trance missions

Just logging in

ana — Tue, 11 Nov 2025 06:34:17 GMT

I’m on instagram mostly these days, fyi

Working on new stuff. Crypto, OF, hypnosis

ana — Mon, 26 Apr 2021 05:13:21 GMT

Omg how cool I was able to switch to the old version of lj and I have my old interface back. This is amazing!

Trying out the lj app

ana — Wed, 26 Feb 2020 23:03:33 GMT

Every post I make says 18+

Super annoying.

But trying this app out even tho it has terrible reviews. I remember this app having way more cool things in it, ways to format and such. But it seems all those features are gone. Bummer.

Also looking at my friends list and so many people have died or I don’t talk to anymore. That was sobering.

I might come back here tho if I can deal with this app. Just trying it out. Here is a random photo that I found that was on my iPad

Beep beep

ana — Wed, 26 Feb 2020 22:26:49 GMT

I’m just seeing if this thing still works.

Test

ana — Sat, 22 Nov 2014 21:38:37 GMT

Obligatory selfie of the day.

ana — Tue, 11 Feb 2014 19:37:34 GMT

Age 47. 3 children, 2 living. 1 home birth, 2 cesarians. Breast implants, breastfed all children via pumping. Weight 127. Height 5' 2". Cheap reader glasses from target. I have my period right now. Maybe the last one. I had coffee and birthday cake for breakfast. Today is sunny and zero degrees F. How are you?

through the viewpoint of the 6th dimensional pixelbot

ana — Wed, 29 Jan 2014 14:06:50 GMT

Lorna Doone's 60th Birthday party
and my remembrances of living with her in that house
as seen through the viewpoint of the 6th dimensional pixelbot
that popped into my room one day. and said "wake up! have a cup of coffee!"

full shamanic ritual endurance version.

grrr

ana — Tue, 28 Jan 2014 21:00:41 GMT

i am going insane trying to edit this video of snippets i have of lorna's birthday party. if i trim clips on my desktop computer then on the ipod it won't recognize the .mov format. i have been trying to find time to work on this and just grrrr. nothing is going how i want. i need to be able to trim and INSERT clips and INSERT the %$%$ audio where i want. i haven't gone to this degree of "difficulty" before on a video. (if you can call just trying to INSERT something inbetween 2 clips difficult. it should not be difficult. so where is the frickin insert button or what am i looking for?) between imovie and windows media player these are not compatible. i have had too much coffee!!!! i know what i want but i just cannot do it even tho it is SO SIMPLE. *SCREAM*! meanwhile my time i have to do this is once again ticking by. and if i wait until after the children are in bed i will, once again, be too tired. i need a second computer that is a mac that is only dedicated to making videos and music. it's 2014 pc and mac start making shit compatible you control freaks in the way of me being able to do my art. omg GET OVER IT. MAKE IT COMPATIBLE! *lightening bolts from my fingertips*

Pixelated altar love

ana — Fri, 24 Jan 2014 01:10:07 GMT

This is Patrick's altar when it was blazing away during the Haunted Spaceship show. I took a photo off my computer monitor :)

Violet's dinner table

ana — Wed, 22 Jan 2014 01:21:50 GMT

She did this yesterday. Her drawings get more complex :)

Are you in a worthwhile dilemma?

ana — Wed, 22 Jan 2014 00:47:40 GMT

Brian Eno's oblique strategies apps recommends I do this right now:

Perception

ana — Tue, 21 Jan 2014 23:38:53 GMT

This is what it is like to have PTSD from being a woman in this world that tells me how free I am then gives me these toys to my daughter to let her imagine being a female doctor according to the Barbie world.

Everything is tainted with an oozy creamy film of disgust and bad carpeting that doesn't match anything you are. Pink clashing with scribbles on walls that seem to appear from my nightmares.

Everything disjointed. Nothing makes sense.

I straddle this world and their world and our world and your world and their world but I must do it with no complaints about you taking a photo of an up skirt if me on an escalator and then sharing it with your friends and saying things like "I'd hit that" and "I'd cap that"

I am the despised and feared and worshiped Scandinavian woman from good stock. My drapes don't match the carpet so my value goes down 10 points for that. I have fake breasts that made milk for all three of my children. I now have curves like a "real" woman at 47.

I'm supposed to celebrate this.

Or something.

I'm in my daughter's room wondering who she is and who she will be and just being blown away by the sheer responsibility of being in charge of raising "a strong woman" (because woman are naturally weak, you have to teach then to be strong, I hear)

How will I teach my beautiful little violet about up skirts? Why does she have to endure this bullshit in her future?

I can only pray the world is different when she is older and I can make it better for her. This is what every mother strives for (usually)

Will we survive?

Yes, we will. I take you up skirt doctor Barbie laying on the pitiful carpeting from 1979 and i say I love you. I love your mini shirt. I love the fact that you can lay like that with your feet in the air without a care in the world. This is what it is to see like a child.

I want to see like this again. It's just a doll laying on the floor that happened to fall over in that position.

