absolution thirty years

Listens: of hopes and fears breathing down my neck.

there's so much blood to endure.

i crave sugar wafers (yeah, ick) and sleep. the girl with ashy blonde hair, the one who sits in front of me in jeans and hoop earrings all the time, had a new, freshly intricate tattoo on her foot. some red.

i feel sick. and i don't know how to balance obligations. not good at juggling yet; must learn fast.