animorph 😟discontent

Listens: Dancing Queen - Abba

Wow....it's been ages.

It's been over two years since I updated last...that's crazy! Well, I never posted pictures after my last post, which was about my trip to Uganda. It was amazing in so many ways and I posted so many pictures on Facebook. I can't really remember much of the last two years in particular. They kind of blur together. Umm...I graduated from college and now hold a Bachelor's in Wildlife Ecology, which only makes me a Wildlife Technician. I need to go to get my Master's to be considered a Wildlife Biologist, which probably won't happen considering I have $90,000 to pay back for loans at a school I didn't even graduate from. Because of said loans, I have to continue to live at home and pay $1000 out of my $1200 a month to this fucking private loan company....for 20 years....so by the time the 20 years are up, I will have paid them over $200,000. Fucked, right? Over twice what I owe. BULLSHIT. But what can you do?

I still work at the kennel. I made two dollars more than when I started 10 years ago. And I get 3 weeks of paid vacation now. Only benes. Don't even have air conditioning, which is HORRIBLE in the summer. I currently sweat from 7 am to 6 pm when I work. I hate it. D. Feher is too cheap to buy us a freaking air conditioner. Apparently, we're second class citizens compared to his precious vet clinic. Jo-el runs the kennel now, which is amazing because Amanda is a cunt and nobody likes her. I despise her. Deeply. If she hadn't have gotten fired, I would have ended up quitting without having another job to fall back on.

We have two new receptionists (after having fired four and having one leave for an internship in her field of study.) One has been with us for almost 90 days (which is our evaluation period) and we're undecided if we should keep her. She has a lot of personal shit going on and firing her would make Jo-el and I both feel like total shit...but, on the other hand, she's not an asset to the company right now. It seems like her memory is like swiss cheese; some of stuff sticks but most falls through the holes. I think part of this intense, consistent forgetfulness is her home life. But, do you keep someone because her life sucks and you feel bad and you know she needs this job? Or do you fire her because she creates more than twice as much work for you and your manager and can't handle the job? Especially shitty that we both really like her and I've known her since high school. I mean, her husband (2nd one, mind you, and she's my age, 23) is a total dick. Verbally and mentally and emotionally abusive. I don't believe he's been physically abusive yet but really it's the next stage. Jo-el said she's tried to help the girl out but there's only so much we can do without her being willing to help herself. I think she is coming around but she also has two children (one from each husband) and I don't think she wants to leave her son without his dad. I just get so frustrated and fed up with finding the same mistakes that she has been spoken to about multiple times and then having to deal with her inability to function at work properly. I don't know...*sigh*

Twiki is our groomer. Came to the kennel maybe three years ago this summer? I can't stand her. She has rare moments where she's all right - mainly when she's not complaining about everything, which she does most of the time. She has too many dogs, too few dogs, she needs help but no one's willing to help her (when she asks for help several times a day, every day), her equipment sucks, we don't pay her enough (even though she gets half of all of her profit, which is more than the manager makes every paycheck!), us receptionists have fucked something or everything up. Ugh, it's endless. And then! You get to hear about her ridiculous life with her terrible kids and dumb ass fiance that pointed a gun at Jo-el's daughter when she was at a friend's house and that friend's mom broke up with this guy. I guess Twiki never heard about that. He had to be escorted off the property by the cops. *shakes head* Some people are just idiots. I want her to come in, groom her dogs, go home. That's all.