FUCK.

Okay, when A (of the A&Z pair) said she never wanted to be in a relationship in high school, she hadn't met Z yet.

When I said I never wanted to be in a relationship in high school, I knew E.

Also, now that the endorphins are plummeting I'm beginning to think I was serious.

Fuck.

I'm going out tonight. I'm not nervous. I just have a bad feeling about the entire affair. I love SJ. And it's a lot more stable than the whatever you want to call it for E, and why compromise friendship over something as cheap as a high school pairing?

I need you guys this weekend. I know we're sort of estranged. Please. I'm calling in my favors. I need to figure out what the hell is up.