con without me thinking I'm a gangsta'.

So I rarely go out of my way to take pictures of others, mostly due to lazy, but these two.... HUFFHUFFHUFFHUFFHUFF.

HUFF..... ohgod I hope they never find my livejournal.

itp duski has a terrible sense of humor.

Our tiny little group that lasted all of fifteen minutes.

SHE MADE SMOKEBOMBS TOO, LOOK HOW CUTE THEY ARE.

Angry Carrie on phone.

DUSKI EATS BABIES

Carrie suggested this piece of lolarity.

And more of Carrie, cosplaying from Cave Story. Sadly I did not get her other Cave Story bros.

awwwyeahhhhh.

Found a Black*Star in the dealer's room, and Stein wanted to take pictures with them. XD

Kinda blurry. Ah well.

SADLY NOT A LOT OF PICTURES BUT YEAH. I GOT SOME!!!

Other than that, A-kon this year was pretty chill. It went by pretty fast, too, which I was fine with due to some lameass circumstances, but eh. Other than that, I was glad to see everyone I ran into again, and rooming with legit and the gang was fun. I liked being able to chill with them. :3

That's all!

home.

2010-06-07T02:24:47Z

By some miracle of god I didn't crash, however I am exhausted. Gonna hit bed in a bit, so I'll get into the details later.

lack of wit does not make for interesting subject lines.

2010-05-29T19:09:15Z

Man, I'm not even sure if it's worth renewing for my journal anymore. I don't really use it or the features a whole lot, and shelling out all that money just for icons I don't use often either doesn't sound like something I want to do. I am selectively a cheap bastard. Whoo!

That random thought out of the way, next weekend! I am looking forward to it! For it is A-kon, which yes I am going to, and I am excited! I am not, however, looking forward to elevator hell, but I guess having to wait ten years just to go up an elevator isn't bad enough to put a huge damper on my ~con experience~. Either way, the part I'm looking forward to the most is being able to chill with legit and the rest of their gang again. They were here last weekend but I miss them already. :'(

I demand to know who else is going!

Aaaaand that, uh... concludes just about all I have in mind. I mean, other than work woes, in which everyone is pissing me off more so than usual lately and I just may very well snap and go clincally insane, but I do enough of that already so nobody likely wants to hear about it. Mmyep.

Today I will unlazy and do stuff I should have done like, a month ago! YEAAHHHH.

oh for the love of

2010-04-27T07:05:20Z

- Not get enough hours of sleep because you are an idiot and stayed up late.
- Wake up, go to work somewhat sleep deprived.
- Have an unusually exhausting day at work on top of that. Massive headache helped none.
- Come home feeling like death. Your brain has turned into complete mush.
- Decide to go to bed early, because staying awake is getting to be painful, and you have to be up early anyway.
- Toss and turn in bed for two and a half hours because you are wide awake.

（╯‵□′）╯︵┴─┴

whine whine whine.

2010-04-26T01:05:51Z

Job interviews suck. It doesn't matter how much I recite stuff in my head, I always manage to fumble and screw up what I want to say or just MISS SOMETHING ENTIRELY when I'm actually being interviewed and screw up my chances entirely. Why can't I just go "omg guys I promise you I am so qualified for this job can you just hire me right now please" and it work.

Afterward, as I was sitting in my car attempting to refrain from banging my head against the driving wheel for a good ten minutes, I got to witness the hilarity that was watching someone trying to park their hugeass SUV into this tiny little parking spot. Not only did they drive their car right into the one to the left of it, but then they backed up, tried to get back in, scraped the side of their bumper against the side of the car to the right (it... was a very, very nice expensive looking sports car, too), and then sat there for a good minute or so with a very ohshit expression on their face. For a moment I thought she was actually going to be stupid enough to park there anyway, but eventually she backed up to cheez it. But not without driving right into a tree, first. The entire scene was pretty hilarious (and some other lady eating outside whipped out her cell phone and started taking pictures of the whole thing).

I will never understand why people have the need to buy unnecessarily huge SUVs or trucks, but eh. Whatever, their problem if they wanna crash into stuff.

So, back to whining-- my mouth has been incredibly sore for DAYS. I was hoping it was just a kanker sore or something, but no matter how much I feel back there, I can't feel any kind of cut or whatever. It's just that gum area behind my molar, so now I'm kind of wigging out, especially after "lol hay maybe it's your wisdom teeth" was brought up. I HOPE TO GOD THAT IS NOT IT. Otherwise I'll... I don't know, cry a lot, goddamn. Either way it hurts to open my mouth or eat or even swallow, so this better go away soon. :|

I had one last thing to complain about, but it just got resolved! Hooray! Now I can spare all of you one last paragraph. Now if you'll excuse me, I must finish getting myself fat on cookies.

awwwyea

2010-04-21T17:09:09Z

I've only been awake for ten minutes and today is already pretty fuckwin awesome.

