…つかのまの虹…

Quick PSA

2012-01-27T07:28:28Z

S'pose I should notify those who care to know that I've already jumped ship over to DW. In fact, I did so a while ago, but seeing as I hardly ever post on personal journals on either site anyway, it's really only there for the sake of having one.

I'll probably set it up ~~eventually~~ soon, though! My name's prisma there if you want to add me. For the most part, this means I've abandoned LJ except in cases where I have to hop onto an old account for whatever reason; I'm still everywhere else I usually would be, though, including devART, Tumblr, and Plurk!

...Also, if anyone is going to Anime Boston or Anime Central this year? REPORT IN RIGHT NOW, DAMMIT.

aphotic @ 2011-07-24T14:30:00

2011-07-24T18:30:41Z

Otakon in a week, WHOOP!

My cosplay is all done, and 'Drea managed to get hers mostly-done too except for fine details and such, but I... was an idiot and apparently got the wrong colored wig the first time. Hahahaha, yup. We'll probably be wearing the cosplays again at some point (which, for those who know GX, are Asuka and Fubuki from the graduation party, HELL YEAH PRINCESS DRESSES... or, as my dad so eloquently puts it, "the Scarlett O'Hara dress"), likely at Anime Boston next year, so I got the correct wig anyway with expedited shipping and am kind of praying to the postal gods that it makes it here before Thursday. Or at least makes it to Malden before Thursday so I MIGHT be able to go down to the office there and politely beg for it. :C If not, I guess I'll deal with styling it after Otakon.

But if it doesn't make it in time (the tracking says it's in NY right now, last I checked), I'll be tinting the light brown wig I got with some yellow sharpie dye. Which... the sharpies I ordered have not gotten here yet either. And Michael's was in the middle of moving locations when I went, so all their shit was packed up. /pulls hair!!

...Ugh, yeah. THE JOYS OF COSPLAY, GUYS. But regardless of the outcome ~~I'm still hoping for USPS to pull through for me, dammit, COME ON GUYS YOU CAN DO IT~~, it's gonna be fun. ^O^ There will be lots of people there I can chill with, undoubtedly, and I'm bringing my external drive so we can watch anime in the room!

A-Also... apparently there is talk of bringing wine now, LMFAO. Scream, what do I do, I HAVE NEVER DRANK BEFORE...?! ;w;

But yeah, if anyone who still reads this shit is off to Otakon, I'm staying at the Radisson with a friend! If you wanna chill at some point, I can probably send my cell number your way. It looks like we'll be in Asuka and Fubuki for Friday AND Saturday, so. |D We'll be easy to spot.

this is so typical of me

2011-05-31T21:29:11Z

So you guys didn't hear about my life lesson adventure on the way home from Oakland.

As the cut text says, I missed my original flight home. Like a boss.

Basically, I got to the airport at like 8 AM, had breakfast, called my dad and told him I was there, etc., and all was well. For a time. I went to sit at the plug table for laptops and stuff right near my gate. Didn't put my headphones on so I could hear the calls for boarding and such. No problem, right?

LOL, NOPE.

My fatal mistake? Sitting with my back turned to the gate I was supposed to board at. You see where this is going, right?

So yeah, I get absorbed in what I was doing and lose track of time. When I next look at the clock on my laptop, it is 10 AM. Which is when my plane is supposed to take off. And I am like, "...shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit". The funny part was, even though I didn't have my headphones on at all, I still didn't hear the calls for boarding, nor both times when the crew called me up by name. I have no idea why; maybe I was just too distracted to hear them. I can't really explain it.
I go up to the desk and I'm like, "uhh, the Baltimore flight left, didn't it..." and they go, "yeah, you're Janet ________, aren't you?" And I just nod dumbly, and the guy goes, "yeah, I called you up like twice, yanno", at which point I start APOLOGIZING PROFUSELY to them, and asking if I can get a different flight to Baltimore to catch my connecting flight to Boston. Apparently, it wasn't possible to make it there in time for the connection or to go straight to Boston, so I call my dad, explain to him the situation -- which I am very surprised when he doesn't get mad or anything, and he is surprised I'm not flipping out like I might've years ago -- and he tells me to try and get a flight to Manchester, the second-closest airport at 45 minutes away. So I ask about it, and they say they can get me on a flight that goes Ontario -> Phoenix -> Manchester. I tell them that will work and ask to get a ticket for it.

Luckily, I was flying Southwest. Which is good because if I had been on Delta or American Airlines or anything like that, they would've just gone "nope, your ticket's gone, you gotta buy a new one". But Southwest just transferred the funds of my original flight ticket to the new flight, and hell, I had seven dollars excess. How cool is that?

Anyway, they warned me that if either of the flights were too full, I would be booted off since I was technically on the standby list. I didn't have to transfer, but I had to stop in Ontario and Phoenix regardless. So, it takes about an hour and a half for Ontario and an hour to Phoenix after that. The Phoenix flight made me nervous, since they did say it would be a full flight, but they didn't come pull me off, so I really lucked out there. Five and a half hours later, I'm in Manchester.

But wait! That's not the end of the story, because my suitcase is in Boston, while I am in Manchester. Lucky for me, my dad thought ahead and called Southwest luggage services at Logan and told them the situation, and they said they would pull my bag and hold onto it until I could come claim it. So originally we were going to wait until tomorrow, but since tailwinds were a-blowing from west to east, we got in ten minutes early. Dad called the luggage services again and asked if we had time to make it to Logan before they closed up for the night, and the guy was like "definitely", so we head over there. I grab my suitcase at last, get home, eat a goddamn sandwich because I had only eaten ten-ish hours earlier, logged on to let everyone on Plurk know I made it home okay.

And then I pass the fuck out at... 1 AM EST, I think it was.

Lesson of the day? Never sit with your back to the gate and get distracted by anything, up to and including laptop, games, or music.

