Stuff made by me

[fanmix] a song of ice and fire - jon snow/ygritte - "but first we'll live"

rogueapprentice — Mon, 18 Jul 2011 21:10:46 GMT

I don't really ship them, exactly, but they were cute for a time, and I certainly don't hate Ygritte like most of the fandom seems to. It's also v. short, sorry.

01. Ingrid Michaelson - "Turn to Stone"
Let's take a better look
Beyond a story book
And learn our souls are all we own
Before we turn to stone
Let's go to sleep with clearer heads
And hearts to big to fit our beds
And maybe we won't feel so alone
Before we turn to stone

02. Florence and the Machine - "I'm Not Calling You a Liar"
There's a ghost in my lungs and it sighs in my sleep
Wraps itself around my tongue as it softly speaks
Then it walks, then it walks with my legs
To fall, to fall, to fall at your feet
There but for the grace of God go I
And when you kiss me, I am happy enough to die

03. Elysian Fields - "Black Acres"
Whirlwind, take me there
Where I will be, his lady fair
Sheets of night, hiding us
Gusts of wind, riding us
I'm blown away, into his hands
I'm weak and high, can barely stand
In the web, of dizzy leaves
Virgins all elude the trees
Touch me now, touch me
The black acres are claiming me
They're claiming me

04. Charlotte Martin - "Wild Horses"
I know I dreamed you
a sin and a lie
I have my freedom
but I don't have much time
faith has been suffered
and tears must be cried
so let's do some living
after we've died

05. Javier Navarette - "Lullaby"
[Instrumental]

.RAR

[fanmix] A Song of Ice and Fire - Jon Snow/Daenerys Targaryen - "I'm Always In This Twilight"

rogueapprentice — Mon, 18 Jul 2011 20:53:17 GMT

Yeah, it's totally fanon. Yes, they've never actually met. I'm aware. I still probably ship it more than any other ship in the fandom (though for whatever reason, this is just not a ship-friendly fandom to me, I'm still challenging myself to make fanmixes).

01. Florence and the Machine - "Cosmic Love"
I took the stars from my eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you
The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

02.Trading Yesterdays - "Under My Skin"
Shadow days come to haunt me here
To wrap around me
Dark and cold to hide the sunlight from my eyes
I can not see beyond these clouds surrounding
I will not forget that this is not the end
Under my skin
Under these scars
Take me again
Tear me apart
Cause I wanna see
Everything you are
Til all that's left
Is not myself
This is life every second here
Gripping tighter
Empty praise to all the things I fear inside
But I know that you will rise up from these ashes
Tomorrow will be the light that guides me

03. Yasunori Mitsuda - "The Girl Who Stole the Stars"
[instrumental]

04. Sister Hazel - "Sword and Shield"
Just when the ocean starts to dry
Just when the air is sick with smoke
Just when the statues start to cry
And fallen angels they lay broken
I will be there
I will be the smallest piece in everything
And I would lose my life before I break this promise to you
Melt in to me
Don't you want to be the ones that last forever
I'll be your everlasting
And enemies they take your peace but they won't last forever
I'll be your sword and shield

05. Martha Wainwright - "Far Away"
I have been digging underground
What'er remains is yet to be found
I have no children
I have no husband
I have no reason
To be alive
Oh, give me one
Green grass blades are all on fire
I own the crack that's in the wind
From your window I see bars & the birds
They sing & they sing & they sing & they sing

06. Peter Gabriel - "My Body Is a Cage"
I'm living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the shapes fill my head
I'm living in an age
Whose name I don't know
Though the fear keeps me moving
Still my heart beats so slow
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

07. VAST - "Flames"
When I am with you
There's no reason to pretend
When I am with you
I feel flames again

08. Snow Patrol - "Set the Fire to the Third Bar"
After I have traveled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted, close our eyelids
And dreaming, pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in
I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

Alternate cover (I didn't use it because the other one was more colorful, but look at the symmetry, isn't it lovely? :P

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[fanmix] supernatural/scott pilgrim - sam winchester/ramona flowers - part 2

rogueapprentice — Sun, 17 Apr 2011 23:36:56 GMT

Yeah, they're still crack that won't leave my brain. This mix focuses a bit more on S6 Sam (the last one really didn't). Side A is Sam's POV. Side B is Ramona's.

Side A - Sam - The End of the World is Bigger Than Love

1) Smashing Pumpkins - The Beginning is the End is the Beginning
send a heartbeat to
the void that cries through you
relive the pictures that have come to pass
for now we stand alone
the world is lost and blown
and we are flesh and blood disintegrate
with no more to hate
is it bright where you are
and have the people changed
does it make you happy you're so strange
and in your darkest hour
my old secrets laid
we can watch the world devoured in its pain

2) Joshua Radin - Sundrenched World
I can't get to bed
but I'm really tired
the things in my head
you used to admire
in your sundrenched world
it couldn't be worse
don't bother asking
and here comes the nerves
while I'm trying to bask
in your sundrenched world

3) Calexico - Black Heart
spring is frozen now I'm stuck in low
wrapped with wire, tapped to the heart
can't find no poison, now I've got no cure
the fangs are stuck inside my skin
payne county line
watching unjust claims
one man's righteousness
is another man's long haul

4) Crooked Fingers - Let's Not Pretend (To Be New Men)
you can change your shirt
strip off the grim and the dirt
barb wire the mirrors, don't look at yourself
and put all your sinister ways on the shelf
cause you did what you did
and you did it so well
you say that you won't
but you'll do it again
if they could not trust you
before then, they won't trust you now
no they won't trust you now
so don't repent
don't be sorry now for your sins
and let's not pretend
no let's not pretend
to be new men

5) Jens Lekman - The End of the World is Bigger Than Love
there's got to be someone here tonight
Who can explain to me how shadows can also shed light
wow they can outshadow
what happened between us and outline
the burnt ground beneath us
I need to be explained to
over and over
how a broken heart is not the end of the world
because the end of the world is bigger than love

Side B - Ramona - I Think I'll Wait Another Year

1) Tori Amos - Baker Baker
I know you're late for your next parade
you came to make sure that I'm not running
well, I ran from him in all kinds of ways
guess it was his turn this time
time, though I'd made friends with time
thought we'd be flying
maybe not this time
baker baker, baking a cake
make me a day
make me whole again
and I wonder if he's okay
if you see him say, hi

2) Emily Haines & the Soft Skeletons - Our Hell
my hands will shake, my eyes will burn
my throat will ache, watching you turn
from me toward your friends
what I thought it was it isn’t now
what I thought it was it isn’t
punishment to stall what is done
what I thought was in is missing out
what I thought it was it isn’t now
there’s a pattern in the system
there’s a bullet in the gun
that’s why I tried to save you
but it can’t be done

3) Skylar Grey - Love the Way You Lie
on the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you'll always be my hero
even though you've lost your mind

4) Sarah Blasko - Perfect Now
living underneath this guilt
I can't leave the house that I built
though I feel it sinking further every time
and the weight of my mistakes
means that everything I touch breaks
I don't want to see you as the next in line
so that's why
I won't wake you where you lie
if I could now I'd freeze time
I can't find forever in your eyes
I should leave you while they're dry

5) Amanda Palmer - Another Year
I'm getting smaller by degrees
you said you'd help me disappear
but that could take forever
I think I'll wait another year
it'll be the best year ever
I think I'll wait another year
can't we just wait together
you bring the smokes, I'll bring the beer
I think I'll wait another year

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[famix] supernatural/scott pilgrim - sam winchester/ramona flowers - "don't burn out (or fade away)"

rogueapprentice — Wed, 09 Mar 2011 04:20:32 GMT

IDEK. Crack ship that started out in RP and has taken on a life of its own in my brain, and we all know Amber is a compulsive fanmix maker. So, Ramona and Sam's non-existent crossover relationship as I think it'd probably play out.