Although I'm fairly certain my dad is going to manage to rectify this problem somehow, I am going to enjoy AWESOME DAY while it lasts.

NOW TO GET CAR STUFF DONE, WHOO.

matsuri! but once again mostly SE spam.

2010-04-07T02:42:44Z

Belated I AM BACK FROM MATSURI post. Would've done this sooner but I've been too busy trying not to die (fuck yeah con plague!!!) to bother. But anyway! I have photos to share!! They're all pretty much of the Soul Eater shoot and adventure times before/after it, so. (No my bias is not showing at all what are you talking about.)

Again I am too lazy to go in-depth about the entire weekend (which was pretty much just me hanging with people and the like anyway), but just know it was all pretty cool and I had a lot of fun with all the people I hung out with.

SO ONWARDS.

aaaaaa Marie!!1 We passed by each other in the dealer's room earlier in the day and I was like OHMYGOD. I love Marie so much ;_; I was so happy to see her aaahhh.

I was being a tard with asmaria's cape. Her and her friends were cosplaying from Reborn, except I forgot who she was supposed to be. 6_9 Well, either way, that big fluffy thing was as comfortable as it looks.

Chopping uh... Xanxus? How does I know characters ¯\(º_o)/¯

And now for the shoot, in no particular order. Some of these are mine, but my camera died halfway through since I forgot to charge it (oops), so I am shamelessly stealing some from one of the other girls that was with us. MY ADVENTURES MUST BE SHARED.

I... think this was candid.

THIS IS SO ADORABLE AAAHH. Some little kid came up out of nowhere wanting a picture with Shinigami. ;w;

~*the group*~

/cling!

more bffdom

kyaaaa Marie

Something is clearly amiss here.

HELLO PROFESSOR

another candid shot

obligatory.

SORUUU 8U

I am not even sure what's going on here, but it is quite the paradox nonetheless.

I CAN'T GO ONE SE SHOOT WITHOUT GAY HAPPENING CAN I

The best photo you will ever lay your eyes upon.

... I'm not sure who that guy is supposed to be, but Crona is about to shank him, apparently.

Yet another candid shot.

PARADOXING.

Obligatory emo corner shot.

LOOK AT ME I'M AN ATTENTION WHORE. We were suggested the carameldansen dance as a pose, but since I hate that meme with every fiber of my being by this point, there was no way in hell I was going to do it. SO YEAH. I had no idea Marie joined in until after I flipped through my camera. XD

STEINS GONE WILD

Oh god, her face in this makes me lol. The bolt actually spinned and clicked, so we were all rather fascinated by it. XD

Weapons swap!

aaaand again

HEADSHOT

Can't you see the family resemblance ;w;

BATTORU

partneeerssss

Sadly you can't really tell in this photo, but the ball thingy glowed red, so we pretended it was a soul. SOUL EATING A SOUL. HURPADERP, I WONDER WHERE THE TITLE OF THIS SERIES CAME FROM.

Ragnarok gets some nomnoms, too.

Unfortunately it was the only chair on hand. :c

~*TEAMWORK*~

... and then I had to fix Kid's ring.

Us chilling.

WE'RE GANGSTA

The most epic of D8 faces.

chop. B)

And now for a brief interlude: Soul Eater does the Cheesecake Factory.

The most flattering of photos.
For the record, yes, I was enjoying the hell out of that soup. SO DELICIOUS.

Bitches don't even know how delicious it was.

fixing the wig. ;_;

Afterwards we went around a part of the mall outside for more photo adventures.

ajk;lsdkjld I love this picture. Putting a penny in the fountain. ;u;

lol, candid shots.

I CAN BE DRAMATIC.

That rock was surprisingly difficult to balance on.

It was right after this we discovered the "please don't climb on the rocks" sign. GG ME.

MOVE YER ASS, CRONA.

Fusion haaaaa. (I am not really sure where this came from.)

And the prospect of this terrifies me to think about.

I make such dumb faces sometimes. :|;;

... like I said, dumb faces. /o\ waaaugh.
Yes I am very aware of how close I came to flashing everybody.

A VERY FAMILIAR SCENARIO.

