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2015-09-11T19:19:48Z

Sup everyone. So I'm blogging again. Www.sonottired.com and it feeds into www.facebook.com/sonottired . I will still read here and creep on everyone. :) I will bring blogging, doing DITL whenever I want, sharing recipes my way and other junk. Come play with me.

apers @ 2015-07-22T21:04:00

2015-07-23T01:04:19Z

https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=3sCrG-ba9KA

:)

late DITL of a 37 week preggo

2015-05-09T04:11:29Z

So LJ is stupid. If I upload pics to my scrapbook via laptop it keeps turning them in the post. If I use my app it only let's me do like 10 pics a post. If I use the full site on my phone it puts the pics up in opposite order. That plus all the labor start and stops this week means I missed the ditl deadline. Well dangit I'm posting it anyways. In opposite order. So start at the bottom please. Stupid LJ.

Fell asleep in couch night!

How I cook

Clean momma!

Hi hubs!

Unexpected baby gifts!

Bfast

Kids making cookies

How many times this 37 week preggo peed last night. I'm tired

Trinitys laptop is dumb

Toddler kitty loves

Epic hair

Good morning

please reject my post!

2015-05-04T03:15:57Z

I wasn't done :)

apers @ 2015-02-13T14:03:00

2015-02-13T19:03:32Z

I'm reading and my heart hurts so much for you. I just want to hug you.

Ditl wed July 3

2014-07-04T05:09:21Z

I haven't posted in forever, but one of my good friends challenged me to post a DITL again. So let's go!

Ok, ok I'm taking pics Morgan. Good morning!

The critter is passed out sleeping like co sleeping babies do, horizontal and with his feet on things.

I chopped my hair off recently so a quick wash of the hair means I'm ready to go. It looks a little funny in the way I have to brush it to dry right.

Red bean buns for breakfast.... Yums

I check my work email and book a few parties (I'm an event coordinator for a restaurant) I also ingest my daily morning things to keep me human.

We then hop in the car for an adventure!

Ew. Why?

We arrive at our destination! I'm excited, it's mine and Caleb's first time.

Caleb dives right into fun.

Trinity and I do the hurricane simulator.

100mph wind and rain. Yeah.

The air conditioning was cold not that we were wet so we went outside for a bit.

We grab a very expensive snack. This is how you eat a $4 hot dog.

At the Rubiks Cube exhibit we met the fastest guy in the US. That was crazy to watch.

Cool NY skyline

DJ and trinity walk on beams 2 stories up. No thank you.

They had this giant bubble thing. So cool

We leave tired and hungry but happy. We stop by liberty state park to see Ellis Island and the Statue of Liberty.

We meet DJ back at the car. He was sitting with a passed out critter.

We stop at this pizza place. Apparently one of the oldest pizza places in the US. We go to a close by friends house to eat.

All of a sudden this INSANE thunderstorm hits and they are right on the bay. A flash flood hit!

After the storm stopped we said our goodbyes. At this point it's 9pm.

We get home and Caleb begins his evening nurse in.

Time for snacks! Caleb ate all the seeds out if the cucumbers and left the rest.

Kitty cuddles

Reading.

Anime.

And he's out. I'm not far behind him.

His eyelashes are so long they stick to his face when he sweats.

I slither out from under Caleb and realize I don't have clothes to wear to work tomorrow. Ugh!

A quick wash will do... Right?

I move caleb to his bed after my clothes get in the dryer. I am so tired. Very long day.

Night!

apers @ 2013-01-17T22:46:00

2013-01-18T03:46:24Z

Join me at apers365

I am not abandoning this journal. I just don't want all my Facebook friends over here so the other one is public and feeds into Facebook.

Come play!

