My life

Note to self

alanka — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 03:30:42 GMT

Note to self...Must start paying more attention to LJ and stop using FaceBook and twitter so much to keep track of people. I miss a lot when I stop reading LJ. I suppose I should also start posting but I like the instant satisfaction of twitter and FaceBook.

Since my last post is private

alanka — Sun, 05 Oct 2008 08:01:57 GMT

Well I will post what I wish to share with you all instead of everything that's been going on in my life lately.

I may get to play with a mountain lion later today....I know I will get to play with the ligers but I really want to play with the mountain lion. There is a group that travels around raising money to support their rescue operations back home by selling pictures, playtime, and merchandise. They have a free magic show at the mall that their boss does to raise children’s awareness of the hazards of drugs and alcohol. They had sent a fax to our hotel asking for room donations at one of our other properties and in return we would get the Golden Ticket. It's a package of one 8X10 photo with a liger and 8 min. of playtime. I jumped on it and negotiated for play time for my boss, his wife, and I as well as two golden tickets for his kids to use if we gave them two rooms at our hotel which is full service instead of just a bed the entire time they are in town.

When I went to the mall on Thursday I didn't expect the "star treatment" I would get when I told them who I was and presented the gift certificate for playtime before the magic show. They told me "We take care of our sponsors." I was given as long as I wanted in the cage but I had to cut it short to get to the show and they told me "come back after the show and you can play as long as you want." I did and it was great! I got to feed the ligers their bottles that night and they told me that they would hook me up with pictures as well. I ended up leaving on Thursday without getting the pictures taken because I was planning on going back to the mall the next day. I ended up getting to play with the ligers again on Friday when I got my pictures taken. I got one picture with Falcon the mountain lion and one with Jack (the kangaroo that is staying with them at our hotel). I will post the pictures later when I get my scanner hooked up to my computer. I didn't know that baby kangaroos are as soft as a chinchilla but that's how he felt when I pet him. The ligers are a soft as an average house cat and they have the same playful mentality and sleepiness of domestic kittens. I am in love with their babies as the workers call them.

The great part about this group is that they rescue any animal needing rescue. This means that they also have two pot bellied pigs with them and a collection of other animals exotic and domestic back home. They have plenty of land to accommodate the animals and a large staff to take care of all their special needs animals that they have rescued. I am so in love with this group that I want to turn my next "big vacation" into a trip down to Oklahoma to help out down there and volunteer my time to help take care of the animals and learn more about them.

Well I am out of time to type and in desperate need of sleep since I have to work before going to their last day at the mall to play with the babies. I will post again as time permits

School stress and no time!

alanka — Fri, 12 Sep 2008 10:22:49 GMT

Well I still haven't managed to have time for....anything. It's gotten to the point that I am never available unless it's related to school or work and I HAVE to find or make time for it. Three more weeks and my Fast Track class will end and then I'll have 5 weeks of catchup to do in my math class before my second Fast Track class starts. In conclusion I will talk to everyone and post again in December if I haven't flipped out from the stress by then. In the rare instance of free time I will try to call, text, and write those of you who try to contact me and haven't been able to. All I can do at this point is tell myself that I can do this and hope that people still want to talk to me when I am done since I have been pretty much ignoring everyone.

What Do You Have To Say? - Music: My First Favorite Band

alanka — Thu, 13 Sep 2007 10:14:42 GMT

Oddly enough I don't remember the name of the band so I will have to go digging through my old casett tapes to find it out and then update this post. It was a band with two really cute blond twins that I found out later were cousins to one of my friends. They were really popular out west when I was in third grade and I was a big fan for about two years. I had posters and everything!

Hey, Tigira! They are your cousins so maybe you remember the name of their band that they had years and years ago. When I noticed the picture of them on your fridge when you lived in WI I asked you about them and they are now modles. I didn't keep track of them but when I think of my first favorite band they are the first I can think of that I was a real fan of.

alanka v badgerpants

alanka — Sun, 13 May 2007 10:30:58 GMT

badgerpants challenges alanka to display their depth.

