sometimes I just don't get my parents

It's been almost 5 years since I live here by myself. They just decided to plan a visit WHEN my youngest sister is coming here for exchange program. well they WERE HERE in the us but they decided they were too busy to come.

I don't even know anymore...It's not like I don't miss them or anything, I do. And to think that just because my sister will be here that's why they plan a visit. If she wasn't, would they actually come here to visit me?

Oh well...i was't a daugther they want me to be anyway, I guess a failure like me wasn't as important to them anymore. 

And fuck!! I want to sew but i have no materials!! *rages*