01. Morgan Grace - The Rules of Dating
rule number one, don't get attached
don't ever let yourself get past
that point of no return
you'll know it when you feel yourself get burned
remember too don't let him get
inside of you, your head your heart
don't let the process start
it only leads to saying things like
please don't go away,
don't go away

02. Placebo - Running Up That Hill
(i know, it's on like every fanmix ever, sue me)
you wanna feel how it feels
you wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me
you wanna hear about the deal i'm making
you...
you and me...
and if i only could make a deal with god
and get him to swap our places
be running up that road,
be running up that hill
be running up that building

03. David Cook - Life On the Moon
float off the ground, my head's up in the air
self-conscious to a fault, with other people everywhere
it's getting harder ever night,
to take the punches left and right
just to know that you're here by my side
and here are my terms,
have some faith in me
and i'll let you be who you need to be

04. Susie Suh - Light On My Shoulder
it's easier to fall and harder to stand
it's easier to cry and harder to laugh
and i don't know how
and i don't know why
but you're the light on my shoulder
when i'm tired

05. Pink and Adam Lambert - Whataya Want From Me
yeah it's plain to see that baby you're beautiful
and there's nothing wrong with you
it's me, i'm a freak
but thanks for loving me
cause you're doing it perfectly
yeah there might've been a time when i would let you slip away
i wouldn't even try but i think you could save my life

06. Amanda Palmer - Fake Plastic Trees
she looks like the real thing
she tastes like the real thing
my fake plastic love
but i can't help the feeling
i could blow through the ceiling
if i just turn and run
it wears me out, it wears me out
it wears me out, it wears me out
and if i could be who you wanted
if i could be who you wanted all the time

07. Marvelous 3 - Cigarette Lighter Love Song
and i drove out of east atlanta
with a headache the size of my car
and i called to say i was okay
anyway, cause i know how you are
you know i'm like a movie without an ending
you know i got nowhere to go
and it makes me want to throw up
to see you want to give up
more than you'll ever know

08. Queens of the Stone Age - This Lullaby
it's been so long since the moon has gone
and oh, what a wreck you made me
are you there over the ocean
are you there up in the sky
until the return of my love
this lullaby
my hope is on the horizon
every face, your eyes i can see
i plead and pray though each night and day
our embrace is only a dream

09. One Republic ft. Sara Bareilles - Come Home
you're in the wrong place trying to make it right
but i'm tired of justifying, so i'll say to you
come home, come home
cause i've been waiting for you
for so long, for so long
cause right now there's a war between the vanities
but all i see is you and me
and the fight for you is all i've ever known
so come home

10. Our Lady Peace - Somewhere Out There
i hope you remember me
when you're homesick and need a change
i miss your purple hair
i miss the way you taste
i know you'll come back some day
on a bed of nails i wait
i'm praying that you don't burn out
or fade away

.RAR

Ramona Flowers icons for bamf20in20

rogueapprentice — Thu, 10 Feb 2011 22:20:58 GMT

THEMES

bamf	faceless	romance	crossover	layers

red	wounded	fierce	center	neg. space

CATEGORY - SAME SCENE

one	two	three	four	five

ARTISTS CHOICE

AC	AC	AC	AC	AC

Kahlan Amnell icons for bamf20in20

rogueapprentice — Wed, 12 Jan 2011 23:13:54 GMT

THEMES

bamf	looking down	action	black and white	formal

accessory	close crop	alone	lyrics	food/drink

CATEGORY - DEADLY SINS

wrath	sloth	pride	lust	envy

ARTISTS CHOICE

AC	AC	AC	AC	AC

ALTS:

Secret swooper gift for jade_sabre_301

rogueapprentice — Mon, 13 Dec 2010 05:43:05 GMT

My Secret Swooper gift for jade_sabre_301, who expressed a fondness for mages! So, a fanmix with a series of short fics for the Amell/Surana origin story. :D The fics are...well, not my strongest area, but the cover art kicks ass? Anypoodles, Happiest of Holidays, I hope it pleases. :D

1) Blackmore’s Night - “Ivory Tower”

He sits, shivering, in the tiny rowboat on Lake Calenhad, in a drizzle of cold rain. His teeth chatter, but he suspects it has more to do with the ice cold block of fear that’s settled in his stomach than it does with the chill in the air. The Templars that marched through the slums and plucked him from his frantic and sobbing mother’s arms have said very little to him the entire journey from Denerim; they call him ‘elf’ if they bother to refer to him at all. The tower looms, an ominous, shadowy fang against a mucky gray sky, beautiful and terrifying. He has traded the mud and weather-worn wooden prison of the alienage for one of marble and stone; prettier, but a cage is still a cage. He vows to the Maker, to Andraste, to whatever old gods still slumber that he will be free of it one day. He will take this curse and make it a gift. One way or another.

2) Loreena McKennitt - “Prologue”

She’s loved the tower from the moment she stepped through the heavy, ornate doors as a wide-eyed, awe-struck youth. She hears what some of the apprentices whisper about late at night, about how terribly they miss home, how much they hate those doors and despise the Templars hovering around them day and night, and while she sometimes stares across the lake and wonders what‘s happening out there in a world so much larger than anything she‘s ever known, to her, the tower is home.

3) Noriko Matsueda and Takahito Eguchi - “Memory of Lightwaves”

It takes time, but the resentment fades. Each day brings with it some new challenge to meet, a new obstacle to overcome. There are days he returns to his bed so exhausted that he wonders if he will close his eyes and lose himself in the Fade forever, and some of those days it even sounds like an appealing prospect, but he never forgets the vow he made as a terrified child in a leaky boat. Here, he is not ‘elf’ or ‘knife ears’. Here, he is ‘apprentice’, an equal, even ranked above some of the human kind that once sneered, spat at him, took from him whatever they wanted. Here, he is anything but helpless.

4) Vienna Teng - “Feather Moon”

She sits across from Duncan and stares into the campfire with such focus that when she looks up at the Warden Commander’s call, the streaks of flame still dance across her vision and blind her. She’s always been so sure of herself, so sure of what was right and what was wrong, but she sees Jowan’s face in the fire, and for the first time in her life she worries about the gray areas her mentors always warned her about, and wonders if betraying her friend under the orders of the Senior Enchanter was really the right path to take. Regret, she discovers, has a sharp and bitter taste, and settles hard and heavy on the heart.

5) Johnny Hollow - “People Are Strange”

He thought the title of Warden would earn him the respect he craved. He’s been hated for being an elf, feared and reviled for being a mage; the prejudices, he always thought, made him stronger. Walking the streets of Lothering, hearing the snatches of whispers and gossip and looking from one pale, terrified face to another, he realizes that the honor and glory, respect and camaraderie he thought he had finally achieved was just one more thing that fate saw fit to take away from him.

6) Everly - “The Girl in the Moon”

While she had never actively disliked the Templars, she never thought she would be standing beside one as a trusted companion and a friend. That Alistair seems to like her just as much surprises her, especially considering the constant snarling matches that erupt between him and Morrigan. She thinks for a long time that it is simply the difference that exists between a proud, defiant apostate and a proud, rule-abiding Circle mage. She thinks this, right up until the moment that he places a half-crushed, wild moss rose in the palm her hand, and tells her that she is extraordinary--just to see her smile again. She’s felt so far from home, so tired and so alone, but she realizes now that at least one of those things needn’t be so.

7) VAST - “Lady of Dreams”

Some things no amount of study can teach. Morrigan, it seems, has made it her personal mission to fill in all of those irritating little gaps in his knowledge, and he‘s surprised to discover what an eager study she makes of him. He didn’t think he would ever want a human, but in some ways, they are the same, and they are more…more than their race, more than even their craft and their talent. He spent his life honing his skills, seeking control, discipline and power; he never realized, never would have guessed at the power that passion holds.

8) Editors - “No Sound But the Wind”

She thought she was going home, she thought it would be a brief and pleasant respite from the death, the sorrow and the constant strife and conflict, but what she walks into is so much worse than all that came before, so much worse than any nightmare. A horrifying walk through the Fade, she would wake from eventually. People she passed in the corridors every day, faces she knows even if she can’t recall the name that goes with them stare up at her from the cold stone floor, scorched or blood-streaked or maybe just pale and empty. That’s bad enough; what’s worse is the cold realization that they’re the lucky ones.

9) Elysian Fields - “Black Acres”

He can’t pretend he doesn’t feel guilty when Alistair thanks him for saving the arl’s family, but the giddy rush of delight at the power that pulses through his veins with every heartbeat makes it easier to assuage. Anything it takes to win. He tells himself this over and over again even has he delights in the power he can feel running beneath his very skin. One child’s life--a child that will be a man again by the time the demon comes back for what he promised her--in exchange for power that could help turn the tide, quell a Blight, slay an archdemon and save an entire nation…it’s worth it. It has to be worth it.

