You Bastard...... who is fat! (Austin Powers to Fat Bastard)
Love is not a victory march, it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah...
Well, I'm a little bit pissed off.... sent an email to Aylson over the holidays, before New Year, in the spirit of 'not letting sun go down on an argument', only that was pretty much buggered, so I decided not to let the year pass, insdtead, and sent her one of those 'if we fell out, would we ever still be friends' etc emails. This was also partly becuase I forgive her for some things now - not by any means everything, but some...
I think that was about ten days ago. I left a note on her diary telling her I'd sent the email and asking her to read it, and asked her on monday, I think, if she'd read it. She said she hadn't been online for days, but would go on that night..... still no reply, not in person, or email, or via diary. I know she's been on (actually, I knew she'd been on since I sent her the email anyway because she left notes on other peeps' diaries) but she's definitely been on since Monday, cuz she's updated.....
Unfortunately, in my search for a reply, I also managed to read the note she sent me again.
At least I didn't cry this time.
It's been 3 months 12 days.
Not that I'm counting.
You are my very first thought in the morning
And my last at nightfall
You are the love that came without warning
I need you...
Aaaanyways..... I'm becoming really cynical now, and I don't like it! I don't know why, but I'm just seeing..... well, to try and explain it:
Most teenagers have internet personas - like online diaries, or faceparty, or at least messanger usernames, and they always seem to be - I don't know how exactly to describe this - deep and dark and romantic/depressing/mysterious etc... like, par example, Darkness Falls, Passing Shadow (see, my cynisism applies to me too!) I mean, fair enough, some peeps (like Jo) just have names that they think are funny, ie Talkie The Toaster from Red Dwarf, but then, and I am in no way slagging you, people also have names like Little Miss Naughty or Little Miss Shy, or Willow Dancer, or Sweet Sadness that seem as if they're trying to be something they're not - falsely stereotyping themselves? I'm not explaining this very well, and I've probably offended you all, so I'm really sorry if I have! Remember, I'm including myself here!
But also, there seems to be this 'trend' for adolescents being 'depressed'. I kind of touched on this before, and once again I'm not trying to offend anyone, so sorry if I do. It's just that some people have valid reasons for being depressed, others occasionally get "depressed" (by this, I mean really unhappy, but not quite clinically depressed) for no particular, or for good reason, and can't explain it. (I sometimes fall into this category, although actually I'm probably in the third category, when I think about it) Then there's people who talk about how depressed, or upset or whatever they are, but actually have really good lives. There's actually no one I know well in this category, but friends of friends I think are in this category - there's now a kind of depressed social group, just as there are goths or chavs or whatever.
Speaking of chavs, is it me, or are they multiplying? I'd say about 80% of our school is now chavs, which you might expect when you consider our school is nicknamed 'Chavmount', but I swear the number's going up! Something like 92% of 1st - 4th year are now chavs! What's even more annoying is that ALL the chavvy girls are IDENTICAL!!!!! The light brown hair, all with blonde straks in THE SAME PLACE AND SAME COLOUR, straightened to within an inch of its life, garish eyeshadow PLASTERED on, layers thick, those stupid suede flat boots with jeans rolled up to mid-shin, white shirts unbuttoned to just above the bra, generally palle blue tops, or the chav staple colour - burburry beige!
And the guys are pretty bad too - bleached hair so it's gone yellow, beige hoodies, burberry caps at 45 degrees, school jumpers over upturned collars, or black cardigans (CARDIGANS!) and jeans or sports trousers that are too short. If you're lucky, trousers tucked into socks.
The sad thing is, I'm not exaggerating that much! STOP THE MADNESS!!!!!!
And they have NO RESPECT for anyone! When we were ickle first years, we were in respectful awe of anyone past second year, but now they barge into you, try and trip you, punch you, shout at you (familiar chant in the lunchroom is 'Goth, goth, GOTH!' whenevr anyone wearing black walks past - which when you consider that school uniform is black trousers/skirt, whatever, is bloody stupid.....) They all fight among themselves, and don't care who they walk into, teachers included! Jen was standing still for 5 minutes in the concourse the other day and got bumped into 14 times! In 5 mins!
AAAAAAH!
Rant over.
All I ever learned from love...
... it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah...
Ahh, you are ''I should have told you every day
from the moment I met you...I love you.'' You
are perhaps a little rough around the edges,
but inside you have a big heart that you are
eager to share with everyone around you. You
believe in Love above all things in this world.
