The Show Must Go On

Wow

angelikk — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 08:57:04 GMT

It's been forever since i've been here and the only reason i came back was to show my boyfriend my past....not sure if he can accept the way i was, but i guess this is the risk of revealing yourself to someone you've grown to love - rejection and judgment.

Whatever the case...I can only hope for the best.

A Need to Rant

angelikk — Wed, 31 Dec 2008 08:19:37 GMT

Random Rant of the day: Stop being so fucking anal and random.

OK.

Rant over. Now, in happier news,

I can't wait for 2008 to be over and 2009 to start.

BTW, Happy New Year everyone!

Life

angelikk — Sun, 12 Oct 2008 15:33:26 GMT

Life is an uphill struggle right now, especially when you know what you want....but don't know how to go about getting it....

And that's where the unwavering faith should come along....but it's hard to have that when you've been let down so many other times before....makes you think that faith might be a BS concept....but then again, maybe that's just me being cynical.

I FEEL LIKE A LOSER!

angelikk — Fri, 18 Jul 2008 10:38:07 GMT

I just can't figure what's wrong with me!

I don't want to wallow in self pity and feel angsty but that's how I'm feeling these couple of days.

Seems like there's a lot of failure in my life at the moment...And as much as I try to be strong and positive and cheery, deep down I still feel like shit.

Things keep going NOT the way I want it...I keep getting disillusioned and dissapointed by the situations and people around me...so the only way I can keep positive is by telling myself that the night is always darkest before the dawn....

So until the dawn comes, I guess I will just have to settle for my dreams and keep my head in the clouds to keep them alive. :(

Another Test..Because I am BORED

angelikk — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 11:42:06 GMT

The accurate, REALLY accurate bits are bolded...

Your Score: 7 - the Adventurer

you chose AX - your Enneagram type is SEVEN (aka "The Enthusiast").

"I am happy and open to new things"

Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world.

How to Get Along with Me

Give me companionship, affection, and freedom.
Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter.
Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories.
Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am.
Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people.
Don't tell me what to do.

What I Like About Being a SEVEN

being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down
being spontaneous and free-spirited
being outspoken and outrageous. It's part of the fun.
being generous and trying to make the world a better place
having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures
having such varied interests and abilities

What's Hard About Being a SEVEN

not having enough time to do all the things I want
not completing things I start
not being able to profit from the benefits that come from specializing; not making a commitment to a career
having a tendency to be ungrounded; getting lost in plans or fantasies
feeling confined when I'm in a one-to-one relationship

SEVENs as Children Often

are action oriented and adventuresome
drum up excitement
prefer being with other children to being alone
finesse their way around adults
dream of the freedom they'll have when they grow up

SEVENs as Parents

are often enthusiastic and generous
want their children to be exposed to many adventures in life
may be too busy with their own activities to be attentive

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
Harper SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

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That Personality Test

angelikk — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 10:41:37 GMT

I took this 10 years ago and i do think that I haven't really changed all that much...Not too sure...but I gotta go find that old test score....

Here's my current results:

Your Score: INFJ - the counselor
You scored 45% I to E, 36% N to S, 33% F to T, and 26% J to P!

Your type is best summed up by the word "counselor", which belongs to the larger group of idealists. Only 2% of the population share your type. You are so empathic that you often know what others need before they know themselves. You are a complex person who can deal with complicated issues and people, almost prefer to, as you love problem solving. You can be something of an idealist or perfectionist, and should try to take yourself a little less seriously.

You are a supportive and insightful romantic partner, encouraging your mate to have dreams and work hard to make those dreams come true. Because you are so creative, you have a wealth of ideas to help them toward those goals.

You need harmony so much that you are driven to resolve conflict quickly, as long as the terms don't violate your ethics. You feel the most appreciated when your partner admires your creativity, trusts your inspirations, and respects your values. It is also vitally important that your partner be open and emotionally available - in other words, that they be willing to share themselves completely.

Your group summary: idealists (NF)
Your type summary: INFJ

Hmmm...I think that's kinda bad for me....