Maka loev flowers.

~*best friends forever!!!*~

That is all. \o/ Now to hope I get a lot better by tomorrow, because euuuurgh work. Being sick blows. :C

status: nnnnnngh

2010-04-01T13:04:30Z

What the hell, body. I'm awake at WHY AM I EVEN UP o'clock after four hours of snoozin' and for some reason I can't fall back into unconsciousness. This sucks. :|

There's no one for me to bother this early in the morning, either. Wahhh.

My inability to sleep aside, I tried to think up something of substance to accompany this question with, but my life is about as exciting as watching paint dry so I guess I got nothing. EITHER WAY, THE BURNING QUESTION: Anyone going to Anime Matsuri? It's tomorrow! ("Oh, don't be silly, Duski! You already know everyone's going to Anime Boston or Sakuracon!") SHUT UP, I can dream ;_; Either way, I'm looking forward to it.

And after months of given up hope, I am finally turning in my resume to some place that is ~supposedly~ hiring. Bastards better call me back, dammit. I want out of FB so bad before I drive myself into a brick wall. AND I WILL. MY CURRENT JOB CAN AND WILL PUSH ME INTO SUCH DRASTIC MEASURES. only not, cry. but oh, is it tempting on some days.

I am going to crash so hard later, I can just feel it. 6_9

Ramblings.

2010-03-15T00:23:39Z

I was going to make an actual post about life when I got home from work, but then I came back only to see the raws for the new SE chapter was posted, and now I've been rendered into a puddle of goo who can't think anything beyond HEE HEE HEE. Ohkubo, you are so fucked up in the head. NEVER CHANGE. ♥

Also happy that my dad offered to buy me contacts for my birthday. It's funny that I was going to ask him about it, but he ended up bringing it up first. That clears up that issue!

Daylight savings already blows, by the way. It would have been better if I didn't have to work an early shift today. :(

And thus concludes this Mind Numbingly Mundane Journal Entry.

nothing terribly important, carry on now.

2010-02-05T05:27:25Z

BREAKING RADIO SILENCE FOR

So I got a new wig for my Maka cosplay... ages ago or something, and I've been meaning to take pictures to see how it looks, but considering what a hilarious task it is to stuff my hair under any sort of wig I've been putting it off. But! Today, instead of mindlessly F5'ing my flist continuously for hours on end, I decided to finally get off my lazy bum and do it!

I am very pleased with how it looks! It's a million times better than the bullshit that was my last wig. OBSERVE:

myspace pose omg
it needs to be straightened a little but otherwise I am very happy with it.

and my stomach is still as unflattering as ever. Maybe I should stop eating so much fast food ajkl;asd guys having a car is dangerous. All I do is go out and BUY FOOD siiigh I'm going to become such a fatty someday.

Anyway yeah I should exercise...

'kay peace out.

ehhh screw the filter I usually post this crap under.

2010-01-19T08:41:35Z

1. Where and when did you start RPing?

Back in... 2004, I think? I'm pretty sure my first game was a Detective Conan RP jigglygrlcarrie and I started. It had a surprisingly good run for a little bit before it met the inevitable end most single fandom RPs have.

2. Do you RP anywhere other than LJ?

I never have! So the setup of message board RPs confuse me, and I never was too crazy about AIM RP the few times I tried it.

3. Do you play in any public games?

Indeedy I do. I find them easier to play in since I'm not creative enough with plots or ideas to do one-on-one or private RP, and there's a wider variety of people to play with.

4. Do you prefer first-person comment spam or prose logging?

Depends. I adore prose like it's nobody's business, but it requires more work, where as comment spam doesn't. I prefer to use prose for more serious threads or where the scenario would just be a whole lot better with the narrative and introspection you can get with words, but for more casual and/or silly ones, I enjoy comment spam.

5. What was the first character you ever played?

Ai Haibara from Detective Conan.

6. Who's your favorite character to play now and why?

You'd never guess with how little I've been playing her for a while, but... definitely Yukari. She's very, very easy for me to play, and I never get bored of playing her; I think I'm just getting bored with the settings she's currently in. Sometimes I want to app her into a new game just to get a new start with her (it's been two years since, and AMS doesn't count, as it was an AU game).

7. What's the longest you've ever consistently played one character?

I think Yukari? I played Atoli for a while, but definitely not for two consistent years.

8. What's your biggest RP pet peeve?

Oh lord. e.e I have a million of them. So I'll just leave it at that.

