alumao

is this thing on?

2012-02-06T20:18:44Z

forgot all about this.
haven't had anything meaningful to say in ages
still dont really
but may as well stop in and delete all this freaking spam i got.

gracias esposa

2009-02-09T00:53:04Z

my wife hand wrote and mailed to me a beautiful poem
this is my way of telling her thank you! (better late than never...)
i love you vieja!

Soulmates

the morning sun was soft and warm
as it shone upon my face
thoughts of your midnight charms
a little touch of heaven's grace

your love is like a summer rain
dancing amongst the trees
washing away the bitter cold pain
setting my spirit free

as gentle as a morning dove
a soul mate true and sure
i pledge my heart to thee my love
now and forever more...

te amo
Noelia

winter rant

2009-02-04T12:48:13Z

the cold..
oh the cold
dear old man winter
you are pissing me off
you tease me with days of warmth
and then freeze me to the bone
oh the pain of the cold
my fingers hurt
my toes are frozen
im shivering and holding on..
to thoughts of warm sunshine
radiating rays of life
warming my core
but still i shake
its still february
its almost spring..
its almost spring..
its almost spring...
oh glorious sun, come back and give us life
remove the blanket of cold death..
enveloping the land
the land and its people yearn to breathe
not see their breath freeze in mid air

get well soon

2009-02-03T14:48:32Z

I nurture you in sickness and in health
i cherish you in moments of life and death
i vow to you that i am your in time of need
with thoughts and words your soul is mine to feed

i love you honey i hope you feel better soon

alumao @ 2009-02-02T18:54:00

2009-02-02T23:54:17Z

I love this:

"Our music is formed from the marrow of creative intercourse. Art for art's sake. Indeed. And just as Artaud taught: our music is a protest against the senseless constraints that reduce "culture" into an inconceivable Pantheon of humdrum, ineffectual lesser gods and puppets of sterility & puritanism. In antiquity, the Theatre was created as an outlet for all of life's repressions and to proclaim to one and all that life's intensity is still intact. Just as light is born from the burning flame, we must fight for the glow. But we warn you, this music, our message, and these lessons are not for every soul. Some will be devoured. Others reborn. Remember, do not slide into bed with the Devil unless you intend to fuck."
-- Otep Shamaya

for your love..

2009-02-02T22:24:59Z

to my beautiful, sexy, intelligent sassy wife
happy one month anniversary veija!!
i love you

ive had this song stuck in my head all day
its old school
i used to be a huge Yardbirds fan growing up
i've always loved this song.
it says it all ;)

The Yardbirds
For your love

For your love.
For your love.
For your love.
I'd give you everything and more, and that's for sure.
For your love.
I'd bring you diamond rings and things right to your door.
For your love.

To thrill you with delight,
I'll give you diamonds bright.
There'll be things that will excite,
To make you dream of me at night.

For your love.
For your love.
For your love.

For your love, for your love,
I would give the stars above.
For your love, for your love,
I would give you all I could.

For your love.
For your love.
For your love.
I'd give the moon if it were mine to give.
For your love.
I'd give the stars and the sun 'fore I live.
For your love.

To thrill you with delight,
I'll give you diamonds bright.
There'll be things that will excite,
To make you dream of me at night.

For your love.
For your love.
For your love.
For your love.

alumao @ 2009-02-02T11:04:00

2009-02-02T16:09:36Z

I stand outside and look to the south
i listen to the silence of the snow
the subtle sound in the air of a hiss
i close my eyes and i can feel the softness of your kiss

my heart is 517 miles of beats apart
it beats, pushing my blood..
a reminder of living
it beats, for my love
i miss my love, i need you close
i miss my heart, i want you here
i love my wife, she is my soul.

alumao @ 2009-01-29T10:18:00

2009-01-29T15:20:00Z

I think the couple that cloned their dog are idiots.
how shameful.
i know you loved your pet..
but seriously... its not going to be the exact same dog.
personality/mentality wise..

why not rescue a dog, or adopt a new puppy..
there are more than enough dogs that need loving homes to go around.

this is just another example of rich people that have nothing better to do with their money.

i just cloned a fart..

alumao @ 2009-01-15T09:56:00

2009-01-15T15:00:42Z

I am the equivalent
of a fudge sickle
but replace the fudge with phlegm..

it was minus 2 degrees last night.
the roads are ice
my fingers were frozen gripping the steering wheel.

i feel like death and i dont feel any better today..
than i felt on friday when i got sick
im medicated so hopefully ill feel better soon.