10) Loreena McKennitt - “Dante’s Prayer”

Duncan had once remarked to her that a single mage could spell the difference between victory and defeat in the battle against the darkspawn horde. She’d been too polite, had too much respect for the senior Grey Warden to express her incredulous thoughts aloud. No one person in an army of many could make that much of a difference, not even one with arcane power at their command. Standing before the archdemon, watching its death throes with her army at her back, trusted companions at her side, she realizes with a dull, dark surge of amusement that he was right. One life, one body, one final push of power…it would make all the difference in the world. One last spell, she has just enough left in her for that, just enough to offer her life for her country, her Circle, her order, and her king. It doesn’t matter if history remembers her name. She knows who she is, how she lived, and why she died. In the end, that is all that matters.

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20 icons for garterton20in20: Round Six

rogueapprentice — Sat, 11 Dec 2010 21:58:23 GMT

PREVIEW:

10 THEMES

Half	Internet slang	Center Crop	Small (picture)	Sore


Red	Corner	Top	Portrait	Outfit

5 CATEGORY – Black and White

one.	two.	three.	four.	five.

5 ARTIST'S CHOICE

artist's choice #1	artist's choice #2	artist's choice #3	artist's choice #4	artist's choice #5

[Fanmix] Dragon Age: Origins - Femme PCs - "Women Who Fight"

rogueapprentice — Sat, 27 Nov 2010 03:14:16 GMT

I got bored. So, have a fanmix I threw together, celebrating the awesome of the Women Who Fight. :D All Origins, all races apply. No restrictions, just badass womenfolk, whether they be outright bitches, the iron fist in a velvet glove, or charming and sweet as sugar. The drawing used for the artwork is not mine, BTW, it's just a really pretty wallpaper I found via google. Royo, I think, but don't quote me on that.

01) Florence and the Machine - "Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up)"
you made a deal,
and now it seems you have to offer up
but will it ever be enough?
(raise it up, raise it up)
it's not enough
(raise it up, raise it up)
here i am, the rabbit hearted girl
frozen in headlights
it seems i made
the final sacrifice

02) Muse - "Uprising"
another promise, another scene, another
package not to keep us trapped in greed with all the
green belts wrapped around our minds and endless
red tape to keep the truth confined
so come on
they will not force us
and they will stop degrading us
and they will not control us
and we will be victorious
so come on

03) Morgan and the Hidden Hands - "White Flag"
you said we were wolves once upon a time
but now i've evolved into a hunter
why did you stay behind
you can't run from me
i know just what you smell like
go and try, just know that i've
hunted you in a past life
you'll raise your white flag
if you know what's good for you
maybe last lifetime you got away
but you'll raise your white flag
if you know what's good for you
this time i got a bit more than my fangs
you'll raise your white flag if life is your gain

04) The Pipettes - "Your Kisses Are Wasted On Me"
boy, you better hear me clear
boy, I want you out of here
Don't send me wild
You're just a child
And you might cry for some time
(And you don't know it, no you don't know it)
And you might try to hold my hand again
(But you don't know it, no you don't know it)
And you might cry for some time
(You still don't know it)
Your kisses are wasted on me

05) Anya Marina - "All the Same to Me"
I won't run
When the sky turns to flame
And I sure won't budge
When the earth does shake
When the flood comes up
I will dance in the rain
'Cause it's all the same to me
Somebody care, somebody care
Somebody care for me
Somebody care, somebody care
Somebody care for me
And it's all I live for
The air I breathe
So it's all the same to me

06) Hole - Gold Dust Woman
rock on gold dust woman
take your silver spoon,
dig your grave
one less challenge,
pick your path and i'll pray
wake up in the morning
see your sunlight
burning to go down
lousy lovers
pick their graves
but they never cry out loud
cry out
well did she make you cry
make you break down
shatter your illusions of love
is it over now, do you know how
to pick up the pieces and go home

07) La Roux - "Bullet Proof"
been there done that messed around
i'm having fun don't put me down
i'll never let you sweep me off my feet
i won't let you in again
the messages i've tried to send
my information's just not going in
burning bridges shore to shore
i break away from something more
i'm not turned on to love until it's cheap
been there done that messed around
i'm having fun don't put me down
i'll never let you sweep me off my feet
this time, baby, i'll be bullet proof
this time, baby, i'll be bullet proof

08) Porcelain and the Tramps - "King of the World"
Keep your head down
Untill I tell you to speak
You're not giving me the run around
When you fall back
Unto my coffin
No you should've stayed out of my way
Do not test me
'Cause I'm the fucking king of the world
Get on you knees
I'm the fucking king of the world
Do as I place
So get up and get out and I'll show you
What it means for me to control you
'Cause I'm the fucking king of the world

09) Superchick - "Stand in the Rain"
she never slows down
she doesn't know why but she knows
that when she's all alone
feels like it's all coming down
she won't turn around
the shadows are long
and she fears if she cries that first tear
the tears will not stop raining down
so stand in the rain
stand your ground
stand up when it's all crashing down
you stand through the pain
you won't drown
and one day what's lost can be found
you stand in the rain

10) The Rasmus - "Not Like the Other Girls"
No more blame I am destined to keep you sane
Gotta rescue the flame
Gotta rescue the flame in your heart
No more blood, I will be there for you my love
I will stand by your side
The world has forsaken my girl
Should have seen it would be this way
Should have known from the start what she's up to
When you've loved and you've lost someone
You know what it feels like to lose
She's fading away
Away from this world
Drifting like a feather
She's not like the other girls
She lives in the clouds
And talks to the birds
Hopeless little one
She's not like the other girls I know

11) Greg Laswell - "This Woman's Work"
pray god you can cope
i stand outside this woman's work
this woman's world
ooo, it's hard on the man
now his part is over
now starts the craft of the father
i know you have a little life in you yet
i know you have a lot of strength left
i know you have a little life in you yet
i know you have a lot of strength left

BONUS: Ludacris - "My Chick Bad"
(I know, seriously, 'which one of these is not like the others'? idfk, I'm random, and it fit)

.ZIP

20 icons for garterton20in20

rogueapprentice — Tue, 02 Nov 2010 23:38:05 GMT

TEASERS:

10 THEMES

Block	Hot	Motion	My Ship	Lips


Not 100x100	Room	Outside	On Set	Worried

5 CATEGORY – One Character

one.	two.	three.	four.	five.

5 ARTIST'S CHOICE

artist's choice #1	artist's choice #2	artist's choice #3	artist's choice #4	artist's choice #5

Round 04 for garterton20in20

rogueapprentice — Sat, 02 Oct 2010 23:31:53 GMT

Discovery! I hate working with 99.9% of all textures. Ah well.
10 THEMES

Close Crop	Laugh	Pink	Accessory	With Stefano


Bright	Negative Space	Pretty	Mirror	Vintage

5 CATEGORY – Different Textures

#1	#2	#3	#4	#5

5 ARTIST'S CHOICE

#1	#2	#3	#4	#5

[fanmix] Castle/Beckett - "Chasing Pavement"

rogueapprentice — Mon, 12 Jul 2010 18:55:13 GMT

I don't know what it is with Nathan Fillion and will-you-two-please-just-do-it-already-this-is-getting-ridiculous ships, but this would be the second I've fallen in love with--the first, of course, being Mal & Inara.

This is, obviously, me venting my frustrations over the S2 finale. Yes, I know, that was months ago. And?

Dear writers, FIX THAT SHIT. No love, me.

1) OneRepublic - "All We Are"
I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would've fit
I figured there's nothing to lose
I need to get some perspective on these words before I write them down
You're an island and my ship has run aground

2) Adele - "Chasing Pavements"
But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do if I'd end up with you
Should I give up, or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?

