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2024 half over already?

2024-06-14T09:46:12Z

Hi there!

Two years without an entry... My! Time is running so fast it's unbelievable... So what happened since 2022? Not very much. Unbelievable two.

Our dear tomcat died last Sunday. A stroke we suppose. It was nasty, but he didn't suffer much. I buried him in the garden. Poor fellow. He was my sister's cat and we had to take him with us the day she died... Sad memories. He was about 14 years old. I miss him. Another section of life gone.

But slowly I get my butt in gear again. Doing a bit work out, clearing the yard and the house. We had tenants that moved back to where they came from, leaving all their junk behind. Being a foreigner is ok, but at least you can be modest and try to keep up with the rules in another country than your own. They left without saying a word, or three weeks before they were leaving. Now we have tons of old toys and no children to play with them. I'm going to donate them. Let's say I wish them luck. She seems to be smarter than her husband who brought another woman with him when she was already back at her family's. Does that sound as if I hate people? At least the noise is gone. As cute and sweet children can be...

Weather here is still cold and grey. We are getting used to it. We tried to keep costs for heating as low as possible. Except the new tenants who live with the windows open constantly. 'sigh' Sometimes I think my mother and sister made the better choice...

Reading a lot. Lovecraft. The short stories. I am not impressed. Harry Mulisch. Die Entdeckung des Himmels. Very good book I can highly recommend. Now with over 50 I understand what they were talking about lol
I'm still dreaming about school and work life. Things that happened over 20 years ago are still affecting me. That's odd, isn't it? I often dream about owning a large house with many rooms, but it's crowded with strangers who take away my precious things. Anyone has an idea what it means??? What I hate most is, that I am still undecided about what to do with the rest (25 or so years) of my life. I don't want to waste it! But how do I start without money and a father who feels tired and worn out? I feel tired and worn out too. But no one ever asks me about how I feel...

Well. Have a nice weekend everybody. And write another fic/story/diary entry. Writing helps :)

Free again!

2020-07-28T10:17:12Z

It's not a penis

2020-03-14T13:21:40Z

Hi there!

I hate Photobucket. Scrolling down to posts back from 2013 half of the pictures/vids are gone. Yes - I do still have them on my hard drive/thumb drive... But that's not the point. I'm pissed, because they changed everything without a warning first.

So I decided to upload pics/vids here on LJ instead. Like the following :)

It is not a penis - it's a sausage :) And lentil soup. Why is this important? It's a hand cooked one, not from the can :)

Life is erratic at present. I'm 51 now and everything seems to change, but not for the better.
I hate this sh***y virus! They cancelled 'The Flying Dutchman' which we were meant to see this afternoon my sister and I...
My father has still issues with his leg.
The new dog is a monster! (Although a cuddly one.)
WORK IS THE SHITTIES THING EVER!!! Honestly - I could shoot them all! Imbeciles, idiots and more idiots.
I will leave them in eight weeks. THANK GOD! This job has been the most mundane I ever had. The only good thing is the money.

DON'T BUY BIRKENSTOCK!!!

At least the sun is shining and pics of clouds and sunset collection is still growing.

Maybe you ask yourself now - what will she do in the near future? I intend to live a happy and joyful life, with plenty of money and things I like and love and can do. Like photography, painting, carving, book binding, writing, reading. And walking with Monsterlein :)

The soup was yum!

Let us all start posting more and more often!

Have a beautiful weekend :)

Love

Ela B

Happy Easter

2019-04-21T10:24:58Z

Happy Easter to all Beanie lovers!

Love bunnies

I deleted my Photobucket account

2019-01-01T11:40:19Z

Hi there!

A minute ago I deleted my old unused photobucket account... The mess they have made... First they told me I don't have an account anymore, or worse - wrong password (although I didn't alter anything...). Then I had to confirm it is me... They let me in and directed me to the 'buy... for....'-site... I was soooo aggravated months ago, when instead of an old uploaded pic/file they showed me this stupid 'pay 400$ a year and you got your pictures back'-thing!!!
I don't think I want to have a relationship with a service so unreliable as theirs. So I deleted it.

In 16 days I'm going to be 50... Maybe I will delete my LJ account too. Haven't decided yet. But life goes on. I reset this account to free last year. It's time for a reset. A lot of things that had been very important to me, when I was in 40s are now obsolete. My mother died... still unbelievable... In the last few days I realized that I haven't done any of the things I wanted to do in almost 50 years! I'm still working for other people and their wealth. I feel like living in a kind of prison. Same shit day in day out.

So plans for 2019 are to lose weight instead of gaining it.
Write more for my own delight :)
Finding a better paid job with lower stress level.
Travel more.
Doing the things I always wanted to do (music, photography, art, languages).