COMBAT CARDS 2.1

watch badgerpants fight

COMBAT CARDS 2.1

watch alanka fight

alanka sinks to such depths of depravity badgerpants surrenders utterly disgusted, it's a win but it wasn't nice to watch.

badgerpants has been defeated by alanka

However the comotion has awoken badgerpants's parent brendanm720

brendanm720 challenges alanka on their honesty.

COMBAT CARDS 2.1

watch brendanm720 fight

COMBAT CARDS 2.1

watch alanka fight

alanka produces a witness, a vicar and a lawyer, it's no contest brendanm720 can't match that level of honesty

brendanm720 has been defeated by alanka

However the comotion has awoken brendanm720's parent a_is_for_amy

a_is_for_amy challenges alanka to display their depth.

COMBAT CARDS 2.1

watch a_is_for_amy fight

COMBAT CARDS 2.1

watch alanka fight

alanka sinks to such depths of depravity a_is_for_amy surrenders utterly disgusted, it's a win but it wasn't nice to watch.

a_is_for_amy has been defeated by alanka

However the comotion has awoken a_is_for_amy's parent remotegoat

remotegoat challenges alanka to prove their sophistication.

COMBAT CARDS 2.1

watch remotegoat fight

COMBAT CARDS 2.1

watch alanka fight

alanka produces a pocket pun of such sophistication that remotegoat is reduced to tears.

CONGRATULATIONS YOU WIN
ALANKA SCORED: 4/4 (100%)

You have defeated all players at this level.

Congratulations you have been awarded an ultimate fighter level of 4

Future games will be harder I'm afraid!

Wow what a night.

alanka — Sun, 13 May 2007 10:09:44 GMT

I am working the night audit tonight and it was a blast. We had another concert at the Chestnut Center for the Arts and as usual the musicians stayed at our hotel. We even have a package with a room and two tickets to the show so it’s not a big secret that they stay here. So a lot of the die-hard fans of the musicians are here and people going to the concert from out of town that wanted to hang out with the musicians after the concert were here as well. They chill in the bar till the bar closes and then the fun begins. They all came down to the Lobby area and brought several pitchers of beer and their drinks that they had left and partied on up here. It was fun and I didn’t have to worry about them being too loud in the rooms because they were all up in the lobby area so they didn’t disturb anyone else staying in the hotel. At about four in the morning they finally ran out of alcohol and decided to crash. It was down to three till about 4:30AM and now they are all safely tucked into bed and I have cleaned up the lobby area. So the good news is that the hell that I had gone through last time we had this big of a crowed was managed well this time and prevented before it had a chance to start. If this is how the rest of the weekends that there are concerts go than I think this will work. If I have one more really bad weekend again I am going to say that this package is not going to happen again and prevent the problem from happening again this time. It was a blast and I had a great time. I was even sung to again. I love musicians!

Whirlwind lifestyle

alanka — Sat, 12 May 2007 09:55:18 GMT

Life has been busy. I have found that I am either finding myself with too much free time or I am overwhelmed. Right now I am in a period of being overwhelmed. I have had whirlwind weeks that don't seem to last long enough to be considered a week. I have more new hobbies than I know what to do with.

I have a new textile art that I am fascinated with. It's called tablet or card weaving and it's a lot of fun. I have checked out several new books from the library and had taken a class at the last SCA event that I went to. I am enjoying exploring the history of tablet weaving and have found several new yahoo groups and international communities centered around this art form. I haven't made very many things yet since I am still in the experimental period but I am seeing a potential for many fun projects that I can't wait to start. I had always wondered how decorative trim had been made in the past before everything became automated and now I know. I eventually want to make trim to sell at events. I seem to be gaining hobbies that involve yarn. I now have more yarn than I could possibly use. I have been compulsively buying yarn! I now knit, cardweaving, sew, do cross stitch, and I have been trying to figure out nalbinding. I have half finished projects scattered all over my house. At least I got the baby blanket done for one of my friends.