3) Secrets in Stereo - "Happy"
i try to let you know
but my words get tangled up
and every time i find that i'm
outside looking in
can't let this moment go
when you're the only one
that makes me feel the way i feel inside
lately i'm falling for you
lately i'm falling for you
i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy

4) Cat Power - "Good Woman" **
And this is why I am leaving
And this is why I can see you no more
This is why I am lying when I say
That I don’t love you no more
Cause I want to be a good woman
And I want for you to be a good man

5) Placebo - "Blind"
If I could tear you from the ceiling
And guarantee source divine
Rid you of possessions fleeting
Remain your funny valentine
Don’t go and leave me
And please don’t drive me blind

6) Paramore - "All I Wanted"
Think of me when you're out, when you're out there
I'll beg you nice from my knees
When the world treats you way too fairly
It's a shame I'm a dream
All I wanted was you

7) Michael Buble - "You Don't Know Me"
You give your hand to me
And then you say good-bye
I watch you walk away
Beside the lucky guy
You'll never never know
The one who loves you so
Well, you don't know me

8) Abra Moore - "I Win"
Okay, I win, you've finally lost me
You're letting me go, I'm walking away.
No fight, no fight, still falling apart
I can't get you out of my heart
All right, all right, I lied about loving
A man that I love, a love I won't have.
It's true, it's true, I'm falling apart
And I can't get you out of my heart

9) Neverending White Lights - "I Hope Your Heart Runs Empty"
Of any moment, ever stolen, don't take this one
As my heart runs empty now I realize
What I want would never surface otherwise
I hope your heart runs empty and you realize

10) Ingrid Michaelson - "Maybe"
I don't wanna be the one to say, "Goodbye" but I will
I will, I will
I don't wanna sit on the pavement while you fly but I will
I will, oh yes, I will
'Cause maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back
Oh, the only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back
You're gonna come back to me

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**I had Beckett and Demming in mind with this one, though if you want to look at it as Beckett/Castle, feel free?

[fanmix] Cousland/Morrigan - "The Beast You've Made of Me"

rogueapprentice — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 17:14:00 GMT

I have to admit that this ship has become one of my favorites because there's no possible way to get a happy ending. My poor Cousland boy started off a young punk, grew up, and got his heart broken.

1) Florence and the Machine - "Howl"
if you could only see the beast you've made of me
I held it in but now it seems you've set it running free
screaming in the dark, I howl when we're apart
drag my teeth across your chest to taste your beating heart
my fingers claw your skin, try to tear my way in
you are the moon that breaks the night for which I have to howl

2) Chris Daughtry - "Poker Face"
I wanna roll with her a hard pair we will be
a little gambling is fun when you're with me
Russian roulette is not the same without a gun
and baby when it's love if it's not rough it isn't fun

3) The National - "Wasp Nest"
your eyes are broken bottles
and I'm afraid to ask
and all your wrath and cutting beauty
you're poison in the pretty glass
you're a wasp nest

4) Gavin Rossdale - "The Trouble I'm In"
who do you lie between
who has your love
I don't wanna fight no more
I don't want to see you crying
I don't want an all out war
you gotta let me in
you gotta let me in
she's under my skin
she's under my skin
all the trouble I'm in

5) Puscifer - "Rev. 22:20 (Dry Martini Mix)"
she'll suck you dry
but still you'll cry to get back in her bosom
to do it again
she'll make you weep
but the more you'll cry to be back in her bosom
and do it again

6) Within Temptation - "What Have You Done"
I, I've been waiting for someone like you
but now you are slipping away
why, why does fate make us suffer?
there's a curse between us, between me and you

7) Placebo - "Protect Me From What I Want"
maybe we're victims of fate
Remember when we'd celebrate
we'd drink and get high until late
and now we're all alone
wedding bells ain't gonna chime
with both of us guilty of crime
and both of us sentenced to time
and now we're all alone
protect me from what I want

8) Cursive - "We're Going to Hell"
don't tell me what you've done
cause I don't want to know
you say it's not so hard
just let your conscience go
you're flashing me that politicians grin
you got your image squeaky clean
you've such a fetching smile
but my, what sharp teeth

9) Muse - "Time Is Running Out"
I think I'm drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
that you've created
you're something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction
you will be the death of me

10) Garbage - "Why Do You Love Me?"
I'm no Barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
so I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes
and I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
so what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me, it's driving me crazy

11) Reliant K - "Which to Bury, Us or the Hatchet"
I think you know what I'm getting at
I find it so upsetting that
the memories that you select you keep the bad but the good you just forget
and even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
when you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened
and all this time I never thought
that all we had would be all for naught
no, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
you know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you

12) The Smashing Pumpkins - "Said Sadly"
you should know that I love you
we should love like lovers do
and I can't help but fall for you
aw honey I'm just a fool
now you know
darling, I'll never be true
you see, for so long I was blue
(I'm not the only one)
and if I hurt, then you will, too
aw honey I always lose
now you know

13) Stone Temple Pilots - "Atlanta"
she comforts me when the candles burn out
the cake has grown mold but the memories are sweet
the laughter's all all gone but the memories are mine
the mexican princess is out of my life

14) Vertical Horizon - "Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)"
so you sailed away
into a grey sky morning
now I'm here to stay
love can be so boring
nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
but it's not so bad
you're only the best I ever had
you don't want me back
you're just the best I ever had

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[Fanmix] Alistair/Cousland - "Remember to Breathe"

rogueapprentice — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 19:40:48 GMT

A collection of sappy Alistair appropriate love songs. Also, I say it's Alistair/Cousland, but I suppose, really, it could be for any PC. It's certainly not exclusive that I can see. The manip's not the best--I blame Bamber's damn suit that I had to contend with, but ah well.

1) Sister Hazel - "Everything Else Disappears"
you've practiced enough yeah
that's what I told myself
so I nervously asked you your name
and that's when the world seemed to stop
and I died when you looked up like that
took my breath away
knocked me flat on my back
I knew right then and there
in that first second stare
it would be a while

2) Staind - "So Far Away"
this is my life
it's not what it was before
all these feelings I've shared
and these are my dreams
that I'd never lived before
somebody shake me cause I
I must be sleeping

3) Aqualung - "Can't Get You Out of My Mind"
thought you'd never be mine
I thought I was wasting my time
darling every time I think of you
I can't believe it's true
that you're here by my side
and I'm hypnotized
petrified
every time you walk by
and I can't get you
out of my mind

4) Ryan Adams - "Wonderwall"
and all the roads we have to walk along are winding
and all the lights that lead us there are blinding
there are many things that I would like to say to you
but I don't know how
I said maybe
you're gonna be the one that saves me
and after all
you're my wonderwall

5) Wilco - "I'm the Man Who Loves You"
all I can be is a busy sea of
spinning wheels and hands that feel
for stones to throw and feet that run but
they come back home, make no difference
ever known, make no difference
ever known to me
if I could you know I would
just hold your hand and you'd understand
I'm the man who loves you

6) David Usher - "And So We Run"
and so I lay here awake
as all the clouds fall away
then fast asleep in your arms
wake up wonder where we are
try to freeze frame the day
then the light starts to fade
I will scream at the sky
'til we drink the oceans dry
and so we run
and so we run
and so we run

7) The Afters - "Keeping Me Alive"
I don't know why I feel this way
but something's right
you're like the morning air
before the light arrives
no more lonely and
no more night
no more secrets to hide
my heart is in you
where you go you carry me
I bleed if you bleed
your heart beats inside of me
you're keeping me alive

8) Butch Walker - "Don't Move"
so many black and white
are made to be so blue
we've all got our wars to fight
but I won't fight with you
if I could just get your attention
I'd never let it go
until you've felt what I am gonna say
so baby don't move at all
cause you're about to break my fall
stay where you are, staring at the stars
don't ever move at all

9) James Morrison - "Fix the World Up For You"
well I'll bet I'll get it wrong
more times that I get it right
and I won't even realize it
but I've been doing all I can
to stop you falling
even now I'm holding my breath for you
but you don't know, you don't know
that I'm ready to hold you now, hold you now
I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you

10) Lifehouse - "Everything"
you calm the storms, and you give me rest.
you hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
you steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
would you take me in
take me deeper now
and how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you
would you tell me how could it be any better than this

11) Ben Folds - "The Luckiest"
I don't get many things right the first time
in fact, I am told that a lot
now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
brought me here
and where was I before the day
that I first saw your lovely face?
now I see it everyday
and I know
That I am, I am
I am
the luckiest

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[Fanmix] Alistair/Anora: In Our Bedroom After the War

rogueapprentice — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 15:35:44 GMT

I still have no idea. I mean, this is not a ship I would've ever thought I'd like. It's funny how they sneak up on you. :P

1) Stars - "In Our Bedroom After the War"
she's gone, she left before you woke
as you ate last night, neither of you spoke
dishes, tv, bed
the darkness filled with dread
but at least the war is over

2) Thriving Ivory - "Hey Lady"
she's bored in a week
big dreams but nothing material
and I refuse to believe that love is for the weak
I said I'm not vulnerable
hey lady, don't give up on me
don't burn your heart out, love
'till we're ash over seas
hey lady, I don't wanna fight
like pretty girls need cowboys
I need you here tonight

