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[Fanfic] Til The End

aibachyderu — Thu, 14 Jul 2011 15:15:53 GMT

Pairings : kinda broken!YeWook, friendship!Hyungshik/Ryeowook , KevShik
Fandoms : Super Junior,ZE:A
Rating : G/PG
Genre : Angst,a bit of Fluff
Warning : Bad english,Grammar errors,and maybe OOC ^-^;

“Yes hyung,I’ve eaten already,don’t worry.How could you expect me to forget eating?hahaha”
Ryeowook heard Hyungshik’s sweet voice speaking,they were currently on rehearsal break.

He looked at his hoobae and saw him talking to someone on the phone

“I miss you too Kevin hyung,take care....just go to sleep,don’t wait for me.its late.We have emka tomorrow” ,

“I love you too,good night...” and with that,Hyungshik hung the phone up .

He turned forward and see Ryeowook looking at him while smiling.

“Ah,sorry hyung,I did not notice you’re here” , said Hyungshik .

Ryeowook just smiled , “Its okay Hyungshik-ah,you were calling someone important,weren’t you?”

Hyungshik immediately blushed hearing Ryeowook’s words , “Uh....yeah...how did you know hyung?”

Ryeowook kept smiling , “You sound so different when you’re talking to him.Is he your bandmate?”

“...really?I did not notice that.......and...errr...yeah...” , Hyungshik sounded hesitated when he answered Ryeowook

Ryeowook patted Hyungshik’s shoulder and took a seat beside the younger man , “Don’t worry Hyungshik-ah,I have someone like that too,and he is my bandmate too...” , Ryeowook smiled,but Hyungshik noticed there’s sadness in his smile.

He wondered why,but he decided not to ask because he didn’t want to be rude to his sunbae.And so he decided to change the topic as he saw Ryeowook playing with his phone.

“What are you doing hyung,twitter?” , Hyungshik asked .

“Yes,I’m uploading the photo I took with the other hyungs earlier”.

Ryeowook then asked Hyungshik , “Do you have twitter account,Hyungshik-ah?”

“Ah,no,aside of Kwanghee-hyung,we Ze:a members share one account together”

“I see....ah!lets take a photo together!” , Ryeowook motioned Hyungshik to come closer to him and started taking photos with his cellphone,when they’re going to take another photo, Hyungshik hugged him from behind .

But Ryeowook immediately froze.Scared of Ryeowook’s reaction,Hyungshik immediately let go of Ryeowook.

“S...Sorry hyung!Did you feel uncomfortable?I tend to do that to people around me...so.....” , Hyungshik tried to apologize , “I’m sorry hyung....”

Ryeowook finally reacted , “No,no,no,Hyungshik-ah,its not your fault” , Ryeowook waved his hands “....its just......it has been a while since someone hugged me like that.......and you....remind me of that someone...”

Hyungshik could not help but felt even more guilty hearing that.Ryeowook noticed Hyungshik is frowning and held Hyungshik’s cheek.

“Its not your fault,Hyungshik-ah.Please don’t frown like that,it’ll ruin your beautiful face” , Ryeowook joked.

Hyungshik laughed hearing that from Ryeowook . “You are more beautiful than me,hyung”

“But you’re more good looking than me”

“No,you’re more good looking than me.If I don’t have Kevin hyung,I would like to date you” , Hyungshik joked.

Ryeowook stayed silent for a while,then the sad smile appeared again.

Hyungshik now wanted to smack his own head because it seemed he just said something wrong to his sunbae.

“I would be happy if I had a boyfriend like you,Hyungshik-ah” , Ryeowook looked at his hoobae , “Your lover is really lucky to have you...”

Hyungshik blushed upon hearing ‘lover’ word.Its true that Kevin was his lover,but somehow it felt different when someone directly mentioned about that to him.

“Now,lets continue taking the pics,shall we?”
“Ah,yes,hyung”

“....Hyungshik-ah...can you hug me again?”

Hyungshik was surprised to hear his sunbae’s request , “...are you sure hyung?”

Ryeowook smiled , “Yes,its nice to be hugged like that.Beside,I’m sure the fans will like it.” , Ryeowook winked.Hyungshik just giggled,he understood what did his sunbae mean.

They’ve done taking the photos,and after hesitating for a while,Hyungshik finally decided to ask Ryeowook .

“Hyung...I’m sorry....but...may I ask who’s that ‘someone’...?Its okay if you don’t wanna tell me about that.Anyway I don’t mean to be rude or what...but...” , before Hyungshik finished his words,Ryeowook cut him.

“Its Yesung-hyung,my fellow Super Junior member...........Yesungie-hyung...” Ryeowook smiled at Hyungshik .

“.......Ah....Yesung sunbae...?”

“Yes,you know him?”

“He was the DJ of Super Junior’s radio,right?I met him once when Kevin hyung and I guested there.” , Hyungshik explained .

“Oh,yes,he became the DJ there when some of us stayed in Taiwan at that time.” , Ryeowook responded.
“What’s happening between you and him,hyung?”

Ryeowook showed that sad smile again “We have been dating ...since long time ago....but I guess,as time passed,his feeling for me is slowly fading...”

“......why?” , Hyungshik asked hesitantly,he didn’t want to hurt Ryeowook’s feeling.

“...I don’t know...I guess he is bored of me.We even used to share a bedroom,but then I moved out.I really....really can’t understand him.Sometimes he acted like how everything used to be,but then the other times he would ignore me.......like I was nothing to him....” , Ryeowook’s eyes are slowly tearing up.

Hyungshik did not know how to do,he just kept silence,and again,he was feeling guilty because he was the one asked Ryeowook about what is happening.

Ryeowook wiped his tears and smiled , “Hyungshik-ah,you’re frowning again.I didn’t tell you this to make you frown,smile,smile”

Hyungshik pouted , “You yourself is crying hyung....”

Ryeowook pinched Hyungshik’s cheek “Here,I’m smiling,so you should smile too,okay?You’re really cute...”

“Hyung....”

“Yes?”

“...I...I...maybe I should not say this....but....when Kevin hyung and I guested on the radio....I saw Yesung Sunbae kept checking on his cellphone......because I was curious,I asked him why,and he said he was waiting for a call or message from his lover,then Leeteuk sunbae said that his lover was in taiwan...so maybe...he was talking about you........”

There was silence for a while,none of them spoke,til Hyungshik broke the silence.

“....Believe in him,hyung...”

“Eh?”

“Believe in him,hyung,believe in his heart.You have been with him for a long time,right?Beside,he never said that you and him have ended...believe in him,hyung,try to believe in him til the end....” , Hyungshik said while holding Ryeowook’s hand.

Ryeowook hugged Hyungshik all of sudden,Hyungshik was startled at first because Ryeowook hugged him tightly .

“Thank you,Hyungshik-ah,thank you....” , Ryeowook whispered as he buried his face on Hyungshik’s chest

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The Next day,in ZE:A’s dorm

Kevin slowly opened his eyes,he felt someone was staring at him.He immediately sat up ,and noticed that was Hyungshik staring at him.

“What’s wrong?You woke up so early,aren’t you tired?” , Kevin caressed his lover’s cheek.

Hyungshik held Kevin’s hand which was caressing his cheek , “Kevin hyung...” , Hyungshik began , “We have been together,for more than one year....”

“Yes,we are.What’s wrong shikkie?” , Kevin was confused.

