A SPOON!ed Rest

My day.

2017-03-14T13:07:11Z

My therapist has suggested that I work on a few things, but one of them was trying to enumerate my day.

~~Here's the plan for my day. I'll update this after accomplishing things.~~

05:45 - Actual wakeup
06:30 - Stop trying to fall asleep, read webcomics
06:45 - Intended wakeup
06:55 - Shower
07:20 - Get dressed, empty Zoan's litterbox, feed cats.
07:30 - Fix UniFi Access Portal (turns out it didn't have an IP... for some reason)
07:40 - Add new wireless access point to my network, Read daily websites.
07:45 - Duolingo lessons for Norwegian. I finished my Basics lesson, which is nice. Major downside, these lessons are pretty sexist and heteronormative.
08:00 - Start writing this up.
08:05 - Medication
08:10 - Leave for work.
08:30 - First meeting at work.
10:00 - Second meeting at work.
12:00 - Third meeting at work.
13:00 - Lunch
13:42 - Pi Day Celebration (3/14 @ 1:42p)
15:00 - Fourth meeting at work, assuming you don't count pi day as a meeting.
16:30 - Leave for home.
17:00 - Medication
17:01 - Phone call to vacation house.
17:05 - Watch Youtube / stare at wall.
18:45 - Make myself a sandwich to eat and/or have leftover steak.
20:45 - finally stop staring at a wall, install Server 2016 on my new home server
22:00 - Go to bed.
23:00 - Actually fall asleep.
04:00 - Zoan wakes me up my starting to vomit on top of me. I get him off of the bed before he throws up, luckily.
04:45 - Actually fall back asleep.
06:45 - Alarm.

Bleh.

Anxiety sucks too.

2017-03-07T02:31:05Z

Anxiety, for me, consists of basically a complete inability to focus on anything ever, with building up feelings of dread. Depression and Anxiety, for me, go hand in hand, and one usually follows the other.

In this particular case, I'm sitting on my couch. My butt hurts from sitting too long, but my brain keeps bouncing between worry/stress over my house's litter box situation, how I need to swap my VM hosts, with cable management and all of that fun, how I need to do laundry, how my couch is a huge mess, how I need to get something to drink, how I need to relax so I don't have yet-another anxiety filled night again, how I need to contact Dell over my broken laptop, how I need to contact the US Embassy, how I want to make an awesome card for Kritter so they get something in the mail, and..

... yep. It feels like my brain is just randomly firing upon things left and right with me unable to do any of them. So I end up stuck, making things feel worse for myself for no apparent reason. Woo.

Well, hopefully now that I've written something down, I might have a chance of actually doing something.

Illness and Weakness

2017-02-22T04:18:15Z

Felt like posting this somewhere. I know few bother to read LJ anymore, but eh. Warning: Brain dump.

Last night I gave myself food poisoning. This was certainly not intentional, as I'm still experimenting with my pressure cooker. I'm pretty sure what happened was that the chicken (boneless skinless chicken thighs) that I put in was actually still a bit frozen in the center, thus didn't cook all the way. Due to the colors of chicken thighs, it isn't like I can simply cut into the beef to know. I've now ordered a instant probe for measuring the temperature of meat to make sure this doesn't happen again.

That's not what I'm talking about.

My depression, like many others, are based on feelings of helplessness and weakness; the more often I am ill and/or the more often I get injured, the more frequent I have bad days. My feelings of depression are amplified greatly when I am also by myself, feeling alone in the world (even when I have friends and such, it doesn't matter to StupidBrain). So the idea that I (nominally a decent cook) managed to infect myself with something out of carelessness... infected myself with something that constantly interrupted my attempts at sleep with extremely large amounts of nausea and very painful gas... well, not good for my mental well being, that's for damn sure.

