i heard his voice before i actually saw him. russian accent. soft and deep. arguing calmly about cartesian mathematics, and also political philosophy. in the basement of the cathedral. rainy out.

wearing a thin sweater. v necked.

smart boys really are sexier than anything. well, not including smart girls. (smirk)

it remains the wild attractant. steadier than anything. like an insect toward sugar or light or something. (laugh) it never fails.

i'm made funny. smart softlooking strangers make me daydreamy and irrational. like a fucking academic groupie. a bimbo. it's weird.

but true.