“Will we always be together,hyung?” , Hyungshik asked.

Kevin raised his eyebrow,he didn’t understand why was Hyungshik asking something like that all of sudden.

“Why?Is there something wrong?” , Kevin asked him back.

“....just answer my question hyung....”

Kevin wrapped his arms around the younger boy and placed his lips close to his ear.

“Yes,we will always be together.....always...” , he whispered

“Til the end...?” , Hyungshik asked again.

“Yes,til the end....” , after Kevin said that,he placed a kiss on his lover’s forehead.

-----------------------------------------

In Super Junior’s dorm,Ryeowook’s room.

Ryeowook just woke up,he picked his cellphone and went to check his twitter.

He took a look at his mentions,so many mentions from fans,and most of them were commenting about the photo of him and Hyungshik he posted last night.

He went to his timeline,and saw a tweet from Yesung.He just tweeted 2 hours ago,he tweeted about his upcoming song with Jang Hyejin.

“Believe in him,hyung,try to believe in him til the end...” , Hyungshik’s words echoed in his mind.
He decided to type something.

“I’ll look forward to it,hyung ^^”

He tweeted that,responding to Yesung’s tweet.

He placed his cellphone on his bed and buried his head on his pillow.

Yes,he would wait,he would keep waiting for Yesung,til the end.

~end

A/N : I'm sorry for such a bad ending,I could not think of any good ending,so I decided to hang YeWook's relationship like that u___u.I'm pretty new to ZE:A,so sorry if I made Hyungshik and Kevin so OOC here ^^;
And yes,this was inspired by Ryeowook's tweet last nite and today :3
Although I've wanted to write yewook,kevshik,and ryeoshik in one fanfic since I knew that Wook and Shik were going to be in one musical

YeWook : Resignation

aibachyderu — Sat, 08 Jan 2011 15:27:04 GMT

Title : Resignation

Genre : Angst

Pairing : Yewook, slight Kyumin,very slight Sibum.

Rating : beetwen PG or PG-13 ?_?

Warning : Character Death

A/N : I finally decided to post this.This is my entry for SapphirePearls's 5th giveaway,and luckily,I won the 2nd place!:D/ .Was gonna post this on Yesung's birthday...but I think this is too sad to be posted on his birthday,so I wrote a new one for his birthday.The title was randomly taken from Yesung's solo on SS2,Resignation lol.Hope you enjoy.As always,apologize for grammar mistakes :)

Disclaimer : None of these people are mine

“Lets break up....” , Ryeowook said to Yesung coldly,with an expressionless face.

Yesung froze for a while,he tried to calm himself down before started to speak , “Why Ryeowook?Why?Tell me you’re kidding...please...” , Yesung placed his hand on Ryeowook’s shoulder.

Yesung didn’t expect Ryeowook would slap his hand away.

“I...I don’t love you anymore....I like someone else....sorry Yesung,and....goodbye...” , that was the last words from Ryeowook before he turned and run away from Yesung’s side.

Yesung only stood there in silence...he didn’t understand at all...

Everything beetwen him and Ryeowook was so fine...if you don’t want to call it ‘perfect’

Yesung loved and adored Ryeowook so much.....and he was sure...that Ryeowook did too...

Yesung always treated Ryeowook as his precious...his fragile diamond....

Yesung didn’t even know if he did something wrong...and Ryeowook didn’t even give him a second chance

And now...that perfect relationship had ended

~1 year later~

It had been one year and moths since Yesung broke up with Ryeowook.

Tomorrow would be Yesung’s 26th birthday.

Yesung was still single until now...he had no interest in love and be a succesful salesman in the company he worked in instead.

“Hey,Yesung!, called Siwon,one of Yesung’s friend from the same company.

“Yeah?” ,replied Yesung.

“Tomorrow is your birthday right?Got any plan?” , asked Siwon.

“Errr...no...” , Yesung said lazily and kept concentrating on his works.

Yesung didn’t feel excited for his birthday at all...its the first birthday he would spend without Ryeowook beside him.

Siwon frowned at Yesung’s blank expression , “Come on!Tomorrow is your birthday!At least be a bit cheerful!Wanna join me and Kibum to go drink tonight?” , asked Siwon.

“Drink?sounds nice...” , said Yesung.

Yesung didn’t have any plan for his birthday at all...usually he would always celebrate his birthday with Ryeowook....a simple celebration...yet that was enough to make Yesung happy.

And so Yesung accepted Siwon’s offer to drink along with Kibum that night.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The Next day,Yesung woke up with a heavy feeling in his head...he drank a lot with Siwon and Kibum last night...but he ended up being left alone because Siwon and Kibum had a private bussiness to do.

“Argh...” , Yesung groaned , “I shouldn’t drink that much...stupid...” , he cursed at himself.

Today was Sunday,so Yesung didn’t have any works to do....

And also Yesung’s birthday,but yeah...he didn’t have any plan for his birthday...because if he spent his birthday that usually he spent with Ryeowook...it would just hurt him and remind him of Ryeowook after all.

He decided to just stay at home without knowing what to do.

He got up from his bed and checked his cellphone...a lot of missedcalls and birthday messages...but he didn’t even bother to read the messages or call back.

He went to make breakfast first,a simple breakfast,a toast with coffee...and then went to take a bath.

He felt fresh after done take a bath.

He opened his cupboard to search for clothes....there he accidentally took out one shirt...a simple red shirt....but that was a gift from Ryeowook for his 23th birthday which he still kept until now.

“Damn....” , Yesung said as he threw the shirt to the floor.

He then walked out from his bedroom to the living room,leaving the shirt on the floor.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Yesung decided to watch tv to forget that thing which reminded about Ryeowook just now.

Its just 15 minutes since Yesung started to watch the program (which actually he had no interest in) , until the bell of his apartment rang.

Yesung got up from his couch lazily....then he opened the front door of his apartment.

There he saw two young men...he didn’t know both of them.....one of them was tall,and the other one had a pretty face (which kinda reminded Yesung of Ryeowook again) and shorter than the first man.

“Hello....” , the shorter man started to speak , “Are you Kim Yesung-sshi?” , he asked.

“Yes....” , answered Yesung. “is there anything you want from me?” , he asked.

The shorter man turned to the taller man,and the latter nodded.

“My name is Lee Sungmin,and this man beside me is Cho Kyuhyun....we are....Ryeowook’s bestfriends....”

Yesung froze for a while after hearing that name.

“Umm...sorry,Yesung-sshi?” , said Sungmin as he tried to get Yesung’s attention.

“Uh,yes,sorry...” , Yesung finally noticed that Sungmin was talking to him.

“So,Ryeowook’s friends,huh?Whats wrong?” , Yesung said it calmly even though he felt a mixed feelings inside.

“There is something we want to talk about Ryeowook.” , said the taller man,who was introduced by Sungmin as Kyuhyun.

“O...oh,yes...how about you two get inside first?” , offered Yesung.

And so,they started to talk on Yesung’s living room.

“We have something to give to you...” , Sungmin started , “Its from Ryeowook....” , he said as he picked something out from his bag.

Yesung felt confused and disappointed.

What is the thing Ryeowook wanted to give him?

hy didn’t he just go by himself alone to give it to Yesung instead?

“Here” , Sungmin handed Yesung a thick notebook.

’Yesung’s birthday’ was written at the cover of the notebook.

“What is this?” , Yesung asked the two men,he still felt confused.