After this, naturally I couldn't really go to work like that. I ended up taking a sick day today.
A couple of problems with this:

1) I'm out of sick leave. Technically, after today, I have -0.5 sick days. While a lot of the sick leave I take is due to medical appointments (hard to zip to a doc and back when you don't drive), a huge portion are due to me just plain being sick. See the depression source "weakness".
2) This puts me a day behind my projects at work, when we're already a bit rushed. Now I feel like I'm bringing my team of people down with me (for something that is entirely, 100% my fault). See the depression source "helplessness".
3) This means I'm by myself for the day at home, feeling like crap (physically due to recovering from food poisoning; mentally due to the above), with only my cats to talk to. While my cats do genuinely try to help, they can only do so much when I'm lonely. See amplification of depression.

So yeah, today has been a fairly bad day for me mentally. It took me hours to even just get out of my room, and hours more to actually get off of the couch so I could actually work on hydrating myself. Everything felt sort of ... worthless? My thoughts were more of a "why should I bother doing anything anyway" mentality.

The methods that I "deal with" depression are basically consisting of CBT - Cognitive Behavior Therapy, or a problem-solving approach to things. Think "why do you feel this way and what steps can you take to either avoid those intrusive thoughts or just escape out of the situation?" I don't take medication because I deal with some really stupid side effects of, well, every medication known to humanity. I mean, seriously, some of the things meds due to me (brain meds or otherwise) are just plain stupid. So, as a result, I have to be cognizant of what my brain is doing at all times, realize what is going on, adjust what I'm doing to compensate, all while feeling like nothing at all matters and I'm just a worthless piece of trash in an ocean of privilege.

This works about as well as one thinks.

What I am good at, however, is doing a post-mortem on events. I'm excellent at looking back at a bad time and figuring out what I did right, what I did wrong, and what I can do to optimize things; basically, what I'm doing right now. One of the things I'm doing is being a bit more open about what I'm going through. I have a tendency to just shut up about things like this, which doesn't help my friends help me. I also tend to string unrelated events together; my last major depressive episode was due to injuring my shoulders while attaching my new shower head. Imagine hurting yourself by lifting up an object less than a kilogram above your head, then imagine hurting yourself again by screwing up some cooking. My brain correlates these things, even when there is no rhyme or reason to them. I didn't intentionally give myself food poisoning, and I didn't intentionally hurt myself putting up my shower head - these really are unrelated, but StupidBrain thinks that they're just additional signs that my body is freaking worthless (thus I'm worthless).

I don't really know where I'm going with this; I just wanted to write it down. I'm not suicidal or anything, I'm just depressed and having problems with the idea of having fun even. I'm taking steps to try and better myself as a result of recognizing this, but this episode may get worse before it gets better.

Especially if my cats keep stepping on my poor sore stomach. Ow.

Random D&D Quiz... and apparently I rolled really high for mental stats.

2016-04-03T21:21:39Z

I really disagree with the con/str stats. They should probably be swapped, but my family's high alcohol tolerance is likely to blame there; I had to guess.

I Am A: Neutral Good Human Wizard (4th Level)

Ability Scores:

Strength-9

Dexterity-15

Constitution-11

Intelligence-17

Wisdom-18

Charisma-17

Alignment:
Neutral Good A neutral good character does the best that a good person can do. He is devoted to helping others. He works with kings and magistrates but does not feel beholden to them. Neutral good is the best alignment you can be because it means doing what is good without bias for or against order. However, neutral good can be a dangerous alignment when it advances mediocrity by limiting the actions of the truly capable.

Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.

Class:
Wizards are arcane spellcasters who depend on intensive study to create their magic. To wizards, magic is not a talent but a difficult, rewarding art. When they are prepared for battle, wizards can use their spells to devastating effect. When caught by surprise, they are vulnerable. The wizard's strength is her spells, everything else is secondary. She learns new spells as she experiments and grows in experience, and she can also learn them from other wizards. In addition, over time a wizard learns to manipulate her spells so they go farther, work better, or are improved in some other way. A wizard can call a familiar- a small, magical, animal companion that serves her. With a high Intelligence, wizards are capable of casting very high levels of spells.

Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

Oops, haven't posted in a year.