And hoping for Sherlock Holmes 3 with Jude Law and Robert Downey and a sequel to 'Master and Commander' :)

Although weather outside is bleak - have a good start and always remember - Life is too short for later!

All the best

Ela

Merry Christmas

2017-12-25T14:43:26Z

Dark Spring

2017-05-05T10:20:53Z

Hi there!

This picture has been taken a while ago. With my mum's dead not half a year ago to me it looked both beautiful and threatening. It was a chilly spring afternoon. There is always a Yin-Yang aspect in everything that surrounds us. Future frightens me. Bullies seem to rule the world (or trying to). And who are we to prevent it? But nature will still grow, blossom, produce, fester and decay as long as the earth exists. It feels strange to think of one's own mortality... And what will remain?
It still makes me cry that my mum's body was cremated. All that she once was is now gone where??? I still can't believe it. Let's hope for the best.

Merry Christmas

2016-12-25T12:42:25Z

R.I.P Jeremy Brett

2015-09-12T17:49:26Z

Today 20 years ago he left this world forever. We still miss him...

Jeremy Brett

3.11.1933 - 12.9.1995.

R.I.P. Jeremy - wherever on the wind you are.

Gem of Nature

2015-07-05T11:59:10Z

Awesome day today. On my way to the pond where I discovered two zillion tadpoles fourteen days ago I came along this little fellow. Isn't he awesome? And the tadpoles turned all into tiny cuddly mini frogs :) That really made my day! Off to put more penis shaped ice cubes into my coffe lol

Such a beautiful fellow :) It's called Purple Emperor. I'm in awe...

Have a beautiful Sunday! xxx

Happy Easter everybody!

2015-04-05T12:05:27Z

"Holmes, there's a hare on the table.'

"It's an Easter bunny, Watson."

...and a nice long weekend!

Happy Birthday, Robert!

2015-04-04T08:46:51Z

And many happy returns! The man with the thousand handsome faces. This guy should be president!

Off to celebrate 50 years or adorable cuddliness! Cheers Robert!

...there'll be dragons...

2015-02-16T09:36:46Z

Watch out! Awesome animation of one of Ciruelo's dragons from Nomad vfx company. This is a five seconds excerpt of this video but... Awwwww!
Make sure your volume is turned up!

Ciruelo Cabral is from Argentine. I loved his works ever since. There are so many details in this animation. The tail for example, the waves, the wings...

Have a great Monday. Over here madness rules today. No sun yet...

PS: Great you can upload videos to your LJ account now. I'm impressed :)

Disabled people paint - calender sheet December

2014-11-30T16:55:45Z

Summer night at the zoo.

Disabled people paint - calender sheet November

2014-11-01T17:13:03Z

The Night Owl

Disabled people paint - calender sheet October

2014-09-30T22:48:27Z

The Owlhouse

Disabled people paint - calender sheet September

2014-09-04T15:05:21Z

This one is especially lovely :) 'Night at the Zoo'.

Two Calendar Sheets

2014-08-02T17:02:50Z

Disabled people paint and a naval one :) Means - contains a ship!

From GEO, August:

The Sargasso Sea

Rainbow Lizards

2014-07-28T18:02:38Z

Hi guys! Just to let you know what I am doing all day long :)

And the other side under a cut.

It takes a while to bead one of them. Around 2,5 hour. Aproximately 380 beads and 2m brass wire form these utterly desirable critters :) And how was your day?

Love you all xxx.

Disabled people paint - calender sheet July

2014-07-05T17:43:39Z

A six year old girl painted this beautiful tiger:

I love her choice of colour and the tiger's powerful walk.

I made something...

2014-06-14T19:17:15Z

I call it 'jlawactive' after Jude Law whose hand I had the privilege to touch last year in December thanks to nodbear! The colours blue and silver seem to fit to his complexion. I can't really explain. But then Robert Downey jr 'feels' like dark-grey and red, the devil :)

This took me a day to saw it out of a piece of plywood and another day varnishing and glueing it to a piece of tinfoil. It now graces my sleeping room wall and I can hardly avoid staring at it :) It's so beautiful it almost makes me cry... ^^

Plus glimmer :) Because, hey! Mr Law is a star :) *twinkle*

Disabled people paint - calender sheet June

2014-06-03T09:11:23Z

>Colourful is the wildlife.<

Amazing caterpillar!

2014-05-28T17:05:40Z

Euthrix_potatoria or 'drinker' in English, 'Grasglucke' in German. 'Glucke' means 'mother hen'... btw.
It was crossing the street when I saw it. The adult looks like a brown leaf.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Euthrix_potatoria

You can hear the birds in the background :)

Ministeck - the doctor's eyes...

2014-05-27T18:19:55Z

The doctor's lips

2014-05-24T20:05:55Z

Close up in ministeck.

If you take a few steps back it looks rather real...