“Please open it first Yesung-sshi...its from Ryeowook...” , said Kyuhyun.

Yesung did as Kyuhyun told.He opened the book slowly...his heart was beating so fast.

He was Afraid,Worried,and Curious about what Ryeowook wrote in that Book.

Yesung looked at the first page,Its filled with a photo of him and Ryeowook with his friends in high school.

‘Yesung’s 18h birthday’ was written on it.

Yesung started to read the text written on that page.

“The first time I spent your birthday with you was on your 18th birthday.I was really shy at that time because I had a long time crush to you....we were classmates,but you know....we were not that close.

Do you know?I was really happy when you asked the whole members of our class,including me to celebrate your birthday together.

Its the first time we really talked....

I could not help to fall in love with you more....

I was really glad we talked at that time...because its the beginning of ‘us’,Yesung.....”

After he finished reading the text,memories of the first time he spent his birthday with Ryeowook flashed into his mind.

~Flashback~

“Ryeowook-sshi,do you want to join us?” , Yesung asked the quite boy who was sitting on his chair,reading his book quietly.

Ryeowook turned his attention from the book to Yesung,a slight blush appeared on his cheek. “E...Eh?Join you what?”, Ryeowook replied him nervously.He was really nervous because he was talking to his long crush time.

“To celebrate my birthday!” , answered Yesung excitedly , “The whole class will also join,or maybe you have any plan after school?”

“No...No!” , Ryeowook exclaimed immediately.

Yesung smiled , “Lets go then!” , said Yesung as he pulled Ryeowook’s hand.

~end of flashback~

Yesung opened the next page , a photo of him with Ryeowook was sticked onto the page.

‘Yesung’s 19th birthday’ was written on it.

“Your 19th birthday was the first time we spent your birthday together since we started to date.

I was really confused about what to give to you at that time.

Do you know?One of our classmate said that I should give myself to you...he is crazy!kekeke.

In the end,I really gave myself to you...

But I didn’t regret,because you’re the only person I want give myself to....

I will never forget that day we spent together,Yesung....never....”

The next page was ‘Yesung’s 20th birthday’

Another photo of him and Yesung was sticked onto the page.It was taken at Ryeowook’s bedroom.Ryeowook’s wearing pajama in that photo.Yesung chuckled a bit when he saw the photo.

“Your 20th birthday,we were really busy with our university at that time.

I was really afraid we wouldn’t be able to celebrate it together....

I rushed to finish all my assignments at that time...but I ended up getting sick...I’m sorry Yesung...I was so useless....I didn’t even get anything for your birthday at that time.

And you ended up taking care of me in my house on your birthday....”

~Flashback~

“I’m sorry Yesung....” , Ryeowook said while laying limply on his bed...his face red flushed and he let out coughs sometimes.

Yesung smiled , “What’s to sorry about,Wookie?” , he held Ryeowook’s hand gently , “Its my duty to take care of you after all...”

“But today is your birthday...you’re supposed to celebrate your birthday Yesung,but now you’re taking care of your useless,sick boyfriend....” , Ryeowook exclaimed.

Yesung frowned , “Don’t call yourself like that!I don’t like it...beside.... I don’t wanna celebrate my birthday while you’re laying in your bed like this.What I care about is I’m spending my birthday with you,and only you” , Yesung said as he smiled gently.

Ryeowook’s face that had been red became more red because of Yesung’s words , “You’re so cheesy Yesung....” , Ryeowook smiled at his boyfriend

“But,Thank you very much Yesung,I love you....”

~end of Flashback~

Next page , ‘Yesung’s 21th birthday’ , a photo of the two of them eating cake was sticked onto the page.

“I was so happy on Your 21th birthday

Because I finally be able to do something for your birthday at that time.

Do you remember?I baked a cake for you and brought it to your house.”

~Flashback~

“This is really delicious Wookie!” , Yesung said as he continued to eat the cake.

“Really?Thank you...I’m glad....” , Ryeowook didn’t continue to eat his cake,he was looking at his happy boyfriend instead.

“Yeah!I really love this!You will make such a good wife,Wookie-ah!” , Yesung grinned.

“W...what?” , Ryeowook was surprised , “Wife?Wife?What is in your mind Yesung?”

Yesung frowned , “You don’t want to be my wife?” , he asked Ryeowook with a serious look in his face.

Ryeowook blushed because his boyfriend was looking at him with that serious look , “I...I didn’t say that I don’t want to...but...wife...it sounds....wrong?” , said Ryeowook,still blushing.

“Awww...you’re so cute when you’re blushing” , Yesung stopped eating,reaching his boyfriend to plant a kiss on Ryeowook’s lips.

~end of Flashback~

Next,Yesung’s 22th birthday.A photo of Ryeowook with Yesung and Yesung’s family was sticked onto the page.

Yesung started to read the text.

“Its the year when you finally graduated from your college.

Do you remember we had a fight 2 weeks before your birthday?

I was mad at you because you were really busy regarding your graduation and seldom contacting me.

I was really upset...I was even planning to not going to your graduation.

But then you came to my house,bringing a bouquette of roses,and apologized.

You’re lucky I forgave you at that time!Kekeke.

And on your birthday,we had a dinner with your family.

Do you know?I was so happy at that time...I felt closer with you...and I became close with your family too.

I was really happy they accepted me...

I never told you this,but I was really afraid of meeting your family at first,I was afraid they would not accept me,and I could not be with you anymore,Yesung.

I love you,Yesung...and I love your parents and your brother too.....How I wish someday I could be the part of your family....”

Next page,Yesung’s 23th birthday.A self taken photo of him and Ryeowook was sticked onto the page.

“At the beginning of that year,you finally got a job.

And we started to live together in our apartment at that year too.

I only gave you a simple shirt for your birthday present at that time.

But I cooked a lot for your birthday...all your favourite foods....once again,I was really glad you loved my cooking.

We had a simple,yet romantic dinner in the dining room of our apartment.

That was a moment I really treasure.Of course,I always treasure every moment I spent with you.But that moment was really special to me...I don’t know why.....

It felt like there was only the two of us in this world at that time....

I would never forget that moment,Yesung....never...”

After he finished reading the text,Yesung remembered he just thrown that shirt on his bedroom floor.

And he remembered his anger too....

Was not Ryeowook the one who asked to break up with him?

Why now ryeowook giving him this?

To remind Yesung of him?

To hurt Yesung with these unforgotable beautiful memories of them?

Yesung paused reading the book for a while.

The two men noticed this. “Yesung sshi?Whats wrong?” , Sungmin asked him.

“I...I’m not going to continue to read this” , said Yesung.

“W...what?Why?” , said Sungmin,surprised.

“I’m not going to continue reading this until Ryeowook shows himself to me,alone.”,exclaimed Yesung.

Sungmin’s expression changed,and Yesung noticed tears started to flowing from Sungmin’s voice.

Kyuhyun noticed this and went to hug the crying man. “Minnie,please don’t cry now...please...” , said Kyuhyun as he tried to comfort Sungmin.

Still hugging Sungmin,Kyuhyun shot Yesung a serious look , “Yesung sshi...please,just continue to read it...its not for us....its for Ryeowook and for you too...please....” , Kyuhyun pleaded.

Yesung was confused with the situation,he had no choice to continue reading the book.

He flipped to the next page,’Yesung’s 24th birthday’ was written on it,and another self taken photo of him and Ryeowook was sticked onto the page.