So, TL;DR: missed my plane with the power of sheer fucking talent, but made it home with my bag. Happy ending, get!

(Though, if worse came to worse, I would've just had to grab a night at a nearby hotel in whatever city I ended up in and pay it with my shiny new credit card. Which wouldn't have been a problem, but it was nice not to have to spend the extra couple hundred for my own stupidity. Plus, I wouldn't have had my clothes and stuff with me, and... yeah, I'd have had to sleep in my clothes at the time.)

/dusts off journal

2011-05-22T13:45:34Z

Just so everyone who isn't on my Plurk list is aware: I'll be going to Oakland today for eight days to visit my cousin and hang out with friends and GO TO FANIME until the 30th, and likely will not be back online until the 31st due to getting home late and being wiped out to the max, yo.

I'll probably have internet, in all likelihood, but the matter is being on to use it. I may or may not have time to do tags and check things and whatnot, so fair warning. I've already posted up all the hiatus messages I can think of. SO WITH THAT DONE...

See you guys when I see you!

List of muses, new and old!

2011-04-09T20:03:16Z

Bolded characters are active, or at least semi-active!

Yu-Gi-Oh (all)

Yuuki Juudai

hero_of_dark - Econtra!OU!Juudai. Royally sucks. Never used anymore.
darkenedred - Memento Eden Haou. Also royally sucks. Also never used anymore.
dark_iniquity - Some Juudai I don't even remember what I used him for. I believe he was a DR Juudai at some point.
darkinternecion - Adstringendum Juudai, for what little time he was there. Don't think I did too good with him, either.
absoluteking - PMD!Haou, as an Absol, for the short-lived Pokemon Mystery Dungeon RP.
forbiddenprince - Pirate AU!Juudai
hollowlightwave - Light!Juudai. Still active from time to time.
miraclefusion - C&C!Juudai
fusionism - Keyblade Order Juudai
canthearthem - A dressing room AU in which younger!Juudai could no longer hear his spirits, and thus stopped taking care of them/believing in them.
undividedsoul - Broccoli, the DR's Juudai who is secretly a hermaphrodite in the same vein as Yubel, with the one breast and all.
vagabondfool - Route!Juudai

PROBABLY SOME OTHERS I AM FORGETTING.

Johan Andersen

crystalblessing - Kannagara Johan. Currently active!
rainbowbridges - DR Johan, a really bad one. From an AU where Juudai is female.
crystalspectrum - Some random Johan I made then never really used.
ephemeralbridge - Don't remember what I used this one for -- I think possibly Paradisa, but I can't recall. That was shit, too, as it turns out.
variegatedwings - AU!winged!Johan... uhhh, yeah, his AU is really weird.

AGAIN, OTHERS. Also one I refuse to include due to sheer volume of suckage.

Yubel

lovetoomuch - Econtra!OU!Yubel. What the hell was I even doing.
traurig_drache - DR!Yubel, not sure why I made her, but she was only ever used once in conjunction with another Juudai in the DR.
venerealdragon - Incubus!Yubel. Yeah, don't ask.

Others

fragmented_kaa - Reincarnated!Kisara
sleepingpower - C&C!Kisara

cherubicspirit - Human gijinka-thing!Winged Kuriboh
whiteiceheart - White!Asuka
heavensbluestar - Asuka, mostly an all-purpose OU one, has been in a couple different RPs
betterthanirwin - Jim
pealofthunder - Manjoume
iampharaoh - Talking Pharaoh... WHAT.
quasi_identity - Yubel!Johan but not; more a spiritclone of the both of them from when Yubel possessed him, from an AU fic of mine that I never really finished.
soltrismegistus - Amnael
loveloveheart - Rei
maidensheart - Rei
madbronze - Brron
amazonessbride - Taniya
loves_mommy - O'Brien
advancedark - Yubel!Johan

junk_warrior - Yuusei, from early on in 5D's, before we really knew much about him
neuromimetic - Weird AU Yuusei with a mechanical arm/wings of his father's design
junkyardkitty - Kitty!Yuusei... what idk.
spiritualbond - Ruka
rebuildingbonds - Econtra!Jack, THE WORST JACK EVER
roadoftheking - Jack, who may still be used yet if I can ever get his voice/personality down
markoftherose - Route!Aki, may use her again
dissatisfy - Kiryu
duelskateboard - Luciano who needs a better username, and who I may yet use again
seeyourface - Misty

Fate/Stay Night

zelretch - Route!Rin

Pokemon

slowexplorer - PMD!Bidoof, was at C&C for a while
dragoncrossing - Lance, was at Road to Viridian for a VERY short time at the start of the game
sealed_spirit - Some random troll Spiritomb
lookatmyrocks - Roark, who I never used
no1assistant - Chobin, who was actually quite fun to derp with! But so minor and one-trick pony that wtf do I do with him, ffff.
argentfirebrand - Silver
radicalsterling - Silver

Saya no Uta

desertdandelion - Saya
aberrantworld - Fuminori

Pita-Ten

trouble_angel - Misha
demons_happyend - Shia

Muv-Luv

mistedreading - Kasumi
lastalternative - Takeru, who I never finished setting up...

I have too many journals, so I KNOW I am omitting one or two here. Accidentally, and on purpose in some cases due to sheer suckage.

Oh well.

IT'S TIME.

2011-02-18T19:31:26Z

So I saw the YGO movie ~~after having to drive on the highway to get there, aaaaaahhhhhh~~.

Things we have learned from this experience:

- Malindachan's entry got second place in the art contest! Slifer's was an honorable mention! Yay!

- Juudai and Paradox are the best expression-makers in this whole fucking film. Paradox has batshit eyes. Also, Yuugi has an honorable mention for the time when the Crimson Dragon sweeps him up and sends him thirty minutes into the past to undo the destruction from the first attempt at killing Pegasus.