I am taking a tribal belly-dancing class with one of my coworkers and am having a blast. The instructor is really nice and lets my coworker and I stay later and practice. I need a copy of her album though. I am having problems with the timing on the choreography of the dance she is trying to teach us since I practice without the music and then go to class and have to speed up or slow down what I have been practicing. The music is weird... there are several different tempos in the same piece of music and a pause in the music for several min. during the choreography. I have also realized the fringe benefits of learning this form of dance. I did something to my back the Friday after my first class. All I knew was that it hurt to sit it hurt to stand and it hurt to lay in a single position for long periods of time. I got a massage and it helped but didn't make everything better. My massage therapist told me the belly-dancing would help. She was right. I hurt a bit more than normal after the class but when I woke up the next morning I felt great. After six days of nearly constant pain it was a very nice change. I have two weeks left in this class and we are supposed to dress up one of the days. I have a gypsy costume that I made that will be perfect for that day of class. Finally a practical use for a Samhain costume I haven't pulled out in a year or two.

My friend Rachel and her fiance Wil had their baby on Beltane. It's quite fitting considering the fertility rituals we did and all they went through to have him. It's nice to see things come full circle. Liam is a bundle of joy and a great baby. I haven't seen him awake yet though. LOL

All and all a lot has been happening lately but I am able to keep afloat and i am enjoying having a social life again. I have such a great time at my new class and I have enough hobbies to keep me busy when I am up late.

Back to work

alanka — Thu, 18 Jan 2007 03:07:20 GMT

Well I am back at work. I had the weekend off and was able to visit with my aunt and uncle that live in Chicago. I took off Friday to Tuesday this week. It was great! I practically lived at my mom's house and just spent the weekend vegging out and watching movies...did I mention that there was way too much food. It was our Christmas celebration with them...for a pagan I spend a lot of time celebrating Christmas with family. I know it may sound strange but I look at Christmas as a family tradition and Yule as a religious holiday. That is why my December and beginning of January is INSANE!!!!! It's the holiday season that never ends!

Throw in a very drunk me when New Years Eve hit The bartender wanted revenge so he (gave) me random shots of really strong liquor...did I mention New Years was...Um...interesting?? He and I have been trying to get the other totally and I mean totally trashed for a while. He seems to do a better job of getting me trashed because I am a lightweight when it comes to booze and he seems to have a hollow leg. It is the season for me eating and drinking too much now it's back to reality and an empty fridge. (Except for the massive amounts of alcohol that is currently taking up the entire bottom shelf of my fridge.) I hardly ever drink at home and I have more alcohol than I could ever drink. I need friends who live close and drink a lot...never mind they didn't make me happy so I don't hang out with them anymore...In fact they were really bad friends. Here's to all my good friends who live too damn far away and the friends who live close who don't drink...much. I guess I had better get back to work.

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alanka — Sun, 31 Dec 2006 12:17:02 GMT

This is something little and fun. I am too tired for more. I am in the middle of an 8 hour shift then I get 8 hours off and then I am back for another 8 hours. I am not happy with myself because I am the one to blame since I am the one who writes the schedule. Everyone else at work had plans and couldn't work the 3-11 shift tonight so I am SOL. In other news I am more confused about life the universe and everything than I have ever been before. Oddly enough I am still happy so I think the confusion is an OK thing.

In 2007, alanka resolves to...

Learn to play the ireland.
Find a better homoeroticism.
Backup my art regularly.
Find a new purple.
Ask my boss for a mead.
Keep my magick clean.

