absolution tired of everything

Listens: but i don't want to complain, i don't. want. to.

won't ever show you a girl in a hallway or a bathroom stall at 9.51pm mussed hair NO MAKEUP crying, tearstained, wet face wet wrists. won't. won't videotape for you the sorrow, the secret places, the bathroom tile they all love to show you the cuts on their wrists.

and it's stupid if you didn't already know that happens/

she's not built that way, it makes me angry to think if i ever was. the secret places. you don't go there, you either have your own or you just don't and your life is going somewhere on your own. i respect that, even relish the idea.

but you don't get to see that. and those who are so willing to show you...that's not ONE in the same, no. hers is different, because it's lost in the snow.

i hope you understand, perfectly in a well.