3) Dishwalla - "Collide"
when the cold comes crashing down
and the fight lost what it's about
I could tell that you'd left
it's a shame what we've become
when we hurt the ones we love
and it's a place I can not go anymore
when we collide we lose ourselves
when we collide we break in two
and as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love
it's a hard mistake
when we collide

4) Maroon 5 - "She Will Be Loved (Acoustic)"
it's not always rainbows and butterflies
it's compromise that moves us along
my heart is full and my door's always open
you come anytime you want
I don't mind spending every day
out on your corner in the pouring rain
look for the girl with the broken smile
ask her if she wants to stay a while
and she will be loved

5) Nickel Creek - "Reasons Why"
where am I today, I wish that I knew
cause looking around there's no sign of you
I don't remember one jump or one leap
just quiet steps away from your head
I'm holding my heart out
but clutching it too
feeling this short of a love that we once knew
I'm calling this a home when it's not even close
and playing the role with nerves left exposed
standing on a darkened stage
stumbling through the lines
others have excuses
I have my reasons why

6) Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova - "Falling Slowly"
falling slowly, eyes that know me
and I can't go back
moods that take me and erase me
and I'm painted black
you have suffered enough
and warred with yourself
it's time that you won
take this sinking boat and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
you've made it now
falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

7) Tori Amos - "China"
you lie next to me
but I'd need an airplane
I can feel the distance
as you breathe
sometimes I think you want me to touch you
how can I when you've built the great wall around you?
in your eyes I saw a future together
but you just look away in the distance

8) Kings of Convenience - "Parallel Lines"
innocent imitation of how it could be
if when the music ended
you did not retreat
in my imagination you are cast in gold
your image a compensation for me to hold
parallel lines move so fast
toward the same point
infinity is as near as it is far

9) Gomez - "How We Operate"
calm down and get straight
it's in our eyes
it's how we operate
you're true, you are
I'd apologize but it won't go very far
please come here, come right on over
and when we collide we'll see what gets left over
a little joy, a little sorrow
and a little pride so we won't have to borrow
wherever you lead, I'll follow

10) Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - "Weight of the World"
this is stranger than love or loss
turning backwards you face the dawning
no excuse for a wasted life
lightly falling through a whisper of sky
it's the weight of the world, I know
as I struggle to be whole
it's the weight of the world, I know
as you were mine, and we will find

11) The Smoking Pipes - "I Need You Around"
if I could stand to be on my own
then I would probably just leave you alone
but I'm gonna feel this way till I'm six feet underground
crazy as it sounds
I need you around

12) Fuel - "Falls On Me"
and silently within
with hands touching skin
the shock breaks my disease
and I can breathe
and all of your weight
all you dream
falls on me, it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you bring
falls on me, it falls on me

13) Keane - "She Has No Time"
you think your days are uneventful
and no one ever thinks about you
she goes her own way
she goes her own way
you think your days are ordinary
and no one ever thinks about you
but we're all the same
and she can hardly breathe without you
she says she has no time
for you now

14) Sarah McLachlan - "Full of Grace"
so it's better this way, I said
having seen this place before
where everything we said and did
hurts us all the more
it's just that we stayed, too long
in the same old sickly skin
I'm pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
oh darkness I feel like letting go
if all of the strength
and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this

15) Madonna - "You Must Love Me"
why are you at my side?
how can I be any use to you now?
give me a chance and I'll let you see how
nothing has changed
deep in my heart I'm concealing
things that I'm longing to say
scared to confess what I'm feeling
frightened you'll slip away
you must love me

BONUS TRACK: Emma Caulfield and Nicholas Brendon - "I'll Never Tell"
[strictly for the lulz; seriously, listen to this and imagine the two of them singing it (we'll just
say the PC's named was Buffy, right? >.>) and tell me it's not a high-larious mental image]

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[Fanmix] Under a Blood Red Sky: An Origins Fanmix

rogueapprentice — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 18:57:57 GMT

A fanmix dedicated to the origin stories. None of which, as we all know, are particularly happy, and are all very bloody. Five songs per origin, 30 songs total. This time I'm not posting the lyrics, since some songs were chosen for lyrical reasons and some were chosen more for musical reasons and the feel of the song--and also, cause I just made seven covers, and I'm TIRED. :P Some of these practically assembled themselves and some of them I'm still not completely happy with but am tired of fussing with. Either way, hope you enjoy. :)

1) Deathstars - White Wedding
2) Stone Temple Pilots - Sex Type Thing
3) Papa Roach - Getting Away With murder
4) Evanescence - My Last Breath
5) Eliza Lumley - How to Disappear Completely

1) The Rolling Stones - Paint It Black
2) Neko Case - Dirty Knife
3) Dar Williams - Comfortably Numb
4) Coldplay - Violet Hill
5) Michael Giacchino - Parting Words

1) Union Maid - Paper Planes
2) Akira Yamaoka - Room of Angels
3) Bear McCreary - All Along the Watchtower
4) Muse - Invincible
5) PJ Harvey - Is That All There Is

1) Dave Matthews Band - Out Of My Hands
2) A Perfect Circle - Passive
3) Nightwish - The Kinslayer
4) The Cast of Moulin Rouge - The Show Must Go On
5) Tea Party - Walking Wounded

1) Ana Johnson - We Are
2) Fuel - Hemorrhage
3) U2 - Sunday Bloody Sunday
4) Johnny Cash - God's Gonna Cut You Down
5) Placebo - Infra-Red

1) Two Steps From Hell - Great Spirits
2) Kings of Leon - Closer
3) Linkin Park - Papercut
4) Breaking Benjamin - Diary of Jane (Acoustic)
5) Muse - Ruled By Secrecy

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ETA: Up next (and this is...not a sentence I EVER thought I'd type) is an Alistair/Anora fanmix.

[Fanmix] I Love One Thing, Destroy the Other: A Zevran Fanmix

rogueapprentice — Thu, 14 Jan 2010 19:45:17 GMT

This ended up being...much longer than I originally intended for it to be? Oops. The challenge wasn't really finding songs, surprisingly, it was cutting down on the amount of Linkin Park. Srsly. Zevran would listen to a lot of Linkin Park (secretly I'm sure, but he WOULD omg). :P

01. Linkin Park feat. Staind - "Crawling (Reanimation Remix)"
discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting, reacting
against my will I stand beside my own reflection
it's haunting how I can't seem
to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence
I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before, so insecure
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

02. Rufus Wainwright - "Instant Pleasure"
I don't want somebody to love me
just give me sex whenever I want it
'cause all I ask for is instant pleasure
instant pleasure, instant pleasure
you in the traffic for all eternity
how could that speed be where you want to be?
said don't you really want instant pleasure
instant pleasure, instant pleasure?

03. Modest Mouse - "The Devil's Workday"
I could buy myself a reason
I could sell myself a job
I could hang myself on treason
all the folks I know are gone
all those people that you know
all those people that you know
all those people that you know
floatin' in the river are gone

04. Johnny Cash - "Rusty Cage"
you wired me awake
and hit me with a hand of broken nails
you tied my lead and pulled my chain
to watch my blood begin to boil
but I'm gonna break
I'm gonna break my
I'm gonna break my rusty cage and run

05. The Kills - "Sour Cherry"
shout when you wanna get off the ride
shout when you wanna get off the ride
cause you crossed my mind, you crossed my mind
I'm a penny in a diamond mine
we could be movers,
we could be shakers
if we could just shake something outta the blue
we could get off the ride
I'm the only sour cherry on the fruit stand, right
am I the only sour cherry on the fruit stand?

06. Aerosmith - "What Kind of Love Are You On?"
everybody's talking bout
what it is, what it ain't
kiss on the devil and you piss off a saint
but it can't be love if you don't have to crawl
you say you don't need nothing
but you got to have it all
I wanna know
what kind of love are you on?