“We went to a concert on your 24th birthday.Remember?

Actually it was kinda awkward.

Well,its your birthday and I was the one who bought the concert ticket for the two of us.

But it was my favourite artist,and watching my favourite artist on your birthday was really weird.

I regretted giving you that ticket concert at that time,but then you said a cheesy thing again,saying that anything I like would be your liking too.

Sometimes I wonder if its me who gives the presents on your birthday,or is it me who’s given the presents by you on your birthday?

I’m sorry if I was not good enough for you,Yesung.....but you’re the most wonderful thing that god ever gave to me....I love you,Yesung....”

After finished reading that page,Yesung started to wonder if Ryeowook really meant it when he wrote the texts....

Why did he leave him then?

Yesung continued to read the next page....’Yesung’s 25th birthday’ was written on the page,and another self taken photo of him and Ryeowook was sticked onto it.

“Your 25th birthday....do you remember you were so busy with your works at that time,Yesung?

I know it could not be helped since your work was important...but I was really upset because you seldom spent your time with me anymore....

It turned awkward on your birthday...I did not even prepare anything for your birthday,I didn’t even be able to say “Happy birthday” when I woke up in the morning....I’m really sorry Yesung....

But then you asked me to go out...and then we went to a park...sitting there together without caring about how long the time we had spent at that park.

Once again,it felt like there was only the two of us in this world.

At that moment,I thought our love would last forever...

I thought ‘We’ would last forever....”

~Flashback~

Yesung and Ryeowook sat together in the wide green park....watching the view around them.

There were only silence beetwen them at first,until Yesung broke the silence.

“Wookie-ah,what is the most important thing to you in this world?” , said Yesung as he moved closer to Ryeowook and wrapped his arm around Ryeowook’s slender waist.

Ryeowook leaned closer to Yesung,he always felt so safe with those strong arms around him.But he didn’t answer Yesung’s question.

“For me....” , Yesung started to speak , “The most important thing in this world is you,and only you....no one ever can replace your position in my heart and mind....”

Ryeowook blushed hearing those words came out from Yesung’s mouth.

“I....” , Ryeowook finally started to speak , “I think the same way as you,Yesung...you’re the most important thing in this world to me....I will never be able to stand if I lost you...”

Yesung smiled and moved one of his hand to caress Ryeowook’s cheek gently , “Don’t worry Wookie-ah...I will never leave you....you will never lost me...you will do the same too,right?” , said Yesung.

Ryeowook felt like wanted to cry at that time,he couldn’t speak any word,instead he turned his body to face Yesung and kissed him.

Ryeowook was the first to pull away , “I love you...Yesung....happy birthday...” , he said it softly.

~end of Flashback~

Yesung felt like wanted to cry...why?why did Ryeowook left him?If he didn’t leave him at that time,Yesung sure their love would last forever...and ever...

That year was the last year,the last birthday Yesung spent with Ryeowook...

Today,on his 26th birthday,Ryeowook was not here anymore....

Yesung moved to the next page.

There’s no photo sticked onto that page.

Yesung started to read the text.

“Yesung,happy birthday....happy 26th birthday.....

When you read this text,maybe I’ve left this world already....

I’m sorry Yesung...I left you without telling the truth....

I have a cancer...and the doctor told me I would not last long...

I decided to leave you with my cruel words....told you that I don’t love you anymore...

I don’t want to be a burden for you...thats why....

I wish you will forget me after I left you....

But in the end,I could not help to make this notebook.

I want to leave at least one word or more to you...

So you will know that I still love you,and I will still love you even if I leave this world.

But,please move on after I leave this world,okay,Yesung?

Please search for someone else to love....but please let me stay in your memory forever....

I know I’m so selfish for asking this Yesung

I love you,and I’ll love you forever

I’ll never forget the days and moments we spent together

I’m sorry,and once again...I love you...

Forever,I’m yours.....

Please be happy.....

~Kim Ryeowook “

Yesung had started crying when he was reading the last text from Ryeowook,and cried more when he finished reading the text...

“W...why?since when?” , Yesung tried to talk while crying.

“He...he just passed away last night,at 12 am.....” , said Kyuhyun , “He tried his best until the end...his family even brought him abroad to heal him...but nothing could save him........” , Kyuhyun continued,his voice was shaking.

Ryeowook was not here anymore...Ryeowook would not be in anywhere to be found

Ryeowook had left him...

Yesung only could cry loudly....he didn’t even care that Sungmin and Kyuhyun were still there.

In the first year of his birthday without Ryeowook,Ryeowook had left this world....

Ryeowook had left him...forever.....

Exam + GJ UI+Meme

aibachyderu — Mon, 15 Jun 2009 12:47:30 GMT

Gah...when I just got back to LJ,Exam was coming,so I went away again,sorry guys ==;...and my exam...Biology was like...a monster..gyahahaha...and I must do re-test for that *A*;;...actually I think that's not really important because I won't take science class for next year,but I just...don't like to see any bad score in my report =w=b...but I'm really lazy to study Biology again..ORZ (-_-)

and yesterday was Gelar Jepang UI...whoa..the event was really crowded~but had a lot of fun~*_*.met
arsenfreya as Shinnn~~~*////*...and saw kisame_widi as stellar >/////<..though I didn't get any chance to talk with her . also met
arashiyukawa and rie_ecchan as xerxes break of Pandora Hearts there...her xerxes made me missed one of my cosplayer friend & idol who is on cosplay hiatus right now ;A;.anyway,I went there as revolutionary!America,with my friend,pucanna as Iggy~XD.

photo by G4RONK-san~thanks a lot~XD

more photos are here~XD

kay..I know I look like chibi!america more...why am I so shortttt ;A;..well,I already wore a high heels boots..though it was just 5 cm...but pucann still taller than me...well,I was supposed to borrow
arietan 's boots..its 17 cm..but she couldn't make it to the event TvT

got from
sukiyakiya
01. Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper at their livejournal

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02. Explain in five sentences why you're using that wallpaper :
-I was bored with my previous wallpaper
-I always use cosplay photo for wallpaper..either its mine or not
-I just finished editing that photo at that time
-I love PrussiaxAustria
-I'm a narcis ==;.

03. Don't change your wallpaper before doing this. The point is to see what you had on.
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back + doujinshi sharing

aibachyderu — Fri, 19 Dec 2008 18:05:25 GMT

anyone remember me?o_o.I was like...unexpectedly was on hiatus...since exam was coming...then after exam finished,I somehow felt lazy to logged in to LJ.duh,sorry -_-;

anyway,I really want to say thank you to you who gave a birthday greeting for me >w<...maybe its too late to say thanks.but,really,thank youuu~~~♥♥♥♥

and I have doujinshies to share ^^

I have two D18 and one 6918 crack doujin from Peeco?'s reprint collection,also one doujinshi about mukuro,and one D18 doujinshi :D

title : unknown (can't read japanese)
pairing : no pairing
circle/doujinka : Noue-rue
rating : PG-13 for some blood
note : this is a story about Mukuro.
this story came from the same book with this one

(but the story doesn't have any connection)

download : [mediafire]

(anyway...thank you so much to kisame_widi for buying this doujin for meee~~~*w* <3333)
title : muoia dopo avere visto roma (not sure if that is the title '_' )
pairing : D18
rating : R-18
circle/doujinka : ?
download : [mediafire]

Peeco? reprint collection

title : False Down
pairing : D18
rating : PG-13 for some implied sex ^^;
download : [mediafire]

title : Congratulations
pairing : D18
rating : PG-13..for some..lol

title : Love or Pain
pairing : D18,also some 69-->18
rating : G

download congratulations and love or pain in one folder : [mediafire]

title : Stand Up
pairing : gag,but maybe some 69-->18
genre : crack
rating : G
download : [mediafire]

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please comment if downloading
please don't redistribute my scans anywhere

feel free to use it for translation/scanlation..I would be happy for that~^^..but please credit to me for the scan 8D

umm..long time no update

aibachyderu — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 09:08:55 GMT

at first,I wanna say....

