everlasting awesomeness

beg steal or borrow (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2013-01-14T05:26:19Z

Title: beg borrow or steal
Author: airbefore
Rating: NC-17
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary:It's not her first time doing this and judging by the way she can feel Castle staring, it won't be her last.

This has to be a joke.

airbefore @ 2013-01-10T14:19:00

2013-01-10T20:19:02Z

Just realized I've written 50 individual stories for Castle (86, if you count each ficlet on its own).

In less than a year.

If only I could channel all that writing into something that isn't fanfic.

two bits (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2013-01-06T21:46:25Z

Title: two bits
Author: airbefore
Rating: PG-13
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: Anxiety knots in her stomach as she fills the sink with warm water, touches her fingertips to the assortment of items she needs for this. Her body aches with the weight of the week and she wants nothing more than to crawl into bed next to him, to feel the solid presence of his body against hers as she tries to sleep.

They've shared so much in the time they've been together - showers, meals, beds, passion - but this - This is somehow more.

rarely pure and never simple (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2013-01-01T14:20:06Z

Title: rarely pure and never simple
Author: airbefore
Rating: NC-17
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: The moonlight casts a silver glow across the walls, a shimmering haze that draws her attention, the edges waving as the clouds roll past. She can feel the remnants of the champagne working through her body, the little bubbles hitching a ride in her blood, making her head float and her skin tingle.

He leans over her, propped up on one elbow. Amusement flickers in his eyes when he slides his his hand down and she arches into his touch. 'Come on, Kate,' he hums, the swirl of his fingertips on her inner thigh sending sparks shooting up her spine, 'don't be a spoilsport. It's New Year's Eve.'

all is calm, all is bright (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2012-12-23T11:23:49Z

Title: all is calm, all is bright
Author: airbefore
Rating: PG
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes
Disclaimer:All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: He loves this time of year, the way the whole world seems to soften and slow, wrapped in a haze of twinkling lights and the spirit of the season. Snow falls lightly outside the window, tiny flurries that will probably melt as soon as they hit the ground, and he smiles, sends out a silent thanks to the universe for conspiring to make this day - and his life - as picture perfect as possible.

He’s never happier about heated floors than in the dead of winter.

la petite mort (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2012-12-16T22:09:47Z

Title: la petite mort
Author: airbefore
Rating: NC-17
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: Fills for the Winter '12 Kink Meme

Here @ joyunconfined

airbefore @ 2012-12-06T20:42:00

2012-12-07T01:42:29Z

holiday love meme 2012
my thread here

airbefore @ 2012-12-06T19:58:00

2012-12-07T00:57:50Z

WINTER HIATUS '12 KINK MEME IS NOW OPEN
HERE @ kinkofthecastle

precious unicorn

2012-12-06T17:17:05Z

a muse of fire (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2012-12-06T15:01:04Z

Title: a muse of fire
Author: airbefore
Rating: NC-17
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes, spoilers for Frozen Heat
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: She grins and rolls her eyes but lets him keep a hold on her foot as she turns back to her book. His book.

"If you spoil me, Castle, this will be the last time you ever see me naked."

if the fates allow (castle;beckett/castle)

2012-12-04T05:13:16Z

Title: if the fates allow
Author: airbefore
Rating: PG
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes (Post ep for 5x09 "Secret Santa")
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: The tree shimmers merrily in front of them, the strands and strands of twinkle lights casting the loft in a warm haze. Bing Crosby’s rich tone floats on the air, wrapping around them, warming her heart.

I'm glad you came."

love in action (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2012-11-30T04:06:47Z

Title: love in action
Author: airbefore
Rating: NC-17
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: The tree is small - no more than three and a half feet, barely filling a corner of her living room - and sparsely decorated, just lights and a strand of garland twined through the branches, a silver star perched on top. Castle tries to bring Beckett some holiday cheer.

"So, should I be wearing my vest the next time I see you?"

airbefore @ 2012-11-27T12:25:00

2012-11-27T18:25:07Z

I AM EMOTIONALLY COMPROMISED

airbefore @ 2012-11-05T09:42:00

2012-11-05T14:42:57Z

jjverse is back! Just for a month but stilllllllllllllllllllllllll. SO EXCITED.

OCEANIC FOR LIFE, YO.

here, have meme

2012-11-04T16:43:09Z

A - ACCENT: I would claim that I don't really have one. That is a false claim, though. I'm from Texas. Do the math.

B - BIRTHDAY MONTH: July. Never had to go to school on my birthday and always got to have a pool party. It's the best.

C - CHORE YOU HATE: Cleaning the bathroom. Gross.