- The movie is unedited; Yubel's chest is the way it was in the original, and Pharaoh is unneutered. YOU HEARD ME. The music has apparently been replaced, but it's actually pretty good. It's no twangy GX dub BGM, anyway. I mean, at first I thought I was listening to the original tracks, so that tells you something.

- It's stated Juudai's in Europe when he tracks Paradox down, supposedly because he heard his friends telling him their cards were stolen. Probably London or thereabouts, based on the architecture...?

- Yuusei can, in fact, see duel spirits -- Juudai's, at least -- and Yubel and Daito were able to tell he was unusual because of the Signer mark right away.

- YUBEL FIRES ENERGY BLASTS, no lie.

- Paradox had a decent voice, though it was kind of "Crowler without the overly pretentious nasal tone". Everyone else did acceptably, though I will never stop disliking Jaden's voice. D|

- The 5D's minor characters cameoed! For like... two frames! Yuusei thought back to all his nakama. The ones I could spot were, alongside Team 5D's regulars, Ushio, Mikage, Himuro, and Team Sat Kiryu. Among a bunch of others I couldn't identify because ffff short clip.

- Daito and Pharaoh were the token peanut gallery in this movie, naturally.

- The time frame of the duel, outside of "Yuugi's time", whether it was post-Battle City or something else, was pretty unclear. Paradox's ultimate fate when he loses is more or less up to speculation, too, between dying or getting sent back to the future. How he time travels is ALSO up to interpretation...

- Juudai actually has a laptop! In his bag! I was actually really surprised by this, since I wasn't expecting anything like that. He used it to look up past events that were changed with Yuusei. (It's not red like his phone, though. But it does mean he's not disconnected from the outside world when he travels, so...!)

- That ten minutes of extra content? IT IS A TOTAL LIE, or maybe Japan only, take your pick. I stayed until after the credits, but there was nothing. :(

In conclusion:

I WANT TO PLAY PARADOX SOMEWHERE HE IS SUCH A FUCKING ABRASIVE PESSIMIST AND HNNNNNNNNNNNNNG.

Any questions? 8U

aphotic @ 2011-02-09T14:36:00

2011-02-09T19:36:44Z

Guys, hold me... I think I'm slowly developing an Aporia muse.

;_;

I dunno, man, I'm just starting to connect to him. I might make an account and drop it in the DR or something...

...WHY AM I DOING THIS. I DON'T KNOW.

--Also, yay for Massachusetts showing the YGO movie during February vacation as well as on the weekends listed!! I get to see it earlier than most of you do, nyaaaaaaaaaah. >D

aphotic @ 2011-01-28T15:34:00

2011-01-28T20:34:55Z

I'm kind of annoyed at my subconscious mind right now.

It started out with my parents (both of them, I think) and myself in Florida walking... somewhere. I think we were supposed to be leaving. We walked up to this kiosk thing on a boardwalk, and in between talking to the guy (who had the most infuriating grin I may have ever seen, and looked vaguely like... Mitsuo/Boy from GX, idek) and being separated from my dad, I realized Very Bad Things^TM were about to happen.

My mom and I turned into random Pokemon at will (?!) and started blasting things underwater with ice beams and lasers and stuff like that -- why, I'm not really sure. I think my mom got captured by something at that point, and so I started flailing trying to free her. The next thing I know, we're on the surface in broad daylight, and I'm human again.

The force that captured my parents (and soon myself too) was really annoying, in that you couldn't escape because they were always freaking watching you. You couldn't get away from the supervisors above water, and they could even see you if you swam below the rafts that the supervisors kept watch from. There were a bunch of girls -- no boys, just girls -- running around brainwashed, and it was like I was the only one who wasn't. Eventually, I got hold of a nail file and... something else long and sharp, and started cutting up the girls. The supervisors took note of this and ran over to blast me with guns and skewer me with knives, but I... didn't die. As usual. I could inexplicably heal my wounds if I thought about it hard enough.

So I started slicing the supervisors, too, hoping to get a hold of the leader with the crazy enraging smile while night fell progressively onto the dream. They kept coming at me, but I just kept cutting throats and whatnot. It was pretty violent without being gruesome, though I remember it in pretty good detail. After a while, I locked onto the leader and kept killing the girls who threw themselves at me, but the leader kept freaking getting away -- his raft had a motor attached to it or something, and I could almost swim fast enough to keep up. Almost.

He sort of mocked me from afar and did the whole condescending villain spiel, I think. I remember my parents came up at this point, whether it was me remembering them or him mentioning them verbally. So I kept trying to get at him...

Stuff happened I don't clearly remember, dawn broke (I think), and then I woke up.

...I never did get to kill the evil guy. ;_;

Creepy fucking dreams aside, when I woke up, my dad told me that he got a call from one of his cousins on his mother's side. Apparently one of his other cousins dropped dead while shoveling snow... either this morning or yesterday, don't remember which he said. And he was the same age as my dad, which didn't really make him feel all that great.

...Truth is, it kind of unnerved me, too. I worry for my dad a lot, since it's impossible to tell what his lifespan will be, considering his dad's side has always had heart problems (and his dad and all his aunts/uncles died before age 65, IIRC), and yet his mom's side has incredible longevity in contrast. So... idk, man.

aphotic @ 2010-12-28T05:39:00

2010-12-28T10:39:07Z

Late post is late.

But I got the following for Christmas, sans the stuff I got for myself to make me feel slightly better:

- A fic by cheeky_eyes which I have to get off my ass and review, dammit
- A card from my dad

And that's it.