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apers @ 2012-11-03T23:03:00

2012-11-04T03:03:02Z

I can't link from my phone but I have a ditl up this week chronicling a day of displacement cuz of no power. Go see :)

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apers @ 2012-11-02T09:24:00

2012-11-02T13:24:50Z

We are ok. We live in central jersey. No flooding in our house. Also haven't had power since Monday night. The night before last we began to take refuge at my friend Jeanette's house. It's just too cold and dark especially with a baby. Considering what others are going through, I won't complain about lack of power. I have an intact home and my family is all still alive.

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apers @ 2012-10-02T14:30:00

2012-10-02T18:30:20Z

This little guy has been keeping me busy. He is just so pleasant. I adore him!

I just got promoted at work. Now the event planner, I've been gunning for this job for two years and the person finally left who had it. 80 percent of the work done from home.

So I'm pretty excited about that. lots of stuff going on on the homefront not anything that I really want to post about kind of all to personal and stuff but that's what I've been kind of quiet. so between working, try to get the house together, Trinity going back to school, church things been pretty pretty crazy. things are looking up so that's a good thing. We shall see

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apers @ 2012-07-01T12:58:00

2012-07-01T16:58:44Z

Things are good over here. Caleb is doing excellent. Hes nursing great. he was clicking the first few days, but now hes got a much better latch and is taking in less air as of yesterday. Hes been snacking a lot. riding the letdown then popping off and passing out. So when he does that He usually wakes up 10 min later wanting more so I pop him back onto the same boob. Cluster feeding him one boobed so he gets more hindmilk. Seems to be working rather well. Hes pooping pretty much every feeding and wetting diapers well. He also not beating me up as much. when I would try to nurse him he would get all newborn pissy and scream with a nipple in his mouth not realising it was there and pummel me with little fists. So I would swaddle him and let him suck my finger till he chilled out then try again. then he would latch. fiesty i tell you.

I am feeling good. woke up tired today with a low grade headache. Hoping that just from the tired.

Started writing the birth story. I had to look through all my pictures to refresh my memory and get things straight in my head. Its amazing what an unmediated body does to cope with labor. It totally screwed up my sense of time, made me forget things till Dj mentioned them, and made me unaware/not care what was going on around me. It was very internal.

Also? My pictures? amazing. after I get the birth story written out I will put them together. But seriously looking trough the pictures, made my bottom ache. yikes man. That was some intense stuff going on down there

apers @ 2012-06-25T07:43:00

2012-06-25T11:43:23Z

THIS GOES NOWHERE. NOT ON FACEBOOK. EVERYONE PLEASE PROTECT MY SPACE.

im in labor. water broke at 6:30am. Im telling people here so that my praying types can do so. 38 weeks on the dot :)

apers @ 2012-06-01T20:05:00

2012-06-02T00:05:54Z

new belly pic :)

apers @ 2012-05-29T18:49:00

2012-05-29T22:49:28Z

Trinitys DITL is here http://ditl.livejournal.com/1502429.html

apers @ 2012-04-15T23:57:00

2012-04-16T03:57:24Z

OK I'm trying the swipe function on the droid.not bad. better than typing it all out by hand anyways. had a last min dinner party over here tonight. n had a big ham that i had not cooked yet and dj and i can't east it all on our own shop we had a few people over. out was a lot of fun actually. oh there are some wrong words up there. pooh well, you guys are smart kids and speak fluent typo i am sure. so yeah. fun and yummy dinner was had. toddlers played with. gaming played. lot of food eaten. good night all around. but nowthe back odds sore so in on the couch with a heating pads relaxing shop it will feel better. OK this keeps typing dumb words. I'm going to go till tomorrow.

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apers @ 2012-03-21T12:00:00

2012-03-21T16:00:07Z

linking this again :)

clicky if you want to know how to help us and the baby out:)

http://www.facebook.com/events/267171950016869/

apers @ 2011-12-24T13:03:00

2011-12-24T18:03:59Z

hey guys watch this :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dUDNU2kFtvg&feature=share

apers @ 2009-03-26T22:59:00

2009-03-27T03:01:02Z

Guys guys guys!

remeber how I told you all that the Karaoke peoples loved Trinity last time we went? well they had taken video of her singing and when we went back today they showed us that its up on myspace. hahah Trinitys on Myspace. check her lil diva self out :)

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.channel&channelID=451052232&MyToken=46a4a0b5-38dd-4144-be16-960f0e05aa4c

Meme

2009-02-21T02:05:27Z

babyslime did a cool meme. I like it. I had to ask Trinity these questions. They are not too far off actually.

