Abe-chan's Realm

Look, she lives!

abe_chan — Wed, 16 Mar 2016 18:16:47 GMT

I don't know if anybody is still on here and/or if they are still reading this but I think that I should post this at least for myself.

So, in case you were wondering, I am in fact not dead. YAY.
The last 2, 3 years were very bad for me: I had some serious health problem which land me in the hospital a dozen or so times and required 3 major surgery, all the way fighting with doctors because their diagnosis amount to 'we have no idea what all your symptoms together means, are you sure you are not making things up'. My own diagnosis makes sense but because I am not a Doctor TM I was ignored until the last surgery and a new (younger) doctor confirm what I was saying all along.

With the in and out of hospitals came the slipping of my university's schedule and a ton of anxiety. Now I am seeing a therapist and doing a little better but it's an ongoing struggle.

I want to make this post especially for saying hi to the friends that I make here, I have no idea if they still follow this blog or this site and I probably end up writing private mail to them anyway but at least this is fair warning and all that.

The trigger for this post of 'woe is me / I am actually still breathing' is just as sad as the whole post: a person very dear to me passed away yesterday and I didn't get to say goodbye to her, because I keep postponing our monthly phone call until I have some good new for her, I lost the possibility to talk to her forever.
Her name was Lidia and she was the most caring, understanding human being I have met in quite a while. She rent me one of the rooms in her house while I was studying (when things were still good) and she became the grandmother I always wanted. And now she is gone.

Now I am sad, angry at myself for been a stupid slacker and generally feeling like shit. Nevertheless, I also want to write this to remember her and to remember myself that I should be more proactive and reach out more, especially to people I care about, even if they are distant.

So, to anyone that still look this stupid idiot's blog (an the friends that don't because all the cool kids are on tumblr this days): I love you and I hope to hear from you soon, because I will try to write to you soon enough and maybe you could forgive my disappearance. *Kisses & Huggles*

back in black...

abe_chan — Wed, 13 Mar 2013 13:06:17 GMT

Hello everyone, sorry for my prolonged absence.
University didn't go so well and I am kinda stuck after various issues that make me lose the opportunity to spend a semester in Japan. -_______-

After spending most of the time from November until January depressed as hell, I have a medical emergency in my family and pretty much everyone here got a nasty flu that go on for the whole of February. And then I got it, too. Because I am lucky like that.

SO, to sum it up....

Finals

abe_chan — Fri, 31 Aug 2012 18:10:56 GMT

Between Monday and tuesday I have 4 exams. I am ready for 0.5 of them.

Uni is urggg and I am stupid

abe_chan — Mon, 14 May 2012 22:23:44 GMT

So, tomorrow is the big day: 2 finals in one day!

...I will pass the first but not the second, unless some miracle happen....

If you don't hear from me again, it' s because I have committed seppuku for the dishonour.
;____;

Busy and Sad

abe_chan — Thu, 03 May 2012 18:02:49 GMT

I have not posted much recently because I am finally approaching my last round of exam in College.
I taken languages (Japanese and Chinese because I hate myself) as major with minor in economy and law. (Yeah, I know: Craaaazy. :/) So I really need to study something like 12 hours a day.
SO, busy, busy, busy.

But recently some people I know from various fandom have posted about leaving and I think that is really sad and kinda strange: it's like growing up equal problem equal worry equal no time to dream. :/
I shouldn't really talk because my 5 (?) half finished fics sit in my desktop and I am too embarrassed to let anyone read those before I can finish and read through at least ten time, but we are talking about talented people. Someone that can actually make a story live.
I think they should like, getting paid for that or something.
And I am going to miss them. A lot.

To jjblue1 : I always read every single one of your update and thoughtfully enjoyed them. I also personally miss you and moko79 terribly! Maybe we can meet sometime soon? Hopefully when I don't have finals? ;____;

Rebloging with the hand not holding textbook

abe_chan — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 21:39:28 GMT

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anti-Counterfeiting_Trade_Agreement

Happy 2012!

abe_chan — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 21:06:45 GMT

So, since I took a small pause in cooking the "cenone" as we say here, I am going to rain kiss and hugs all over you all, even if it's a bit early! :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Home

abe_chan — Fri, 04 Nov 2011 17:30:06 GMT

(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡 ┻━┻

<3

abe_chan — Sat, 15 Oct 2011 13:22:26 GMT

Unless the chaos of the last couple of months has totally screw up my perception of time and space (VERY likely, indeed)...