Yeah. Gave like seven people I barely even know two month paids, though, so that's good... and when Seve comes back I'll probably get him a belated Christmas present, too. More reason to not leave ever again. ;;

In other news, I'm quite sad that the anon that posted about making a possible YGO game is probably not going to make it a public game due to fear of wank, from what I hear. So much for getting my hopes up, I guess. :/

We got a blizzard that hit us hard, and thus got like two feet of snow dumped on us. Plus, my dad found that the brake fluid of my car is leaking when he was shoveling the snow, which means I may not be able to mail the stuff I got for rhodanum until that gets fixed, whenever that may be. But I do have it, so I'll ship it off when I get the chance.

This Christmas was slightly better than last year... for my dad, anyway. For me, it was somewhat worse. Just another Saturday, nothing special. I'm sure as hell running dry on holiday spirit, personally. I'm glad he wasn't so depressed this year, cause that would've rubbed off on me and really ruined it, but it kinda made me disappointed in my own right, and made me consider a lot of things.

My hours are fucked up seemingly beyond repair right now. I currently go to sleep at like noon and wake up at like 2 AM, or somewhere thereabouts. It's awful, but I don't have the willpower or reason to stay up long enough to fix it and sleep like a normal person.

...I also had a dream where I was orally fixated to the point of despaaaaaair, and that I wanted to suck someone off so badly I was considering putting an ad online on some dating site. o___O I don't even know what the fuck that was about.

holiday list

2010-12-07T04:43:20Z

Step 1
☆彡 Make a post (public, f-locked, filtered ... whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
☆彡 If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.
☆彡 Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step 2
☆ 彡 Surf around your friends list (or friends' friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:
☆彡 If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use -- or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free -- do it.
☆彡 You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf -- to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not -- it's your call.
☆彡 There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just... wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

1) My paid account on aphotic is conveniently about to run out. Renewal would be loved forever.
2) Milk chocolate -- a classic, but I'm kinda curious in trying stuff from chocolate makers that aren't Hershey's. No nuts or anything, just milk chocolate if you can help it. Though I think Hershey Hugs are delicious, too, soooo...
3) This album by Irie Kanako. Yes, it's Johan's voice actor; yes, if I get it, I will rip and share it.
4) Fic/art/anything of Juudai/Yubel/Johan or Asuka/Manjoume/Fubuki (Tenjoin sandwich!!) would make my fucking year, man. Or, hell, while we're at it, let's add Luciano/Ruka and Aki/Misty to that. Even the littlest thing would be lovely. ♥
5) I would be a happy Qu if someone RPed stupid GX/5D's shit with me over IM, on IRC, or in a musebox on LJ or something...! ;A;
6) A 4 or 8 GB USB thumb drive would be awesome because I only have one right now.
7) What I think would be a lot of fun and would make me really happy is if someone played a visual novel or watched an anime with me at the same time, either as a first time for both of us, or it involving me introducing said someone to a new series. Not even just YGO; I really want to play Muv-Luv and Fate/Stay Night with people. :Db

WHO HAS A LIST THEY WANT ME TO LOOK AT... cause I'll do it. ;A; I want to do things for my friends. :D So link me to your shit, people! FEEL NO SHAME!

...Also it's fucking freezing in here. :|

what even

2010-12-02T08:48:01Z

CHRISTMAS PRESENT BULLSHIT.

...Roleplay presents, of course. :| WHAT ELSE. They're all for Route, just me tossing around ideas for my own reference.

Juudai's list

Yubel: ...I haven't decided yet! I suppose it could be something small but meaningful -- something rose-related if not just a plain red rose, as long as it's not too sappy or anything. He doesn't really feel he needs to go out of his way for it since neither of them really cares so much about presents in their relationship, but it'd help if he got her SOMETHING, at least.
Asuka: He will attempt to make something edible, I'm sure. If Tag Force is anything to go by... it'll taste sweet, and probably be made of chocolate, because he knows she likes sweet things, I guess? WHICH IS PROBABLY VERY MISLEADING...
Johan: Umm... totally stealing this idea from other games I've been in, but maybe some kind of charm or pendant or amulet with an opal on it, because opals are rainbowy. And getting something with every single correct gemstone would be too expensive, sadly.
Yuugi: He'll be keeping an eye out for something extremely challenging to the mind. I'm thinking he can visit one of those little hole-in-the-wall trinket stores somewhere and get something funky for him. Beats me exactly what, though.
Heather: What do you get for someone so tough and tomboyish? She's a little less... refined than Asuka, so he can't just go "well I did this for Asuka so I'll do it for Heather too!". Also he has no idea what she likes. Possibly something practical, though...
Rika: Along the same lines as Yuugi; something gamey and challenging, probably.
Kay: Either something shiny or something thiefy that she can use. Probably going to go with a shiny hair ornament, for the safety of everyone around her. 8D
Kaito: Preferably nothing magic-related, because he's fairly sure Kaito doesn't need the help in that regard, but I don't know what avenues to pursue for him otherwise. ;w;
Crow: ...He is the only one I am totally stumped on! Argh.

Aki's list

Yuusei: Something that is both practical and techy at the same time! Clearly this is the only option. If she can find something like that in such a tech-deprived place... orz.
Jack: ...Oh god, what do you get Jack. He won't like anything she gets him, pffft. So... I'll have to think on it a little.
Crow: Aki knows Crow better than Juudai, but even so, I'm still stumped. XD
Sai: Something Go-related, if she can find it, as a thank-you for putting up with her, at the very least. If not... she'll have to do the research on something else. I dunno, lol.

As for why I'm still awake... shut up, my hours are royally screwed up. ;w;

pointless crap

2010-11-23T20:14:47Z

OKAY LET'S GET THAT WHINY LAST ENTRY OFF THE TOP OF MY PAGE.

Firstly, hi, everyone from the GX friending meme! ♥ I'm Qu and I have no taste. Also, I'm the laziest person you will ever meet. And I never finish anything.

Next, we have two dreams from the other night and from last night! How exciting!