1. What is something mom always says to you? - "Be Calm"

2. What makes mom happy? - "Getting ice cream"

3. What makes mom sad? - "When I sneak up on her and hold onto her chair and tilt it backwards"

4. How does your mom make you laugh? - "tickling me"

5. What was your mom like as a child? - "Crazy"

6. How old is your mom? - "33"

7. How tall is your mom? - "1,000 cm"

8. What is her favorite thing to do? - "mess around on the laptop"

9. What does your mom do when you're not around? - "Mess around on the computer"

10. If your mom becomes famous, what will it be for? - "doing lullaby music"

11. What is your mom really good at? - "cleaning, and not spilling the chemicals on everything"

12. What is your mom not very good at? - "the game Flower"

13. What does your mom do for her job? - "Work at Faith Exchanage Church. Shes the computer geek there"

14. What is your mom's favorite food? - "Mozzerella Sticks"

15. What makes you proud of your mom? - "That she never forces me to eat the fatty bits of meat"

16. If your mom were a cartoon character, who would she be? - "Tenma's Little sister (From School Rumble anime)

17. What do you and your mom do together? - "PLay sorry"

18. How are you and your mom the same? - "Both of us like Mushi-Shi" (anime)

19. How are you and your mom different? - "I like reading and mom likes the laptop"

20. How do you know your mom loves you? - "She does almost everything for me"

21. What does your mom like most about your dad? - "That sometimes he leaves her alone on the computer while he is playing Resident Evil 2 or Fallout 3 or Resistance 2.

22. Where is your mom's favorite place to go? - "The movies"

apers @ 2009-02-02T23:13:00

2009-02-03T04:15:27Z

I went to bed last night feeling like crapola. Like bug trying to get me yucky. Woke this morning feeling just as bad, took trinity to school, and went back to sleep. I slept from 9:45 till 12:15pm straight.

I feel great now :)

its amazing how good getting enough sleep feels.

facebook meme ( i did it on facebook, figured i would share)

2009-01-29T21:04:37Z

Rules:
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

1) I love to read. There is only one book I ever picked and didnt finish and that was "It" by Stephen King. Got about 3 chapters into it and had no desire to scare the crap out of myself anymore.

2) I really dont like horror movies. My imagination is active enough, I dont need help being scared of the dark.

3) If food looks funny im not eating it. And looks funny is totally subjective. Dj and Trinity end up willingly eating my "yucky bits". This also causes me to do weired things like pick the chicken out of canned chicken soup cuz it looks weired. you get the idea.

4) I can write backwords in printing and cursive just as fast as forwards. Its readable in a mirror. I taught myself to do this in Jr high because I did not want people to be able to read the notes I was writing my friends in class as I was writing them.

5) I also taught myself to write left handed in about 5th grade. I rationalized that if i ever broke my right arm, i needed a way to do my school work.

6) I am mostly ambidextrous. There are things i do right handed, things i do left handed and things i can do either way.

7) I am quickly realizing as I am typing this that I am a bit odd :)

8) I absolutely adore to cook. And eat :) Recipies just show up in my head, often when i wake up in the morning, when that happens, they tend to be really good.

9) When I wake up in the morning my brain is still sleeping. Seriously, Dj will call me right after i wake up and ask me to do simple like deposit his check, and I will freak out because i have no idea how i am gonna do that. He has learned not to ask me to do stuff early in the morning.

10) I have lots of friends who live in my computer. Some I have never met, but I know them better then some of my "real life" freinds

11) I lived in DJs fraternity house with him and about 20 other boys. It was actually a lot of fun and boys are much better housemates then a bunch of girls. girls are mean.