2015-09-29T12:34:02Z

Hi.
I haven't been doing so well this past year, so I haven't really been feeling like posting. My depression has taken a turn for the worse along with my physical health; I have problems lifting a cat above my head now.

I just.. avoid talking about things here, as even if there are very few people left on LJ, I don't want to bring them down with me. I want to be lifted up to see eye to eye with people instead.

Anyway, just saying hi.

Lenovo Thinkpad T440s Woes - 2014.06.16

2014-06-17T12:11:56Z

Charging Apparatus

2014-06-14T20:20:04Z

I made a thing! Sort-of. Okay, it is out of Lego, but it is still a thing! That works! YEAH!

A choice among many - Let's Play something?

2014-06-09T03:22:39Z

Hi all! Don't mind me, just a video on deciding between the final four games to play on a Let's Play.

The games:

Zeliard (DOS) - Metroidvania game, beaten once before. I'd end up talking and playing at the same time, treating it more as a source of conversation and a bit of a fun MST3k type of thing like I did for Beyond the Beyond.

Koudelka (PS1) - jRPG that I've never played before. Chances are, I won't be MST3king the game much and will be treating it more as a conventional Let's Play and talking to the audience like you're another person in my room while talking.

Sid Meier's Covert Action (DOS) - 'other' genre spy thriller. I'd be MST3king the crap out of this game, probably also with lots of alternate music. Unlike BtB, I've actually never beaten the game, but I've played through huge chunks of it.

Sid Meier's Alpha Centauri / Alien Crossfire (Win9x) - Turn-based strategy / 4X game. I've played this for over 1000 hours and would likely do this as a tutorial / random bits of conversation topic. I'd be playing through one civ from start to end in ironmanish mode.

2014.06.08 Vlog - Where have I been?

2014-06-08T23:23:49Z

WTFajitas

2014-06-08T15:22:28Z

I shut off my brain while adding ingredients. This is what came out of it.

How to make WTFajitas:

1) Start with a Land o’ Lakes Saute Express (Garlic Herb) butter starter thingy in a medium sized non-stick fry pan.
2) Realize that you need to empty the dishwasher of clean dishes.
3) Somehow decide that’s more important than actually deciding on dinner.
4) Give the task of making dinner to the unconscious side of your brain.
5) Unload dishwasher.
6) Unconscious brain tells you that your FOOD! is ready and you see the linked image in the pan.
7) Reverse engineer what the hell you just made.
8) Figure out that this started with around half a pound of frozen “summer vegetable” mix (carrots, yellow squash, zucchini).
9) Notice that you added a pinch of ground white pepper and more than a pinch of both crushed sea salt and flash-frozen garlic.
10) Stare at the opened package of Wisconsin Pizza Cheese Curds (from the Dane County Farmer’s Market you went to two weeks ago) and realize you must have added around 60 grams (two ounces) worth. Basically fresh (when I bought them) cheese curds that squeak in your teeth with various italian seasonings (basil, oregano, garlic) and pepperoni.
11) Wonder why the hell your unconscious brain thought that was a good idea.
12) Spot the empty bag of frozen pepper stir-fry, indicating that your brain added 410g (14.4 oz) of sliced green/red/yellow bell peppers and white onions.
13) See the 142g can of chicken breast. Realize that it is empty and was full prior to tonight.
14) Try and figure out what this thing is and finally see the empty package of fajita seasoning mix.
15) Decide that this is close enough to fajitas and heat up two flour tortillas.
16) Eat two delicious WTFajitas.
17) Put away 2-3 WTFajitas worth of leftovers.
18) Type this up, realizing no one will believe you.

Let's Play!

2014-05-13T02:30:45Z

So, I completed my first Let's Play. This was of Beyond the Beyond.

I had a lot of fun doing it, which is only semi-surprising. It didn't really slow me down that much, once I got in the groove of playing, and I'd like to do more.

What to play next, however, is my problem. I'm limiting myself to PSP/PS2/Wii and older on consoles plus any PC game for ease of recording.

My first idea was checking the games I own vs. the number of Let's Plays I can quickly find on youtube. So I searched

LPs are rather popular and it seems there are hundreds of them for most games. So, I want to choose something, shall we say... more obscure.