9. Do you read RP secrets and the RP anon meme?

Yes and yes; I've been reading both since their beginnings.

10. If you've played in public before, do you prefer community based or journal based games?

COM-FUCKING-MUNITY.

11. Would you rather play with someone who's very very IC but a mediocre writer or someone who isn't always IC (but not terrible) and a great writer?

... Hahaha, I'll be honest-- I hate boring writing. It's dull and not fun to play off of. Even if your characterization is a little off, I don't care as long as your writing is fun to read and equally enjoyable to tag off of. Well, I mean, I'll probably point characterization issues off if I could, but. Yeah. My two cents.

12. Do you have a "RP partner"?

Not really. I have a handful of people I've bounced off of very well with certain characters, but nobody I play with all the time and go into a lot of games with.

13. Do you ever stalk any casts, games, or players? Who?

I, uh, okay I won't deny that I am a huge creepy stalker. MOSTLY, I am just nosy, but a lot of times I really do like reading all sorts of characters for the fandoms I love. I used to stalk EVERYONE EVER for .hack and Persona, now it's Soul Eater, lulz. (I am such a predictable person.) Also, I stalk dear_mun more than what should be considered healthy; hell if I know why, because while I do enjoy threading there when I do, the fourth walling such a community tends to have gets really awkward. Or rather, I should say the way some people handle it is. And I hate fourth walling! I don't even know.

14. In your opinion, which part of an app is the most difficult/annoying?

ALL OF IT. I hate apps so, so much. And this is why I rarely pick up new characters, haha-- it's so much easier to reuse the same ones over and over. Though, the personality and sample sections can go stab itself and die more than the rest of it. History is close behind, but not as frustrating; it's just tedious and mind-numbing. Every RP ever should have canon sections like cfud!!!

15. Are you one of those people who has to customize their character's journal layout and userinfo?

Yes. I get more into customizing the userinfo than the journal, though.

16. What was your first game?

The aforementioned Detective Conan game.

17. Are there any canons you avoid tagging characters from?

Mm... There are canons I don't like, so if I see them in an RP I won't go out of my way to tag them. If they tag me, sure, I'll play with them, and who knows, maybe something good will come out of it. But otherwise, I just leave them be.

18. Most memorable scene in any thread?

I think AMS had the most of them for me. The one that stands out the most for me was the Fortune Arcana plot, if only because of the huge plot twist these bastards pulled on me. I don't think anything will surprise me more than that, hahaha. That game just had a lot of really fun threads in it.

19. Do you RP sex?

Nnnnnnooooooooo.

20. Do you play more males or females?

I... play just females right now. :B

21. What *won't* you RP?

Sex? Hahaha god, I. Don't know, I don't really get what's the Big Deal about it, and I find it really awkward to put a good majority of characters in such situations, but... eh, whatever the fangirls like, I guess.

22. Dressing rooms: yes or no?

I don't actively play in any, despite... modding one lulz. I wouldn't mind them, but I find a good majority of DRs start off strong, and then eventually get so cluttered with weird AUs that it sort of gets off-putting.

23. Ever RPed a pairing?

I have. Back when... I was a pretty terrible RPer, but I'm still impressed by the amount of development we put in it regardless. For the curious, it was between Alphonse Elric and Setsuna Sakurazaki. :x And on occasion I will go back and thread our billions of threads, trying not to cringe between all the nostalgia. Sob.

24. Favorite place to play: musebox, open posts, public games, private games?

Public games, mostly because I haven't done much with any other kind of games/museboxes/what have you.

25. Talking RP with someone else who plays your character: fun or awkward?

Psshaw, nobody ever actively plays Atoli or Yukari! But adoricrack is another Maka player that I talk with a lot, and I have to say it's been pretty fun. Since we're both pretty active players, we're always sharing ideas or whatever wacky hijinks we get into next, or even on occasion go "OH GOD HELP, I'M STUCK ON THIS THREAD, HOW SHOULD I REPLY". But uh, yes, it's been fun dorking out with each other.

FFFFUUUUUU I actually had stuff I wanted to talk about, but WHOOPS LOST TRACK OF THE TIME, I really gotta sleep 'cause I'll probably get long winded about it. I swear I will post something that isn't a stupid meme later.

Argh.

2010-01-03T04:40:23Z

I need to friggin' post more. This once every two months thing is kind of lame, especially now since I feel so disconnected from the folks on my flist. BLAH BLAH BLAH, SPAM MOAR DUSKI. No idea why I never do, even when I do have stuff happening in my life (which I do. maybe I'll talk about it some other day.), but I guess I'm just mostly lazy.

