but the thing is, my anger is a weakness.

it's the point at which i am messily aware of just how little i can control or . arh. a telescope to my frustration and this feeling of helplessness, the kind that makes your fists curl on the bedsheet, back and forth, relax and tense.

which is maybe why i only really cry when i feel i've no control over an important situation. helplessness, frustration, and anger are the major reasons i cry...when i do.

only very rarely have i ever cried for something beautiful, translucent, and inking its way to clarity of a crystalline structure.

sometimes i think i would like to, more. something simple, small, shy, and beautiful to gesture forth tears.

i'd like that, i believe.