07. Peter Bradley Adams - "The Longer I Run"
when that blood runs warm with the warm red wine
I miss the life that I left behind
and when I hear the sound of the blackbird's cry
I know I left in the nick of time
well this road I'm on is gonna turn to sand
and leave me lost in a far-off land
so let me ride the wind 'till I don't look back
and forget the life that I almost had

08. Cage the Elephant - "Ain't No Rest For the Wicked"
oh, there ain't no rest for the wicked
money don’t grow on trees
we got bills to pay
we got mouths to feed
there ain't nothing in this world for free
I know we can't slow down
we can’t hold back
though you know, we wish we could
no there ain't no rest for the wicked
until we close our eyes for good

09. My Chemical Romance - "The Sharpest Lives"
there's a place in the dark where the animals go,
you can take off your skin in the cannibal glow.
juliet loves the beat and the lust it commands,
drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands romeo.
I've really been on a bender and it shows,
so why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

10. Jonatha Brooke - "What You Don't Know"
I'm already going, I'm already gone,
there's a stranger in my place
you'll never find me
but I'll get along
'cause the angels know my face
you'll never see me coming
you'll never know my name
try to remember, try to forget
but you'll never be the same

11. Stars - "Death to Death"
so tired waiting for the end to come
fully dead already but forever young
hello my dearest father it's your favorite son
there's some things that I'm regretting
I am destroyer I am lover
I am destroyer I am lover
I love one thing, destroy the other
I am destroyer I am lover

12. Johnny Cash - "Hurt"
what have I become
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

13. Smashing Pumpkins - "Disarm"
I used to be a little boy
so old in my shoes
and what I choose is my choice
what's a boy supposed to do?
the killer in me is the killer in you
my love
I'll send this smile over to you

14. Linkin Park - "Somewhere I Belong"
and I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused looking everywhere only to find that it's
not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
so what am I, what do I have but negativity
'cause I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me
nothing to lose, nothing to gain
hollow and alone
and the fault is my own
and the fault is my own

15. Stone Sour - "Bother"
wish I was too dead to care
if indeed I cared at all
never had a voice to protest
so you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason
my flaws are open season
for this I gave up trying
one good turn deserves my dying
you don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
but once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

16. Adam Lambert - "Ring of Fire"
love is a burning thing
and it makes a fiery ring
bound by the wild desire
I fell into a ring of fire
I fell into a burning ring of fire
I went down, down, down
and the flames got higher
and it burns, burns, burns
the ring of fire
the ring of fire

17. Staind - "Everything Changes"
if you just walked away
what could I really say?
would it matter anyway?
would it change how you feel?
I am the mess you chose
the closet you cannot close
the devil in you i suppose
'cause the wounds never heal
but everything changes, if I could
turn back the years, if you could
learn to forgive me
then I could learn to feel

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[Fanmix] Witchy Woman: A Morrigan fanmix

rogueapprentice — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 16:28:45 GMT

Talk about a complicated character: badass, bitchy, calculating and yet terribly vulnerable at the core. This was fun to put together. :D There are a few modern references in some of the songs, but that's hard to avoid, so I hope it doesn't ruin it for anyone. Anyhoos. Music, yay!

01. Tori Amos - "Devils and Gods"
devils and gods, now that's an idea
but if we believe it is they who decide
that's the ultimate detractor of crime
cause devils and gods
they are you and I

02. Kristin Chenoweth - "Witchy Woman"
well I know you want a lover,
let me tell your brother,
she's been sleeping in the Devil's bed.
and there's some rumors going round
someone's underground
she can rock you in the nighttime
'til your skin turns red

03. Porcelain and the Tramps - "Gasoline"
don't get in my face, don't invade my space
I'll put you in your place
I'll only tell you once
I'll never tell you twice
and this is me being nice

04. Tracy Bonham - "Mother Mother"
when you sent me off to see the world
were you scared that I might get hurt?
would I try a little tobacco
would I keep on hiking up my skirt
I'm hungry, I'm dirty,
I'm losing my mind
everything's fine

05. Sarah McLachlan - "Ice"
I don't like your tragic sighs
as if your god has passed you by
well, hey fool
that's your deception
your angels speak with jilted tongues
the serpent's tale has come undone
you have no strength to squander
the only comfort is the moving of the river
You enter into me, a lie upon your lips
offer what you can, I'll take all that I can get
only a fool's here to stay

06. Soho Dolls - "Rest For the Wicked"
let me crawl into your heart
sting myself and burn your nest
let me crawl into your heart
for the wicked get the rest
I wanna alchemize
my sorrow with your smiles
and though I was chastised
and exiled
I will rise

07. The Creatures - "Prettiest Thing"
she's the prettiest thing I've ever seen
such a beautiful violence coming in
she's the prettiest thing I've ever seen
prettiest thing, I'm moving in
I put it on, it fits my soul
you know she spoke these words
while she was sleeping
I put it on, it fits my soul
I put it on
you know she spoke these words while she was sleeping

08. Neko Case - "Never Turn Your Back on Mother Earth"
when she's on her best behavior
don't be tempted by her favors
never turn your back on mother earth
towns are hurled from A to B
by hands that looked so smooth to me
never turn your back on mother earth

09. U2 - "Who's Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses"
you're dangerous cause you're honest
you're dangerous, you don't know what you want
well you left my heart empty as a vacant lot
for any spirit to haunt
you're an accident waiting to happen
you're a piece of glass left there on the beach
well you tell me things
I know you're not supposed to
then you leave me just out of reach

10. Garbage - "Breaking Up the Girl"
one mistake's all it takes
and your life has come undone
walk away cause you're breaking up the girl
it's a drag
I know it's hard
but you're tearing her apart
walk away cause you're breaking up the girl

11. Jill Tracy - "Evil Night Together"
you'll drink a toast in the torture chamber
and you'll go down on a bed of nails
we'll rendezvous in cold blood
I'll tie you up to the third rail
let's wile away the hours
let's spend an evil night together

12. Florence and the Machine - "Kiss With a Fist"
you hit me once, I hit you back
you gave a kick, I gave a slap
you smashed a plate over my head
then I set fire to our bed

13. Sara Bareilles - "Gravity"
you hold me without touch
you keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much
than to drown in your love
but not feel your rain
set me free, leave me be
I don't want to fall another moment
into your gravity
here I am and I stand so tall
just the way I'm supposed to be
but you're onto me
and all over me

.ZIP

[Fanmix] So Throw the Beauty On the Fire: A Leliana Fanmix

rogueapprentice — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 15:57:56 GMT

Not my best work cover-wise, but my caps weren't the best, either. :| 13 song fanmix all about our favorite ginger bard. :D

01. Jem - "They"
and it's ironic too
cause what we tend to do
is act on what they say
and then it is that way
I'm sorry, so sorry
I'm sorry, it's like this
I'm sorry, so sorry,
I'm sorry we do this

02. Tori Amos - "Take to the Sky"
my heart is like the ocean
it gets in the way
so close to touching freedom
but I hear the gods call my name
but my priest says "You ain't saving no souls"
my father says "You ain't making any money"
my doctor said "You just took it to the limit"
and here I stand with this sword in my hand

03. Within Temptation - "Stand My Ground"
I can see
when you stay low nothing happens
doesn't feel right
late at night
things I thought I put behind me
haunt my mind
I just know there's no escape now
once it sets its eyes on you
but I won't run, have to stare it in the eye
stand my ground, I wont give in
no more denying, I've got to face it
won't close my eyes and hide the truth inside
if I don't make it, someone else will
stand my ground

04. Ginny Owens - "If You Want Me To"
cause I'm not who I was
when I took my first step
and I'm clinging to the promise
that you're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials
bring me closer to you
then I will go through the fire
if you want me to

05. Avril Lavigne - "Keep Holding On"
before it's too late this could all disappear
before the doors close, and it comes to an end
with you by my side, I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend

06. Sarah McLachlan - "Fear"
but I fear
I have nothing to give
and I have so much to lose
here in this lonely place
tangled up in our embrace
there's nothing I'd like better than to fall
but I fear I have nothing to give

07. Kate Havnevik - "Sleepless"
catch me as I fly
passing by at night
watch me as I go, outside
it's another world
when the moon is high
and the walking keeps,
me breathing

08. Kim Richey - "A Place Called Home"
well, it seems like so long ago
but it really ain't you know
I started out a crazy kid
miracle I made it through the things I did
the things I did
someday I'll go where there ain't no rain or snow
‘til then, I travel alone
and I make my bed with the stars above my head
and dream of a place called home

09. Marie Digby - "What I've Done"
put to rest what you thought of me
cause I've cleaned this plate
with the hands of uncertainty
so let mercy come
and wash away what I've done
I'll face myself
to cross out what I've become
erase myself
and let go of what I've done

10. Neko Case - "I Wish I Was the Moon"
last night I dreamt I'd forgotten my name
'cause I sold my soul
but I woke just the same
I'm so lonely
I wish I was the moon tonight

11. Alana Grace - "Black Roses Red"
can I ask you a question please?
promise you won't laugh at me
honestly, I'm standing here
afraid I'll be betrayed
as twisted as it seems
I only feel love when it's in my dreams
so let in the morning light
and let the darkness fade away
can you turn my black roses red?