Games that have very few LPs:

Aedis Eclipse: Generation of Chaos (PSP) (0)

~~Rage of Mages 1(Win) (0)~~

~~Rage of Mages 2(Win) (0)~~ (oh gods I just watched how bad the game series is)

Traitor's Gate (Win) (0)

Chaos Wars (PS2) (1)

~~Brave Story (PSP) (1)~~ (beaten within the past five years)

Yggdra Union (PSP) (1)

Hoshigami (PS1) (1)

Grandia Xtreme (PS2) (1?)

Wild ARMs 4 (PS2) (1?)

~~Wild ARMs 5 (PS2) (1?)~~ (I haven't beaten 4 yet)

Wild ARMs 3 (PS2) (2?)

Wild ARMs XF (PSP) (2)

Soulbringer (Win) (2)

Realms of Arkania (DOS) (2)

The Witcher (Win) (2?)

Eternal Poison (PS2) (2)

Chocobo's Mysterious Dungeon (PS1) (2)

Front Mission 4 (PS2) (2)

Front Mission 3 (PS1) (3)

Kartia (PS1) (3)

Shadow Madness(PS1) (3)

La Pucelle Tactics (PS2) (3?)

Arc the Lad 1 (PS1) (4)

Arc the Lad 2 (PS1) (4)

~~Eternal Eyes (PS1) (4)~~

(NO.)

First filter, no StratRPGs. Really, I don't think most people would find me playing a StratRPG all that fun. Maybe I'm wrong and people like watching StratRPG battles... but I doubt it.

Games that have very few LPs that aren't StratRPGs:

Traitor's Gate (Win) (0)

Grandia Xtreme (PS2) (1?)

Wild ARMs 5 (PS2) (1?)

Wild ARMs 3 (PS2) (2?)

Soulbringer (Win) (2)

Realms of Arkania (DOS) (2)

The Witcher (Win) (2?)

Chocobo's Mysterious Dungeon (PS1) (2)

Shadow Madness(PS1) (3)

Of those 9 games, three are jRPGs, three are aRPGs, two are open-ended exploration RPGs, and one is a graphical adventure game. I've beaten Wild ARMs 3 before and have only played around an hour of The Witcher - nothing bad about that, but a consideration.

Ordering based on game length (median main+extras time from howlongtobeat.com)

15h 00m - Traitor's Gate (Win) (0)

25h 00m - Wild ARMs 4 (PS2)

25h ??m - Chocobo's Mysterious Dungeon (PS1)

30h ??m - Shadow Madness(PS1)

45h 00m - The Witcher (Win)

47h 42m - Wild ARMs 3 (PS2)

50h 00m - Grandia Xtreme (PS2)

50h 00m - Soulbringer (Win)

99h 99m - Realms of Arkania (DOS) (probably more like 200h... yeaNO).

I think that a lot of people thought my BtB videos were getting too long. If that's the case, only Traitor's Gate is shorter than BtB, and even that is a guess on game length since I can barely find anything online about the game.

Would anyone really want to watch me play Traitor's Gate though? It is a Graphical Adventure game, so me playing it would basically be everyone else playing it too.

How about games that I can provide something unique to - say, the games that I have beaten before and can either MST3k or give insightful commentary?

Commander Keen 4 (DOS) - Platform

Commander Keen 6 (DOS) - Platform

Zeliard (DOS) - Action/Adventure

Advance Wars (GBA) - TBStrategy

Shining Force 2 (Gen) - StratRPG

Sonic 3 + Knuckles (Gen) - Platform

Castles 2 (DOS) - Simulation

Might and Magic VI (Win) - First Person RPG

Might and Magic VII (Win) - First Person RPG

Might and Magic VIII (Win) - First Person RPG

Sid Meier's Alpha Centauri + Alien Crossfire (Win) - TBStrategy

Beyond Good and Evil (Win) - Action/Adventure

The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion + Shivering Isles (Win) - First Person RPG