My Weekend In A Ramble

alanka — Wed, 27 Dec 2006 00:02:54 GMT

Well my weekend is over and I have to go to work tomorrow. Gasp...I am posting to my journal from somewhere other than work. I started out my weekend Friday having to work 3-11PM which I normally like but since someone else was hosting ritual at my house I had to clean. Let's just say when the host and hostess got to my house I made it perfectly clear that I had the dishes done when they walked in and that's how they should be when they leave. I hate doing dishes! So I stayed up all night on Friday night cleaning my house and wrapping gifts because I am not using my normal holiday organization skills. Most years I have a list of everyone I am buying for and the prices and the store they were purchased at with all the receipts set aside somewhere just in case they need to exchange the gift. Not this year I threw away the receipts in the cleaning frenzy and I had no clue what I had purchased for whom earlier in the year. One of the disadvantages to celebrating Christmas with your family when you are pagan is that the holiday never seems to end. This year everything was so close together that I finally caught up on sleep today even though I wanted to see a friend I hadn't seen in years earlier in the day so I had more time with her. Anyway I finally crawled into bed Friday night or should I say Saturday morning at about 5AM to sleep till noon because I needed to get my avon order for my mom's stocking before Christmas day. So I set my alarm for noon and slept till one in the afternoon. Not good but I knew I wanted to be up by one to make a phone call to a friend who has been working strange hours too and he told me that would be the time to call. Funny but he didn't get off of work till six in the morning and was still sleeping because he had been pulling doubles. Not fun for him and I completely understand the need for sleep so I reset my alarm for two and went back to bed since the avon lady said between two and five she would be here. So I finally get the avon order take out the trash that I was too lazy to take out the night before and finish the last of the laundry that I decided to leave in the wash because I needed sleep. So I am working on the last min. preparations for a house invasion that I am excited about when I look at the time and realize I haven't taken a shower yet. I called the Host and he said that they would be on there way in ten min. I decided to waite till they got here to take a shower because they needed to get the roast ready. The timing was perfect because once I was fully dressed and ready for ritual the last of the group showed up. Then while we were making the last preparations for ritual after we socialized for a bit I remembered the wine that I had picked up in Boston is not chilled and is a MUCH better selection than what had been brought. So I tossed the wine in the freezer and tell everyone 15 to 20 min. before ritual. Then my phone rings perfect timing because I thought I had turned in onto vibrate so the alarm clock still worked since our Host needed to go to work at ten. The phone call I had made at one was calling me back we had to waite anyway so I called him back and had a brief conversation just to catch up. And then it was back for ritual and the wine was the perfect temperature once I got off the phone. Ritual and the meal went well we had a light hearted out of the ordinary spoof ritual that was fun as well as funny but had the intent and seriousness behind it. Yes, that sounds weird but the host and hostess managed it quite well. After all was said and done we decided to have a sleepover at my house with whoever could stay. So the Host and Hostess spent the night and we were up all night talking. Another late night then I had to be up early on Sunday to finish my sisters quilt that my mother and I made for her. Let's just say that is the last quilt that I am going to sew the sides together without bias tape on. What a nightmare when you are on a time crunch. Once that was done I had to get everything together to go to my mom's house for her annual Christmas Eve party. That was fun but lasted forever. Then I had to finish making my nephew's scarf that I promised my sister I would make since they started using longer scarfs. I went to bed on Christmas eve at three in the morning Christmas day then I had to be up early for Christmas since I had to go to work at three in the evening to work. So Christmas day was a quick party this year and I was off to work. Did I mention that I had fallen twice that day. The first time in my mom's garage and then on my sisters ice rink...I mean sidewalk to her house. Not feeling the best by the time I get into work and then I realize that the only shoes I have with me are high healed boots that I thought would look cute with my outfit. Great a ankle that is protesting and then I have to be in high heals. I spent the night at my mom's house last night and I was able to get into contact with a friend that a miss more than I can say so I get to see her for the first time in two years in about an hour. So the weekend was very crazy but still fun and I got the greatest gift ever. I still have a friend that I thought I had lost because we haven't talked in years.

Too much fun

alanka — Fri, 15 Dec 2006 03:49:12 GMT

On the twelfth day of Christmas, alanka sent to me...

Twelve thunderstorms sewing

Eleven vampires stargazing

Ten dragons a-dancing

Nine books brewing

Eight webcomics a-lightning

Seven corsets a-singing

Six stars a-knitting

Five adve-e-e-enture games

Four star wars

Three county fairs

Two mediaeval baebes

...and a leather in a bisexuality.

Stuff

alanka — Wed, 06 Dec 2006 05:46:27 GMT

Well, I fired one of my new hires today. I didn't sleep very well last night because I like the lady I just fired but she wasn't working out. I don't like this part of my job. The great part about firing her was that I was so worried and didn't want to do it and she was so understanding. She told me there are no hard feelings and she was planning on looking for a different job tomorrow anyway so all is well that ends well I suppose. I hope we keep in contact because she was such a cool person. She is starting a home business of making sculptures out of cement and peat moss. I don't remember what its called but she showed me a few websites and it's really cool. On the other hand Shelby the other new hire is doing fabulous. I think she will be a great front desk person once we work on her phone skills a bit. Time will tell thought on if she will do well or not. I should probably head home soon but I wanted to just leave a quick note.

