Okay, first things first, Goong Hai Faa Choi! (pronouce it phonetically, it means Happy New year in Chinese.) It's Chinese New Year! Yaaaaaaaay!!!!!
(I know that's not spelt right, but I'm trying!)
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here
Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear.
I was readin Annie's FOD, and it's really weird.... she was talking bout how fast the year's gone - it has seemed to fly by. The events of my bday were six weeks into the term. That's way less than half of the term so far. It's such a horrible thought to think that it was 'me and Aylson' for only six weeks. Since then it's been me alone.
I was thinking t'other day about it... As long as I just live each day as it comes, I'm okay, but if I stop to think, it all falls apart. I thought I was fine, but... I just keep thinking that even at best we'll never be as close as we ever were, and that 'best' is looking increasingly unlikely. The owrst, that I feared on my birthday, and everyone tried to assure me wouldn't happen, has come true. Way back months ago, I wrote in my FOD about how I couldn't even vear the thought of being separated, possibly for ever, from any of my friends. And the one separation I feared the most has been made, and in the cruellest possible way...
I'm totally not making any sense here, but I just had to write this down.
I mean, (not trying to change the subject, just more musing) would it not be so upsetting to get divorced? If you loved someone deeply enough to want to marry them, to hear they want to get divorced would feel like my world caving in on me. Even if there was no longer any love in the marriage, it would still be heart-wrenching - to lose someone you cared about so much. Maybe I live too much in the past.
And maybe this entry will make sense to someone?
(I know that's not spelt right, but I'm trying!)
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here
Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear.
I was readin Annie's FOD, and it's really weird.... she was talking bout how fast the year's gone - it has seemed to fly by. The events of my bday were six weeks into the term. That's way less than half of the term so far. It's such a horrible thought to think that it was 'me and Aylson' for only six weeks. Since then it's been me alone.
I was thinking t'other day about it... As long as I just live each day as it comes, I'm okay, but if I stop to think, it all falls apart. I thought I was fine, but... I just keep thinking that even at best we'll never be as close as we ever were, and that 'best' is looking increasingly unlikely. The owrst, that I feared on my birthday, and everyone tried to assure me wouldn't happen, has come true. Way back months ago, I wrote in my FOD about how I couldn't even vear the thought of being separated, possibly for ever, from any of my friends. And the one separation I feared the most has been made, and in the cruellest possible way...
I'm totally not making any sense here, but I just had to write this down.
I mean, (not trying to change the subject, just more musing) would it not be so upsetting to get divorced? If you loved someone deeply enough to want to marry them, to hear they want to get divorced would feel like my world caving in on me. Even if there was no longer any love in the marriage, it would still be heart-wrenching - to lose someone you cared about so much. Maybe I live too much in the past.
And maybe this entry will make sense to someone?