~~The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim (Win) - First Person RPG~~ (I want to cooperatively play this one with kriatyrr

Sid Meier's Railroads! (Win) - Simulation

Suikoden 1 (PS1) - jRPG

Suikoden 2 (PS1) - jRPG

Katamari Damashii (PS2) - No Genre

Phantom Brave (PS2 or Wii) - StratRPG

XCOM: UFO Defense (DOS) - TBStrategy

XCOM: Terror from the Deep (DOS) - TBStrategy

XCOM: Enemy Unknown + Enemy Within (Win) - TBStrategy

The Lost Vikings (DOS) - Platform/Puzzle

Norse by Norsewest: The Lost Vikings Return (PS1) - Platform/Puzzle

Vandal Hearts (PS1)

Hrm, same length as the first cull. The genres are much more diverse though, as are the platforms.

So, filtering out further, what would I think would be interesting to watch out of these?

Commander Keen 4 (DOS) - Platform

Commander Keen 6 (DOS) - Platform

Zeliard (DOS) - Action/Adventure

Sonic 3 + Knuckles (Gen) - Platform

Might and Magic VI (Win) - First Person RPG

Might and Magic VII (Win) - First Person RPG

Beyond Good and Evil (Win) - Action/Adventure

ModdedThe Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion + Shivering Isles (Win) - First Person RPG

Suikoden 1 (PS1) - jRPG

Suikoden 2 (PS1) - jRPG

Katamari Damashii (PS2) - No Genre

XCOM: Terror from the Deep (DOS) - TBStrategy

XCOM: Enemy Unknown + Enemy Within (Win) - TBStrategy

The Lost Vikings (DOS) - Platform/Puzzle

Basically removing any Strategy game, it seems. I really don't have a high opinion of the entertainment value for other people watching me play strategy games, do I?

Finally, filtering on game length...

03h 30m - Commander Keen 4

05h 00m - Commander Keen 6

05h 30m - Sonic 3 + Knuckles

08h 30m - Katamari Damashii

10h 00m - The Lost Vikings

10h 30m - Zeliard

12h 48m - Beyond Good and Evil

25h 00m - Might and Magic VI

25h 00m - Might and Magic VII

26h 00m - Suikoden 1

30h 25m - XCOM: Terror from the Deep

38h 30m - XCOM: Enemy Unknown + Enemy Within

44h 00m - Suikoden 2

??h ??m - ModdedThe Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion + Shivering Isles

So, out of that, I have Commander Keen 4, Commander Keen 6, Sonic 3 + Knuckles, Katamari Damashii, The Lost Vikings, Zeliard, and Beyond Good and Evil. Probably Might and Magic 6/7 given how fast I can play them as well.

Better list with some that are even short and lesser-known on there; I doubt too many people have heard of either Zeliard or CK6.

How about games I haven't played that I want to play instead? As in ones that I don't care how well they record, just playing games I want to play and also recording it?

Betrayal in Antara (DOS) - First Person RPG

Ultima 5 (DOS) - Strat(ish)RPG

Dragon Warrior 3 (GBC) - jRPG

Metroid Prime (GC or Wii) - Action/Adventure

Baldur's Gate Trilogy/2 (Win) - Isometric RPG

Neverwinter Nights 2 Diamond (Win) - Isometric RPG

The Witcher (Win) - Isometric RPG

Arcanum: Of Steamworks and Magick (Win) - Isometric RPG

The Bard's Tale Remake (Win) - Action/Adventure

The Elder Scrolls III: Morrowind (Win) - First Person RPG

Fallout (Win) - StratRPG

Septerra Core (Win) - jRPG

Front Mission 3 (PS1) - StratRPG

Koudelka (PS1) - jRPG

~~Final Fantasy V (SNES)~~ I don't want to do a Final Fantasy LP.

~~Final Fantasy IX (PS1)~~ I don't want to do a Final Fantasy LP.