Concert & Showcase Archive

angelikk — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 03:13:54 GMT

Cos I can't remember how many I've been to, I decided to try and list them all down! (I'm excluding the first and only Perfect 10 Music Awards thing from eons ago cos I won those tix)

Concerts:
(Western Acts)
Michael Buble ('06) - One of the best: he was such a joker!
Christina Aguilera ('07) - Good but not personal...she was preggers at the time!
Linkin Park ('07) - BEST CONCERT of 07! Chester n gang rocks.
My Chemical Romance ('08) - Losta $%$^% words and goth people. LOL...
The Click Five ('08) - Too many tweens...I was actually one of the tallest girls around with my heels. EEEK. But the music and Kyle were infectiously making me happy. LOL!

(Asian Acts)
May Day ('07-'08: I've seen them like 4 times already!) - One of the better Chinese bands around
S.H.E. ('07 - with Farenheit) - OK, but it was all so rehearsed...bordering on boring except for Hebe's hot dance act
Fish Leong ('08) - Most boring concert I've ever went to...I fell asleep midway!

Showcases:
Tata Young ('07) : @ Dragonfly...it was so-so. Not into her.
Daughtry ('07): @ Dragonfly...very nice...Great accoustics!

To be updated if I can remember any more!

A Change...And The Show Goes On...

angelikk — Mon, 14 Apr 2008 13:51:55 GMT

This LJ needs a lil updating because I realise that this title doesn't exactly...nor totally fits me anymore...so goodbye to you original title...

Too rare to live, too weird to die
The Story of a Manic Dreamer

You've suited me good till now and so I bid thee farewell!

After some consideration, I think I will change this LJ's name to:
The Show Must Go On
Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on

(Taken off Queen's bloody kickass The Show Must Go On track)

Lets leave it on for a week or so...and see if it fits... :)

Wall-E is LOVE...

angelikk — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 06:09:58 GMT

Awwwwwwww! Look at that earnest little face!! I can't wait for this movie to be out already....

It's Hard to be Fierce and Intense on a Monday

angelikk — Mon, 10 Mar 2008 03:04:43 GMT

Damn, I hate this f*&cking place. And I'm so f*%cking pissed.

I try to be fierce in all that I do here @ work but it's so hard when you're surrounded by total bitches who make life so difficult for you at EVERY SINGLE SECOND.

I so want to give up and just quit this. My life is too short to be feeling panic and anxiety attacks every 15 mins. They literally killed my spirit. And soon they're going to kill me for real.

Anyway...here's the quote of the week:
How U do anything is how U do everything

Something to think about with that.

Anywho, be fierce, bitches.

BREATHE!

angelikk — Tue, 04 Mar 2008 17:25:02 GMT

Wow, it's been forever since I last made an entry here....

After taking a helluva ride on the topsy turvy roller coaster of life, I've finally resurfaced from all the madness and chaos to take a few moments at 1.13am in the morning to write this entry...Ummm...It's been too long since I've made a proper entry and now my brain is exploding with thoughts of all that's going on in my life.

Which is actually not that much, really.

I'm just very:
a. fustrated with my career (low wages, unfair treatment, blah, blah, blah)
b. confused with my love-life (I think i might be in like with someone but as usual...i am probably overanalysing)
c. tired with my life in general (I've not been pampering myself for a long time - no facials, no visits to the hair salon...boo hoo)

The only thing really positive in my life right now is that I'm losing weight (Dropped 4kgs since last Oct) - a constant battle with my body and I will not rest until I hit my ideal weight!

And the other good thing is that this year everyone seemed to remember my bday...i got some gifts surprisingly and a few wonderful treats...it was totally unexpected since I wanted to keep things as low key as I could! (No, I'm NOT OOLLLDDD!)

Yes. I am in denial. But whatever, ya know?

I've also recently seriously contemplated on cutting my hair damn short just to give myself a change....but then I thought about the remainder of my rebonded hair and then I got sentimental about it!