i dearly miss my wife, to be so far away is like...
i lost my soul.
i feel incomplete and lost without you love.
i haven't felt like myself since you left my side.
i don't feel right, i miss you so much.
talking to you on the phone is.. i hate to say this..
painful because im not talking to you face to face.
i know its all we have at the moment, but its hard knowing you are there..
and i am here, waiting. losing patience and getting just as frustrated as you.
i just wish you were here so i could look into your eyes
and give you a kiss.
it hurts my heart and soul to be away from you for so long.
it makes me feel broken.
you complete me.

alumao @ 2009-01-07T09:52:00

2009-01-07T14:58:24Z

I am the happiest man alive
i just wish you were here
i married my best friend!
spending my time with you means so much
i just wish you were here

i loved every second of our time together
when you arrived in a foot of snow
meeting my whole family
nursing you back to health
watching movies
making love
making dinner
playing with the kids
shopping
talking
playing
goofing off
telling bad jokes
having you in my arms
getting married!
come home to me soon love
come home to me soon..
i can't stand to be away from you

alumao @ 2008-12-19T11:04:00

2008-12-19T16:05:23Z

HERE YE! HERE YE!!!
THE SNOWOCALYPSE IS HERE
SAVE YOURSELVES!

alumao @ 2008-12-13T18:02:00

2008-12-13T23:04:16Z

I'm losing myself in a really good book today
I am legend
thank you Noelia
:)

although productivity in the house is..
completely non-existent today
tomorrow i have a lot to do,
clean out the closets
sort through what I want to keep
clean
bring the chirstmas stuff upstairs
do homework
laundry

alumao @ 2008-12-12T07:37:00

2008-12-12T12:37:29Z

I Hate my cell phone.
/sigh

alumao @ 2008-12-11T08:29:00

2008-12-11T13:32:18Z

God... I'm so tired.
why am I so tired lately?
lack of sleep?
diet?
smoking?
weather?
am I sick?
all of the above?
maybe I'm getting old.

this is fitting:
Quote of the Day - Stanislaw Lec - "Youth is the gift of nature, but age is a work of art."

very soon.. instead of being awoken by a phone call..
i'll be awoken by Noelia in person.
and then for the rest of our lives..
we get to wake each other up at will.

oso

2008-12-10T12:39:39Z

i don't know what it is..
but when winter comes 'round
i never want to get out of bed..
im always so tired..
so groggy..
so slow to rise
thank God for Noelia..
she knows how to wake me up..

"My Sihaya"

2008-12-06T16:13:51Z

Today I woke to your sweet, loving voice
day dreaming and fantasizing about making love to you again.
today will be a day of great ambition and even greater purpose
preparing the way for my love to come home to me.

after I told you that I loved you and hung up the phone,
i lay quietly in bed, unable to sleep.
So I awoke, ate my breakfast and made some coffee.
I sat down to finish my book, in my beloved Dune saga..
Sandworms of Dune
A story that i love and cherish almost as much as I love and cherish you, Noelia.

I know, without a shadow of a doubt in my mind..
that you are my true love, my soul mate, my everything..
for in all things that I love, they in some way remind me of you.

I would like to read (write) a passage from the last page of the book,
and entire series of books to you.
It is of Paul and Chani, the two loves of the first book Dune
the two that were meant to be.. forever

"..He watched her glide forward gracefully, her red hair blowing behind
her. Chani sang the walking song of lovers on the sand, her words lilting
beautifully and in a stutter rhythm, like the cadence of her feet:

Tell me of thine eyes
And I will tell thee of thy heart.
Tell me of thy feet
And I will tell thee of thy hands.
Tell me of thy sleeping
And I will tell thee of thy waking.
Tell me of thy desires
And I will tell thee of thy need.

When they were half way back to the rocks, the wind picked up.
Blowing sand stung their faces. Paul held onto Chani, doing his best to
shelter her with his own body against the abrasive wind.
"Yes, a fine storm is brewing," she said, as they finally reached the
sietch entrance and hurried inside. "A cleansing one." In the low light
of a glowglobe, exhilaration flushed her features.
Catching her by the arm, Paul spun her around and wiped sand
from around her eyes and mouth. Then he drew her close and kissed
her. Chani seemed to melt into his arms, laughing. "So you have finally
learned how to treat your wife!"
"My Sihaya," he said as he held her, "I have loved you for five thousand
years."

you are my sihaya (desert oasis/eternal love..), Noelia. in all things we are one, forever.

and now i have much to do today.

alumao @ 2008-12-04T10:08:00

2008-12-04T15:09:36Z

noelia inspires me so much
to be more confident
more proud
to be a better man
to be a better human being
to be a better husband
and she doesnt even try
she just does

i am the luckiest man alive

lyrics

2008-12-02T21:37:33Z

i heard this song on the way home..
and i couldn't help but smile :D

Grand Funk Railroad
"She's some kind of wonderful..."

