cough, morrissey. and i have comma itis.
so i didn't go out; too mousy. but i don't mind too much, as instead i rummaged through ctheory archives, cooked a lazy-late dinner, discovered eserver.org, enjoyed terrible hit 80s ballads and 90s radio pop* (but i do seriously love that kate bush/prince collaboration), finally got a chance to, as he calls it, "brush fingers with" justin, and had a chance to listen to some conversations from philosophy radio. wow. and it reminded me, i need to brush up on certain areas this summer. leibniz and berkeley in particular; my understanding of their work is embarrassingly shoddy. loose shoelaces etc.
(maybe of note, i fell into spinoza when i discovered kafka's interest. that's usually how these things work for me.)
m (11:55:16 PM): i almost wet my pants in happiness over some of the philosophy radio lectures
m (11:56:10 PM): the relativism vs absolutism, the nozick one, the epicurus one, and the nihilist ones--it's funny, the nihilist ones brough up a lot of what we were bitching about, the whole geertz conclusion totally missed by teens seeking excuses.
m (11:56:40 PM): and i love that people get epicurus.
speaking of geertz, i've been thinking lately about those distinctions. you know. geertz isn't typically considered first and foremost a philosopher, but what he does (and he's not the only one) fits in so tidily with those questions. and i've been wondering if fields like the ones he's involved in are kind of a modern "bleeding into" solution to the idea of philosophy as a thing in itself. but blah blah, probably only i can understand my own gibberish about this. and it reminds me too of the waytooambitious project i tried to chip away at last fall, the one with which i failed to find closure. hmmm.
(it's simple ideas really, i know that, just i don't say anything clearly at all.)
(when i speak to someone else as fumbling, it's pretty/ugly to watch i bet)
also, this:
m (12:06:56 AM): i need dates for the rest of the week though, like the film festival and to eat pancakes and things.
m (12:07:00 AM): and i'm too shy.
m (12:07:05 AM): scared to ask people.
j (12:07:19 AM): i don't get how it can be hard to find a pancake date.
m (12:07:27 AM): well, it's finals week.
m (12:07:41 AM): everyone always acts like they're insanely busy. like i said, i don't really understand that, but.
j (12:07:44 AM): well, even during finals week, people have to eat.
m (12:08:09 AM): and i'm nervous because i don't want it to be this weighty thing, you know, like, well i'm not going to see you for months or even way longer, so...
m (12:08:17 AM): i don't want it to be like that, all serious
m (12:08:35 AM): finality is too sad.
i suppose i should do a last minute review for tomorrow morning's test, but there's also this whole, "i've struggled the entire term, really strained to expand my ability in korean" and so "tomorrow, what i can do i will do" piece to it mmhm. with regard to the finals week madness bit--i've never understood the idea of the entire student body studying all hours to the exclusion of other basic activities this week. to me it's the week you take exams for courses you've been keeping up on all term, and that's it. i mean, you tie up loose ends elsewhere in life, like in regard to moving out or saying goodbye, things like that. but i have a hard time understanding people being so so so much more busy this week. well, then again, this doesn't include term paper people...
oh well. it's only loneliness if i fail to be brave. i don't want to fail, there.
we'll see.
*including these choice picks!
."how do i get you alone" - heart
."good," both acoustic and album version - better than ezra (! a new low...i told justin, "i even got all of this total shit that your friends if they knew i ever liked once upon a time would disavow ever knowing me at all--like better than ezra's 'desperately wanting'...seriously. i like that song...i didn't remember it had such icky subject matter though, as i was i think 13 when i first heard it...")
."i'm on fire" and every cover of it you could imagine. i still like the original best though
.also like four other bruce springsteen albums. mm.
.jill scott, who i've never paid attention to, save for that one video a while back that piqued my interest
."here comes the rain again" - the eurythmics
.peter gabriel. harhar.
."fast car" - tracy chapman
.that roxette song that julia used to sing in stage crew. the one that joe...when they were fighting once he said something like "and then that stupid cheesy song came on in the car and i ALMOST CRIED!"
."strong enough" - sheryl crow
."she drives me crazy" - fine young cannibals (i have always loved this single, i admit it)
."why should i love you" - kate bush with prince
.david bowie and annie lennox in concert
.new kids on the block! oh my.
."don't stand so close to me" - the police (also "roxanne" and some others)
.tears for fears
...le tigre and nina simone have also come up today, but dare i even mention such in the company of the aforementioned one hit wonders? today's been strange, but ruthlessly fun.
justin tells me i should listen to def leppard if i'm going to claim going all out on cheesy nostalgia. but that's more his generation than mine. (smirk)
i use this: ! too much. just that time of year?