It is time for jjblue1 to get ~~older~~ wiser!!

SO,

glitter-graphics.com

Also

glitter-graphics.com

I WANT TO FEED YOU ONE OF MY CAKES BUT YOU ARE TOO FAR AWAY SO I EAT IT
Yeah, we should seriously live less then half a day worth of public transportation from each other.

What happen to the mouse

abe_chan — Sun, 18 Sep 2011 13:08:11 GMT

The last couple of months have been a disaster for me, hence my disappearance act.

In not particular order:
my PC broke due to a fluctuation of electricity; my University's dorm management (which is NOT the university itself -__-;) refuse to let me in as a normal student due to stupid bureaucratic matters and now I have to wait until 2 weeks into the course for knowing if I will have a room for my last year; my PC broke AGAIN for maybe a lighting; I have to prepare for 2 exams that take normally a semester EACH aside for another one.

Now about the exams that I had at the beginning of September (the 2 extra difficult): let me tell you my experience with my Country fabulous, efficient public transportation system and understanding bureaucratic administration.
I live in a part of the Country 4 hour of driving time away for the city in which my university is located, since I don't have a car I need to go there via train (the ticket cost 40 euro for one-way!) and I have to sleep somewhere in Venice because the exams are on different date. I made reservation well in advance to be sure that I have a bed and a seat in the first available train on the day of my first exam.

My fist exam begin at 12 and my train, the very first in the morning, should have arrived at 10:40. Plenty of time, right? WRONG.
2 day before the date every public transportation ever declare a strike. No time for buck for one more night, so I phone the train company that tell me the train is a long distant so it should be safe.
IT WAS NOT.
At the penultimate stop (a station 5 minute of train travel time for my stop) the train stop and everyone is told to get out because, for the strike, they are not gonna take us to the final stop.
NO information on alternative, NO one to ask for help, NO bus, taxi or other mean to get to Venice.
The point is that they left us in Mestre which is at 1 hour walk from Venice and almost a 2 hours walk from the place where the exam is held.
So I take my luggage (enough stuff for a 4 days stay) and run. NOTE: I am not exactly athletic and I suffer from a serious case of asthma trigger by intensive exercise.
3 guess as to what had happen. I help: the result was me giving the 2 exams WHILE HYPERVENTILATING AND FAINTING ON THE PAPER HALFWAY THROUGH THE SECOND.

Also, no I cannot retook it now I have to wait on the next session available: January. In which I will have to also take another big and difficult exams.
Can some one stop the world? I want out. -____-;;

RL CHOOSE THE WROST MOMENTS

abe_chan — Sat, 06 Aug 2011 15:03:15 GMT

Just a quick update to tell all of you that I am alive but not that well. At all.

IS DEAD

abe_chan — Mon, 04 Jul 2011 22:23:06 GMT

Helllo, all!

The two months from Hell are finally over! Uni's Exams are done and I am officially on vacation! *throws confetti*

Now I just have to study all summer long for the extra-super-mega difficult exams on September! *cries eyes out* ;____;

So, give me a couple of day so that I can feel human again and I will catch up on you!

1/3 DONE!

abe_chan — Thu, 14 Apr 2011 16:36:30 GMT

O.k. the written exam is done. @____@

The first of the essays was on teaching robots, of all thing. And, no I am not joking. >____>;;

The second was a letter to the principal of your High School to suggest some curriculum changes. AHAHAHAHA! Eehhr, sorry about that but here in Italy high schools are not exactly well furnished (Mine lacks any kind of lab or gym or computer...) and I had only 250 words.

The third ask for a review of a work of art including: the life of the maker, how his/her work was influenced by his/her life, how he/she use the various techniques proper of the art, which kind of breakthrough he/she does for the art and your personal feeling about the particular masterpiece. AND I ONLY HAVE 250 WORDS FOR THE WHOLE THING!! >E

I want to die. But I still need to hand a portfolio of 3 pages and take the oral exam. But I still want to die. Or at the very last to sleep more than 4 hour per night. ;___;

URGHAAAAH!

abe_chan — Mon, 11 Apr 2011 16:39:32 GMT

As you can imagine from the incoherent scream up there, I am going mad.