Happy Belated Birthday!!!! to taliesin_cariad</lj> , selene_umi</lj> , and nerrin</lj> ~♥

sorry I'm late guys m(_ _)m...wish you guys had an awesome birthday :)

anyway,can someone explain to me what the f*ck is this thing???8DDDDDDDDDDD
adfksjksjhsjsjsjshshhs NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU...allelujahhhhhhhhh...COME BACK TO TIERIA!!!or I will back shipping LockTier again!!!DDDDX....aaarghhh...no no noooooo...DO.NOT.WANT.THATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT D8

OTL...sorry...I'm such a spammer..but but but...Alleeeeeeeeeeee...damnnnnnnn D;

I'm too lazy to download the RAW...but I really curious what will happen with Louise!D8..I love that girl in S2..though I was really not interested with her in S1...maybe because she changed her hairstyle?LOL...duh..wanna cos her =x

anyway,I have a doujin to share~

Title : ? kotonoha(thanks to clovert!!! :D )

Circle : Noue-Rue

Pairing : 6918,D18 (separated story)

Rating : G/PG (for 6918 one) and PG-13..I guess '_' (for D18 one)

download : [mediafire]

please comment if downloading
please don't redistribute my scans anywhere
feel free to use it for translation/scanlation..I would be happy for that~^^..but please credit to me for the scan 8D
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=_=

aibachyderu — Sun, 19 Oct 2008 09:46:11 GMT

The 'Tempting Fate' meme:

1. Make an LJ-cut post with "DO NOT READ" as the text.
2. Do not select a 'mood' for this post.
3. If anyone clicks the cut, they are to comment and admit to doing so.
4. Anyone who reads this also has to do the same in THEIR journal, thus continuing the never-ending madness..Type your cut contents here.

now,be honest,f-list ;D

fucking yeah or fucking no x_x

aibachyderu — Thu, 16 Oct 2008 10:37:45 GMT

err..I was supposed to be in semi-hiatus or something like that
but...after saw this in sukiyakiya 's LJ
OTZ
x_x x_x x_x x_x
yesssss I'm happy seeing him appear...clearly...in the cover
but noooooooo I don't like his hairrrr....
tapi gimanapun timingnya emang tepat banget sih x_x...saya takut gimana ntu nge-style wignya sementara rambut TYL!Dino yang jelas belum ada..tapi sekarang udah ada..tapi tetep aja....
ampe chiharu aja bilang "Dino ga takut diputusin Hibari apa?" LOL

also...sorry for not commenting in you guys's entries...I have a lot of daily test TvT/

ohoohohohohoooooo 8DDD

aibachyderu — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 07:34:13 GMT

guess what just happened...finally I enter one fandom which I should enter since long time ago 8D (or something like that)
what it is?8D...D.GRAY-MAN DESUUUUU
okay...so...I was really stressed last night...and I went to aarinfantasy..looking for some D18..and there's no D18...then,somehow..suddenly I remember someone ever said this to me or what, I don't understand @_@ , " LaviYuu is my OTP"..then I go to "D" doujinshi section...and I'm tried downloading one scanlation...then I fall in love with this pairing...OTP?8D

actually,the way Lavi calling Kanda with "Yuu"...kinda remind me of D18 -*-...wait,don't kick me DD8

okay......again,I say " LaviYuu is MY NEW OTP" ♥♥♥♥

just wanna say that...sorry for spamming your f-list xp ~~*not feeling guilty at all*~~

edited : can someone help me??from which episode is it?*____*

hnnn

aibachyderu — Thu, 09 Oct 2008 10:38:52 GMT

first of all,happy belated birthday to nakamura yuuichi (yea..I'm still remember him 8D)..and happy birthday to rouranshiranui 8D/..oniichann~~

then,I'm kinda bored at reborn...there's too much fighting scene...I miss daily life arc (even Dino and Hibari still not met in that arc)OTZ ;_;

kuroshitsuji anime is cool..even though I don't really like ciel in green suit O_o..also GUNDAM 00 S2!!!!damnnnn...I can't wait for the next episode >3<...but I missed code geass too T__T

also...I really have no idea who are the actors for shitenhoujimyu =*= ~~I mean,there's no KatoKei as shiraishi D8~~ ...but I'm really waiting for KenZai >w<

terakhir..ada yang mau jadi Rollo Lamperouge nya code geass buat Indonesia Japan Expo tgl 2 November ini ngga?

sale post..since I really need money right nao~T__T

aibachyderu — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 05:06:06 GMT

indonesian only

uang saya abis ludes gara2 beli cosmode 8DDD..tapi saya-san keren banget disana T__T..mana bagian KHRnya pake ada hinted 8059 segala...n hibarin juga keren..tapi ga ada Dino...duh..iklan2 wig n boots nya juga bikin mupeng ORZ

balik ke sale post......btw maaf ini gambarnya low quality semua >_>

-Cast Prix Magazine (karena udah agak jelek jadi 70ribu aja) (content : Gekiranger,Den-o,TAKUYA,dll)

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-Cool up magazine (posternya udah ga ada 1,jadi 150ribu aja) (content : satou takeru,AAA yang cowo 2 itu (lupa namanya) , Kiriyama Renn , and anak2 D-BOYS)

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-Herovision magazine (130ribu aja...ini saya dibeliin dari jepang..jadi ga yakin harga aslinya berapa,tapi masih bagus kok) (content : kamen rider kiva,den-o,dll)

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-Animonster cover Gundam 00,rental magica,Naruto shippuden,tenipuri,sama yang bahas kungfu panda itu lupa nama animenya >_>

(jual 15.000/majalah,tapi kalo beli langsung semuanya 60ribu aja XDD)

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-Animage magazine , cover Lelouch (bonus code geass kaya guide booknya gitu)(50.000)

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-Animedia magazine , cover Setsuna (ngebahas gundam 00,reborn,gintama,dll) (50.000)

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~~-Athrun zala action figure (saya lupa harganya aslinya,jadinya dijual 30.000 aja)~~

~~pic~~ SOLD

-Shinn asuka action figure (sama,30.000)

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~~-Athrun zala chibi figure (lupa harga aslinya juga -*-,jadi 10.000 aja)~~

~~pic~~ SOLD

-Zeronos picture book (30.000)

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-Nakayoshi dari 1-baru n s Shounen Magz 1-4(ada beberapa nomer yang ga lengkap) (10.000/buku)

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-Tenipuri 40.5 fanbook (lupa harga aslinya terus cover belakangnya udah agak kelipet,jadi 60ribu aja)

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-Code geass perfect stage fanbook (100ribu aja,masih baru,baru beli kira2 1 bulan yang lalu)

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-Ultra panic vol.3,waktu itu ga sengaja beli double =_= (10.000)