D - DAD'S NAME: I call him Daddy or Popsicle. The rest of the world knows him as Lowell. Though that's actually his middle name. I found out after my grandfather died that my dad and all three of his siblings go by their middle names. My dad does because he's a junior but the rest of them, I really have no idea why. Well, aside from my Aunt. I'd go by Ruth too if my first name was Velma.

E - ESSENTIAL MAKE-UP ITEM: I don't wear make-up.

F - FAVOURITE PERFUME/COLOGNE: I don't have a favorite but I do have to be careful with what I wear because of my allergies. Anything too strong or flowery gives me a migraine.

G - GOLD OR SILVER: Silver. As long as it's sterling. Otherwise I get a rash.

H - HOMETOWN: Teeny little blip on the map in SE Texas

I - INSOMNIA: Ugh. Don't get me started on this. I've had so much trouble sleeping ever since I turned 30. I used to be able to fall asleep at the drop of a hat and sleep for a solid eight. Now it takes me forever to fall asleep and I wake up at least three times every night and it's rare that I get more than five. I hate it. I like my sleep, damn it.

J - JOB TITLE: Office Manager. I hate it.

K - KIDS: Nope. I could go either way, honestly. I like them and I could see myself being a parent one day but it's not something I feel a burning need for. I think it will all depend on who I end up with, if anyone. If my partner wants kids, then I'm in. If not, that's cool too. And I definitely won't have one on my own (which is the most likely scenario since I'm destined to be alone forever).

L - LIVING ARRANGEMENTS: Live by myself in a teeny little apartment in the middle of Charlotte. I love it. I'm in a good neighborhood, I'm close to a lot of cool things and I don't have to wear pants if I don't want to.

M - MOM'S BIRTHPLACE: Another tiny little speck on the map in SE Texas

N - NUMBER OF APPLES YOU'VE EATEN: Ever? A lot. My mom used to give us sliced apples and cheese as an after school snack almost every day when I was a kid.

O - OVERNIGHT HOSPITAL STAYS: birth, tonsillectomy, broken arm, mystery illness

P - PHOBIA: Mannequins and vomiting.

Q - QUEST: To discover how to one day have at least a little bit of faith in myself and my abilities.

R - RELIGIOUS AFFILIATION: Atheist

S - SIBLINGS: One older sister. Though I used to pretend that my Cabbage Patch doll (Baby Jeffrey) was my little brother.

T - TIME YOU WAKE UP: 7

U - UNNATURAL HAIR COLOURS YOU'VE WORN: I was big into that eggplant color in high school. I've been dying my hair red since I was about 20, though, and it's not usually a red that occurs in nature.

V - VEGETABLE YOU REFUSE TO EAT: Corn. I HATE IT.

W - WORST HABIT: This all depends on a person's personal definition of worst, no? I'm gonna go with picking my nails though. I pick at my cuticles until they bleed. Nervous tic.

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: teeth, arm, head (when I flipped off my bike, stomach (when I swallowed a quarter), chest (various bouts with bronchitis)

Y - YUMMY FOODS YOU MAKE: I make a mean casserole. Usually broccoli/cheese or shrimp.

Z - ZANY QUIRK: I hate the word zany. It's so forced and farcical. Anyway, I have a thing for words. I pick out favorites based on how they feel in my mouth when I say them. I also really love to do that thing where you say a word over and over and over until it just becomes letter and nonsense sounds and your brain totally wigs out. Good times.

now arriving (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2012-10-31T06:02:00Z

Title: now arriving
Author: airbefore
Rating: NC-17
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: Two weeks. Two weeks of late night texts and missed phone calls. Of missing his voice and his hands, the way his body feels under hers, the soft curve of his smile in the morning. Two weeks without him.

The crowd buffets her as she cranes her neck, scanning the ever moving throng of people, anticipation running hot through her veins

airbefore @ 2012-10-24T18:52:00

2012-10-24T22:52:03Z

i would give anything to be able to be normal. just for one day.

the shadow of doubt (5/5) (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2012-10-24T02:02:04Z

Title: the shadow of doubt (5/5)
Author: airbefore
Rating: NC-17
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes, spec fic for 5x05 - spoilers from US promo only
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: She arrested him tonight. For the third time. This is the first time it's broken her heart.

Kate stands nervously outside the loft, shifting her weight from side to side. She has a key but she doesn’t dare use it. Not tonight.

the shadow of doubt (4/5) (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2012-10-23T03:15:06Z

Title: the shadow of doubt (4/5)
Author: airbefore
Rating: R
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes, spec fic for 5x05 - spoilers from US promo only
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: She arrested him tonight. For the third time. This is the first time it's broken her heart.