I know, I know, it's just hair rite? What's the big deal? Geez...But it's more than just hair, isn't it? It's about who you are, what you are...and if your facial features suit that new look....(which I'm doubting my face is up to the challenge)

Anyways, it's 1.23am now and I should REALLY be getting some bloody sleep.

Got a meeting with the big boys tmr, and I need to be fierce (in that Project Runway's Christian kinda way)!

The Way I Feel About Life Now

angelikk — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 14:32:51 GMT

I'm so tired of being alive sometimes...it's hard to keep being this happy, bubbly person when all I want to do is break down, break something, cry my guts out and still have someone to tell me that it's okay.

I guess Linkin Park sums up how I feel right now so well:

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

My Chemical Romance Concert Vids - Part 1

angelikk — Sun, 16 Dec 2007 14:45:19 GMT

Don't ya just love youtube?

:)

So here's the vid playlist:
Part 1 - I'm Not Okay - The end of Dead, a welcome speech by Gerard and I'm Not Okay
Part 2 - Cemetery Drive
Part 3 - Black Parade
Part 4 - I Don't Love You
Part 5 - Teenagers - Piano solo by James Dewees (i think) and Gerard and James singing Home Sweet Home, followed by TEENAGERS!

If you prefer viewing from the youtube playlist, click here: http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=5629BF3EF01298D9

Part 1 (I'm Not Okay)

Part 2 (Cemetery Drive)

Click THE CUT for more MCR Live action

Part 3 (Black Parade)

Part 4 (I Don't Love You)

Apologies for the blurry quality for this one as I accidentally chose the wrong recording mode!

Part 5 (Home Sweet Home + Teenagers)

More pics and vids to come in the next post!

My Chemical Romance Concert Pics - Part 1

angelikk — Sun, 16 Dec 2007 13:48:08 GMT

OK folks, here's what I'm going to do....

First part of the pics are going to go up,
then I'm going to post part of the vids in my next post, k? :)

Teenagers scared the living shit out of me!
(No kidding, I'm never going into a mosh pit again unless I'm RIGHT IN FRONT!)

Tons of pics for your guilty viewing pleasure.... :)

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My Chemical Romance Concert

angelikk — Wed, 12 Dec 2007 06:59:05 GMT

Mosh pit maddness!

Tons of F-words flying around!

Crazy eye liner action on almost everyone!

The MCR Concert was great other than the crazies in the moshpit pushing everyone around like mad - the part where my cousin almost fainted from the crushing moshies (mosh pit crowd) was the only thing that worried me the most....it was too much for her, and myself as well! I hate sweaty, smelly people cramping next to me.

We moved to the back just before Gerad told the crowd to pick up the person next to you when they fall!
Which was what one nice girl did for me when I fell! Bless her heart...There were some real mean moshies out there, so I'm grateful to have stood next to her...

Anyways, pics AND vids coming up next as usual! :)

Bleeding Out

angelikk — Wed, 21 Nov 2007 02:52:28 GMT

I'm so sick and tired of the dissapointment after dissapointment I keep facing in life...People who take me for granted, people who let me down when I needed them to step up, people who make my life miserable in order to climb up the political ladder.

I'm so filled with a sense of numbness from defeat now - it's bodering on chronic depression.

So much has happened over the last few days, I can't even type the words now to explain all that's happened. All I can say is that I'm fucking sick of the people who are supposed to be the leaders around here who keep fucking things up and letting me take the fall without even putting up a good fight to defend me. It's so fucking hilarious the way things are going here that I can feel myself slipping.

I was so stressed that I had to take a ciggie to destress 2 days ago - and that's something I NEVER. EVER. do. No matter how bad things were previously. Somehow I think that's a sign that I should really make some real plans to get the hell out of here.

Fucking shitty politics and the fucking lousy management and "leaders".

The only good thing that's come out of this is my acting skills. Most people think I'm totally fine and okay about things even though I'm not...Only 3 people in this whole office really know how pissed I am...I think maybe I should try acting one day...who knows - it can be start of a whole new career!