Holidays went okay, I guess. We didn't do anything for Christmas or New Years, so they went about as well as your average day can get.

Tomorrow, if I don't sleep in until 3 PM again, I'm going to try to convince myself I will not die trying to drive and perhaps go to the mall. I really need to get out.

And because they make the world go 'round, here's a meme:
HONESTY MEME
Not that I'm expecting much out of it, as usual, but why the hell not. ¦D

Hookay, time to continue being lazy!

Yulecon! But mostly SE spam.

2009-11-23T07:24:07Z

Back from Yulecon! Which I never said I'd be going to in my journal, but I talk to a lot of you in chats anyway, SO!

The weekend started off bleurgh but ended off in a really good note! I had a lot of fun, even for a small con, had a good time with friends and met some new ones. Raimi and Stephie are, as usual, tons of fun to hang with, and thanks to Jamie and Robert for letting me bum rides off them as usual. *A*

I'm not gonna get into a whole lot of detail since I'm super lazy, plus all I really did was a whole lot of walking around and just chilling with people. JUST KNOW I HAD FUN, OKAY?

In other news, earlier today... yesterday... uh, Sunday, I found a Soul Eater group to hang with! I wasn't gonna wear Maka on Sunday, but on Saturday I was informed that I MUST since there would be a smallish group, and there was no way I could say no. XD And I'm glad I brought the costume after all (even if it was sans the coat and scythe; I didn't feel like going all out for this con), because I had a lot of fun hanging with them and picture whoring. So... now you get my photos. All seventy-something of them.

HERE WE GO. My camera got passed around like a hooker on a street corner, so I can't even remember who took what picture. That's probably why there's so many of them.

Thaaaaat's us.

The rejections started early, as you can see.

WEAPONS

Impromptu dance party. We... ended up doing this often.

Candid shot.

'Nother candid shot.

A... moment of gay.

Partnerrrrssss.

PAPA STOLE THE CAMERA.

Thaaaaat's nice, Professor.

... idek.

GO AWAY PAPA

/REJECTS WITH PLUSHIE

... Papa stole the camera again.

... I would like to note how Black*Star strategically placed themselves. None of us noticed at all until after the picture was taken. What an attention whore. :|

Papa want around shoving the camera in their faces. xD

MAKA'S WORST NIGHTMARE.

Rejecting Papa some more. Only, something seems amiss...

-- Oh. That's why.

I'm not entirely sure if Soul is trying to help push him in or save him... :|a

Papa, being constantly rejected, sits solemnly at the fountain.

... and Stein comes in to comfort him.

... another moment of gay. How kawaii desu.

Bros.

... total bros.

I don't even know anymore.

And now, for a brief interlude: Soul Eater does McDonald's.

... h-hello there, Professor.

WHY DO I HAVE TO SIT NEXT TO PAPA.

INTERLUDE OVER.

... for a moment of gay.

GROUP HUG. Black*Star approves.

DRAMATICS.

A moment of-- well, you should know.

/FACE IN HANDS

lulz us trying to imitate manga cover poses.

PARTNERRRSSSS.

... no idea, they just wanted me to pose like that XD

No Papa, go away >:c

No Professor, stop being a creeper. D:

Bros.

Group shot!

So I took a random picture of our feet...

... and then everyone else wanted in. XD So, all of our feets.

All in all, I had a lot of fun hanging with them and wandering around the con :D

... I did notice, though, looking at these pictures, that I'm a lot more flabby than I thought I was. Maybe I should, I dunno, actually start exercising a bit from now on. :| And get less of an "oh my god my stomach" look. And lord, I can't keep a straight face to save my life. I look kind of doofy in the bad way when I smile sometimes. ... While we're at it, I need a better self-image, too.

AND THAT'S ALL! Now to look forward to a long week ahead of us. DX

Carry on now.

Memey memey meme.

2009-09-18T07:00:12Z

Breaking radio silence for a writing meme, because I... want to write fic again or something.

Stealing this from a bunch of Islanders hurr.

The Great A-Z Multifandom Drabbling Meme!

This is how it works:

1. Pick a letter.
2. Pick a prompt that starts with that letter (ex. K is for Keyhole)
3. Pick a fandom (if you're not sure of a fandom I might know just ask away), and character(s)/pairing.

Leave them in a comment and I'll write a drabble for you. No repeats in letters.