12. Evanescence - "Good Enough"
and I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
pour real life down on me.
'cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough,
am I good enough for you to love me too?
so take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no

13. Natalie Imbruglia - "Beauty On the Fire"
here it comes again
you raise the bar even higher
I cannot catch my breath
so throw the beauty on the fire
don't push too hard
limitation scars
tonight, could I be lost forever?
to drown my soul in sensory pleasure
sensory pleasure

.ZIP

[Fanmix] Alistiar/Cousland: We Were the Kings and Queens of Promise

rogueapprentice — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 20:36:50 GMT

I don't usually share these--I make them almost ridiculously compulsively (don'tjugemetheBiblesaysnotto) but I usually just keep them in my little folders all to myself. My friend risingfire turned me on to this awesome song for Alistair, and thus, a Cousland/Alistair fanmix was born. I tried to put the tracks in some semblance of order and maybe it works and maybe it doesn't, and obviously it's colored by my own interpretation of Elissa Cousland, but, anyhoos. Have some music. :P

01. Instrumental - "What Shall We Die For"

02. Ok Go - "Invincible"
when they finally come to destroy the earth
they'll have to deal with you first
bet they won't be expecting that

03. Sister Hazel - "Sword and Shield"
and enemies take your peace
but that won't last forever
i'll be your sword and shield

04. Vienna Teng - "The Tower"
she carries the act so convincingly
the fact is sometimes she believes it
that she can be happy the way things are
be happy with the things she's done

05. Tal Bachman - "She's So High"
first class and fancy free
she's high society
she's got the best of everything
what could a guy like me ever really offer
she's perfect as she can be
why should i even bother

06. Amy Winehouse - "Some Unholy War"
if my man was fighting some unholy war
i would be behind him
straight shook up beside him
with strength he didn't know

07. Damien Rice - "Delicate"
we might live like never before
when there's nothing to give
well how can we ask for more

08. VAST - "Flames
close your eyes
let me touch you now
let me give you something that is real
close the door
leave your fears behind
let me give you what you're giving me

09. Dar Williams - "You Rise and Meet the Day"
but you do not give up so easily
that's how i know you won't surrender me
you rise and meet the day
it's all i need
it's all i need to know

10. Regina Spektor - "The Call"
now we're back to the beginning
it's just a feeling and no one knows yet
but just because they can't feel it too
doesn't mean you have to forget

11. 30 Seconds to Mars - "Kings and Queens"
we were the kings and queens of promise
we were the victims of ourselves
maybe the children of a lesser god
between heaven and hell

12. Take That - "Rule the World"
you and me we can light up the sky
if you stay by my side
we can rule the world

13. Instrumental - "Sacrifice [From "The Gift"]"

14. Death Cab For Cutie - "I Will Follow You Into the Dark"
love of mine some day you will die
but I'll be close behind
i'll follow you into the dark
no blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
just our hands clasped so tight
waiting for the hint of a spark
if heaven and hell decide
that they both are satisfied

.zip file containing all tracks and artwork

individual songs available for download by request

[Fanmix] Zevran/PC/Alistair: Caught in a Bad Romance

rogueapprentice — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 20:34:47 GMT

I said to myself today, I said "Self, you know what my wonderful, shiny fantastic fandom needs just a LITTLE more of, since it's already fulfilling all of our het and touch-of-slash needs?

THREESOMES. Which is the best of BOTH worlds! :DDDD"

And I said "You know what self? YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT. Cause sometimes, when you have two REALLY hot bits of eye candy giving your poor PC the leer, threesomes are the only solution!!"

Unfortunately, my fic muse deserted me. But my fanmix muse? She's a loud one. Always is.

CONTENT WARNINGS: Um, threesomes. And sex. Some strong language (there's an f-word or two), so I guess it's NSFW technically (there are no graphic pictures posted, though). Also, please overlook the cover art, it isn't my best. THAT DAMN TATTOO. Tattoos are the bane of my existence. Not binding to any origin story, though I used my Cousland's head-likeness for the artwork.

1) lady gaga - "bad romance" (general)
i want your drama, the touch of your hand
i want your leather studded kiss in the stand
i want your love
love love love i want your love

2) eve 6 - "think twice" (alistair pov)
breathing in, lightning
tonight's for fighting
i feel the hurt, so physical
think twice 'fore you touch my girl
come around i'll let you feel the burn

3) lily allen - "womanizer" (pc pov re: zevran)
you got the swagger of a champion
too bad for you, you just can't find the right companion
i guess when you have one too many
makes it hard, it could be easy
who you are, that's just who you are baby

4) damien rice - "9 crimes" (alistair/pc pov)
its the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you
it's the wrong time for somebody new
it's a small crime, and i got no excuse
and is that all right with you?

5) the fray - "heartless" (zevran pov)
i mean after all the things that we've been through
i mean after all the things we got into
you all know some things that you ain't told me
you know i did some things, but that's the old me

6) alez johnson - "skin" (pc pov re: zevran)
falling apart, and all that i'm asking
is it a crime
am i over-reacting
oh, he's under my skin
just give me something to get rid of him
i got a reason now to bury this alive
another little white lie

7) matthew good band - "weapon" (pc pov)
here by my side, an angel
here by side, the devil
never turn your back on me
never turn your back on me again
here by side, it's heaven

8) vast - "pretty when you cry" (zevran pov)
and i can't tell where your lust ends
and where your love begins
i didn't want to hurt you, baby
i didn't want to hurt you
i didn't want to hurt you
but you're pretty when you cry

9) sarah mclachlan - "stupid" (pc pov)
how stupid could i be?
a simpleton could see
that you're not good for me
but you're the only one i see

10) the juliana theory - "if i told you this was killing me, would you stop?" (alistair pov re: zev and pc)
now listen here's the pleasant part, you and I we fell apart
why don't you make up your mind?
why can't you make up your mind?
shut your mouth
burn your bridges
throw your words like an attack and stab me

11) chris isaak - "baby did a bad thing" (alistair pov)
baby did a bad, bad thing
you ever love someone so much
you thought your heart was gonna break in two?
i didn't think so
you ever try with all your heart and soul
to get your lover back to you?

12) fiona apple - "criminal" (pc pov re: alistair)
i've been a bad, bad girl
i've been careless with a delicate man
and it's a sad, sad world
when a girl will break a boy
just because she can
don't you tell me to deny it
i've done wrong, and i wanna suffer for my sins

13) ohio - "how to be perfect men" (alistair & zev pov)
they write that list, of all that i should be
and perfect men would never be
jealous, or desperate

14) placebo - "running up that hill" (general)
you don't wanna hurt me
let's see how deep the bullet lies
unaware that i'm tearing you asunder
and there's a thunder in our hearts baby
so much hate for the ones we love
tell me we both matter don't we?

15) daughtry - "crashed" (alistair/zevran)
somehow i can't stop myself
i just wanted to know how it felt
too strong i couldn't hold on
and i'm just trying to make some sense
out of how and why this happened
where we're heading there's just no knowing

16) chris isaak - "wicked game" (zevran pov)
world was on fire and no one could save me but you
strange what desire will make foolish people do
and i never dreamed that i'd meet somebody like you
and i never dreamed that i'd love somebody like you

17) sarah mclachlan - "possession" (pc pov)
and i would be the one to hold you down
kiss you so hard
i'll take your breath away
and after i'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear

18) nightwish - "she is my sin" (general)
bless me, undress me
pick your prey in a wicked way
god I must confess... i do envy the sinners

19) massive attack - "inertia creeps" (general)
recollect me darling raise me to your lips
two undernourished egos four rotating hips
hold on to me tightly i'm a sliding scale
can't endure then you can inhale

20) goldfrapp - "ooh la la" (pc pov)
you know I walk for days
i wanna waste some time
you wanna be so mean
you know I love to watch
i wanna love some more
it'll never be the same

21) placebo - "post blue" (general)
it's in the water baby
it's in the special way we fuck

ZIP with all tracks and artwork

[Fanmix] Zevran/Cousland: The Hurricane I'll Never Outrun

rogueapprentice — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 20:31:10 GMT

So this was heavily, heavily inspired by bamftastik 's deliciously delicious fanfic, which, if you haven't read, you should. I would highly recommend it or this fanmix won't make as much sense, unless you just want some free music. :P A day or two after I read it, a few of these songs played on my iPod in a row, and things clicked in my head, and thus, a fanmix was born. The cover turned out way more noir-ish than I originally intended, but ah well. :P WARNINGS: None, really, beside the bringing of the angst to the pretty party. Mmmm angst cookies.