Usually that is not big news -some people will tell you that I am already mad- but this one time is special for the cause: I have a test coming up (the 13th) for an English certification.
Since I do am pretty crazy, I decided to have the highest level possible. >__<

So now I have the exam in two days and no idea if what I will write is on the correct level for this certification.

IT'S A PEN & PAPER EXAM OF 2 HOURS FOR THREE ESSAYS 1 AND A HALF PAGE LONG AND WHY THE HELL I AM WRITING THIS INSTEAD OF STUDYING?
AAAAAAAH! HELP!!!! @___@

Edit: I just open my e-mail and found a couple of dozen of panicked mail from other students who have no idea how to pass the exam asking for last minute tips. THIS.IS.NOT.HELPING.

Earthquake in Japan

abe_chan — Sat, 12 Mar 2011 21:34:07 GMT

It looks like the earthquake is even worst then previously anticipated, which mean A LOT worst.

I really hope that the nuclear reactor didn't turn into another Chernobyl because that would be wrong on a number of level, especially for the people in Japan that can still remember the War. *shudder*

My thoughts are with the people here that are trying to fix everything up; I know that it will take some time, but I hope thing will come together.

If you believe in an higher power, this is the time to start praying that things will be all right. In any case, send your hope if not your direct help or money because they need it.

Uni rant

abe_chan — Fri, 11 Mar 2011 21:50:44 GMT

I am not dead, even if I didn't post for *check date* oh, crap! Almost 3 month? 0__O

OK, as I was saying, I am not dead but the past few month had been hell. I have a ton of exam in Uni and I actually manage to pass them with a good grade but for the important one: Japanese.
Now, I am in this university (which is 5 hours of train from my house) to study Japanese. I cannot have a low grade only in the one subject that is suppose to be the one I should be concentration in. My problem is mostly the kanji and I also need to expand my vocabulary. It's not even that I can't pass it, it's just that the grade suck... Almost everyone told me to shot up and accept it and move on but I know I could do better, so I will give it another -the fourth- go this summer...

Also, since I hate myself I took supplementary class for a English certification. It's the highest level available in my university, so it's going to kill me. If Japanese doesn't do the job first...

abe_chan — Sat, 01 Jan 2011 00:07:04 GMT

doctor ratings

I hope that this year will be happier then ever! (or at least then the old one)

Hugs & Kisses to you all! :DDD

abe_chan — Sat, 25 Dec 2010 22:48:49 GMT

Merry Christmas!
or Buon Natale! per i compatrioti.

University student's live

abe_chan — Wed, 08 Dec 2010 18:06:17 GMT

Almost an year without posting? O_____o

Let's take care of that with some ranting about my university dorm!

This year too I have a room in the dorm (for the one that are not from Italy: we have a crappy university system; few economical help and very few student's room, almost all students stay in rooms that are in normal people's houses and they rent them for the amount you normally paid for an entire apartment).

So, I get lucky. Mostly. But this year I have to pay a shit load more money for the rent since apparently having attended a couple years in another university is a capital offence or something and you deserve a rise of your rent for that. Or something >____>

Point is: I paid a lot (A LOT) more then last year and the dorm is falling apart around me. Let me elaborate about that:
The room I am in have a huge crack all over one wall, the curtains are missing and the shower's door let most of the water out. Then there is the kitchen, or rather 'then there isn't the kitchen' because the room that the management label as kitchen is just a place with a couple of sinks, some cupboard for the stuff you brought from home and nothing else.

That's right: in the kitchen we have no meaning whatsoever to cook food.
SO I paid a shit load of money for a room with a giant crack on the wall and a kitchen where you can't cook food.

Just an head up if you want to come to study in Italy: expect everything no matter what the gentle lady assure you on the phone.
THE KITCHEN IS A LIE!

I am (not so much) ALIVE!

abe_chan — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 21:01:29 GMT

First thing first:

First semester exams: HALF SUCCESS

I have 4 exams this semester and in 2 of them I got great marks while I decided to retry one and accept a not so very good grade in another.
So the grade are: 30/30 Italian 30+/30 Literature 25/30 English and 'see you next semester' on Japanese

Now let me vent for the English one: I am good in English, and the part of the exam that was actual English got a full mark but the second part was about the I.P.A. and apart for been pretty irrelevant if you aren't a singer, I was suppose to write down the pronunciation of a written word without anyone here to read it. This means that I have to guess if the accent I usually use for that word is Queen's English or not and if it wasn't I was suppose to dream out what pronunciation I should have write down for the standard English. >E

Aside for the examination delirium: I am back! :D

I want to thank moko79 for remembering my birthday (even if I didn't answered, I felt special and very grateful for it) *mega hug*

I also want to say sorry to jjblue1 because I can't come to the convention this weekend for uni is on again with 5 new courses I really need Saturday and Sunday to began study and buy the book. I will miss your company! ;___;
If you know some other upcoming convention , please let me know in advantage so I can organized for not missing them.