The older dream that I still remember clearly involved me walking into a pawn shop in the middle of... some city, because I remember there was a bar and a laundromat nearby somehow. I go inside and there is GX STUFF EVERYWHERE, oh my lord. Not just the DVD boxes, but some really weird stuff too, like... an oil painting of Juudai and Yubel. o_O It is very pricey, a couple hundred dollars, but I decide for some odd reason, "I have enough money for this, so I am going to buy it!" And in the dream, I think I actually did have the money for it, but when I went up to the guy at the counter and told him what I wanted (he seemed very friendly, though), he looks at me and goes "do you have the money to pay for it?" So I tell him I do, and am about to pull out the money when he it starts to get fucking weird.

"Tell you what, I'll let you have it if you do me a favor. :D"

...What favor, you ask?

Why, the classic "let's fuck" favor. :|

And you know what the best part is?

I remember very clearly that the guy resembled an old teacher of mine who used to pick on me in class. And I mean really pick on me, despite whether he meant to be a douche about it or not. This is the one I told at one point after class was over point-blank to cut it the fuck out, and he didn't, so when I snapped and the other teachers found out, he got a stern talking-to by the principal.

So there was lots of very reluctant sex involved. Urgh.

And then my other dream started out with me playing this Pokemon Pinball-like thing with some little girl, which involved connecting the DS to the machine via wireless and depositing the Pokemon you win into the game. But the problem was, it had to identify you via your accounts on the internet. o_O So somehow this little girl had a FFnet account (OH GOD), so I helped her win a Venusaur with a random hacked moveset and put it in my DS because she didn't have one. The fact that I could not, for some reason, reach the buttons made it difficult. And then she got taken away by her parents or something... I think. At one point, I messed up and the machine wanted to verify that she was the one playing and not me, so they asked for her footprint to be scanned (why not fingerprint, I have no idea).

Then the next part I remember involved me trying to play video games (my N64?), and I couldn't get them to show up on the TV for some reason. One of those old-fashioned TVs with the dial, because it was like the TV that used to be in the den, which is where I used to have my video games set up. But then again, this took place in said den, so I guess that makes sense, kind of.

So I am trying to play, and I can't get the controller to work for some reason. The light was low, and this frustrated me! But I remember I was trying to do something or other, and I just couldn't, no matter what buttons I pressed. It wouldn't respond to me. Near the end of the dream, I was starting to get somewhere, and I think I was hacking some files or something, I can't recall what about. But they were all ~*~top secret~*~ so it was getting good before I woke up. :<

And then I think I cut the power at some point in this dream trying to turn on the light switch for better lighting. Why there was a power breaker near the light switch, I also have no idea.

Finally, fanfic ideas, two of which are prominent in my head at the moment:

- The YGO AU crossover idea I had that I am reluctant to write because I can't write DM characters worth shit. All the characters are attending middle school, high school, or college, and there is nothing wrong with this! Until they start regaining memories of their former lives. Also because I want to see what happens in 5D's with Aporia and Paradox and Z-ONE before I fill in the gaps with my own theories that turn out to be way off the mark.
- The GX AU in which that one kid that looks like Johan doesn't get killed by Zure, survives S3 somehow, and turns out to be his tsundere twin. Cue S4 antics. And I totally did not steal this idea partially from Cyn, what makes you think that. :|

All my others, I have no idea what I'm doing with them. So yeah.

...I am never hungry when I first wake up anymore for some reason. It's just impossible for me to eat breakfast (or lunch in my case, hurr) anymore. But I'm hungry now, so off I go, I guess. D:

argh

2010-11-11T21:34:48Z

So.

I had a dream last night I was chewing on clay and soap like gum. And it actually didn't taste like shit.

...I think there was more to it than that, but that's all I remember. Wat. I often have dreams where I'm chewing on something that isn't meant to be chewed, or that there's something perpetually in my mouth that no matter how many times I try to spit it out or remove it with my hands, it... regenerates. I don't even know, sometimes I can't even identify what I'm chewing on in some dreams.

Also, I twisted my ankle AGAIN. It was at about 4 AM last night... I got up for some purpose I can't remember (I pretty much instantly forgot why I was getting out of bed as soon as I woke up completely; it might've been to get a drink, but I'm not positive), but my foot was asleep. As in, totally numb. And I completely didn't notice this. So when I tried to step on it and put my weight on it, it kind of... didn't take that well. So I stumbled around beside my bed for like three seconds until I fell flat on my ass and felt my ankle killing me, so I assume I must've stepped on it the wrong way. Possibly the exact same way I stepped on it on Labor Day weekend (which was basically stepping the wrong way on a staircase and/or applying my weight wrong, and instead winding up turning my foot inwards and literally touching the bone of my ankle and the side of my shoe to the fucking step), though that incident hurt much worse than it currently does now. Same ankle as last time and everything, which is... surprising and not surprising all at once. It took me about five minutes of hissing and groaning and sitting there in immense pain before I hobbled to my dad's room and asked him to get an ice pack for me apologetically, because there was no way I was tackling the stairs with a freshly sprained ankle. I felt bad for waking him up, but it was kinda a minor emergency. I couldn't even get to sleep for about an hour and a half after the ice pack was applied, because it just fucking hurt. D:

Luckily I don't have school until Monday, since club was canceled due to Veteran's Day today... hopefully I'll be able to walk without limping by then.

I guess the point of this post is: DON'T YOU HATE WHEN YOUR LEG/FOOT FALLS ASLEEP AND YOU TRY TO WALK ON IT BUT THEN REALIZE YOU CAN'T FEEL IT SO YOU FALL OVER INSTEAD AND POSSIBLY SPRAIN SOMETHING? :|;;;;;;;

...I've done that more than once. Oh my coordination.

o wat

2010-11-02T23:44:08Z

I have obtained a shit-ton of anime to keep me occupied for a while, alongside heavy canon reviewing of other series. Among them include:

- Noir (which I am currently on episode 12 of!)
- Popotan
- Jigoku Shoujo Mitsuganae (I've seen the first two)
- Black Jack TV/Black Jack 21
- Tiny Snow Fairy Sugar

And I'm gonna try to get a hold of what's available of Panty and Stocking later just because ARGH YOU PEOPLE. I've heard mixed things about that, though.

