Rage, Rage go away come back another day!

It is 8am, I have been up about 18hrs and am just playing around here on the computer, hanging with Laura. My Sims 3 is shrunk down, I was playing on Facebook some, stalking friends, family, co-workers. Is happy to say yesterday was a pretty good day here at the house, I mean considering. At least there was no war going on. Then again I didn't see my parents very much. There has been a lot of fighting, a lot of built up anger, a lot of tears. I pretty much freaked out at one point and smashed a pan to bits the other night. There was a lot of screaming, I am very surprised no one called the cops! I go into rages sometimes and it is hard to control it. Just another thing I need to work on. It is NOT easy. I am a very emotional person. I guess my whole family is pretty emotional that is why we all get into it all the time. There is also a lot of stress. Caused by lack of money, lack of medication <---because we can not afford it because of the lack of money. My mom is about to have surgery, she has been snippy and crying all the time over little things. She demands things all the time like make me a CD. We need to Watch Idol before next week, there are 6 episodes of 24 we NEED to watch! she needs to calm down it is not like the shows are going to just vanish off the TV! For one thing this years Idol is not as exciting as last years. I mean I like Crystal and Lee, but I really loved last year. Adam was so amazing! there are not a lot of artist that have tried to make the songs their own this year. I really like Lee's voice but he is not very Idol material. Kind of just layed back, shy, not sure of himself. I love Crystal's personality. I like her voice as well, just there just something lacking this year... maybe Adam just ruined my Idol experience and now every contestant has to live up to him! *lol*...anyways back to my complaining! My Dad is just annoying most of the time, because he does not know how to talk to people, he does not know how to show affection. He is on a lot of strong medication. It is all just a bad mixture :( No one is working but me at the moment. I am not mad about this, it is just sometimes it is hard to get up in the morning knowing everyone else can just go back to sleep. Oh and by working I mean working shitty four hour shifts. I tried explaining my situation, pretty much begged for more hours and management does not care at ALL! I know I should just try and look for a new job, but it is pretty much like this everywhere right? tight on hours, wont pay crap etc. I still have one more day off before having to go face another day, I should try not to stress over it. I think I need to eat something, I am feeling really sick now, it might be the pill I took too for my back pain. I think I will be bonding with my pillow here soon... Nite/Morning!