cool things:
.all the helium quotes and his name is alive references on my friends page lately
.harperwilla's stories
.tomorrow, lunch with mackey
.barcis' good nature
.all the great albums now out that i want to buy
.the possibility of trades
not cool things:
.all the girls mentioning how fat they are on my friends page...YOU ARE NOT UGLY, dammit. garh. the frustration of it, it makes me want to cry sometimes. eating disorders and miniskirts and modeling classes. YOU ARE NOT A HUNK OF MEAT, you'd want to be so much more than a pretty windup toy doll an object an ORNAMENT. you are alive, you have bones in your body working and your lungs work and you breathe. you breathe. you're real and teeming and alive and that's beautiful and you could be so effective. maybe you already are.
if i could change anything... and would i have the nerve to try it. oh god.
.competition
.the lack of good meals at school, which soon i will again be experiencing
.this using a wintel machine crap. gurk.
.i still haven't paid tanis back, not even yet, ah, because the trichapbook never worked out
.i'm not a poet
.right now, i am so irreverent.
things that may or may not be cool:
.it's looking like i won't have a web host for much longer, and if so, i think i may just let the site rest in a black hole. it tires me out just thinking about how stagnant the place is; maybe it's all for the better.
.all the helium quotes and his name is alive references on my friends page lately
.harperwilla's stories
.tomorrow, lunch with mackey
.barcis' good nature
.all the great albums now out that i want to buy
.the possibility of trades
not cool things:
.all the girls mentioning how fat they are on my friends page...YOU ARE NOT UGLY, dammit. garh. the frustration of it, it makes me want to cry sometimes. eating disorders and miniskirts and modeling classes. YOU ARE NOT A HUNK OF MEAT, you'd want to be so much more than a pretty windup toy doll an object an ORNAMENT. you are alive, you have bones in your body working and your lungs work and you breathe. you breathe. you're real and teeming and alive and that's beautiful and you could be so effective. maybe you already are.
if i could change anything... and would i have the nerve to try it. oh god.
.competition
.the lack of good meals at school, which soon i will again be experiencing
.this using a wintel machine crap. gurk.
.i still haven't paid tanis back, not even yet, ah, because the trichapbook never worked out
.i'm not a poet
.right now, i am so irreverent.
things that may or may not be cool:
.it's looking like i won't have a web host for much longer, and if so, i think i may just let the site rest in a black hole. it tires me out just thinking about how stagnant the place is; maybe it's all for the better.