So hopefully this will expand my anime-horizons a bit. |D Idk, man. Noir's pretty good so far; I know Popotan is supposed to be lighthearted, if ecchi and fanservicey; Jigoku Shoujo I enjoyed previously, even if it was a little slow to get anywhere at first; and Black Jack looks kinda awesome, man.

...No real point to this, just posting because I haven't posted in a while. 8D

that one meme

2010-10-23T22:16:24Z

1. Asuka
2. Rei
3. Edo
4. Johan
5. Kaiser
6. Jim
7. Manjoume
8. Shou
9. Juudai
10. O'Brien
11. Fujiwara
12. Fubuki

Have you ever read a Six (Jim)/Eleven (Fujiwara) fic? Do you want to?
I am sort of curious how that would work, considering they don't ever meet or show up in the same season. D|;;;;

Do you think Four (Johan) is hot? How hot?
Um.

Yes.

Like, "I'd hit it so hard they'd crown whoever pulled me off of him the next King of England" hot.

What would happen if Twelve (Fubuki) got Eight (Shou) pregnant?
I'd.

Cry.

From my heart.

...Unless Shou was genderbent, but even then, he is so fucking tiny oh my god he cannot handle pregnancy, what even.

Can you rec any fic(s) about Nine (Juudai)?
Anything by Heleentje. Or Higuchimon, but I like some of hers better than others, TBQH, so it depends.

Would Two (Rei) and Six (Jim) make a good couple?
...Maybe? Jim would probably treat her more like a little sister, though.

Five (Kaiser)/Nine (Juudai) or Five (Kaiser)/Ten (O'Brien)? Why?
Kaiser/Juudai, because although I'm not a huge fan of them romatically, they have a mutual respect that would work out far better than Kaiser and O'Brien.

What would happen if Seven (Manjoume) walked in on Two (Rei) and Twelve (Fubuki) having sex?
I... I don't know if I'm more worried for Manjoume or Rei in this situation.

Make up a summary for a Three (Edo)/Ten (O'Brien) fic.
Something about vigilante heroes versus military buffs. IDK.

Is there any such thing as One (Asuka)/Eight (Shou) fluff?
Probably friendshippy fluff, sure, but not many people really support them together since their personalities don't really mesh well romantically (and, of course, with fans, they're not "cute" enough together, either).

Suggest a title for a Seven (Manjoume)/Twelve (Fubuki) hurt/comfort fic.
"Even Better".

Titles are hard without stories to name them after, oh god. But Manjoume/Fubuki hurt/comfort is not very hard to pull off, since there's an obvious route that can be taken with them. Plus, Manjoume would do anything for either of the Tenjoins.

What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted Four (Johan) to deflower One (Asuka)?
Um.

...Hurt/comfort. "WAAAAHHHH JUUDAI TURNED US BOTH DOWN. HEY ASUKA, WANNA GO HAVE CONSOLATION SEX?"

Does anyone on your friends list read Seven (Manjoume) slash?
...Probably. I know Beth likes Manjoume/Fubuki, and I'm sure I've got a Manjoume/Juudai fan somewhere amongst my friends list, but I have no idea who. XD

Does anyone on your friends list read Three (Edo) het?
There is no such thing as Edo het unless it involves genderbending or Mary Sues. D|

Does anyone on your friends list write or draw Eleven (Fujiwara)?
HI CYN AND BRIDGET.

Would anyone on your friends list write Two (Rei)/Four (Johan)/Five (Kaiser)?
Cyn would do it. And I have an idea too.

Rei attempts to take Fubuki's place and pair Kaiser up with someone. THE RESULTS ARE HIDEOUS, CLEARLY.

What might Ten (O'Brien) scream at a moment of great passion?
DADDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

--I mean.

Um. Who the fuck knows, he's not exactly a loud one, and pretty well controlled, so probably nothing? |D

If you wrote a song-fic about Eight (Shou), which song would you choose?
...You know, I don't actually have any songs I associate with Shou. It's kinda weird, actually. I don't have enough variety to associate characters with songs I listen to, haha.

If you wrote a One (Asuka)/Six (Jim)/Twelve (Fubuki) fic, what would the warnings be?
...Just Fubuki is the only warning necessary ever. Trufax.

What might be a good pick-up line for Two (Rei) to use on Ten (O'Brien)?
Nothx. >>

wat

2010-09-25T17:18:18Z

My dream last night was interesting. Surprise surprise.

I dreamt I was sleeping in my bed (the bottom bunk) at the New Hampshire condo my family used to own (which has since been sold to a new owner for almost exactly a year now), and I could very clearly tell it was our NH condo because of the layout and the style of the rooms. It was raining very heavily outside, and then when I woke up, a tree had fallen INTO MY PARENTS ROOM across the way. I think I was alone in the dream, because I wasn't panicking about "HOLY SHIT WHAT IF SOMEONE GOT HURT" or anything, but the tree had totally collapsed the wall. I... have no idea how or why, but I took the entire tree that fell and brought it out the front door, standing on the wooden stairs there, and threw it out into the flood. And then took a branch off of it and splashed some big-ass turtles that were doing something at the side of the building.

There was more after that, since I woke up and went back to sleep -- it had something to do with my own neighborhood being the setting and neighbors' houses, I remember, but the details are unclear. |D I'm kinda surprised I had such a vivid reenactment of the whole condo in my head, since I can remember very clearly the stairs right before the front door, my bedroom, my parents' bedroom, everything. Maybe because it was sort of etched in there from all the visits I made to it in my life.