12) I have had an online journal for 6 years

13) I cant remeber numbers like at all. it took me like a month to remeber my sisters new phone number.

14) I can remeber words no problem, but i remeber them very visually. My Bible is all highlighted in differnt colors and stuff because its hard for me to remeber the chapter and verse, but i will remeber that its highlighted in pink, on the top right side of the page and is about 1/2 way through the new testament. This makes it hard for me to find anything in any other Bible but the one I have had since I was 16.

15) I am really sensitive to caffine. Even a half a cup of coffee makes me jittery and makes me feel like I am gonna jump out of my skin. I cant even go near starbucks coffee at all. waaaay to caffinated.

16) I love photography, but in a differnt way then DJ. He likes taking the pictures. I like making them pretty in photoshop. I love to edit. This makes us a very functional team.

17) Growing up, I never in a million years thought i would live in NJ, or really anywhere outside of California.

18) I really dont like reading the manual to things. instead i try to poke at it till i figure it out.

19) I really like tea

20) My favorite restaurant is Makeda's In New Brunswick. Ethiopian is soooo gooood.

21) I used to waitress. I was good at it :)

22) I was a bartender too

23) When we lived in the fraternity house, our room was as small as a normal persons walk in closet.

24) I could eat veggies and dip and cheese and crackers all day

25) its hard coming up with 25 things!!!

Im not tagging anyone

apers @ 2009-01-26T22:59:00

2009-01-27T04:10:49Z

I just fished Midori the naughty cat out of the 56 gallon fish tank.

let me back track.

so im feeding the fish. and midori in general likes to jump on top of the glass top of the fish tank and lay up there or watch the fish. Sometimes When I am feeding the fish she will look like she is gonna try to jump on top and i stop her. I have always said she is gonna take a swim one of these days.

That day was today. I was feeding the fish and I left the top oopen as I was standing there. Iw as waitng for the pet shrimp to come tot he top for flakes and when he did i was gonna give him a dried cube of worms to eat. So I am standing there waiting for the shrimp and not paying any attention to anythign else.

well,midori went to jump in and she fell right into the tank head first. she didnt slip in or fall in, she DOVE in. I yealled "cat in the fish tank" and fished the flailing thing out and ran into the bathroom. Trinity was on the toilet and I am holding a sopping wet cat, and hollering at her to close the bathroom door. Trinity is craking up and dancing around with her pants at her ankles. Midori is aggrivatedly licking herlsef. I am trying to collect my thoughts. I get the kid dressed and to bed, got Dj off his video game for his assistance. I needed to bathe the cat. She has fish water all over her. the last time i bathed a cat was before trinity was even concieved. Thankfully Midori likes water, so I am not tore up, but there still had to be 2 of us considering this was her first washing of her life.

Never a dull moment.

apers @ 2009-01-18T15:45:00

2009-01-18T21:07:52Z

Trinity for the most part is a pretty easy kid. She is hyper, active, busy, and too smart for her own good, but actually pretty obedient and doesnt get in trouble that often.

So today we get home from church and last night we had got about an inch of surprise snow. Well, surprise for me because I wasnt paying attention to the weather, but thats not the point.

So we got her bundled up in her snow clothes and sent her out to play with the neigbor girl who is a few years older then trinity is.

For reference, our apartment faces a pretty busy road, but we have a HUGE grass slighty downsloaping yard between us and the road. And when i mean huge i mean that about 5 cars could be front to back lined up and fit on the grass. BIG yard.

So we have some outside rules. #1 Trinity is not allowed to play outside alone. Ever. She has to be outside with a friend. #2. She is only allowed to play in front of our apartment. We have boundry lines and she knows them, for how far left right and forward she can go. The rules have always been the same. the boundries, always the same. There is nothing new to see here.

We generally have no problem with her respecting these rules. Her friends have to go inside, she goes inside. Her friends go beyond our boundry, Trinity will stand at the boundry spot and holler for them to come back.