Her heart hammers wildly against her ribs and her fingers are digging into her thighs but she manages to keep her voice level when she speaks.

the shadow of doubt (3/5) (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2012-10-21T23:01:45Z

Title: the shadow of doubt (3/5)
Author: airbefore
Rating: R
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes, spec fic for 5x05 - spoilers from US promo only
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: She arrested him tonight. For the third time. This is the first time it's broken her heart.

The ride to the scene is quiet, the tension a silent but oppressive third party. It fills in the empty spaces of her car, presses her down against the seat. She fights to keep her body upright, to ward off the desire to curl in on herself and hide. Hide from her doubts, her fears, the truth she’s not certain she’s ready to face.

the shadow of doubt (2/X) (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2012-10-18T03:09:07Z

Title: the shadow of doubt (2/X)
Author: airbefore
Rating: R
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes, spec fic for 5x05 - spoilers from US promo only
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary: She arrested him tonight. For the third time. This is the first time it's broken her heart.

He’s locked in a cell, refusing to speak to her without counsel present, and all she can do is run the laps in her brain, tallying up all the strikes against him. Against his innocence.

the shadow of doubt (1/X) (Castle; Beckett/Castle)

2012-10-17T03:46:51Z

Title: the shadow of doubt (1/X)
Author: airbefore
Rating: R
Spoiler Warning: All US aired episodes, spec fic for 5x05 - spoilers from US promo only
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
Summary:She arrested him tonight. For the third time. This is the first time it's broken her heart.

The look of absolute betrayal he’d worn haunts her, the unspoken plea in his eyes seared into her mind.

son of a b-

2012-10-16T12:58:47Z

raise your hand if you're never getting over it

I think what I love most about that particular bit is how utterly in awe he is. They've been doing this for months now. They know each other intimately. And yet he's still looking at her like it's the first time. Like every time is the first time. Because he loves her so much and there's a part of him that still can't believe that this is real. That he's in a relationship with Kate. That he gets to touch her and kiss her and sleep with her. Ugh. This show freaking wrecks me.

Other things I loved:

- Ryan and Espo's trip down memory lane with Beckett's exes - I still thinks it's utterly ridiculous that they're doing this (well, not anymore now that Ryan knows, will get to that in a minute) and find it totally insensitive since EVERYONE knows hows in love with her Castle is but it led to some really humorous moments for me so I'll forgive it

- Beckett pouting about the vacation being interrupted. She is so freaking adorable that it actually hurts sometimes

- All the drinking. I really wanna write some drunk sex now

- How they were able to let themselves get truly caught up in how fucking turned on they get solving crimes together. Beckett in the precinct and then them together on the couch. Ugh. How can two people be so damn hot together? IT'S NOT FAIR.

- "None of them were you." MY HEART

- The way Ryan found out. That entire scene was fucking hilarious. I'm not usually a Seamus fan (find him kind of bland, really) but he killed that so so hard. As did the guest star. Very nice.

- Kate Beckett, body type: AWESOME

-

And then I died

THE PROMO FOR 5X05 KILLED ME, YOU GUYS. WRITING FIC ABOUT IT NOW.

airbefore @ 2012-10-15T07:13:00

2012-10-15T11:13:02Z

HAPPY SEX IN THE HAMPTONS DAY!!!!!!!

airbefore @ 2012-10-11T10:14:00

2012-10-11T14:14:15Z

It's National Coming Out day and I've discovered I have feelings about this that aren't entirely positive. So that's interesting. Bringing this over from the tumblr machine (where I regularly eschew capitalization. Sorry about that).

i’m conflicted on how i feel about national coming out day. on the one hand, it’s important to tell our stories and lend support and courage to those facing the decision of whether or not to come out. on the other hand, i feel like it’s a sort of gang mentality where we’re all bunching together and trying to force others to come out and join our ranks. it’s all couched in positivity but i feel like there’s quite a bit of shaming inherent in the movement. “it’s national coming out day! why don’t you want to come out and stand proud with us?” coming out is an intensely personal experience. only the person in question can decide when the time is right for them. so days like today, while intended to be positive and encouraging, seem a little backward to me because we shouldn’t be telling people to come out but telling them that it’s okay if they’re not ready and when they are we’ll be here to support them, no matter what day of the year it is.

Also, to expand on something I put in the tags for this, I don't feel like an announcement of my sexual preferences is something that I owe the world. People that identify as hetero aren't expected to sit down their closest friends and family and make that announcement so why is it something we demand from LGBT folks? Sexuality is personal and private. Who you like to have consensual sex with isn't my business nor is mine yours. Sexual preferences and identities are not the core of what makes a person but just a small part of a whole. I long for the day when whom I choose to sleep with doesn't automatically come with a label but is just accepted as a small (and rather insignificant part) of who I am.