01. Copeland - "She's Always A Woman"
but she'll bring out the best and the worst you can be
blame it all on yourself
cause she's always a woman to me

02. John Mayer - "Slow Dancing in a Burning Room"
I was the one you always dreamed of
you were the one I tried to draw
how dare you say it's nothing to me
baby you're the only light I think I ever saw

03. Snow Patrol - "Signal Fire"
in the confusion and the aftermath
you are my signal fire
the only resolution
and the only joy
is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes

04. The Hush Sound - "Hurricane"
you're standing in the doorway
though he's asleep in my bed
the steady murmur always in my head
you're the finest thing that I've done
the hurricane I'll never outrun
I could wait around for the dust to still
but I don't believe that it ever will

05. Leona Lewis - "Run"
and I can barely look at you
but every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
away from here

06. Dar Williams - "If I Wrote You"
we drew our arms around the bastard sons
we never would drink to the chosen ones
but you know the way I went was not the way I planned
but I thought the world needed love and a steady hand
so I'm steady now
and I'm so happy
I had to tell you
and I love you
and you will not write me again

07. Imogen Heap - "Hallelujah"
baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
but love is not some victory march
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

08. Matchbox 20 - "Leave"
I'm not saying there was nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
but if that's how it's gonna leave
straight out from underneath
then we'll see who's sorry now
if that's how it's gonna stand, when
you know you've been depending on
the one you're leaving now

09. Dashboard Confessional - "Dusk and Summer"
she said, "no one is alone
the way you are alone"
and you held her looser than you would have
if you ever could have known
some things tie your life together,
slender threads and things to treasure
days like that should last and last and last
but you've already lost
when you only had barely enough of her to hang on

10. Trading Yesterdays - "She Is the Sunlight"
if right is leaving, I'd rather be wrong
she is sunlight
the sun is gone
and if loving her is a heartache for me
and if holding her means that I have to bleed
then I am the martyr and love is to blame
cause she is the healing and I am the pain

.ZIP

[Fanmix] The Ultimate Sacrifice

rogueapprentice — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 20:28:29 GMT

Yeah, I know, another one. >.> This one focuses around the Ultimate Sacrifice ending (read: obviously, spoilers for that ending) and how the party members deal with it. One of them is recycled from a previous fanmix and one is a different version of another song also on said fanmix, but they were such a gorgeous and appropriate songs that I couldn't help it, so I hope I'm forgiven. Special thanks to wordswesaid for number 13! :) WARNINGS: Sadness. Lots and lots of sad, sad songs. :(

01. Jem - "24"
I'll watch the night turn light blue
but it's not the same without you
because it takes two to whisper quietly
the silence isn't so bad
till I look at my hands and feel sad
'cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly

02. Christopher Beck - "Sacrifice [from "The Gift"]
[instrumental]

03. Celtic Woman - "Danny Boy"
and if you come, when all the flowers are dying
and I am dead, as dead I well may be
you'll come and find the place where I am lying
and kneel and say an "Ave" there for me.

04. Tim McGraw - "Please Remember Me"
remember me when you're out walking
when the snow falls high outside your door
late at night when you're not sleeping
and moonlight falls across your floor
when I can't hurt you anymore
you'll find better love
strong as it ever was
deep as the river runs
warm as the morning sun
please remember me

05. The Cast of Buffy the Vampire Slayer - "Where Do We Go From Here?"
the battle's done, and we kind of won
so we sound our victory cheer
but where do we go from here?
why is the path unclear?
when we know home is near?
understand, we'll go hand-in-hand
but we'll walk alone in fear
tell me, where do we go from here?

06. Linkin Park - "Leave Out All The Rest"
forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
when my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
and don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
keep me in your memory
leave out all the rest

07. Alison Krauss & Union Station - "It Doesn't Matter"
it doesn't matter what I want
it doesn't matter what I need
it doesn't matter if I cry
don't matter if I bleed
you've been on a road
don't know where it goes or where it leads

08. Evanescence - "My Immortal"
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

09. Peter Gabriel - "I Grieve"
life carries on
in the people i meet
in everyone that's out on the street
in all the dogs and cats
in the flies and rats
in the rot and the rust
in the ashes and the dust
life carries on and on and on and on

10. Annie Lennox - "Into the West"
lay down your sweet and weary head
night is falling
you’ve come to journey's end
sleep now
and dream of the ones who came before
they are calling
from across the distant shore
why do you weep?
what are these tears upon your face?
soon you will see
all of your fears will pass away

11. Tori Amos - "1,000 Oceans"
these tears I've cried
I've cried 1000 oceans
and if it seems
I'm floating in the darkness, well
I can't believe that I would keep,
keep you from flying
so I will cry 1000 more
if that's what it takes
to sail you home

12. Dido - "The Day Before the Day"
speeches won't be made today, clocks will carry on
flowers wont be left in parks, work will still be done
people wont be dressed in black, and babies will be born
no flags will fly, the sun will rise,
but we will know that you are gone

13. Owl City - "Vanilla Twilight"
I'll watch the night turn light blue
but it's not the same without you
because it takes two to whisper quietly
the silence isn't so bad
till I look at my hands and feel sad
'cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly

14. Amanda Palmer - "I Will Follow You Into the Dark"
if heaven and hell decide
that they both are satisfied
illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
if there's no one beside you
when your soul embarks
then I'll follow you into the dark

15. Faith Hill - "You're Still Here"
thought I saw you today
you were standing in the sun then you turned away
and I knew it couldn't be but my heart believed
oh it seems like there's something everyday
how could you be so far away
when you're still here

16. Boyce Avenue - "Shadow of the Day"
I close both locks below the window
I close both blinds and turn away
sometimes solutions aren’t so simple
sometimes good bye’s the only way
and the sun will set for you
the sun will set for you
and the shadow of the day
will embrace the world in grey
and the sun will set for you

17. Garth Brooks - "The Dance"
holding you, I held everything
and for a moment wasn't I the king?
but if I'd only known
how the king would fall
hey, who's to say?
you know I might have changed it all
and I'm glad I didn't know
the way it all would end
the way it all would go
our lives are better left to chance
I could've missed the pain
but I'd have had to miss the dance

18. Trading Yesterdays - "Shattered"
who I am from the start
take me home to my heart
let me go and I will run
I will not be silenced
all this time spent in vain
wasted years, wasted gain
all is lost, hope remains
and this war's not over

19. Keane - "Bedshaped"
I know you think I'm holding you down
and I've fallen by the wayside now
and I don't understand the same things as you
but I do
don't laugh at me, don't look away
you'll follow me back with the sun in your eyes
and on your own
bedshaped, and legs of stone
you'll knock on my door and up we'll go
in white light
I don't think so
but what do I know,
what do I know?
I know...

20. Toshiro Masuda - "Sadness and Sorrow"
[instrumental]

.ZIP

UP NEXT (if anyone was curious) is a Leliana fanmix, followed by a Morrigan fanmix. ...What? Don't look at me like that... >.>

ICONS: Dragon Age: Origins

rogueapprentice — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 20:25:03 GMT

25 icons from Dragon Age: Origins. Mostly Alistair (shut up), also Morrigan, Duncan, Cailan and some mabari.

1	2	3	4

5	6	7	8

9	10	11	12

13	14	15	16

17	18	19	20

21	22	23	24

25

CREDITING = :D
COMMENTING = :D
HOTLINKING = D:

ICONS: Dragon Age: Origins

rogueapprentice — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 20:22:28 GMT

"Once More With Feeling" soundtrack + sorting through DA:O screenshots =13 icons from Dragon Age: Origins, featuring Leliana, Zevran, Alistar & 1 Morrigan

1	2	3

4	5	6

7	8	9

10	11	12

13

Anyone old enough to get #8's reference gets a cookie. :P

RULES: Comments are <3 but not necessary
Credit is more necessary, it's v. v. v. v. rude not to credit
Hotlinking is evil, and lazy.