So today, she is out playing int he snow. I am by the sliding glass door and I can hear them and i look out frequently to see them.

Then i dont hear them. So I walk out onto the balcony to see if they are just playing quietly out of my immediate line of vision (happens when they are close to the building). Nope. I dont see them anywhere. So i toss on Djs shoes and walk outside in just a sweater. I knock ont he downstairs neighbors door and she is not in there. Now I am getting worried. So I am looking all over, freezing my butt off, getting really worried. After a really LONG 5 or 6 minites I find her, outside of our boundry, over a little hill so I could not see her, and right by the driveway to the complex right by the road all by herself.

She said her friend wanted to go play in the back of the complex with her other friends and just left her there. So instead of coming back in like she normally would she stood there by the road all by herself.

so my freezing butt got her into the house sent her to her room and after i had chilled, had a talk with her. She was really upset and cried and said she was sorry. She understood what she did wrong and all that. I told er how scared I was and stuff. She cried more.

Oh and earlier when she was outside i had accidentally locked the front door. so she pounded on it and when i opened it she SCREAMED at me in front of her friend how dumb i was to lock the door. I was like what? Dj wanted her to come in right then for her attitude, but I gave her some grace and let her stay out after telling her that you cant talk to people like that especially not grownups. And that it was mean and rude.

THen she pulled the disappearing act.

And those were the longest 5 minites ever. The panic sents in pretty quick when you cant find your kid. Did I mention that my throat was already hurting and i was stuffy? and i was running aorund with no jacket, hat , gloves and it was about 30 out? yeah, not impressed.

a line in the sand for me

2009-01-13T04:22:36Z

this is teh new soundtrack to my life song ;)

The Way I was Made by Chris Tomlin

Caught in the half-light, I'm caught alone
Waking up to the sunrise and the radio
Feels like I'm tied up, what's holding me?
Just praying today will be the day I go free

I want to live like there's no tomorrow
I want to dance like no one's around
I want to sing like nobody's listening
Before I lay my body down
I want to give like I have plenty
I want to love like I'm not afraid
I want to be the man I was meant to be
I want to be the way I was made

Made in Your likeness, made with Your hands
Made to discover who You are and who I am
All I've forgotten help me to find
All that You've promised let it be in my life

This is it. From this moment on I will be the way I was made. I will stop fighting with fear what God has put in me. I will follow His lead because His path leads to true life purpose, peace and fufiilment. I will not worry about the judgement of others.

I joined this church in order to find out my gifts and to be used by God.

who am I to now balk at what he is calling me to do? Why do I like arguing with God so much because its not what I had in mind, even though I knew it was deep in my heart?

No more fighting with God. No more wrestling. I leave this new chapter of my life soley in his hands to use as he wants to. No fear, because God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power.

This is all for Him, not me, because on my own I would never have taken this step.

now that I have, there is peace in my soul for the first time since June.

No, Im not gonna explain. im just drawing a line in the sand for myself to look back on. I am taking a stand. I am moving forward.

Things will never be the same.

Thank you God.

apers @ 2009-01-01T10:40:00

2009-01-01T15:50:19Z

so its a new year. Happy 2009 everyone!

resolutions. hmmmmmmmmm. one of my youth group kids asked me what my resolutions are and i was like duuuuuur, i hadnt even thought about it.

So lets think.

I resolve to walk more in using the gifts God has given me, as opposed to doing something because it needs to be done and I am good at it. Specifically this means on sunday service I will not be doing the slides in the sound booth. I will be worshiping with DJ and my youth group kids.

I resolve to be more organized with all those dang papers Trinity brings home from school.

I resolve to make an actual budget on paper, find out where all the money is going, and find a way to save some.

I resolve to figure out a workable system to keep track of bills.

I resolve to pray and read my Bible more. I really have been slacking at both and my relationship with God is suffering a lot. This is also directly related to #1.

ok i think thats enough for now :)