A → Awkward; Haseo & Endrance
B → Ballet; Yousuke, Kanji, & Teddie
C → Competition; Atoli & Alkaid
D → Duel; Crow & Maka
E →
F → Flowers; Atoli & Rose
G → Game; Yukari
H → Hit me baby one more time; Souji/Naoto (lmao)
I →
J →
K → Kitties; Alphonse :B
L → Lonely; Edward
M → Maid outfits; Yukari & Tear
N → No nice things; Maka & Blue
O → OOPS MY HAND SLIPPED; Justin & Giriko
P → Penalty Game; Yukari & Mion
Q →
R → Reckless; Kazuha & Maka
S → Slip; Maka & Soul
T →
U →
V → Victorian Houses; Alphonse
W → Waiting; Maka & Papa
X →
Y → You're a what now?; Yukari & Satsuki
Z →

Alright go.

AFest report! (see also: duski keysmashes a lot)

2009-09-08T06:26:59Z

OKAY I AM HOME, and I'd say I want to kill myself because I am in so much pain, but then I couldn't tell you all about how FUCKING AWESOME AFEST WAS.

Okay I'll try to make this shortish because tl;dr is lame, and please excuse my capslocking and general spazziness.

SO ON FRIDAY we got to the hotel pretty early, but as soon as we got our room I went to take a nap rofl :( I was tired... and didn't wake up until 3? Anyway not long after I let everyone know I was alive again I changed into my Maka cosplay (THANK YOU RAIMI FOR LETTING ME BORROW THE BOOTS kjsdkhlsdk) aaaand did... a whole lot of nothing until 7! Since that's when the Soul Eater photoshoot was supposed to be 'A' Except there was just a Crona sitting at the fountain soooo I just sat with her and we chatted for a bit (and nobody was showing up for a while... lulz. apparently everyone had their times mixed up). SO WHEN PEOPLE DID SHOW UP (including Stephie, who was also cosplaying Maka /o/) we all wandered elsewhere, except the whole thing was kinda ..... :B well needless to say, Stephie and I ended up doing our own thing after a while XD;;;; Haha. After that uhh... something something I don't remember, but I met up with her and Raimi later in their P4 cosplay for the Persona shoot at midnight. That, on the other hand, was fun and everyone had really good cosplay (someone even made bearsuit Teddie and ohlord, it was glorious).

After that I was really tired so I went to bed. Whoooo.

Saturday I changed into Maka again because the Crona from the day before (who left early too) said she'd be around again with a Soul and Blair, except... they weren't.

:'(

BUT THAT'S OKAY, because wandering around was fun anyway but sob, there were so many other good SE cosplayers too, but I am too awkward for life and I didn't gather the courage to ask for photos orz. even though I really wanted to..... /wrist

Though Stephie went back into Maka again too after the Megaten photoshoot (which was... basically Persona all over again, except some DDS to mix things up whoo) and brought her scythe prop with her (which was, by the way, REALLY HEAVY) and we both lugged it around for a long while. We even went outside and took some pretty nice pictures at some fountain place thing!

Later that night I met up with Sin and we went to TGIF /o/! Mmmm delicious food, and she was kind enough to pay for me, THANK YOU SIN ;; SO AFTER THAT....... apparently I would be a light drinker because even after just one it was like walking became a hilarious new challenge or something. (I WASN'T DRUNK YOU BASTARDS-- YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.) Despite that I walked around for a while until I decided to chill at the fountain in the lobby. It was so busy that night, aaaaand sometimes I like to people watch-- especially at cons, because there's so many costumes to look at. After I got bored with that I... don't... remember what I did??? I think I just went to bed or something, idek.

Sundaaayyy Iiiii... woke up really crabby. I'm not really sure why, but I was, and for some reason that meant changing into my Shino costume was a good idea. I mean-- I love the costume, but it's also extremely uncomfortable to wear (if only because of the stockings and shoes; the former is tight. really tight. as in "i have bruises on my legs AGAIN" tight.) and it gets a lot of attention. Normally I don't mind, but my tolerance level was kinda... down the crapper for a while, between people bothering me while I was trying to eat and having to take my glasses on and off and on and off constantly (someday I'll invest in some contacts, uhg...), and just-- PEOPLE! I didn't stay in the costume for very long.