I love drunk musicians

alanka — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 11:29:32 GMT

Ryan McIntyre is here along with three other bands staying the night. Last time Ryan was in house I was entertained all night by him and another local musician singing to me. It's so much fun. They are usually really drunk when they get up here so the entertainment value goes way up.

I missed the concert:( Not only am I broke but I kept getting phone calls all day waking me up so by the time the concert started I decided sleep was way more important.

I didn't get serenaded this time but I did get to talk to some really interesting people and I managed to keep the noise in the lobby at a reasonable level so I didn't get any complaints. I don't like it when the groupies know where the bands are staying. It's a lot harder to control 20 people than it is to control 10 or less. It’s been an interesting night and I am glad that I get to go home soon and sleep. I probably will try to stay awake till noon so that I can sleep until its time to go to work.

I hate working the night audit because it messes up my sleep schedule. I can’t wait till the two ladies I just hired are trained in so I don’t have to do this as often. Then I can start working in the back office and only have to worry about working the front desk when there is no one else to work that shift. Well that's all for now.

Yes. I am still alive!

alanka — Mon, 27 Nov 2006 03:32:51 GMT

Um...It's been a long time but this is just a little note to tell everyone that I will hopefully be back on-line soon and then I can start posting on a regular basis. I miss knowing what's going on in all my long distant friends lives. I also have been a bad friend to too many of my friends who have moved away. So hopefully I can get net access soon and become addicted to LJ again because it's a convenient way to know what's going on in my friends lives. And then I can hopefully rekindle friendships that have suffered because of my inattentiveness.

Lady Sorka's Birthday. Wee! ;)

alanka — Tue, 21 Oct 2003 00:59:06 GMT

This post is dedicated to Lady Sorka's 21st Birthday. I love you and miss you and wish I could be there to give you your birthday spankings. Oh well...another day. I hope your day is wonderful!

P.S. I couldn't find a card that was appropriate even though I looked for over an hour. In other words this is your card;)

alanka — Tue, 23 Sep 2003 18:33:25 GMT

Just a quick update. I am sick. I have what we are lovingly calling the Target Bug at work because we are such good team members that we remember to share. Blah! T wish we didn't share so much. I have had a very busy couple of days between making up school work from missed days, going to various doctor appointments, and in general life I haven't had time for anything. On top of all that my computer died...well...is dying.

My phone # has changed due to the fact that someone bought our #. There will be an answering machine that has the new # on it if you call the old #. If you are long distance and want the new # e-mail me and I'll send it to you. If you don't have any of that info and want it reply to this post and if I know who you are I'll e-mail you and give it to you.

The doctors put me on these meds that make me really tired and give me this not fun floaty feeling so I haven't been talking to anyone lately. If I have neglected you lately I am sorry. I will get back to you as soon as I am feeling better. For the time being I am focusing all my energy on work, school, and getting better.

As always on a lighter note "A Quiz". (Someone really needs to teach me how to cut text so that you all don't have to see this if you don't want to.)

You Are Gilbert From "What's Eating Gilbert Grape?"

You are very giving and self-sacrificing. You're always there to lend a helping hand to family and friends. However, this generous nature often robs you of fulfilling your needs and desires, and may cause you to become resentful. Find a way to balance your kindness with your independence.

Take The Johnny Depp Quiz!

What do you think is it me?

Bad day, fun post.

alanka — Thu, 18 Sep 2003 18:55:46 GMT

Since todays entry is private I decided to post quizzes to keep people amused and coming back.

Alanka's LiveJournal Secret Crush Stats
The below statistics indicate what sorta crushes Alanka has on her LJ friends!

No Crush

25.0%

Secret Crush

37.5%

Public Crush

37.5%

Ex-Crush

0.0%

What are your LiveJournal Secret Crush Stats?
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Your magical style is Druidic.

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Fun, Fun, Fun!

alanka — Wed, 17 Sep 2003 19:01:11 GMT

I got to talk to M~~~~. It was funny how easily we fell back into our old familiar banter. It was as if nothing negative had happened to us. I'm so happy that we are talking again. I had an Econ. test today. I think I aced it. It was all stuff I knew well. I got home not to long ago and have read my friends list. I have a series of really cool quizzes from my friend ewysiwyg had in her journal. I really like these quizzes. I think there almost as good as yesterdays bra and panties quizzes on her LJ. Here are my results.