I have nothing else interesting to say, other than "religious zealots are largely off their rockers". But that is a fact of life.

memehor

2010-09-08T03:07:34Z

Give me a character and/or pairing and a prompt and I'll write you a sentence.

Hi guys. 8U

FANDOMS: Yu-Gi-Oh GX/5D's, Pita-Ten, Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Pokemon (Special/Gameverse), Hell Girl (up to Futakomori), Final Fantasy IX/X(-2)/XIII.

stuff

2010-09-06T18:43:36Z

Hey, question, guys!

Who on my lovely friends list is going to Otakon next year? I'm gonna go once I book a flight/hotel room and stuff, and I wanna find someone to room with. I'd like to arrange things early if possible, since I'm sure rooms fill up quickly. I don't know the area, but I would be willing to pay for my share of the room. D: I am a good roommate, I promise!

...Posted publicly because LOL IDK.

Also, Labor Day in Maine was a lot of fun -- steamers!! also best family ever -- but I twisted my ankle real good on Sunday afternoon going down the stairs. And it still fucking hurts. D| Hopefully it won't be so bad come Wednesday, because I have school starting then, so if I can at least walk without going "ow" every other step by then, I'll be satisfied.

Still, argh.

aaaaahhhhhhhhhh

2010-09-01T19:05:45Z

...I-I passed my exam.

;A;

He said I was being really jerky and that I needed to adjust to the gas pedal a little better, which was probably just me being insanely nervous because I wasn't doing that during the review lesson at all, and even the driving instructor said he was surprised. MY NERVES, THEY WEEP.

But still, PASU FOR ME. :OOOO

Also I finished Higurashi no Naku Koro ni + Kai. Shit was awesome. :|

aphotic @ 2010-08-21T16:01:00

2010-08-21T20:01:04Z

Day two. Oh boy, here comes a fun one.

Dear crush(es),

There are two of you at the moment. Neither of you know, and I'm not super-hopelessly-infatuated with either of you, it's just a small, stupid thing in both cases that I'll probably get over in a few months. Especially since one is hilariously ridiculous because it's a long-distance crush.

I haven't known either of you very long. One of you goes to my college, and I just... I dunno. I think you've been turned off by psycho ex-girlfriends in the past, which is understandable because I'm sure those are a pain, and I don't plan on shoving myself onto you, but it's disappointing, because you're a really nice person, if a little absent-minded. I mean, you mistook me for someone else (or forgot my name entirely, I can't really tell which to this day)... that kinda hurt. I think you have a crush on one of the other anime club members, but I don't hold that against you -- she's really awesome, and she seems like she's more your type. Outgoing, friendly, a little loud and rambunctious at times, fangirlish... heh. So it's a classic case of "you don't acknowledge my existence, bawwwww", I think. I would love to get to know you better, though... but I'm not sure that's going to happen, since I'm kinda too shy to approach you, and I've only told one person about it, and she's actually in a fight with the rest of the anime club right now, something I'm not really involved in and don't understand the situation of very well.

Sigh.

And the other? Again, I don't know him very well. Most of my online friends are female, actually, but I have a few guys on my list. Never met any of them in real life, though, despite having met up with a few of the girls for cons and such. But still, something about your personality strikes me as intriguing. Describing or attempting to describe it would probably give me away so bad, but trust me when I say that I don't lie when I compliment you on things. I'm not really sure what else to say that won't completely tip it off to someone or other on my friends list, though... I'm kind of afraid the same thing will happen that happened with another guy I had an e-crush on at one point (that was apparently mutual?!), which was that I annoyed him to the point that he decided he was going to get over me, and I now almost never see him or talk to him online. I suppose he's busy with life, but... yeah. That wasn't very fun. Granted, I was like... fourteen at the time, but still.

I said things to my best friend that apply here, as well -- I think I need time to improve upon myself before I go chasing anything committed. I sort of want to be asexual, but I'm really not at my core. I'm not the lonely type who needs a significant other to complete me, but I kind of want to experience what it's like at least once in my life. I've turned down all two of the guys who've straight-up asked me out before, and the same applied to any who confessed they had a crush on me. Every time, there were just things about them that turned me off, or I didn't know them well enough to want to bother. I understand that love grows, it doesn't just happen, but I think if I were to go out with someone, I would want to care about them and know them to some extent first. Plus, common interests are a must with me, especially considering the fact that I have such narrow ones to begin with.

I'm rambling now, though. If, by any chance, either of them were to read this (yeah right) and figure it out (again, yeah right), I'd probably just tell them not to worry about it, or to ignore it, or to pretend they didn't realize it. I like to think I've changed for the better since I was like... fifteen and sixteen, but I still have a bit of growing up to do, as some recent events have proven to me. So I don't think I could handle it right now, and if I just threw caution to the wind and jumped in, I would probably wind up hurt in the end, along with the other person, because I'm just not ready for it -- I know it in my heart of hearts, despite not wanting to admit it to myself.

Unrequited love makes me keep my sad distance, but at the same time, it'll keep me close to you, too. So I don't fault it for happening, for that reason.

Sincerely,
Janet

私の親友へ。

2010-08-20T22:43:21Z

Gonna try and keep up with this challenge, the 30 Day Letter Challenge, despite the fact that I am typoing up a storm on this new keyboard, dammit. ~~Watch me forget about it forever in three days.~~

So, let's try this out!

Dear best friend,

You're the classic textbook childhood friend to me, the one and only in my case. I've known you since we were born, since you're like... a little over five months after me. Our mothers were friends, too, and we also went to school together. We were so overexposed to each other, in fact, that we got into arguments all the time, declared our undying hatred for each other at our doorsteps, and then stormed off to our houses which were directly across the street from each other. I remember we would do "sign language" to each other with waving and mouthing from our front windows across the street, asking if one wanted the other to come over for a little while, or if the other was busy.