Much like any woman.

a cam show i did for the survivors of hurricane katrina

ana — Mon, 20 Jan 2014 20:02:42 GMT

i was doing a cam show/shamanic ritual on a daily basis while on tour with the Sex Worker's Art Show.
one of the places they stopped was new orleans and this was shortly after hurricane katrina had happened.
so this is what i did for the show.
i'm not showing it again because this is my best work image wise, but because i think the subject remains relevant. so i am going to put it up here now to archive.

Good morning :)

ana — Mon, 20 Jan 2014 15:59:51 GMT

More snow. Grey. Need summer now. Now. Now.
I'm going to make a turkey soup today. Get started on the broth. I wish I had fresh thyme. In the summer thyme grows crazy all over our lawn. Mmmmmm. I want to lay on my back in the grass and watch the clouds.

I haven't paid much attention to news/current events in a few weeks or more. It's nice to not have that in my head.

I'm starting to wake up so my mind is kind of blank right now except for the usual weird watery dreams I have where I am wandering around in dangerous neighborhoods that are delapitated and beautiful. Old stone churches taken over by the homeless and prostitutes.

Now my brain is whiplashed back to my kitchen where I must attend to breakfast.

I really hope that today I can finish the video I made from snippets of Lorna doone's party. I've been working and thinking on it for a week now. I have to stop being so precious about it. But also there have been a lot if things getting in my way of being creative like children being sick and not getting enough sleep.

But today. I really want to finish it so I can move on to a new movie.

Here is something violet drew on the computer and she wanted me to take a photo of it. She is really good at drawing with only a computer mouse for 4 years old, I think.

Finished 6th season Doctor Who

ana — Sun, 19 Jan 2014 00:25:01 GMT

and the children are starting to feel better, thank goodness! *crosses fingers*

Taking care of the littles today.

ana — Sat, 18 Jan 2014 18:52:10 GMT

Both children sick. Much laundry cleaning ensues. Muppet movie on. Glad it's the weekend so I am not alone in this. M is by my side and we're tucked in our warm house while outside is 12 degrees F. New fallen snow is incredibly sparkly. Would love to go out and make films of it. It's an inside day today tho. I love my family. I am glad we have each other.

Last night's haunted spaceship show was a wild ride! But it served a good purpose to out a few people who were pretending to be working for "the light" when in fact it was the opposite. I totally called it in episode 2! I'm pretty good at reading people now. Sometimes I am wrong, but most often I am pretty much spot on.

It's not everyone's cup of tea, but last night's show cracks me up so much, I just adore it :)

haunted spaceship episode 003.

ana — Sat, 18 Jan 2014 06:36:53 GMT

heyoka in the house yo.

^highly enlightened being becomes irate^ :)

my words echo back to me. zebra. cake. voila.

ana — Sat, 18 Jan 2014 06:24:14 GMT

Hi

ana — Fri, 17 Jan 2014 22:07:40 GMT

Getting ready for episode 003 of Haunted Spaceship tonight on goog+ :)

Cleaning the house

Sunny day

Lots of sparkling energy today! (Or maybe it's just caffeine :)

Swerve the panorama feature in the iPod to tilt objects

ana — Fri, 17 Jan 2014 05:38:08 GMT

Also;

And:

Automatic art app

ana — Fri, 17 Jan 2014 04:22:43 GMT

I put the word "pizza" in it and it gave me this. It searches like a search engine for images on the internet that match your word then randomly combined them into this:

Adaptive behavior assessment system

ana — Fri, 17 Jan 2014 02:20:27 GMT

So I am supposed to answer this huge questionnaire that seems to be like the G.E.D. of how superior (their word) or low (their word) my daughter Lili is in the grand scheme of Western Psychological Services' thing of rating a person based on whether or not a person can correctly do something when needed (their word). Can they superiorly rate when talking about current events, for instance. Can they use a pay phone. Super important things. And I'm like ya.....ok.....how do I go about this contraption?

Digital Feng Shui

ana — Thu, 16 Jan 2014 20:17:02 GMT

Email, it's very important for your Feng shui to not get "hoardish" (my mind splits into 2 pieces the other one now trying to dissect why that is synonym of whored ish. Then splitting and again saying "synonym"? And at least 12 other fractals are in a room arguing with each other grandly smoking cigarettes) to keep an eye on cleaning your email as any room in your physical house. Let it go! Hit "delete all" and the ones that were important will write back. It's that simple. I double dare you!

Clearing my energy field

ana — Thu, 16 Jan 2014 19:16:44 GMT

I feel a major bitchfest in me today. So I am trying to figure out a way to not have this feeling in me and switch channels. I'm having hot flashes and all that so ya. I wish I could find a pair of headphones.

Things I love:
My bed
My comforter
My pillows
My Xanax
Hash browns
My heater
Coca cola
My candles by my bed
The blankets on my bed
Leggings
Burt's bees lip balm
Bread

i went to a party

ana — Tue, 14 Jan 2014 18:53:41 GMT

what i wrote the next day after the party on saturday:
"Best ever time at Lorna Doone's birthday party. Still processing the whole tidal wave of nostalgia and all the incredible conversations I had with some of the sweetest people on the planet got lots of vids to comb through and sounds from the party. Will make a very weird experimental video from it. The beginning of me making a documentary about her slowly but surely. Exciting!"

i am working on compiling all the clips i took into a very weird video.
that is what i have been working on the past few days :)
going to go work on it more now :)