So YEAY for you!
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Love is not a victory march, it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah...
Well, I'm a little bit pissed off.... sent an email to Aylson over the holidays, before New Year, in the spirit of 'not letting sun go down on an argument', only that was pretty much buggered, so I decided not to let the year pass, insdtead, and sent her one of those 'if we fell out, would we ever still be friends' etc emails. This was also partly becuase I forgive her for some things now - not by any means everything, but some...
I think that was about ten days ago. I left a note on her diary telling her I'd sent the email and asking her to read it, and asked her on monday, I think, if she'd read it. She said she hadn't been online for days, but would go on that night..... still no reply, not in person, or email, or via diary. I know she's been on (actually, I knew she'd been on since I sent her the email anyway because she left notes on other peeps' diaries) but she's definitely been on since Monday, cuz she's updated.....
Unfortunately, in my search for a reply, I also managed to read the note she sent me again.
At least I didn't cry this time.
It's been 3 months 12 days.
Not that I'm counting.
You are my very first thought in the morning
And my last at nightfall
You are the love that came without warning
I need you...
Aaaanyways..... I'm becoming really cynical now, and I don't like it! I don't know why, but I'm just seeing..... well, to try and explain it:
Most teenagers have internet personas - like online diaries, or faceparty, or at least messanger usernames, and they always seem to be - I don't know how exactly to describe this - deep and dark and romantic/depressing/mysterious etc... like, par example, Darkness Falls, Passing Shadow (see, my cynisism applies to me too!) I mean, fair enough, some peeps (like Jo) just have names that they think are funny, ie Talkie The Toaster from Red Dwarf, but then, and I am in no way slagging you, people also have names like Little Miss Naughty or Little Miss Shy, or Willow Dancer, or Sweet Sadness that seem as if they're trying to be something they're not - falsely stereotyping themselves? I'm not explaining this very well, and I've probably offended you all, so I'm really sorry if I have! Remember, I'm including myself here!
But also, there seems to be this 'trend' for adolescents being 'depressed'. I kind of touched on this before, and once again I'm not trying to offend anyone, so sorry if I do. It's just that some people have valid reasons for being depressed, others occasionally get "depressed" (by this, I mean really unhappy, but not quite clinically depressed) for no particular, or for good reason, and can't explain it. (I sometimes fall into this category, although actually I'm probably in the third category, when I think about it) Then there's people who talk about how depressed, or upset or whatever they are, but actually have really good lives. There's actually no one I know well in this category, but friends of friends I think are in this category - there's now a kind of depressed social group, just as there are goths or chavs or whatever.
Speaking of chavs, is it me, or are they multiplying? I'd say about 80% of our school is now chavs, which you might expect when you consider our school is nicknamed 'Chavmount', but I swear the number's going up! Something like 92% of 1st - 4th year are now chavs! What's even more annoying is that ALL the chavvy girls are IDENTICAL!!!!! The light brown hair, all with blonde straks in THE SAME PLACE AND SAME COLOUR, straightened to within an inch of its life, garish eyeshadow PLASTERED on, layers thick, those stupid suede flat boots with jeans rolled up to mid-shin, white shirts unbuttoned to just above the bra, generally palle blue tops, or the chav staple colour - burburry beige!
And the guys are pretty bad too - bleached hair so it's gone yellow, beige hoodies, burberry caps at 45 degrees, school jumpers over upturned collars, or black cardigans (CARDIGANS!) and jeans or sports trousers that are too short. If you're lucky, trousers tucked into socks.
The sad thing is, I'm not exaggerating that much! STOP THE MADNESS!!!!!!
And they have NO RESPECT for anyone! When we were ickle first years, we were in respectful awe of anyone past second year, but now they barge into you, try and trip you, punch you, shout at you (familiar chant in the lunchroom is 'Goth, goth, GOTH!' whenevr anyone wearing black walks past - which when you consider that school uniform is black trousers/skirt, whatever, is bloody stupid.....) They all fight among themselves, and don't care who they walk into, teachers included! Jen was standing still for 5 minutes in the concourse the other day and got bumped into 14 times! In 5 mins!
AAAAAAH!
Rant over.
All I ever learned from love...
... it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah...
Ahh, you are ''I should have told you every day
from the moment I met you...I love you.'' You
are perhaps a little rough around the edges,
but inside you have a big heart that you are
eager to share with everyone around you. You
believe in Love above all things in this world.
So YEAY for you!
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