Horus

What Egyptian god or godess are you? (for men and women)
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You are Khonsu, the moon god.

What Egyptian God Would You Be?with pics!!: )
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You are Neith. Goddess of war and the hunt and
peace during both. She's not a very known god.
She was a guide to the underworld. During the
great battle between Seth and Horus, she played
the part of a mediator.

What Egyptian Goddess Are You Assosiated With?
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Nut (pronunced newt).....Goddess of the starry sky

What Egyptian Goddess or God are You?
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Enjoy!

Sleep.

alanka — Mon, 15 Sep 2003 22:40:10 GMT

I can't sleep. I never quite understood why when you are unbelievably tired you can't seem to be able to fall asleep. M~~~~ called today. Unfortunately she called when I was at work. Her fence went down by the road and her horses got out. Reba, the horse that I always road got hit by a car today and died. It seems to me that someone is trying to make it easier for her to move on with her life. Now if she wanted to move she would only have to sell her male horse and get rid of her snakes. Raven her dog would be easy to take with her. I would really miss her if she left even though we don't talk as much as we used to. And we have had our fights. I do think we would probably be better off in a different town. Marshfield can get you down sometimes. Not enough to do. Anyway. I need sleep and am babbling incessantly. I made new icons. I love icons. I started making them and can't seem to be able to stop. I have been corrupted by Lady Sorka again. She has made a habit of doing that. I am slashing innocent little shows now. Bad Beth, Bad Beth.

Sleep well everyone.

Today (Long)

alanka — Thu, 11 Sep 2003 23:11:20 GMT

It’s a little frightening how accurate this quiz was to how I have been feeling lately. I just finished writing my list of things I really need to have and some stuff I don’t need but want to have with me on my retreat. All I need to do now is get off my ass and get it all collected and in the car. It’s supposed to rain this weekend. I love camping in the rain. It’s so easy to stay in the tent all day long and think and read and just have a good time. Besides we NEED the rain here.

Take the Spirit Quiz and visit Castle Diqueria.

The person who was supposed to replace me at work today was late so one of the managers had to take my place in Food Ave. I called them fifteen min. after I was supposed to leave and told them that I had a class that I needed to get to and could they please send someone over to replace me. What a mess. I get home and look over my homework…the metaphor speech mentioned in a previous post. I also wrote out my note cards I wasn’t going to use any and then decided that I probably should at the last min. I am soooooooo glad I decided to make note cards. I got to the front of the class when it was my turn and froze. I am usually better than this at speaking in public but I haven’t had to do it in two years. Let me tell you I gave myself a big pat on the back later for making note cards. Other than my long pause at the beginning of my speech and a few ums put in there for good measure I think I did pretty well.

On the drive home from the tech I hade to go over a hill and when I got to the top I saw the most beautiful night sky. It was kind of cloudy so the sky was black but there was a beautiful harvest moon in the sky. The moon was low enough that I was able to see it clearly and a few stars around it. Wow. I wish I hadn’t had class tonight so I could be out camping now. It’s perfect camping weather out there. *sigh* So pretty.

I had a really late supper with mom tonight. She took me to Country Kitchen. Sean one of my exes was working there. Of course he had to be our waiter. Luckily he’s not a very attentive waiter and left us alone. I talked to my mom about Heartland Pagan Festival and how much fun I had. I put a few of her worries to rest during the conversation. I think the little bit of information that I did tell her about Heartland made her have flashbacks to her hippie years and that really made her panic. I think I have the coolest and most accepting mom on the planet sometimes. She still thinks I’m weird but that’s ok cuz she knows it the way I am and accepts that. It’s at times like this when we aren’t fighting and we have our moments of perfect understanding that I realize how much I love my mom. Can you tell we had a very long and very pleasant conversation? It’s just been one of those perfect nights.