I dont need a whole lots of money,
I dont need a big fine car.
I got everything that a man could want,
I got more than I could ask for.
I dont have to run around,
I dont have to stay out all night.
cause I got me a sweet ... a sweet, lovin woman,
And she knows just how to treat me right.

Well my baby, shes alright,
Well my baby, shes clean out-of-sight.
Dont you know that shes ... shes some kind of wonderful.
Shes some kind of wonderful ... yes she is, shes,
Shes some kind of wonderful, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeahhh ...

When I hold her in my arms,
You know she sets my soul on fire.
Oooh, when my baby kisses me,
My heart becomes filled with desire.
When she wraps her lovin arms around me,
About drives me out of my mind.
Yeah, when my baby kisses me,
Chills run up and down my spine.

My baby, shes alright,
My baby, shes clean out-of-sight.
Dont you know that she is ... shes some kind of wonderful.
Shes some kind of wonderful ... yes she is,
Shes some kind of wonderful, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeahhh ...

Now is there anybody, got a sweet little woman like mine?
There got to be somebody, got a, got a sweet little woman like mine? yeah!
Can I get a witness?
Can I get a witness?
Can I get a witness? yeah ...
Can I get a witness? ohhh ...
Can I get a witness? yeah ...
Can I get a witness? yes.

Im talkin, talkin bout my baby. yeah.
Shes some kind of wonderful.
Talkin bout my baby.
Shes some kind of wonderful.
Talkin bout my baby.
Shes some kind of wonderful.
Im talkin bout my baby, my baby, my baby.
Shes some kind of wonderful.
Im talkin about my baby, my baby, my baby.
Shes some kind of wonderful.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, ... my baby, my baby.
Shes some kind of wonderful.
Talkin bout my baby, my baby, my baby.
Shes some kind of wonderful.
Im talkin bout my baby, my baby, my baby.
Shes some kind of wonderful.
(repeat to fade)

alumao @ 2008-12-02T09:12:00

2008-12-02T15:04:37Z

i dearly love my loving wife
before her, in my back i had knife
a meaningless existence filled with strife
she pulled out the dagger and completed my life

she brings the intangible aspect of love
an intangible that has been made tangible.
I can see, hear and feel the love through..
her thoughts, words and actions.
no one has cared for me so much before
(excluding family of course)
no one has taken the time to appreciate me
even when im not being as romantic as I could be..
there is this quality there that touches my soul.
it makes my heart flutter, i get that..
butterfly'ish feeling in my stomach every time she calls
or I see her smile in person
not butterflies in the bad way..
but the loving, unexplainable giddy happy kind of way
after all of my failures with women never appreciating me..
for who i am, in the ways that i show and express my love
and never having that reciprocated.. she does.
she expresses it back to me, encourages it from me.
sometimes I dont always know how to express it..
but to know that feeling is there, from her and I speaks volumes
ive never been so madly in love, so deeply and completely before..
it makes me speechless that she accepts me and my love so openly
and wraps it back around my heart with her love.
from the day that I met her the voice in my heart, mind and soul spoke to me again.
like little nudges from God saying "here she is michael, just like i promised you..
you can have your soul mate back now"
its, not been an easy feet for me to describe to her, or to anyone.
i just know.. my love for her simply.. is and grows. like the sunrise.
its just there, there is no need to explain why its there, its just there.

it means so much to me for her to show me so much love and appreciation.
ive felt like all of my life, no one really cared about me.. they were all fake.
and I could always tell. Things that I did to be romantic.. or to express how i felt..
were brushed off like snow, left unappreciated.. and parts of me died when they did that to me
noelia has never done that. I can see the smile on her face through the phone,
i can hear the tears welling up in her eyes.
i love the fact that she appreciates it.

my friends mock me because I'm always smiling when im chatting with her, or talking to her.
i blather on endlessly about her to them and my family. they can see how much she means to me
by looking at the sparkle in my eye. How excited I get when I tell them that i get to see her..
she makes me so happy.