Atelier Iris 2 (PS2) - jRPG

La Pucelle Tactics (PS2) - StratRPG

Sakura Wars: So Long, My Love (PS2) - StratRPG / Simulation

Suikoden 3 (PS2) - jRPG

Wild ARMs 4 (PS2) - jRPG

Jeanne D'Arc (PSP) - StratRPG

Deus Ex (Win) - First Person Action/Adventure

Mass Effect (Win) - Action/Adventure

Trine 2 (Win) - Platform/Puzzle

Muramasa: The Demon Blade (Wii) - Action/Adventure

Doing the standard sort by time to find the shorter ones...

13h 30m - Koudelka

15h 30m - Trine 2

16h 00m - Metroid Prime

17h 45m - The Bard's Tale Remake

23h 45m - Fallout

26h 00m - Muramasa: The Demon Blade

26h 00m - Sakura Wars: So Long, My Love

26h 30m - Wild ARMs 4

27h 00m - Deus Ex

28h 30m - Dragon Warrior 3

29h 00m - Mass Effect

31h 30m - Atelier Iris 2

40h 00m - Jeanne D'Arc

44h 00m - Arcanum: Of Steamworks and Magick

45h 30m - The Witcher

52h 30m - La Pucelle Tactics

53h 30m - Septerra Core

60h 15m - Front Mission 3

62h 30m - Neverwinter Nights 2 Diamond

64h 00m - Suikoden 3

65h 30m - Ultima 5

75h 15m - Baldur's Gate Trilogy/2

95h 30m - Betrayal in Antara

99h 99m - The Elder Scrolls III: Morrowind (open-ended)

Coincidentally, this is why I never end up playing any games. All of the games I want to play are ridiculously long. In this case, I'm not as concerned about it being as short as Beyond the Beyond, but I don't want to hit anything super long either.

Oy. I'll pick the ones that look the most interesting out of these, I guess, as I can't really filter any other way.

So, out of those, we have Trine 2, Koudelka, The Witcher (appeared on multiple lists), La Pucelle Tactics (appeared on multiple lists), Front Mission 3 (appeared on multiple lists), and Wild ARMs 4 (appeared on multiple lists).

So, in all, the games I guess I can consider:

03h 30m - Commander Keen 4 (DOS Platformer)

05h 00m - Commander Keen 6 (DOS Platformer)

05h 30m - Sonic 3 + Knuckles (Genesis Platformer)

08h 30m - Katamari Damashii (PS2... game, yeah)

10h 00m - The Lost Vikings (DOS Platformer/Puzzle)

10h 30m - Zeliard (DOS Action/Adventure)

12h 48m - Beyond Good and Evil (Windows Action/Adventure)

13h 30m - Koudelka (PS1 jRPG)

15h 00m - Traitor's Gate (Windows Graphical Adventure)

15h 30m - Trine 2 (Windows Platformer/Puzzle)

25h 00m - Might and Magic VI (Windows First Person RPG)

25h 00m - Might and Magic VII (Windows First Person RPG)

26h 30m - Wild ARMs 4 (PS2 jRPG)

45h 30m - The Witcher (PC Third Person Action RPG)

52h 30m - La Pucelle Tactics (PS2 Strategy RPG)

Any thoughts on narrowing down the list? I know that my list are only filled with games that I own but, well, they're the only ones I'm familiar with. :)

23 - How I Desktop (VEDA 2014)

2014-04-24T03:05:42Z

Just a brief (sub-10 minute, so brief for me) summary of how I use computers - as in what software I use and the like.

Feel free to ask me about any of the programs I show.

Music: Jallacy - Neon Blades (CC Attribution - https://soundcloud.com/jallacy/neonblades)

22 - Welcome to EARFDAY and why we're not perfect (VEDA 2014)

2014-04-24T03:04:04Z

It may seem strange, but I'm simultaneously a perfectionist and hate being a perfectionist. Basically, I try to make everything perfect and overdo it without focusing on the actual improvement part... which is a problem. Improvement isn't just the important part, it is the essential part of any process.

Anyway, it was EARFDAY yesterday also, so I hug a tree. Yay trees.