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yang berminat silakan comment aja 8D,sankyuu

x-posted to MP,and once again,sorry for spamming your friends page m(_ _)m

today is a special day~♥

aibachyderu — Wed, 01 Oct 2008 12:26:09 GMT

1st , today is Hari raya idul fitri...so,
Minal aidin Walfaidzin,please forgive all of my mistakes m(_ _)m

2nd,today is kikkik-sama's birthday 8D ♥,happy birthday kik-sama,I hope you have a great birthday..you're really my number 1 favorite cosplayer >_

3rd,today is aibacchi's birthday too...so,happy birthday to aibacchi \:D/.even I'm not into tenimyu again,and even I don't like you like the first time I know you...I'm still remember your birthday XD..you're the reason why I watched tenimyu,after all XD/..
and I'm kinda surprised when I know that my fav actor and fav cosplayer have a same birthday ♥

4th,because this entry is really pointless,and I know no one would care about this entry,comment is disabled 8D ♥,sorry for spamming your f-page

random is random...OTL

aibachyderu — Mon, 29 Sep 2008 08:54:07 GMT

first of all...welcome..yolkler ..to my livejournal >////< *even my LJ has nothing but fandom talks at all =_=* ...I'm so happy having yolkler-sama in my f-list...OMG *////*

second...code geass R2 episode 25...WTF??thats all...but but but...SuzaLuluuuuuu *_________*...aaaah...and my f-page is now full of SuzaLulu's angst fic..ORZ...but actually I prefer uke's death than seme's death =_=v ~~(which means I prefer Hibari's death than Dino's death *slapped*)~~

Third...new semi friends only banner..featuring Yuki x Machi from furuba...yes..they are my OTP in furuba 8D/...I really hate how the manga always make me cried when I read every volumes ;_;

Fourth...got this from erinae <3

1. If you're on my friends list, I want to know 35 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine ... you're on my list, so I want to know you better.
2. Comment here with your answers and repost the questionnaire on your own journal, for your friends to fill out. :)

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) Favourite and least favourite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

the answer :

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?no
02) What was your dream growing up?idk =w=
03) What talent do you wish you had?uh..singing?xD;
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?root beer?8D
05) Favorite vegetable?potato..I hate vegetable actually ORZ
06) What was the last book you read?Furuba vol.18
07) What zodiac sign are you?Sagitarius
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.nope
09) Worst Habit?Over-sleep
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?yes XD..~~but hey,I can't ride any vehicle~~
11) What is your favorite sport?swimming
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?pessimistic
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?crying?*slapped*
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?being forgotten
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.I have too many weird fact XD;
16) Do you have any pets?no ;_;
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?surprised XD
18) What was your first impression of me?a nice person
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?cute
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?my height and weight '_'
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?crime partner >D
22) What color eyes do you have?black-brown
23) Ever been arrested?noo XD
24) Bottle or can soda?can soda
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?make a cosplay costume and props and buy wigs *-*
26) What's your favorite place to hang out at?pondok indah mall in my country XD..also malls in singapore *_*
27) Do you believe in ghosts?I hope no >_>
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?internet surfing
29) Do you swear a lot?no
30) Biggest pet peeve?idk
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?lonely 8D;
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?yes
33) Favourite and least favourite food?favourite : too many.least fav : vegetable =_=
34) Do you believe in God?yes
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?I'm doing this right nao LOL

I want a dimsum 8Q smacked

aibachyderu — Thu, 11 Sep 2008 08:34:27 GMT

I LOVE Emule so muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuchhhhh ♥
I got so many doujinshies from it which seems have not been shared in non-chinese forum....ASGARD,NKK ,LAS,PEECO,Last Dance Be (TYL!18x18 FTW!:p),also BANYU's newest doujin from Comiket 74 *__* (the D18 animal book one),and etc XD

btw,meme..

first one from kisame_widi..a secret meme

1. Next to each number, write only the name of the person who fits.
2. Don't tell the questions to anyone who isn't doing the meme.

1. a1y_puff,airysh,rourietosama,kisame_widi
2. arsenfreya I guess..because I met her in the 1st cosplay event I joined XD
3. none
4. bajajrider and sukiyakiya ?lol
5. chii_zephyr23
6.nerrin ♥,kazuhikochiharu + me >3 , ladyofcarribean
7. bajajrider , ladyofcarribean , destiny_chain
8. magnoleo , kazuhikochiharu , nerrin ,veresade, tokiya_ensui , sou_mitsuba
9. kube21 and yolkler and ptsuke (about D18 :p) *////* , and kikkik-samaaaaaaaaa
10. IDK O_o
11. me =_= ;
12. kisame_widi , rxrshrine
13. kisame_widi
14. arietan ♥
15. arietan ♥
16. eriolchan ?
17. ME 8D;....and kazuhikochiharu *smacked*
18. kisame_widi , arsenfreya
19. IDK O.O
20. kisame_widi
21. nerrin ,bajajrider *shot*
22. veresade , rie_ecchan *smacked*
23. chii_zephyr23
24. chii_zephyr23 ?LOL
25. IDK O.o
26. kazuhikochiharu >DDD
27. hellgavel :)
28. nerrin , rxrshrine
29. yolkler >////<
30. no offense,kay?XD..also I don't put username HTML above because some of them are error @__@;

also..Computer Spying Meme~

1. Comment with a request to see absolutely anything on my computer. My desktop, my documents, my bookmarks, my latest works in progress, my iTunes. Whatever you're curious about. Request it!
2. I will respond post a new entry with a screenshot of the very thing you request.

PS.tokiya_ensui ..do you want the doujins?I will send it via email if you want :3

happy birthday~

aibachyderu — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 12:17:15 GMT

happy birthday to you....

hope you are happy there

today..again...I can't do anything for you

I can't come to your place either

I just can pray for you here

hope you will always smile

and I wish to see you again...someday..in the future...

we love you

happy birthday,kitsune-chan~

and I'm back~XD

aibachyderu — Fri, 08 Aug 2008 14:26:47 GMT

ah...finally finished that ~~bloody~~ assignment...I missed blogcrew so much <3 <3 <3...nasi goreng 8DD

oh...KHR chapter 205...adfksjsjswshasn...691880!!uh...should I say that?XDD;;;
but...but....but...it means...errr...T____T;;;

okay...I totally don't know I should be happy or what.
because...it means I won't get any chance to see TYL!Dino meet with TYL!Hibari ;_;
but maybe I would see TYL!Dino or TYL!Mukuro meet with Present!Hibar~~i...and that would be shouta 8DDDD...hey,Present!18 is 16,and TYL!Dino is 32...it means...OMG...16 years differs 8DDDD~~..who knows?@_@
but but but...I still want to see any TYL!D18 hints T____T,Dino still not appear either ;_;.

oh Amano-sensei ;_;

no no nooooo there's no TYL!D18..hahahahaha...so what I'm going to cos this november??TYL!D18 IS NOT EXIST,GUYS 8DDD *stressed*