Unhappy Beth!!!!

alanka — Tue, 09 Sep 2003 23:44:53 GMT

I got off the net earlier this evening with the thought of doing my homework. Luckily I was planing on doing it a day earlier than I would normally do it. No sooner than the phone line was open than I got a phone call from my family out west. My grandmother passed away this past Saturday morning. She died peacefully in her sleep between three and five in the morning. She had gone to the doctors earlier this past week and they told her her potassium levels were to high and there was nothing they could do. She had also had a pace maker put in a few months ago and it seemed like that would help her more than it did.

I didn't really know my grandmother. My parents got divorced when I was to young to remember and I was raised by my mom. My dad and his family wanted nothing to do with my mom and the three of us kids so I only have one vague memory of my grandparents on my dad's side. I don't remember my grandma but I do have a few memories of my granddad. I can remember him showing me to drink the half and half out of the little containers while we were waiting for our drinks. I remember being in a fancy restaurant and him giving me a necklace he had made. (Yes jewelry making is a family thing. It just skipped a generation.) I got to talk to my granddad tonight. I don't think he will be with us much longer. Grandma took care of him and he said he had an empty hole where she was. He sounded so lost.

So, instead of doing my homework tonight I was on the phone talking to my family. The only positive thing I can think of right now is that I got to talk to people I haven't herd from in 11 years. It's really sad that I had to hear this from my aunt once removed and not from my dad. I think that's what hit me the hardest. I realized how little I know about my dad's family. How little my dad and I talk to each other.

I am depressed and in a bad mood and in need of a big hug. I'm going to bed. Everything will look better in the morning. Good night all.

I need help!

alanka — Tue, 09 Sep 2003 18:21:15 GMT

I have to do a metaphor speech for my oral comm. class. I have to think of three metaphors that describe me and my personality. Then I have to tell why I chose the metaphors. Then I have to tell the class what the metaphor say about me. Blah.

The teacher anticipated a problem coming up with metaphors and gave us permission to ask our friends for help. I was wondering if any of you had any ideas. Please explain why you chose each metaphor you choose to tell me because some thing's can be obvious to you and not to me.

On a funnier note...

Have any of you gotten so involved in an author’s world that you have started to think about and talk about the characters like they are real people? I broke down and bought the entire Laurell K. Hamilton, Anita Blake series. I haven't had the whole collection of books in my possession since.

I have become the book lender at work. I have one friend who's almost finished reading the series and we have in depth conversations about Anita, Edward, Asher, and the rest of the characters. It's more addicting than a soap opera. While we wait several months for the next bit of there lives we get more people to read them because we are always talking about them. That's how my other friend from work got started. She's only four books into the series and she's already talking about the characters as real people. We are all totally obsessed.

I think I like it!!!!!!

alanka — Tue, 09 Sep 2003 00:07:36 GMT

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alanka — Sun, 07 Sep 2003 22:07:18 GMT

Today was a relatively good day. I was able to do a lot of thinking at work today. One of the mailing lists I'm on sent me an article on fanfic and how some authors encourage it and others are very possessive of there characters and strongly discourage fanfic. It also had something to the effect of Terry Pratchett didn't like people to write about his characters in fanfic. My mental response to this article is. "I reserve the right to play with your characters in my head. Rest assured that we are respecting your wishes and not letting a blank page get involved in the affair. Don't worry they all promise they will come back home after we are finished playing." I feel like a little kid going to a friends house and saying "Mr. Pratchett can Rincewind come out and play."

I firmly believe that finfic is an art and a compliment to the author. To me it say's "Wow! You made some great characters, can I play with them for a while." It's not against the law and it doesn't hurt anyone to do it so what's the big deal? Why do some authors like to read fanfic based on there characters and others hate it so much they are willing to pay large sums of money to get rid of all of it on the net? I would really like to sit down with a large number of authors and individually ask them their opinion on fanfic and why they encourage or discourage it.

Anyway that was what kept me sane while working in Food Ave. Gods I hate working fast food. Especially when I was hired to be a cashier and they throw me over there. Not that it's all bad over there. I don't have supervisors right there all the time so I can do what I want to as long as everything that has to get done get's done.

AAAARRRRRGGGGG!!!!!!!!!

alanka — Fri, 05 Sep 2003 19:46:20 GMT

I'm having major problem's with LJ so if you got the same message several time's I'm sorry. I'll try to fix it later but I'm going to bed now.