Being able to chill in normal clothes is really nice, let me tell you. But then this scenario happened.... I went with Stephie to this one table in the artist's alley because one of the girls there had these cute pins I wanted to buy. When she first asked me which ones I was going to get, I pointed out one of Haseo, and after a moment the girl who was selling them says "Oh yeah, there's a Haseo cosplayer walking around." and I was like WHAT. For as long as I've been cosplaying Shino I've never seen another .hack cosplayer, and a freaking Haseo shows up. My "GODDAMMIIIIIIIIIIIT" levels were so high because this was right after I changed XDDD;;; AUGH. So I was like SHIT STEPHIE, WE HAVE TO FIND THEM!!!1 and we ran everywhere until we did XD;;;;; I think I freaked out the poor girl at first because I ran up to her like a flailing idiot, ahjdshjsdj. But I told her I was the Shino cosplayer and I'd totally change back into it if she wanted photos or something and then we both flailed at eachother like idiots for a bit-- she had to be somewhere so we decided to meet up later and I was like vnklnslnldjk forever, augh. Poor Stephie had to put up with me being on cloud nine for a while, but it put me in such a good mood after feeling like a moody bitch for most part of the day, and I'm pretty sure I made an idiot out of myself in front of a lot of people, BUT THAT'S OKAY BECAUSE GODDAMMIT, HASEO. .... About an hour or so later, I then realized I never did buy those pins like I intended do, and when I went back to the table we all laughed at myself XD;;;

fffff okay so I did that, and she found me again, and after Jamie took a few nice photos we wandered outside to take some more-- I'm SO mad my camera is a piece of shit, because mine came out HORRIBLE... but hopefully I'll be able to get some better ones from one of her friends. Anyway! After that we came back inside and wandered together for a while. Her and her friends were really nice and fun to hang out with ;; Buuuut... all good things come to an end eventually; it was getting late, and they invited me to go to Denny's with them, but I was really, really, really freaking worn out and I didn't feel up to traveling out of the hotel. I FELT BAD because they were super awesome, but yeah, tired! I went to crash Raimi and Stephie's room in NICE NORMAL CLOTHES instead, wherein we crashed someone else's room and ate a lot of food, and after a while we all went to bed. It was good times, though.

Today I didn't even try to do anything hahah XD;;; I just sat on my laptop at the artist's alley until we had to go, I was so burnt out on con stuff. But I had tons of fun, and being able to hang out with friends and meet new ones was really, really great-- being able to see them all always reminds me of the awesome people I already know and just how cool new ones can be, even if you never meet them again. And yeah! AFest was super great, I can't tell you how much fun I had. OBVIOUSLY, there was a lot more that happened, but this is just the main stuff-- I can't even remember all the details and whatever in order, but I bumped into a lot of people I know and just generally had a good time.

Now that you went through all THAT crap, here's some photos! Admittedly, not many-- and uhhhh, I kinda camwhored myself more this con, since I rarely ever did before and I kind of wish I did, and I'm also pretty lazy about asking other people for pictures, so.... :B OH WELL. PICTURES!

Let's start off with some that aren't me:

Maria from Umineko! She gave me a lolipop because she was happy someone recognized her |D

TRAVIS TOUCHDOWN. I took this one because I thought of Owl :( But he was pretty sweet.

MAN REISEN

kula's TOTALLY ADORABLE MAYA COSPLAY sob i love it so much.....

Cielo and Gale awyeeeahhhh. Hilariously, the Cielo could pull off the Jamacian accent, hahaha.

CANDID RAIMI SHOT

CANDID STEPHIE SHOT

hookay this is where I get to be a camwhore:

When Stephie, Raimi, and I went outside to take pics--

I was trying to pick that damn thing up, and it... was really heavy!

Okay so I manage to get it up

:B!!!

This one was actually taken after the Persona photoshoot-- we found a pretty nifty staircase on the balcony thing afterwards that a few of us used for our own pictures.

I should have lifted my head up more, but eh. Still looks decent?

OKAY SO.... sometime during the day.... I actually did manage to gather up the courage to ask one of the very few (and very elusive, goddamn) Souls wandering around for a photograph sobbbb. My camera is, as usual, utter shit, so it came out a little blurry but... oh well. I got it anyway.

:D!! ... /)_(\

OH AND NOW THE ONES WITH HASEO-- because mine came out horrible, I'm, um, using Jamie's pictures in the meantime, but hey it works. And if you're on her flist you get to see them again. :|

NNGGHHH LOOK AT HER, SO PERFECT. She even had red contacts and the fake fang teeth things and fffff, her costume and scythe were so, sooo gooood. God I was so happy D:

And-- okay, here's one of my photos, even though it's really, really, really bad, but sob it was one of my favorite shots, so... until I get better ones, here's an idea of what we did:

;___; ngghh... I mean obviously there's a lot more, but. I thought this one was cute?? baw... CAMERA, YOU HAVE FAILED ME |||orz

And yeah, I think that's pretty much it! AFEST = BEST CON EVER, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW. THANK YOU JAMIE AND ROBERT FOR DRAGGING MY DUMB ASS WITH YOU GUYS.