=w=;;

ah...had a chat with rez-kun today <333...
also...I've asked kikkik-sama if I may call her with 'sama' or not?and she said I may call her with 'sama'..kyahahaha~~XDDDD *smacked*

oh...Nabari no Ou 17...Yukimi x Yoite <3 <3 <3

anyway,maybe its just me...but wagaroutashi akunohana's PV looks scary for me O_o

but actually I'm in high mood of 8059 <3

tralalalalala...random is...random @_@

aibachyderu — Sun, 03 Aug 2008 12:52:54 GMT

so...I changed my layout and header is D18 <3.but this layout kinda blinky and make me confused when browsing f-page *swt* @_@

tomorrow is school...aaargh...I'm really lazy to go to school T[]T

and KHR chapter 204..hibari looks sooooooo ~~uke~~ cute in this page @_@

and so I spent my time last night to..browsing video..
I watched KHR episode 91 last night...*I'm late,I know*..Mukurooooo~~<3 <3
also,Ryouhei's voice sounds so hawtttt <3 <3

and Nabari no ou episode 16....adfsksnjsjzdsn...RaikouxGau!!!!♥♥♥♥♥ oh come on,Raikou,kiss him and make him awake from his slumber 8D *WTF?*

oh...and I found a video last night...THIS-IS-A-WORLD-CLASS-COSPLAY *_______*...adfsksjsnsjs...Fay-sama looks so cool there ♥♥♥♥♥
I wonder if Endiru team would join WCS too sometimes?*_*..I hope so ♥

~~school ....=_=...really lazy to go to school ;-;~~

random for the ? times

aibachyderu — Thu, 31 Jul 2008 06:56:41 GMT

THE CHARACTER RATING MEME

do it,Y/Y?8D

just did Miharu's Trial...hmmm...I will cos as Yoite after all,and Mellon-chi will go as my miharu <3,but since I feel like to cos as Miharu as well...I tried it~8D
and now I don't know what punishment I'll get because I skipped LDKS =__=;..I'm still sick after all.but...=w=
ah,I just scanned some page from Tarukome's doujinshi...but suddenly I was feeling like don't want to continue to scan it when I scanned it this morning O__o,uh...I hope my scanning mood will come back ASAP *WTF?*...I don't understand either what I talking about here =__=

uh...help??

aibachyderu — Tue, 29 Jul 2008 12:30:16 GMT

~~at first,sorry for spamming your f-list...but can someone translate what is Dino saying here ? its in chinese.I'm really curious about what Dino saying there >w<.thanks in advance.~~ thanks nerrin !!!

edited : kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...kikkik-sama just posted a full photos of pocky...its so cuteeeeeeee *w*,also her photo as Mukuro with Pocky.Mukuro plus Rabbit...adkfnssjhsahj....WIN *__*

and so...blogcrew XD

CLOSED!THANKS

± Diagnosis result : a Love sickness , caused by『INSERT CLAIM HUR 』±

inspired by D18's BANYU's doujinshi I got from evilcat-san XD.the cover is Dino wearing doctor outfit,and it has "Diagnosis result : a love sickness " words in the cover~~XDDD

RULES :

-2 users per claim , 3 claims per user , F-list got 5 claim,
and can claim a characters which already be claimed
-First come , First serve Basis
-claim can be from ANY fandom,also LJ user :D
-When claiming,just state the full name of character :)
-No bashing and No squabling over the character,kay?:D
-Please be patient until your claim added..everyone have a life >_<..I'll try to update ASAP
-Ah,also when commenting,please add "Nomer absen 7 bakal jadi pacar Ai-chan" in your subject as the proof you already read the rules
-After I approve your claim,please link back in your profile/journal :3

*aibachyderu got a love sick because of TYL!Hibari Kyoya, Tsukiyomi Ikuto, Belphegor, Irie Shouichi and veresade
*fadedhikari got a love sick because of Lelouch Lamperouge,Setsuna F. Seiei
*pocky_please got a love sick because of Toru Kouno , Lelouch Lamperouge , Romeo
*silver881 got a love sick because of Koyama Keiichiro
*karrupin got a love sick because of TYL!Hibari Kyouya and TYL!Rokudou Mukuro
*sou_mitsuba got a love sick because of Giotto
*inuzukaryoushin got a love sick because of Ken Joushima,Bona
*kazimierzi got a love sick because of Kanon Maldini,Atsuma Hasumi
*anionna got a love sick because of TYL!Gokudera Hayato,Simon,Nagoya Chiaki
* obliviously62got a love sick because of Lavi
*remembrancer19 got a love sick because of Yagami Light,Takeshima Kei
* nijie got a love sick because of Kim Heechul,Tyki Mikk,Lee Chihoon
*eatyouramen got a love sick because of Muguruma Kensei
*zoruru got a love sick because of Byakuran
*onigiri92 got a love sick because of Zack Fair,Batman
*veresade got a love sick because of TYL!Hibari Kyouya,amari_sakura,tokiya_ensui
*twilight_midna got a love sick because of Ni,Tatsurou,Kyo
*ladyofcarribean got a love sick because of Gokudera Hayato,Yamamoto Takeshi
*tokiya_ensui got a love sick because of Dino Cavallone, TYL!Dino Cavallone, Mikagami Tokiya, Byakuran, TYL!Superbi Squalo
*unmei_no_deai got a love sick because of Mikami teru
*miyabi_is_dead
</div> got a love sick because of Reita,Christian Bale
* addicted2asiansgot a love sick because of Yamashita Tomohisa
*konkona got a love sick because of Kokutou Mikiya,Kanzato Shin
*kibummielove got a love sick because of Kimjaejoong
*dollypie got a love sick because of Kaname Kuran,Allen Walker,</div>
*arasay_x3 got a love sick because of Gino Weinberg , Akanishi Jin , Hisagi Shuuhei
* nazurahchan got a love sick because of Suwabe Junichi,Hisagi Shuuhei
*ohbangem got a love sick because of choi seung hyun & kwon jiyong,
kim jonghyu
*darkalessa got a love sick because of The Joker
*akc925 got a love sick because of Miyavi
*cityxskyline got a love sick because of james franco</div>

± Diagnosis result : <a _fcksavedurl="http://aibachyderu.livejournal.com/36019.html" href="http://aibachyderu.livejournal.com/36019.html">a Love sickness</a> , caused by『INSERT CLAIM HUR 』±

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NEED SEBASTIAAAANNNN!!!oh,and meme :3

aibachyderu — Thu, 24 Jul 2008 11:27:04 GMT

gyaaaaaaaaaaaa....ada yang maw jadi sebastian nya kuroshitsuji ga bwat Hellofest tanggal 29 november?;_;
yuuchan ga bisa soalnya dia sibuk kuliah ;w;
ayolah maulah iyalah sapa taw jadi cosplayer kuroshitsuji pertama di indonesia *halah*
saya pengen banget cos kuroshitsuji...tapi kenapa sih stok cos-er indonesia ga sebanyak di thai?;[]; *is shot*....maw cosu reborn satu keluarga doang aja nyari cos-er nya setengah mati (_ _);;;
kalo berminat bilang yaa...plisss...saya ga bakal minta kado ultah lagi deh ;>_<; *ditendang*

ohoho...senpaiiiiii <3 *dirajam*
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and meme...since many peoples did it~XD

