Why do I keep doing this? I keep just going to Aylosn's LJ or FOD, just to see if she's said anything nice about me, or given any explanation...
I always end up upset, angry, or...something else.
I keep wanting to reply to comments I feel are directed at me, or be angry or upset at her, but I'm trying so hard to maintain the neutrality I've hidden behind all along... There are so many things, good, bad and angry that I want to say to her...
In other news,
I wish I could just stay in this moment, LOTR wise, because in 50 hours it'll be over. Now, I still have the anyicipation, the happiness, the security...