i know im not perfect, i need lots of work in lots of area of self-improvement.
having been hurt by so many women for so many different reasons has caused me to..
stay in my shell when what i want to say or express is right on the tip of my tongue.
sometimes i get scared to say it because i fear the rejection.
the funny thing is i know that's not what noelia is like. i know she loves to hear it,
wants to hear it, craves to hear it. slowly im allowing myself to be myself again, to open up
and tell her how she makes me feel. That also makes me love her deeply, that she is trying to allow me to be myself, she encourages it and lets me open to her and not be afraid. she is not my past, sometimes i struggle with that past rejection. i appreciate her patience in me.
i love her madly

alumao @ 2008-12-01T19:13:00

2008-12-02T00:16:21Z

bath time for Sirius
hes wet
and so is the couch

what a spaz. its always crazy giving him a bath.
I say "Sirius.. bath time" and he runs into the bathroom
hops in the tub
and has a big smile on his face.
he gets a bath and is very good about it the whole time.
i finish washing him off
towel dry him

and then crazy pup is unleashed
running around the house
like a greyhound
hopping on the furniture
smearing his body everywhere
hopping on the bed..
"Sirius get down"
Sirius: "errr humphhh" *run..*
wash
rinse
repeat

such a spaz
i love him.

alumao @ 2008-11-29T13:59:00

2008-11-29T18:59:58Z

book is done.
off to kinkos
wonder how much their binding service costs?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
hehehehehehehe

alumao @ 2008-11-27T21:09:00

2008-11-28T02:18:37Z

a flood of emotions
overwhelms me
to the point of bliss
my face hurts
from smiling
my heart aches
for my love
so far away..
but so near to my heart
my life has changed
for the better
ironically..
it all started with giving up.
but not giving in.
then one day
God rewarded me.
i've come so far..
from pain and sorrow
to love and eternity
my family upstairs is beaming
with joy
I know they are looking out for me.
thank you all.
I know you told God how..and where, and with what I needed help.
and God started with love.
i know that was my grandmother's influence.
God had re-united my soul with noelia's
sometimes i wonder what and where we were,
in our last life together mi amor.
salut to the rest of our lives together
and thank you to all of my family,
especially those no longer with us.
thank you from the depths of my heart and soul
giving thanks barely does it credit..
for where we are and where we are going.
i feel like ive finally awoken..
from a long, frightening nightmare
my life has meaning now, and forever
all because of you.
yes you.
i love you.

alumao @ 2008-11-26T18:42:00

2008-11-26T23:43:19Z

lord
bless those that perished in Mumbai today
needless hatred and violence
innocent blood shed.
for what?
for what...

thank(s)giving

2008-11-26T22:00:48Z

i am and have been blessed in many ways
by many things
and people

above all. I am thankful to be alive.
I am thankful for not giving in; to hate, anger, despair, suffering, seduction
I am thankful that I have my health.
I am thankful that I was born, to a wonderful and loving family.
I am thankful that I still have both my parents that are both still married.
I am thankful for my brother and sister, their spouses and kids.
I am thankful that I have food and shelter and transportation.
I am thankful to still have a job in this wicked economy.
I am extremely thankful that my soul mate has found me
I am thankful for my pets, for they teach me unconditional love and patience.
I am thankful for my entire, extended family
I am thankful for my soul, my mind, my heart and for being human.
i am thankful for all that I have learned, knowledge of self, spirit and life
I am thankful that I am in Love with mi amor and that she is just as much in love with me.
I am thankful to have all of the irrelevant material possessions, not that I need any of them..
I am thankful for all of my teachers that have taught me wisdom.
I am thankful to have friends that love and care about me.
i am thankful for my ability to communicate and write.
I am thankful that I have my sight, my touch, my taste, my smell, my hearing
I am thankful for my passion
I am thankful for having the ability to forgive and accept
I am thankful for God's grace
I am thankful to have had family that taught me so much about life, especially the ones that have gone past.. may they all rest in peace.
I am thankful to be me.

517

2008-11-26T00:44:22Z

the beginning of the rest of my life..
is 517 miles away
this distance, temporary
some days it seems like forever away..
but its not
our love is just that strong..
that a day apart, an eternity
some days its hard
some harder than others
every time I get to see her between..
the first time we met and January 2nd..
keeps me going
i get to gaze deeply into her eyes
as we passionately embrace
i get to smell her soft sweet skin
run my hands through her hair
my fingers nails up and down her back
it keeps me going..
the thought of her smile
the joyous laughter
the loving embrace of her arms around me
it keeps me going
this distance, is just a drop of sand
in the glass of time
perspective must be re-focused
every now and then
we do have forever
a month, albeit painful to be a part
pales in comparison to the rest of eternity
i cannot wait until our union my love.
keep practicing that signature mi amor