<3

rage mood ON

abe_chan — Fri, 08 Jan 2010 10:59:22 GMT

So, I have some extra cash for christmas and decided to spend it in a Code Geass doujinshi.

I look it up on lj and makes the deal, package shipped form Japan and took off on the 28 of December.

Then I wait.
And wait.
And wait.
And fucking wait.
And nothing happen. >E

So I phone all over the various call center of the various postal service of my country and BLOOD FUCKING NOTHING.

The package is not even arrived in Italy for what they know.

I feel like they are playing with me: how the hell is possible for the package to be still on the journey? It was shipped with registered airmail for goodness shake!
You want me to believe that the plane is still somewhere in the world but not here?

Anyone have experience with international shipping? Maybe you can tell me that all this time is actually normal and I don't need to worry?

And Least: I WANT MY DOUJINSHI YOU STUPID ITALIAN POSTAL SYSTEM *CRY IN A CORNER*

ETA: the wonderful seller of the doujinshi offer to assist me in case I need to complain to the Japanese post office for the refund. She is sooo nice! If you are curious her sale LJ is akino_furusato

abe_chan — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 19:58:19 GMT

Happy New Year

*just got back home* *run off to party*

spazz mood ON

abe_chan — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 17:23:35 GMT

Sorry for be silent for so long, I have been busy with uni and comic convention -thanks for coming with me jjblue1 , moko79 !-.

During with period I experience various WTF moment both study related and not.

A couple of days ago, I encounter what must have been the word's laziest pigeon: it was at the end of a bridge -one of the many here in Venice- and he start walking on it to go to the other side. I though, ok it is going to fly off as soon as I start climbing the stairs, instead nothing! It just keep walking on the bridge until it was on the other side and then walk away.
I know that it shouldn't be a big deal but.. isn't pigeons supposed to fly? I see it bat his wings so it cannot has them broken! @___@

I notice that all my sparkly text go way; where are my sparkly sparkle? *rage*

My electronic dictionary finally arrived from Japan! *happy dance*
The lovely Italian post service intercepted it and put a huge fee on it, it was more then €100! *hate to you stupid state* D<

To end the lovely moment, I have spend the last dinner listening to a fellow uni's dorm's resident that end in a room with a psycho. Not a lovely-let's-make-fun-of-her psycho but a OMG-give me another-room-as-far-as-you-can psycho; she put post it on everything to remembering what they are for -I am talking of 'drink' note on water, here- she wash herself once every two weeks and always sit in the corner from where she look sideways at her roommate.
When I try to make a joke on how she -the sane one- should stay sharp when in the shower, she start crying.

So, my crazy life continue and in January I will have my exams, five of them. *tears*

HUUUGS

abe_chan — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 23:03:06 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY jjblue1

Late as usual but I was in the library and then stop to a friend to see Code Geass...

Sorry! *hides*

*Hands over cake and Subaru plushi*

Where the hell is my electricity? >(

abe_chan — Wed, 30 Sep 2009 23:06:56 GMT

When today I come back to the dorm, I knew that there were going to be some work to fix the sewer.

What I didn't know were that the men working on the sewer accidentally broke the cable for the electricity -don't ask me HOW 'cause I don't know either-and I spend the whole afternoon without computer, light and warm water.

HOW THE HELL I AM SUPPOSED TO SHOWER IF THERE ISN'T WARM WATER? FOR HEAVEN'S SHAKE THERE IS 40°c HERE, I SWEAT AND I NEED MY SHOWER!

O.k., sorry but I need to vent. Especially since the guy on the reception keep answering my question with:

"How should I know?"

IS NOT THAT YOUR JOB, YOU MORON?

Sorry, I stop screaming now.

And just for the record, the light come back 10 minute ago. Now excuse me but I have an appointment with my shower.