Linkin Vid/Pic Post Part 4

angelikk — Sat, 17 Nov 2007 14:41:41 GMT

Really sorry about the crap quality in sound and image here...The crowd that I got stuck with didn't really appreciate Linkin Park, but the ones that did got stuck in Pen B... :(
(I was in Pen A)

Also, it would've been better if my crush had been there with me...instead of my non-linkin fan colleague... :((

I'm going to hunt for a really good all purpose camera when I get to Hong Kong on the 27th this month - promise!

Linkin Vid No. 1

Linkin Vid No. 2

Linkin Vid No. 3

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Linkin Vid/Pic Post Part 3

angelikk — Sat, 17 Nov 2007 14:14:05 GMT

As promised....here is Part 3...!

BTW, next concert I'm targetting is My Chemical Romance!!!!!

Lets hope I can get free tix again! :P

(Yes I am aware of that idiot's hand/finger ruining this pic. :P)

(This is the backdrop for In Pieces - the most romantic looking backdrop imo - coloured raindrops)

You can head here to take a look at this set: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NWbjY4s_KEs
It even includes the bit where Chester said someone stole his jewellery and Mike mentioning something about pinching Chester's butt! :P ...Now that's OTP y'all...O.T.P
(This is NOT my upload FYI...I just found it randomly on youtube. :) - Much better quality than mine!)

Last piccy of the lot before I move on to the vids in part 4!

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Linkin Vid/Pic Post Part 2

angelikk — Sat, 17 Nov 2007 13:56:18 GMT

LP just catapulted themselves into my top 3 fave bands after this concert...(Formerly top 10...LOL)

So much better than those crap chinese bands like S.H.E and what not...These dudes are the real deal!

I miss them so much already - I swear theirs is the BEST CONCERT OF 2007!
(Even more than Christina's!)

Part 3 next up!

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Crushed!

angelikk — Fri, 16 Nov 2007 07:56:27 GMT

I LOST/FAILED the Singtel job interview. :(

Just when I was flying high yesterday...my world comes crashing down today (not just from the failed interview)

Life is short and SUCKY!

Unless there's a Linkin Park concert around.

Linkin Vid/Pic Post Part 1

angelikk — Thu, 15 Nov 2007 14:23:15 GMT

Opening song was GIVEN UP....Which was EFFING HOT!!!

THIS IS ALL BEFORE THE BACKDROP CURTAINS FALL TO REVEAL....

(Stay Tuned for Part 2!)

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Linkin Teaser

angelikk — Thu, 15 Nov 2007 13:41:58 GMT

Just to prove that I'm definately going to post it all up...

Take a peek at this teaser trailer.... :P

PICS ARE UP IN THE NEXT POST!

Linkin Park ROCKS!

angelikk — Wed, 14 Nov 2007 10:00:31 GMT

Went to the Linkin Park concert last night....Had free standing tix for FREE and in summary, what I can say is...

It was FRIGGIN' AWESOME DUDE!

Pics and videos to be uploaded up for everyone's pleasure soon...and I apologise in advance for the crap quality.

BRAND NEW Tokyo Fashion Co. Top

angelikk — Wed, 03 Oct 2007 14:45:51 GMT

BOUGHT FROM TOKYO FASHION CO.
~ Selling at S$16 Shipped ~

Leave a comment with your email add and name for interested buyers.

Thank you!

Daughtry Showcase @ Powerhouse

angelikk — Sun, 30 Sep 2007 14:36:39 GMT

I know I'm super late in posting this (Showcase happened last Thurs!)

But nevertheless, here are some pics...i'll try to upload bits of the showcase on Youtube later if possible too...

Thanks to the folks at Samsung, I managed to get VIP passes to the 2nd floor of Powerhouse to catch it...The crowd was packed and the energy was just buzzing!

Anywhos, here are the piccys for y'all to enjoy....

(BTW, SORRY FOR THE BAD QUALITY IN ADVANCE...)

I seriously need to upgrade my camera!