amaraal 😡annoyed at home

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2024 half over already?

Hi there!

Two years without an entry... My! Time is running so fast it's unbelievable... So what happened since 2022? Not very much. Unbelievable two.

Our dear tomcat died last Sunday. A stroke we suppose. It was nasty, but he didn't suffer much. I buried him in the garden. Poor fellow. He was my sister's cat and we had to take him with us the day she died... Sad memories. He was about 14 years old. I miss him. Another section of life gone.

But slowly I get my butt in gear again. Doing a bit work out, clearing the yard and the house. We had tenants that moved back to where they came from, leaving all their junk behind. Being a foreigner is ok, but at least you can be modest and try to keep up with the rules in another country than your own. They left without saying a word, or three weeks before they were leaving. Now we have tons of old toys and no children to play with them. I'm going to donate them. Let's say I wish them luck. She seems to be smarter than her husband who brought another woman with him when she was already back at her family's. Does that sound as if I hate people? At least the noise is gone. As cute and sweet children can be...

Weather here is still cold and grey. We are getting used to it. We tried to keep costs for heating as low as possible. Except the new tenants who live with the windows open constantly. 'sigh' Sometimes I think my mother and sister made the better choice...

Reading a lot. Lovecraft. The short stories. I am not impressed. Harry Mulisch. Die Entdeckung des Himmels. Very good book I can highly recommend. Now with over 50 I understand what they were talking about lol
I'm still dreaming about school and work life. Things that happened over 20 years ago are still affecting me. That's odd, isn't it? I often dream about owning a large house with many rooms, but it's crowded with strangers who take away my precious things. Anyone has an idea what it means??? What I hate most is, that I am still undecided about what to do with the rest (25 or so years) of my life. I don't want to waste it! But how do I start without money and a father who feels tired and worn out? I feel tired and worn out too. But no one ever asks me about how I feel...

Well. Have a nice weekend everybody. And write another fic/story/diary entry. Writing helps :)