21 - Reviewing my Google Nexus 5

2014-04-22T12:27:00Z

Ugh, I hate how my webcam looks. I feel like it is interpolating anything above 480p.
So, I review my current cell phone, a Google Nexus 5 (actually made by LG). I'm actually returning this phone sometime this week due to problems with its flash memory (which I go in to), but I'm pretty sure that's an isolated thing.

tl;dr: Good phone, not so good camera.

20 - Walkabout, that sex vlog I never made, and devices.

2014-04-21T12:28:22Z

It was a beautiful day for a walk... so I took one. I had just finished a strawberry sundae when I started recording.

19 - Anniversary of the Fallen / Let's Play Beyond the Beyond 01 - Annie vs. the Kraken

2014-04-20T02:44:11Z

One year ago today my father died. I still miss him dearly (although he’s still nearly omnipresent in my dreams, oddly enough), but sadness is not on the cards today. I’m surrounded my friends, cats, and games.

He and I played a lot of games together, growing up. Beyond the Beyond was one of them (in fact, one of the last games we did play together on a console). As such, in pseudo-tribute to him, I’m playing Beyond the Beyond.

Don’t get me wrong, BtB isn’t exactly a good game. I just have a special fondness for it. I also MST3k it like mad. :)

18 - Feeding Time

2014-04-20T02:42:31Z

Cat break video. 'nuf said.

16 - Zoan Orbit 2: The Orbiting

2014-04-17T12:24:26Z

So, I had this grand plan of posting the third in my trilogy of "things you don't talk about in polite company", namely talking about sex.
Then my phone decided that it really wanted to hork up and glitch while transferring my recorded video. As a result, I couldn't actually get any of the video I wanted to use off of my phone until around 22:30 last night. No way was I going to be able to edit in time.

So, instead, I give you Zoan orbiting my head a few times. While it breaks the spirit of VEDA, I'll edit and upload the sex video today.

15 - Religion

2014-04-16T12:26:56Z

I feel like I need a hug after posting this one.

14 - Politics

2014-04-15T03:52:08Z

Today, Tuesday, and Wednesday I violate some of my personal rules and talk about the three things you never talk about in polite company / with family / on the Internet.

Today? Politics! I'm the libbiest lib who ever libbed, obviously. I hope this one isn't too aimless at least, and you get to see Zoan orbit some again and steal the show, so even if you don't like politics you can always mute me and watch Zoan about half-way through.

13 - Let's Play FTL: Faster than Light Advanced Edition on Normal (VEDA 2014)

2014-04-15T03:43:44Z

I felt like crap, so my vlog for the day was just me playing FTL:AE on Normal. And losing.

12 - Heartbleed and You (VEDA 2014)

2014-04-15T03:42:18Z

In which I talk about the Heartbleed exploit, only using the word "Heartbreak" every time I mean "Heartbleed" - and I do mean every time. I like kriatyrr's explanation of my own mental autocorrect rebelling at the stupid not-a-word. :)

If you're not curious about computer exploits, how about an outtake?

This is the first time I've caught Zoan orbiting my head on video. It came from the same video, but I cut out the entire section that Zoan was in. Sorry Zoan, but at least you get an outtake?

11 - Kitty Triumvirate (VEDA 2014)

2014-04-15T03:39:15Z

Enjoy some cats, or the Holy Kitty Triumvirate!

09 - Education (VEDA 2014)

2014-04-10T12:37:00Z

Fair warning, I start using profanity. I know most people on the Internet wouldn't warn for such things, but I use it so sparingly that I felt it was fit to warn about. Basically, I rant for 20 minute about the state of the US Educational system and get angry.

Also, the video isn't actually 1h. For some reason Vegas rendered 40ish minutes of solid black. I'll fix it later.

And, while we're at it...

This is the full uncut version of my FTL run. I doubt too many people want to watch me play FTL for two hours, but here you go anyway.

08 - FTL Advanced (VEDA 2014)

2014-04-09T12:16:23Z

In which I show some snippets of an FTL run and I have horribly desynched microphone audio. Stupid OBS.