One True Pairing Ship
Canon Ship
"If this happens I'll stab my eyes out with a spork" Ship
"You are one sick bastard" Ship
"I dabble a little" Ship
"It's like a car crash" Ship
"Tickles my fancy but not sold just yet" Ship
"Makes no canon sense but why the Hell not" Ship
"Everyone else loves it but I just don't feel it" Ship

fandoms accepted :
KHR,vampire knight,nabari no ou,code geass,kuroshitsuji,togainu no chi,bleach,gundam seed/ destiny,tenipuri,gakuen alice,yakitate!Japan,Black cat,Junjou Romantica series

am I the only one who remember his birthday?D8

aibachyderu — Sun, 20 Jul 2008 10:21:49 GMT

okay...maybe I'm weird...but today is Zaizen's birthday...and I don't see anyone in tenipuri comm makes a greetings to him O_O;
uh...shitenhouji totally needs moar love...and yes...I'm still like tenipuri...my OTPs...KenZai,OshiGaku,SanaYuki,TezuFuji...I'm still love them at all u_u

okay...so...what I want to say is just...Happy Birthday to Zaizen Hikaru-kun..hope you have a great time with Kenya-kun~~XDDD

that is the pict from KenZai private cos a week ago :D

also...one special gift from Yuuchan..My husband also my Personal Kenya-senpai >w<

KenZai FTW!!!!>w<

also....I found this : KenZai Anthology !!!DO WANTTTTTT...you know...shitenhouji Doujinshi s are slightly rare T.T;;..and it'll be the best if there's an OshiGaku-KenZai doujinshi!!!*___*

anyway...I went to Grand Indonesia today...in the 5th floor...there's an area which has a Japanese,European,and another country interior...and we are allowed to take a photos there...waooo....wanna do Nabari or VK photoshoot there *w*

actually have nothing to say here...

aibachyderu — Sat, 19 Jul 2008 14:30:18 GMT

♥[SHIROGANE NAOTO] is my favorite crossdresser ♥

D;

ah...whatever =w=

reborn chapter 202...I don't like it ;_;..everyone will squee "1880!!!" from now on =_=;
where the Hell is TYL!Dino???;___;...I-WANT-HIM ;_;...I want him save Hibari...and then I would see bloody!18...and there would be an angsty!TYL!D18 scene DDD< *thrown out of the window*

but I got nitro's 8018's initiative today from my Exteen friends..its love <3 <3 <3...I liked Hibari's Hair there lol

andddddddddd....D18'S CIEL'S BLOOD BOND DOUJINSHI!!!OMG hanashiki....I LOVE YOU SO MUUUUCHHHH *_____*
the art is so pretty...and crying!Hibari..adfksjsndhls....its the best ;D

geez....I hope there would be moar cosplay event in jakarta...in saturday...and in jakarta selatan zone u_u *smacked*
I've ordered VK night class costume...it'll cost Rp.300ribu u__u...and just noticed that I like Day Class uniform more than Night class uniform..gah..it makes me confused x_x;

also wanna do Shiki x Akira ;_;...also Rin ;_;...aaah..damn...and P4..hell yes...after Togainu No chi,now Kik-sama's cosplay make me wanna cos P4 too..I don't play any persona series at all D:

GAWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTT DX

aibachyderu — Tue, 15 Jul 2008 06:34:36 GMT

adfksjsjsnsndhbywjs...aaaaaaaaarghhhhh....tadi pagi croix-san sms saya katanya ga bisa jadi Mukuro...maw ke Jogja DDDD8
seseorang disiniiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....ada yang bisa jadi Mukuro gaaaaaa???pliz pliz plizzzzzzzzzzzzz....wig saya pinjemin...bajunya ga taw deh *ditendang*
duh...kalo ada yang bisa plissssss...saya akan mencintaimu selamanya *sapa juga yang maw*
aaaaaaaaaah..apa aja deh...DD,8...

ah..lupa...bwat tgl 26/27 =w=;

GAH...GAH..GAH =A=...CAPSSS

aibachyderu — Mon, 14 Jul 2008 13:17:35 GMT

MOOD:TOTALLY ANNOYED =A=

LET ME SEE.....DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO SAY HERE...MAYBE JUST A RANDOM THING BUT HELL YES SINCE I LOVE CAPSLOCK SO...GAH...I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT DID I WROTE HERE =.=

I'M TOTALLY IN 6918 MOOD NOW....SINCE...LATEST KHR ENDING...EHEE...69 AND 18..EHEEE 8D;;; *SMACKED FOR RANDOMNESS*...ALSO KAYA-SAMA ANDA FAY-SAMA'S TYL!69 AND 18 COSPLAY...(ANYWAY,I FOUND KAYA-SAMA'S NON-COSPLAY PHOTOS IN REZ-KUN'S MULTIPLY!XD)
ALSO...KIKKIK-SAMA'S HEADSHOT IN MULTIPLY NOW IS TYL!69 *-* AND MINE IS TYL!18 8DDD *SMACKED*...WANNA CHANGE MY LAYOUT INTO 6918...BUT HMM...CAN'T FIND ANY GOOD HEADER =w=;...WANNA COSPLAYING TYL!6918 TOO ;_;...EHEE...nerrin?8D *SMACKED*

~~AH...SEE THIS...REBORN IS TOPPING HIBARI *3* *IS SHOT*..HELL YES....R18 IS MY SECRET OTP D<~~

ANYWAY,tokiya_ensui JUST WANNA SAY THAT I LOVE YOUUUU SO MUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCH 8DDD...AND I WILL LOVE YOU MORE IF YOU CAN MAKE ME SOME D---->18---->69 OR KEISUKE X RIN FIC 8D *HELL YES,I'M A WEIRDO...WHAT THE HELL IS THAT PAIRING?* *KICKED*

OH AND YAAY I LOVE MSN~~I LOVE EXTEEN..CHATTING WITH ladyofcarribean IN MSN MADE ME FORGET ABOUT ALL BAD THINGS 8D...ALSO EXTEEN <3...I LOVE MY EXTEEN BLOG...I LOVE MY FRIENDS IN EXTEEN~LALALALALALA 8D *SWT*

ALSO...JUST FOUND THAT kube21 IS A REAL KUBE-SAN..YAPPARI NEEE 8D..NOW I'M CURIOUS IF KIKKIK-SAMA HAS AN LJ ACCOUNT TOO <3

HELL YES...THIS IS TOTALLY RANDOM ISN'T THIS?AND I LOVE CAPS,SORRY..

[DOUJINSHI DOWNLOAD] D18 by noue-rue

aibachyderu — Sat, 12 Jul 2008 08:06:20 GMT

first,HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FOR

greyhakuro and okamishoujo ^O^/ <3 <3 <3

anyway,just uploaded a D18 doujinshi by nouerue...this is the first time I scanned a doujinshi..so forgive for crappy scan =w=;

the book actually has 2 stories..the first story is this D18 story..and the 2nd story is about 69.~but I didn't scan the mukuro story.but if someone want it maybe will scan it later~8D

the rating..I would say R...but maybe NC-17 @_@;..*not sure*...well..there's a smut scene..but not explicit @_@;

I bought the book from sukiyakiya..so my special thanks goes to her <3

click on the pict for download link

please comment if downloading

please don't redistribute my scans anywhere

feel free to use it for graphic,etc but please credit to the original artist ^^

feel free to use it for translation/scanlation..I would be happy for that~^^..but please credit to me for the scan 8D

anyway,

sukiyakiya...gomen saya belom kirim uangnya...kemaren maw kirim keasyikan photoshoot taw2 bank nya keburu tutup =___=; *dilindes traktor*

muuu 8D

aibachyderu — Mon, 07 Jul 2008 05:04:03 GMT

Hi everyone..how are you all?8D/
I'm in changi airport,singapore now..but still can't check f-list and reply to your comment because the time of free internet is limited for 15 minutes lolz
actually,just wanna say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY magnoleo ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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