Oh, forgot to say in the last (grovelling) entry, I'm sorry if I've been a bitch recently! I do feel that I've been bitching a lot about a certain person, I don't know if it's because I feel all my attempts at reconciliation have been rejected, or just something petty, but sorry...
I don't THINK I normally bitch as much...
Actually, I was totally shocked, and pretty upset when someone (a good friend) said that she bitches about everyone - I mean, I experienced that before, with Aylson - leastways, she bitched about all her other friends to me, and I always worried in case she bitched about me behind my back, but I still can't believe it. I know it's probably just petty grievances, but it's still upsetting - I would never talk about a friend behind their back (at least, I hope I don't...) I would think it would betray that friendship. I mean, occasionally, people do or say things that annoy me, but I just think it, I never mention it. I mean, nobody's perfect! I don't want to sound like a horribly nice person, cuz I'm not, but it just disturbs me.
It's upsetting enough to think that anyone's talking about you in a bad way behind your back, let alone a so-called friend....
I'm not getting at you here, I promise, i'm just trying to say what I feel, and if I've upset you (which I probably have) I'm sorry! I just try to speak my mind, and I didn't feel that this merited a private entry.