Umm...my latest life update
Sooo I leave for Uganda a week from Thursday. I'm pretty excited except for the gorilla trekking. They said that it's a six hour trip during the day and the going is rough with the slope of the mountain we climb being like a 45 degree angle or less so it's ridiculously steep. Two of our professors said that they're in more than excellent physical condition and they had trouble. So that leaves me, 184 pounds and no cardiovascular endurance whatsoever, slightly more than a little fucked. They said there is a group for those that are less physically active but I will seriously, no joke, be the only one in the group to chose that option. And I really don't want to embarrass myself like that. So I guess I'm just going to end up falling way behind and getting eaten by a leopard.
I'm also nervous for trip in general because it's a totally and utterly different place to what I'm even remotely used to. The places we'll be staying in will be nothing like the hotels in the US, obviously. Hahah, at one point, we're going to be sleeping on raised platforms in tents sooo yeah. Mom's spend a shit ton of money on stuff for me. And! She won't let me try to pay her back because "she knows my situation and it's fine." which is nice but frustrating because I hate feeling indebted to her anymore than I need to. I'm glad it wasn't dad buying the stuff though because he WOULD expect me to. He always holds that stuff over my head. I'm also nervous about the food because I'm not super picky, but there are definitely certain things I don't want to eat, or try and I feel like my options for palatable food will be limited so I'm thinking of bringing lots of goldfish and poptarts in my bag.
My favorite new purchases are the sweet ass binos I now have as well as the water purifier. I'm not sure how many trips I'll be making to Africa or places with bad water in my life but this is definitely a good thing to have. I also love my new hiking backpack. hahah
I'll be gone for 12 days and hopefully come back with a tan and some amazzzzzzing pictures. I'll try to find my favorites and post them here, but most will be on my Facebook, so if anyone even reads my LJ anymore, that's where you should look. If you don't have me as a friend, just comment and I'll add you if you give me your name. Though I really don't think anyone reads this anymore, it's more for venting and keeping some sort of record of what's happened/happening in my life. I really should update more....anyway...let's see what else...
Well, Daniel and I rented a room at the Ramada Inn on Sunday night in order to sleep next to each other considering we can't at my house and I'm not allowed at his house anymore. It was supposed to be kind of a Valentine's Day thing but I don't really care about VDay so we just ordered take out Chinese food and watched the Grammy's and had good sexes. I put on some pretty red and black lingerie, which he seemed to appreciate. You know, I've honestly never been big on sex or caring about sex but once you go like a week and a half without it, it suckkkkks so it was nice to be able to spend time with him. Hahaha. Sleeping next to him was the best. I miss that the most.
I wish we could just move this summer. I want to be out of Maine and out of school. BUT, if I'm out of school, I'm going to get monthly bills for my loans for over $800 bucks. Soooo I'm not really sure how that's going to go for me considering I will not rely solely on Daniel for paying of rent and such. I'm hoping that I get a semi-decent job (the ones I've looked at only pay $9/hr!) so I can at least be of some use. >_< Ugh. Fuck Michigan. What did I get from that experience?! Debt and bad memories. I mean, Stacey's great and I miss her but we don't even talk anymore or anything so it's like what was it for? It was a pointless waste of time. The classes I took didn't even count for ANYTHING here. Nothing. I'm so mad at myself about that whole thing.
So basically, in my continually frustrating and set-back ridden life, Daniel is my bright spot. Being able to be with him and move with him in a year is the only thing holding me back from saying fuck it and living with mom and dad the rest of my life like Megan. I'm such a Negative Nancy. Sorry for those that might be reading this. hahah
I'm also nervous for trip in general because it's a totally and utterly different place to what I'm even remotely used to. The places we'll be staying in will be nothing like the hotels in the US, obviously. Hahah, at one point, we're going to be sleeping on raised platforms in tents sooo yeah. Mom's spend a shit ton of money on stuff for me. And! She won't let me try to pay her back because "she knows my situation and it's fine." which is nice but frustrating because I hate feeling indebted to her anymore than I need to. I'm glad it wasn't dad buying the stuff though because he WOULD expect me to. He always holds that stuff over my head. I'm also nervous about the food because I'm not super picky, but there are definitely certain things I don't want to eat, or try and I feel like my options for palatable food will be limited so I'm thinking of bringing lots of goldfish and poptarts in my bag.
My favorite new purchases are the sweet ass binos I now have as well as the water purifier. I'm not sure how many trips I'll be making to Africa or places with bad water in my life but this is definitely a good thing to have. I also love my new hiking backpack. hahah
I'll be gone for 12 days and hopefully come back with a tan and some amazzzzzzing pictures. I'll try to find my favorites and post them here, but most will be on my Facebook, so if anyone even reads my LJ anymore, that's where you should look. If you don't have me as a friend, just comment and I'll add you if you give me your name. Though I really don't think anyone reads this anymore, it's more for venting and keeping some sort of record of what's happened/happening in my life. I really should update more....anyway...let's see what else...
Well, Daniel and I rented a room at the Ramada Inn on Sunday night in order to sleep next to each other considering we can't at my house and I'm not allowed at his house anymore. It was supposed to be kind of a Valentine's Day thing but I don't really care about VDay so we just ordered take out Chinese food and watched the Grammy's and had good sexes. I put on some pretty red and black lingerie, which he seemed to appreciate. You know, I've honestly never been big on sex or caring about sex but once you go like a week and a half without it, it suckkkkks so it was nice to be able to spend time with him. Hahaha. Sleeping next to him was the best. I miss that the most.
I wish we could just move this summer. I want to be out of Maine and out of school. BUT, if I'm out of school, I'm going to get monthly bills for my loans for over $800 bucks. Soooo I'm not really sure how that's going to go for me considering I will not rely solely on Daniel for paying of rent and such. I'm hoping that I get a semi-decent job (the ones I've looked at only pay $9/hr!) so I can at least be of some use. >_< Ugh. Fuck Michigan. What did I get from that experience?! Debt and bad memories. I mean, Stacey's great and I miss her but we don't even talk anymore or anything so it's like what was it for? It was a pointless waste of time. The classes I took didn't even count for ANYTHING here. Nothing. I'm so mad at myself about that whole thing.
So basically, in my continually frustrating and set-back ridden life, Daniel is my bright spot. Being able to be with him and move with him in a year is the only thing holding me back from saying fuck it and living with mom and dad the rest of my life like Megan. I'm such a Negative Nancy. Sorry for those that might be reading this. hahah