/fangirl spazz mode

Now to put off unpacking for a while :|

Some of you may know, but for those who don't...

2009-09-04T05:49:10Z

derp brb afest this weekend.

Won't be back until Mondaynightish! Hope to see everyone there who's going, and yes Jo I am taking pictures dammit.

AND RAIMI HEY RAIMI ANOTHER OBNOXIOUS REMINDER IF YOU SEE THIS DON'T FORGET THE BOOTS?!?!? ;__; lmao sorry if i'm being annoying.... i love you? I texted but got no response so... |||orz

SO YEAH I'M ON FOR A LITTLE BIT NOW BUT SEEYA GUYS THEN /o/ WHOOO. If you have my number feel free to text me!

Okay. I guess it can happen.

2009-07-21T06:56:45Z

I'm tired beyond all reason because I only got three hours of sleep today, but despite that I can safely say it's been a nice past few days. Hanging with and talking to friends has lifted my spirits a little.

Though when that's not happening I'm kinda bored with stuff :/ I have a lot of time and nothing really interesting to fill it all with. Oh well.

Excitiiiiiing \o_O/

Oh, and RP crap because I don't feel like making a whole new entry for this (ain't it fun when these flood your flist every time they roll around):

The How's My Driving? Meme

:B

you can't see the sky here at night;

2009-06-05T10:13:07Z

Life continues to be life. Just thinking about the week drains me.

It's been ... a while, but I managed to draw something. Somehow. I'm surprised I don't hate it ~~too much~~.

Mokou and Kaguya from that Touhou thingy. I don't really expect many of you to be familiar with it :B

Forgive the inaccuracies, I did most of it by memory from ... from ZUN art. I have no idea if better references even exist D: And yeah, weird layering, I didn't feel like putting a whole lot of work into cleaning up the sketches. I'm aware my eraser sucks a lot. Blah blah blah things.

And now, bed. Theoretically.

FML. Hey, it works in this situation.

2009-05-09T08:38:35Z

I HAD NO IDEA EATING ALMONDS COULD POSSIBLY MAKE ME FEEL THIS SICK.

OTL

/sleeps forever

I'll let you think of an interesting subject for me.

2009-04-26T04:48:54Z

Haha, whooooo. Okay, now that I'm finally out of my phase of emo and bullshit (or emo bullshit, your choice), I ... guess I'll update on stuff. Writing entries takes effort, sigh.

So yeah, things were sucking with one thing after another for a long while (admittedly, I'm still feeling a little bitter about things, but whatever), but life seems to have picked up a bit since then. Nothing exciting has been happening, so it's back to the same old routine for me.

For the past week or so, I've picked up Abyss again and have been playing that pretty much all day. It's, uh, entertaining enough for now, I think. At least I'm liking some of the characters, so I guess as long as I have that to hope for, then I'll continue to play :|b

On the RP front, my Kino app for damned got accepted today, whee. I don't feel like making a whole new post under my RP filter just to mention then, okay :/d Anyway, uh, I guess this will be fun trying to juggle three characters there /)_(\ Must be insane.

Well, back to things. This wasn't terribly interesting, but updating about life rarely tends to be :|a

It has come to our attention we forgot to do this before, so...

2009-04-03T00:11:48Z

HEY jigglygrlcarrie

I'M NOT WITTY AND CLEVER LIKE YOU ARE SO YOU'RE JUST GONNA GET A HAPPY FREAKIN' 20TH BIRTHDAY, EVEN THOUGH IT WAS LIKE LAST WEEK. BUT WHO CARES, RIGHT? BECAUSE WHETHER I AM ~~FASHIONABLY~~ LATE OR NOT, IT WAS STILL A DAY OF UNDENIABLE LEVELS OF COOL AND AWESOME WITH OUR COMBINED ... SAME BIRTHDAYNESS? 3/26 NEVER FORGET, BITCHES. EITHER WAY YOU MADE UP MOST OF THAT COOL ANYWAY, SO MUCH LOVE IN YOUR GENERAL DIRECTION.

Stay classy, Carrie. ♥

I still feel bad I forgot to do this on the RIGHT DAY, but hey, better late than never, right? :')