/
every dress rumpled, every pair of scissors missing. trying to paste with what crumbles. meanwhile, my hair likes that i've been too wrapped up in change to wash it daily. maybe this will lead to my not washing it every day as habit--though i doubt it.
(maybe of note, i fell into spinoza when i discovered kafka's interest. that's usually how these things work for me.)
m (11:55:16 PM): i almost wet my pants in happiness over some of the philosophy radio lectures
m (11:56:10 PM): the relativism vs absolutism, the nozick one, the epicurus one, and the nihilist ones--it's funny, the nihilist ones brough up a lot of what we were bitching about, the whole geertz conclusion totally missed by teens seeking excuses.
m (11:56:40 PM): and i love that people get epicurus.
speaking of geertz, i've been thinking lately about those distinctions. you know. geertz isn't typically considered first and foremost a philosopher, but what he does (and he's not the only one) fits in so tidily with those questions. and i've been wondering if fields like the ones he's involved in are kind of a modern "bleeding into" solution to the idea of philosophy as a thing in itself. but blah blah, probably only i can understand my own gibberish about this. and it reminds me too of the waytooambitious project i tried to chip away at last fall, the one with which i failed to find closure. hmmm.
(it's simple ideas really, i know that, just i don't say anything clearly at all.)
(when i speak to someone else as fumbling, it's pretty/ugly to watch i bet)
also, this:
m (12:06:56 AM): i need dates for the rest of the week though, like the film festival and to eat pancakes and things.
m (12:07:00 AM): and i'm too shy.
m (12:07:05 AM): scared to ask people.
j (12:07:19 AM): i don't get how it can be hard to find a pancake date.
m (12:07:27 AM): well, it's finals week.
m (12:07:41 AM): everyone always acts like they're insanely busy. like i said, i don't really understand that, but.
j (12:07:44 AM): well, even during finals week, people have to eat.
m (12:08:09 AM): and i'm nervous because i don't want it to be this weighty thing, you know, like, well i'm not going to see you for months or even way longer, so...
m (12:08:17 AM): i don't want it to be like that, all serious
m (12:08:35 AM): finality is too sad.
i suppose i should do a last minute review for tomorrow morning's test, but there's also this whole, "i've struggled the entire term, really strained to expand my ability in korean" and so "tomorrow, what i can do i will do" piece to it mmhm. with regard to the finals week madness bit--i've never understood the idea of the entire student body studying all hours to the exclusion of other basic activities this week. to me it's the week you take exams for courses you've been keeping up on all term, and that's it. i mean, you tie up loose ends elsewhere in life, like in regard to moving out or saying goodbye, things like that. but i have a hard time understanding people being so so so much more busy this week. well, then again, this doesn't include term paper people...
oh well. it's only loneliness if i fail to be brave. i don't want to fail, there.
we'll see.
*including these choice picks!
."how do i get you alone" - heart
."good," both acoustic and album version - better than ezra (! a new low...i told justin, "i even got all of this total shit that your friends if they knew i ever liked once upon a time would disavow ever knowing me at all--like better than ezra's 'desperately wanting'...seriously. i like that song...i didn't remember it had such icky subject matter though, as i was i think 13 when i first heard it...")
."i'm on fire" and every cover of it you could imagine. i still like the original best though
.also like four other bruce springsteen albums. mm.
.jill scott, who i've never paid attention to, save for that one video a while back that piqued my interest
."here comes the rain again" - the eurythmics
.peter gabriel. harhar.
."fast car" - tracy chapman
.that roxette song that julia used to sing in stage crew. the one that joe...when they were fighting once he said something like "and then that stupid cheesy song came on in the car and i ALMOST CRIED!"
."strong enough" - sheryl crow
."she drives me crazy" - fine young cannibals (i have always loved this single, i admit it)
."why should i love you" - kate bush with prince
.david bowie and annie lennox in concert
.new kids on the block! oh my.
."don't stand so close to me" - the police (also "roxanne" and some others)
.tears for fears
...le tigre and nina simone have also come up today, but dare i even mention such in the company of the aforementioned one hit wonders? today's been strange, but ruthlessly fun.
justin tells me i should listen to def leppard if i'm going to claim going all out on cheesy nostalgia. but that's more his generation than mine. (smirk)
i use this: ! too much. just that time of year?
/
every dress rumpled, every pair of scissors missing. trying to paste with what crumbles. meanwhile, my hair likes that i've been too wrapped up in change to wash it daily. maybe this will lead to my not washing it every day as habit--though i doubt it.