That stopped being the case, though.

At the end of fifth grade, you moved to a nearby city for reasons I'm probably not at liberty to disclose, considering you're on LJ and you'll probably read this and identify with it at some point. I was really disappointed, but we kept in touch, and in time, you moved back to this city to go to the public high school, because the high school in that town is just... no, too much drugs and teen pregnancy and ugh, yeah, I see why your mom didn't want you going there. I introduced you to some of my friends while I had the chance, and now we're all really good friends, most of us. I think there are still a few that don't get along, but that isn't the point, is it?

I feel like I don't talk to you enough. No, I know I don't talk to you enough. It's not a matter of mustering up the courage or anything, because I trust you and you're an amazing person, hilarious and witty and really awesome in general, but... it's really me that is the problem. It's always been me. I was the one who had to change to a sped school, because I couldn't handle the pressure of high school, and had a whole bunch of experiences there, mostly bad, but a few good. But I know I don't get in touch with you enough is the bottom line, so it makes me wonder how I can still call you my best friend. I don't know who else I'd bestow the title to in my life, though.

For starters, I should probably apologize for that. I called and (tried to? I don't know if it went through) leave a message on your machine to see if you wanted to go to the beach with myself and two other friends sometime, but I don't think I'll accomplish it this summer. I can try, maybe, but I'm not sure. You're so outgoing, it wouldn't surprise me if you'd already been at least twenty times in the past two months. But I suppose I should give it one last shot, right? I'm not very good at much of anything, socially -- I tend to just close in on myself, and make the other person do all the work. That was never a problem with you, though... I could just integrate and be myself for a while when we hung out, however rare that's becoming lately.

I never want to lose contact with you. Even if I feel it's slipping now, I just... never, ever, ever want to let you slip completely through my fingers. You're too awesome a friend for that. The problem is me, though, and it always has been, so if I want to make sure you don't, I have to become a better person.

So... wait for me, okay? I'll make sure to get up to your level of awesome eventually. So then we can really be best friends again, and when that happens, it'll be the best thing ever, I swear. I won't be the insecure, whiny, dependent person I am now. And I hope when I can accomplish that, our relationship will be all the better for it.

Love,
Janet

...I teared up writing that. Dammit.

Other than that, though? Shit sucks. RP-wise, I'm really burnt out and trying to cope with something petty and stupid that I should really not be upset over at all, and today my dad injured his thumb with his power tools or something, I dunno exactly. But he got it pretty good, and I had to help him wrap it, and will need to help him with a bunch of stuff later tonight/tomorrow. He's been debating going to the hospital if it doesn't stop bleeding.

Kinda doubt anyone has any to spare, but e-hugs are... more than appreciated.

aphotic @ 2010-08-17T18:52:00

2010-08-17T22:52:33Z

Got me a new computer today. 8U

Mmmm, delicious technology. My current computer is from the early 2000s, and it's at least eight years old, and running like molasses, so I figured it's time to replace it. So I enlisted my dad's help and got that one. There was a similar model for $40 less, but this one had both one more USB slot in the front (which I use very often, for my tablet/hooking things up) and a much better, higher end, worth-more-than-$40 video card equipped. So I figured it was the better deal.

Oh boy, this is gonna be fun!! 8DDDD

JFC fandom

2010-08-12T02:23:35Z

I got an IM from someone just now trashing the cosplay of someone she doesn't like in fandom.

Told her the fuck off.

Felt good for once, especially because the group in question this person belongs to is really just as guilty of being petty and bitchy as the cosplayer she was spreading shit about in IM.

Especially, it's a fucking COSPLAY. People can cosplay all they want and should have the right to not have it called ugly, or have themselves called ugly in the process. Whether it's poorly made or not, whether they themselves are ugly or not (and that's highly subjective). This is not the first I've heard of this group calling her cosplay (and her) "ugly" or other variations upon that word, so it's really just beating a dead horse at this point. If she were to find out you were smearing shit all over her in private with one another, you can be sure another drama storm would start, and is that really what you want to happen?

To anyone from that group who may be reading this: I love you guys, but shut up about her cosplay. We get the point; you don't like it, you don't like her. So just leave well enough alone and not act like a total bitch about it in return, and maybe, just maybe, if you and others can accomplish this, this fandom wouldn't be so damn wanky and have such a terrible reputation from all the catty, cutthroat fangirls.

dfsggsgsddgssdsd

2010-08-01T00:17:13Z

Dad thinks my depression is coming back because I sleep so much, and all I have to say to that is... just because I sleep a lot doesn't mean I am depressed. Because I'm pretty sure I'm not. :/

Trying to arrange a beach trip sometime in August with friends... why so frustrating, though. D: I still need to get a hold of the two others I wanted to invite, but the first person who called me back said she couldn't go until afternoons on Saturdays. So it'd be better on a Sunday, but my dad's anticipating something either this or next Sunday (something about taking all day to update a website he manages for someone, lolwut), so idk. And then I'm not sure how well mid-August would fly with him, because... yeah. :|

Rather bored in general. Totally feeling social, though, which sucks. I really wanna just flail around with someone on AIM or something, but idk. I don't have a whole lot to talk about at the moment.

...But watching the Dan Green hentai clips with Slifer, Mina, and Sethy over Skype last night was fun. 8DDDDD *SHOT*

Also, driver's license test appointment on September... 1st, I think it was. Oh god.

...So yeah. HI PEOPLE, TALK TO ME ~~while I discreetly avoid tags~~. 8|

aphotic @ 2010-07-20T18:44:00

2010-07-20T22:44:28Z

The How's My Driving? Meme

Assuming anyone has anything to say, anyway. 8|